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Naya & James
@james-cartwright-md
You look amazing in the spotlight. Right where you’re meant to be. I’m sure they’ll forgive you for missing the wedding to live your dream. What were the chances that after two years I would move back to LA and you’d be gone?
I didn’t think there was any chance at all that you’d move back to LA.
James & Sophie
@james-cartwright-md:
I’m back too. Can we have a we’re back 2 year catch up? I would love to see you.
I CAN’T BELIEVE IT! Am I really seeing the real thing?! I’m so glad that you’re back! You know that you would never have to ask. Just let me know when you’re available, and we can work it out with our schedules. Have you been well?
James & Thane
@james-cartwright-md:
That seems like a big change from the guy I talked to 2 years ago. How have you been Thane?
No, not a big change. It’s not a regular thing. I have gone out dancing before, I just haven’t done it since I was with my ex from a couple of years back. I still very much prefer sitting at home and reading, but my friend asked me to go out dancing and I couldn’t very well say no after I’ve told them I’m trying to get out and do things. I needed to keep my mind off of other things anyway. I’m glad to see you back, by the way. How have you been? Are you glad to be back in LA?
Andrew &Jameson
This year, you can step into the cockpit of the millennium falcon. I just.. seriously, its a dream of mine. I know I am a huge geek but I don’t care. I cant wait to see Marcie’s panel and I am looking forward to hearing about Superman and hopefully get a autograph from Seth Mcfarlane as he is rumoured to be there. There is so many other things but I don’t want to bore the pants off you.
Who are the top 5 most attractive people on the network? (Not necessarily aesthetically)
Probably... Zhenya-- he’s a real looker. River’s all kinds of delicious. Dylan’s a charmer, and Jameson’s just a sweetie-patootie. Ezra and his bike got me fannin’ myself, too.
@zhenyamarkovic@dr-river-morgan@devansrp@thejamesoncartwright@ezraxroman
Genaya & James
@james-cartwright-md
Is this a doctor joke?
Actually this time it wasn’t.
James & Connor
@james-cartwright-md:
We only exchanged names before I moved to San Diego. I also recently came back myself. Im not going to ask you to tell me your business. But I would like to get to know you. Im trying to reserve opinions for myself. Even if Genaya was heartbroken by your leaving I still owe you a thank you for taking care of her and making her happy and loving her. I was jealous about it. Then I was mad about her heartbreak. But I spent the last month being introspective and I dont know you or that relationship. Im sorry I even started to judge a stranger on how other people felt. Not to invalidate their feelings. But I dont believe people are intentionally malicious to people they love. I guess Ive now crossed a line of rambling. Im James. Micah and Calebs brother. Im sure you dont remember me. But welcome back to LA. Im sure many people are glad youre back and looking forward to catching up with you.
Well, I’ll start with the fact that I do remember you, and that this wasn’t the sort of conversation I would’ve expected coming from you, but can’t say I’m not relieved. Are you sure you want to get to know me? I’m a bit of an ass, well, I guess that’s not entirely true. I can be brutally honest, and it can be perceived as me being an ass. Your leaving wasn’t easy either, you know. In my opinion, jealousy does no good. I’ll answer whatever questions you have, if you really want to know. I don’t mind. I’m a bit of an open book. I will say, though, that I wasn’t the sort of guy to fall in love with anyone. Somewhere along the line that happened with her. A lot happened with her, with me, and with outside things that we couldn’t control. I don’t know many people who have gone through the level of things we’ve experienced together. Still, I can tell you my side of things, you’ll have to get her side from her if she wants to talk about it, if she hasn’t already. She knows the truth about why I left now, and why I did what I did. Hurting her was the hardest thing I’ve had to do, and that’s saying something seeing as I saved my friend from death and in turn put myself directly in the line of fire for him, very literally. Even that was easier to handle than what I did to her.
Like I said, whatever you want to know about me... aside from that, good to see you back, James.
James 3:17 || The Cartwrights || Mid-August 2018
Micah had sat in near-complete silence at the dinner table while every other doctor had poured over his little brother’s medical records. He didn’t feel like it was his place to impart an opinion of his brother’s cancer treatment when it wasn’t his specialty. Perhaps, more than that, Jameson was the person in his family he was closest to. In truth, he was still in denial about the whole ordeal. For months his frustration at work with ineffective recovery missions had left him quietly unsatisfied with his career. With Jameson away in San Diego, albeit un healthy, Micah had no reason to be concerned until he saw James in person. It was immediately obvious that something wasn’t right and the emotions he’d been avoiding dealing with from the last failed mission were now bubbling to the surface with these new concerns.
Jameson never saw Micah break down and he didn’t want to put any added stress on James during this trying time. From the moment James got back to Los Angeles and throughout the trip to Australia, Micah had put on a coat of armor. He took care of everyone in his family falling apart over James’ sickness. There was a hopelessness that came with being a doctor and knowing the diagnosis. Even as a treatable cancer, Micah could feel the inevitably of its reoccurrence on the whole family and, worse still, he could see everyone treating James differently and how much that bothered his little brother. The long running humdrum of Micah’s job since he decided to take a break from emergency medicine missions no longer bothered him, he found a sense of purpose again in going out to help, and could feel himself itching to go while James was in the hospital. Instead, he kept up the monotony and balanced it out with checking on his family members, letting them suck out every ounce of energy he had to even think about work.
How long had James been in the hospital before it broke him? He couldn’t be sure. With so many people in the house he decided to take an afternoon to himself, fishing seeming like a solid enough excuse when he had the equipment siting in the garage unused. As he sat in his dinghy, he let it float along with the flow of the water coming down from the mountains, never even casting a line. More than ever before, he needed and leaned on Alessandra, and he thought about how he’d sat with her, holding her hand tightly while he worried rather than going out of his way to worry her with concerns. Was it out of being polite? He couldn’t be sure, but now there was a guilt settling in that he may have left her worrying about him and his brother. The outing was short as a new determination found him. While he rowed back he looked around, drinking in Gods beauty around him. The life was mingled with death as a few trees already started to kiss summer goodbye and other long-fallen trees rotted at their feet. Micah gave the dinghy a few strong rows before putting the ores back in the boat. He slipped his hand into the water and prayed.
Micah wasn’t the type to partake in stream-of-consciousness prayer. He had always loved the structure and history of Catholic recitation. His thoughts were still on Alessandra and he thanked God for bringing her into the family, for her unyielding love and support, particularly in this difficult time. Like Micah, she had been supportive of James’ diagnosis and decision without codling or putting pressuring on him or other family members. The thought of that frustrating and heartbreaking discussion at the dinner table in Byron Bay moved his thoughts to his frustration with God. “I don’t understand why you chose him,” He paused in his prayer, his heart growing heavier as his knowledge of science turned to blame of what he couldn’t understand on his Father. He took a deep breath and finished the though, “but the wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, open to reason, full of mercy and good fruits, impartial and sincere.” He’d quoted James 3:17 and found peace in the Lord’s word without realizing it. “I trust you. I trust you.”
When he got home he’d talk to Aless about it all, the need to help people in crisis despite the failures and the struggles to maintain his faith through James’ illness. He hoped she’d understand and still support him. So much of their lives was connected through their faith and her belief that his career was what he was meant to be doing. Micah still wondered if, in his confusion of why James had cancer, he was internalizing other worries and putting a focus on himself. Nevertheless, talking through what he and his wife wanted in the near and distant future, even if those desires were still the same, was like checking the stones of a path home, making sure no one could trip and hurt themselves. At the end of the day and for the first time in a long time, there was a relief. With Alessandra, he surfaced and took off the armor and the weight he’d been carrying for his family and his career, and he was able to be honest with himself, to cry through the sadness, to feel both her and His reassurance that things would settle with time.
