Living the Unknown

Thane Watson || 31 || Actor || Bisexual || Single

[thane-watson]

Thia

@thegirlnamedgia:

Simply jealous of where it is you are currently, that’s what happening on my end. Is it as lovely as ever there?

You can always visit me at some point while I’m here. I’ll be here for quite a while. There’s always an opportunity to see the city over here. It’s always lovely here to me, I’m biased in my opinion, however. 

[thane-watson]

Mario & Thane

@mario-morgan-peretz: It’s winter storm season so wrap up warm and don’t go out if the winds are too high.

Don’t worry, I’m very familiar with the weather here. I came completely prepared. I missed colder weather. I missed actual seasons.

[greyson--matthew--sixx]

Oliver & Thane

[thane-watson]

oliverfoley-tsom‌:

Thanks, man! Banjo always appreciates a compliment and I certainly appreciate the welcome. New to the area? No, but new to The Network? Yes.

You’re welcome. Then in that case, welcome to the Network. I hope that you meet many friends while you’re here.

[thane-watson]

Bayoa & Thane

@princexfdenmark:

It must be nice to get back to work. I haven’t noticed anything yet but you know I’ll keep you updated.

It’s very nice to be busy again. You never realize how much you miss your work until you’re away from it so long you forget what it’s like. Glad that I haven’t missed anything yet.

[thane-watson]

Naya & Thane

@genaya-salazar:

I promise not to burn down your home while you’re gone.

I’m not worried about my home. I know it’s in good hands. Please let me know if anything stops working and I’ll make sure to get it taken care of immediately. I want to make sure the house is in perfect condition for you while you’re there.

[thane-watson]

marcie-pan‌:

It’s World Suicide Prevention Day, and my heart is both hurting and hopeful, heavy and light. September 18th I’ll be a part of the “Seize the Awkward” campaign on Twitch! Join me if you want to watch me stream the new Shadow of the Tomb Raider, and maybe even donate! All my viewer contributions will go directly to supporting mental health and suicide prevention, especially for teens and young adults. Don’t be afraid talk about it, to end the stigma, to reach out- whether it’s you suffering or someone you care about. 

Always championing a good cause, I see. I hope you’ve been well.

[greyson--matthew--sixx]

[thane-watson]

oliverfoley-tsom‌:

Hey good people of The Network. My hooman and I would like to bless you with his adorable face. I’d like to personally introduce myself. I am Banjo. I’m the fluffy adorable one. My man friend, Oliver is the not so fluffy one. He’s very kind and welcoming of new people so that’s enough from me. We love people and can’t wait to see you!

That’s a lovely dog, and welcome to the Network. Are you new to the area?

[thane-watson]

ayannahnolan‌:

Guess who booked a Target commercial? Now who is taking me dancing to celebrate? I even have my outfit picked out already! I’m ready to have some fun and get a little wild. Who is with me?

Well, I’m sorry to say that I’m too far to celebrate your good news, but I’m very happy for you. You’re going dancing? Is there anyone who can even keep up with you on that score?

[thane-watson]

Hello from England. It feels as though it’s been ages since I’ve said hello to everyone from another country, but here it is. I’ve been very glad to be back near home again, and things are gearing up for filming soon. How are things in Los Angeles? I know I’ve only been gone for a short while, but I know how things can change quickly in a short amount of time.

[thane-watson]

Break the Cycle || Headcanon || 9/14/18 - 9/16/18

The day had finally come. It seemed to speed up to an almost blinding pace the closer it came. There were still so many things Thane needed to resolve in Los Angeles now that Gia was back, but he didn’t have the time anymore. There was no point in worrying about it now. He was on his way out to London, and he knew it was coming. Things would have to be further resolved whenever he got home. He was fairly certain that those relationship things could be figured out then. For now he would just go to London, and regularly call back to Gia whenever he had time so that they could continue to keep in touch.

It seemed so strange having her back in his life. Thane packed up his luggage into the taxi that he had gotten to take him to the airport, and the entire time he thought about the last time he had travelled to London. He’d thought he had lost Gia forever, and he had been considering moving back to the city he loved, one that would take him far from his troubles in Los Angeles. He still felt as though London would be a better option for him than where he was now, but with Gia being back he couldn’t just up and leave. Not to mention, he had Genaya living at his home and needing him too. There was no point in uprooting everything just yet. He had time to plan, and there was no point in being hasty. Still, everything seemed like night and day on this trip. He was leaving feeling more relieved, and yet much more tied down to this city.

The taxi drove him to the airport and he sat in the backseat watching the familiar scenery flash past the window. Thane still felt conflicted, he still felt as though there were something not quite right with himself. He should be completely overjoyed at having what he wanted most back in his life, and although he was very happy about that, there was still a part of him stuck in this gloom. Thane had tried so hard to pull himself out of this rut, he tried to move past these emotions but they seemed to be permanently fixated in him. He relaxed back against the seat and closed his eyes as he tried to relax and not let the darkness overwhelm him again. He was going to London. London always seemed to make him feel better somehow. He would be able to think clearer while he was there, and he was hoping being back to work would make him feel more worthy. He needed something to make him feel as though his life weren’t completely pointless at this moment, and his work should keep him busy enough that he should start feeling as though he had a purpose again.

Once he got to the airport he pulled his bags out of the taxi, and carefully maneuvered them all towards the counter to check his bags in. Thane was always careful to travel during the least busy times that he could so that he wouldn’t be stopped too often for photos. After taking care of his luggage, he took his carry-on and went through security. Thane noticed the people pointing cameras in his direction, trying to get pictures of him, but he tried not to draw attention to the fact that he noticed. This always happened, it was his normal, and he’d learned that the more attention he payed to it, the more likely they were to keep going. Waiting at the terminal gave Thane more time to think again but he didn’t want to. He felt as though he’d done far too much thinking in these past few months and that was what caused him to be in the position he was in mentally. He’d been alone with his thoughts for far too long.

After he had checked into his hotel in London, things seemed to pick up again. He had his schedule for everything that would be going on for the next few days. He was going to be in a flurry of costume fittings, table readings, and getting things ready for filming. He had obligations for press and promo for Fantastic Beasts. Since the full promotional schedule hadn’t kicked into gear yet, he was only doing small things sporadically, but he knew that would change quickly. Somehow, he was relieved to be busy again. His life felt more normal when he was in the middle of a hectic schedule where he nearly had no time to sleep, and he had to find naps in his trailer, or something close to that. He enjoyed that sort of schedule. He thrived on being tremendously busy.

Things didn’t start to feel truly better until he found himself at the table reading. He was sat amongst his fellow cast members, and couldn’t stop the smile from spreading over his face. Everyone was excitedly talking to each other about various different things. Thane sat back and watched everyone getting to know each other better, if they hadn’t already known each other from projects before. For him, he’d already costarred with Felicity in The Theory of Everything. It had been a life changing role for him, and he had been lucky to have her alongside him in it. He would be lucky to have such a solid partner in this yet again. Thane glanced around at all of the faces that would be contributing to this, and then down at the script in front of him. Everyone was around with their various drinks, prepared for a long day of going over the script. It started to feel real again, he was actually going to be acting, and didn’t that make him start to feel the smallest bit alive again.

[thane-watson]

doctor-calebcartwright‌:

I feel as though doctors don’t have much time to be anything else. At least in my experience I find that, and while I enjoy renovating I believe I like being in the medical field just a little bit more. Saving lives is a bonus as well.

That’s very true, and from what I understand the entire Cartwright family is blessed with the gift of being a doctor, and being good at it. I can’t imagine what saving a life actually feels like, but I imagine it’s pretty incredible.

[thane-watson]

Ayannah & Thane

[thane-watson]

ayannahnolan‌:

Yeah, my parents always pushed us to go for gold, you know? I love the arts and without them the world would be a boring, unlearning place. That’s why I like talking to you though. I am sort of drawn to people that really grasp their art, and you just seem to have a deeper understanding and appreciation for it. A lot of owners aren’t at their businesses every day running things. They just make it all happen. Oh yeah? Why are you closer to one? I do! I get to see them Thanksgiving, Christmas, Easter and Fourth of July usually. Unless I am on tour, then I don’t.

That’s a good way to be, it allows kids the space to grow. I don’t know that I have a deeper understanding of them than other people, but I’d say that I have an unlimited appreciation for the arts. That’s true, about business owners, but I would want to be more hands on. I’m closer to one because the one I’m closest to, Thaddeus, has always tried to have a good relationship with me. He’s always tried to be understanding, and tried to include me in his life. Thorpe, my other brother, although he’s Thaddeus’ twin was the reason for a lot of grief in the family. He’s a bit of a trouble maker, a bit more selfish, doesn’t take into consideration what he’s doing to everyone else, and doesn’t care the trouble that he’s put Thaddeus through either. We don’t talk much, the two of us. It’s not uncivil, he’s my brother after all and I do love him, but we don’t go out of our way to have a better relationship either. He doesn’t understand my lifestyle, or my life choices and I think he resents what I have. That sounds like a good time. I bet that you enjoy the holidays with them. I miss Christmas at home. I should go back home more often for it, if I’m honest. What are some traditions your family has during those holidays? Your favorite traditions.

[thane-watson]

doctor-calebcartwright‌:

They just know they can always get away with being spoiled rotten.

I’ve been bitten by the renovations bug, nothing can stop me from wanting to see every single home of my friends revamped. Perhaps this is my true calling and I wasn’t meant to be a doctor after all.

Lucky them in having you.

I see that. I don’t know, if you’re quite good at renovations, perhaps it is an additional calling. I believe people can be talented in more than one thing, and if that’s the case then you’re a very lucky person. I would just be grateful for any talents that I have, and if being a doctor and being a renovator are those two things then just run with it.

[thane-watson]

thegirlnamedgia‌:

For me it means you are still the person I want by my side through everything. That didn’t ever change, I assure you.

What can I do? For you, I mean. I don’t want to overstep or make you feel as though you’ve been backed into a corner, but I want to help. We can work through this, I know that, but I want to do what I can for you.

Are you sure? I don’t want you to feel like you have to say that for my sake, but if it’s true... I can’t even tell you how that makes me feel right now.

You’re not making me feel as though I’m backed into a corner. Having you back here in Los Angeles, and saying that you still want me by your side, that’s the best thing I’ve heard in months. I just don’t know if I’m in a place that you deserve. You’ve gone through so much, I can’t ask you to add me on that pile when I don’t even know how to fix myself right now.

[thane-watson]

zephyr-dresden‌:

But you’re my friend, you know? You understood a lot of things that others didn’t get when it came to my problems with being in the public eye, so I want to be able to understand things for you. I mean, I don’t want to force you to talk about it, but just as long as you don’t think it’s “baggage” to me because it’s not.

When do you leave?

Of course, I know. I understand how difficult it can be living a life in the public eye. It’s a tough life to live, and a very tough one to find balance. 

Then fine. I’ve been terribly depressed, I suppose. I can’t find anything to be happy about in life, although I’ve quite lucky in everything that I have. It has all felt quite empty. In addition to that, I’ve been feeling my friendships aren’t what they used to be. This might be more a figment of my own imagination, but I felt that they were almost stronger before I was home for an extended period of time, and they usually kept me together when I felt life get a bit shaky. I’m not too sure why exactly this is, but it’s how I feel. I can’t seem to get things straight in my head, and I don’t want to complain about my life to others when there are other people going through much more difficult things. I just feel rather worthless, I suppose. Then I keep seeing everyone else have the things that I’ve wanted for years. I have my career, yes, but I want a family, I want one person who is by my side who I can love and who loves me despite all of my faults. I want children, I want to have a reason to share everything I have. Every time I get close to something it seems to slip away, but this last time felt like the end of all of those hopes for me. Here comes partly why I’m confused now, with Gia returning to Los Angles, came back my hopes that maybe I can still have a family. Except, I’m not completely sure that’s what she’s wanting. We haven’t settled everything, but now I don’t know if I should drag her into a relationship with me in the state I’m in.

Friday, September 14th.

[james-cartwright-md]

Thane & James

[thane-watson]

james-cartwright-md‌:

Warn me when it happens so that I can take the weekend out of LA. I dont want to get caught in the ensuing protests. We’re heading to Obereider Dog Park because thats by my house and Im not driving yet. Uber is getting to know me very well. How long will you be in the UK? Maybe Ill bug you if Im not too far away while I visit my parents. Are you nervous about the promotions for the new Fantastic Beast film?

Protests? You think that me cutting my hair will cause that much? You’re probably right, but hopefully it’ll only be relegated to media and social media as well. I would offer to come and get you and your dog but I drive a Jag and it’s a small one at that. There isn’t enough room for the three of us in that car. I suppose I should get a more useful car, but it’s only really been me so I’ve never had a need. I’ll be in and out of the UK but I should at least be there for a solid three months once filming gets underway. If you’re there visiting, you can feel free to let me know and I can meet you somewhere if you’re wanting to go out. I’m always a little nervous about promo tours. Mainly because I’ll be getting asked a million questions, and I’ll have to talk more than normal, plus all of the attention.

[thane-watson]

Nearly Time Again || Headcanon || Sept. 9, 2018

Thane had spend enough time dragging his feet before it was time to start getting things prepared for his trip. He went in search of all his luggage and pulled it out of storage, dragging all of the bags to his room and laying them out open on his bedroom floor. He’d established a system in the years he’d been traveling for his work, and it worked for him, without making things painful or stressful. He’d spent the last week slowly doing laundry, and getting other things dry cleaned so that when it came time to pack his bags full of clothes to last him for his trip, he would be ready. His clothes were always the first things to be packed, it was easier that way. Knowing how long he would be gone, and the time of year he would be going on, most of the clothes he was going to pack would be things he didn’t need to utilize now.

Beginning with his pants, he went through his wardrobe and pulled out jeans, and various other pants and put them all into one of the open suitcases. He went through the same procedure with all of his clothes. As one suitcase got full, he would close it, and line it up against an empty wall. It wasn’t long before all of the clothes that he had cleaned and that were ready were packed. In the coming week, more things would be prepared for packing. Thane packed up the shoes that he knew he would need to take with him, and once those things were packed he made a quick list of all the supplies he needed to buy. Thane almost never took the bathroom supplies that were already being used in his house with him. He tended to buy new things for the trip so that they would last him for the length of a trip. He knew there was always a chance of having to shower multiple times in a day, and a lot of times it could lead to using a lot more of his products than was usual.

Buying his supplies would come over the next couple, or few days. He would pick things up as he settled everything at home that needed to be taken care of. He would need to notify the post office to hold on to his mail as it piled up. He had to make sure all things pertaining to bills, and the like were handled. Thane knew that Genaya would be staying in his home, and didn’t want her to have to deal with anything concerning his house. At this point, his list of things to take care of had grown long, and he was happy with everything on it. Checking things off in the coming days would make the realization that he was leaving much stronger, but even now it was beginning to hit him. He would be leaving on Friday, and it seemed as though the day had been far off until now. 

It felt like there was still so much left to take care of where his personal life was concerned. Thane was happy to be leaving Los Angeles, and had truthfully been wanting to get out of the city for some time, but now he wasn’t as sure. His reasons for leaving were to get away from the reminders of what he didn’t have. Now he was staring at a city that held the woman he still cared about, but he was no closer to solving the problems he had there than he had been before she’d returned. Thane didn’t like the idea of leaving Los Angeles without having things resolved. It would likely make things extremely uncomfortable during his absence. He didn’t have a choice, he couldn’t push Gia to get things settled in one way or another. She would have to go at her own pace, and he would have to be okay with that, but it didn’t make his unease over the potential of leaving things unsettled any better.