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So I've returned to Tumblr 😀😆😅😅.. about 2 almost 3 years later...

So I really need to vent and I'll do so here on tumblr. I really like this army guy named Richard. I've known of him and talked a bit with him over the past 2 yrs on and off. Now I know one of my fake friends has screwed with him. I feel like I shouldn't bother doing anything with him but the thing is, I'm really attracted to him, and I feel a connection. I've gone down South thanks to Baja club and the BAJA SAE competition, but I didn't realize he was from the South for quite some time, mostly in that I forgot about the fact I wanted to leave my "now 2 ex's ago" for him. I should have, the guy is very likable, sweet, and well... Awesome, as put. He says I'm a girl that he can definitely hang around, because I don't annoy him whatsoever, only thing is he's judging on the only time we've ever spent together. I noticed he looked at me a lot from the side as I kinda spaced out at the road and listened to whatever song he'd play on the stereo. I don't know what to do about this guy. Dad hasn't said much, but I know he'd like him. Richard is a good guy as far as I know right now. He's still young and stupid, a lot closer to my age, but I feel something with him. I've been drawn to all this Southern stuff for what? What am I really destined to do? Where will I be? I think Richard might be an answer, but I can't say that Chris didn't help me find the way through. Without his help and cheating on my most recent ex, I wouldn't be single right now.

Should have figured he was never gonna see beyond me being a friend of his. I really hate how attracted I am to him though. I can control myself around him, but I half can't control what I want to do to him and how badly I want to do him. Ugh, college has been both great and depressing for me. I managed to cheat on my first bf, have tons of crushes and now barely any (that aren't already taken) and now after screwing around with Chris since November, I just can't not stop myself from having some sort of association to him.

Made valentines

Made a valentine for Chris and some friends... Kinda regretting writing it, I even wrote that in there.

Lovely hopelessness

Ya'll probably don't care, I like to freely blab about my nonsense of a love life. My latest has been a senior that goes to college with me, and well works down in Baja. Worst part of this, I really do believe I'm in love with him. I've known him about 4 months now, as of like yesterday. I'm utterly falling for him, and I don't know if he's interested in even dating me right now because he's graduating soon... Help?

#lovestruck #lost #collegelife #freshman #SUNYIT #goddamn

When the only thing I really wanna do is roll around in bed with Chris. No, seriously, roll around in bed. Maybe some kissing and latching on, but no sex, just other physical contact.

ReCap 2014 college

Broke up with Ryan, fucked around with Chris, and well did nothing but drink sake and play with presents over break. My cousin moved in with us, I don't like her as much anymore, and I can't wait to move outta NY. I really really like Chris, and hope to go to Competition if he does. It's odd to think I trashed my relationship for him in a way, but I realized that Chris really knows me better and there's just something about him. Maybe it's the German in me that wants him haha. We get eachother in a lot of ways. It's nice.

I already know that if I let go of this guy that I really want, I'll have toiled away my life. He doesn't know I feel about him, and I hope that whatever is meant to happen, happens.

#college #confusion

Dear Ryan...

As bad as I want to feel about hurting you, I can't say I really feel all that bad. I repeatedly told you i fucked up, but you couldn't look at me when I tried to explain that I felt it didn't matter that I kissed another man drunk and didn't want to tell you about it. He's my friend so that made everything weird, regardless of my crush. I can't use that softener because it doesn't feel right sleeping in it. I'm not going to expect to be friends or ask favors of you. How I feel right now is pure hatred and I don't want to feel this way while I try to sleep. I did love you really early on, but you seemed to show interest in merely online things, and Expected a lot of things out of me, and that started to make me stop in my tracks and not tell you that I loved you. You started getting on my nerves, and I know you didn't mean to, but if hanging with you when I was single was more enjoyable than actually dating you, I guess it's just better I never see you again. I'm not gonna be in Anime club, so that's one less club to worry about. Sorry I couldn't make you happy sexually or intellectually, some people just never were meant to cross paths with me, and you're one of them.

#regret #RyanReitzel #breakup #apology #farewell

I'm kinda stuck in that moment again where I'm wishing I could smash two guys into one so I can have the best man altogether. I'm falling for the senior the more I hang out with him, but my bf is just as sweet and really means well, issue is he keeps fucking up and making me mad. He doesn't seem to pick up as quickly on what irritates me... And so the adventures of college continue!

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Sooo cuttte

So im not sure how I should feel now that I have a senior who likes me back and well I have a boyfriend. I need to stick to my boyfriend but there's the insistence of wanting to fool around just once with the senior. He's intensely funny and sweet to me, but I admit this is my first chubby bunny of a crush.

Had the best night Tuesday, came down to have some fun with my bf, ended up not leaving his room until 1pm the next day because we finally got hungry. It's just so fun to have a guy you can talk to about anything with, and he won't judge you. He accepts me for me. 😊

#collegelife #sex #sweetboyfriend

I feel so goofy and happy around my bf. I know dad really doesn't realize Ryan doesn't live in NYC. It's just annoying somewhat that he forgets that. But 😍Ryan is just soooo... 💖

I watched my bf beat Outlast in 4.8hours according to Steam. Impressive eh?

#Outlast #Record #gamer #boyfriend

When your bf gets you hooked on PC gaming. O.o just wow

Just one of many pranks Ryan and I will play on our roommates. Haha :D poor Kassandra and Jack

#sign #noparking #college #sunyit

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