#sad beginning

[crystal--lungs]

We have our own end

Rubber Soul AU

[mrslankyman]

Save Your Tears

Pairing: Mike Schmidt x (fem) reader

1k words

I don't know why I run away

I'll make you cry when I run away

Today was some random party my friend was having. I’ve never cared for parties past High School but Vanessa had offered to watch Abby. They always got along. Something I’m grateful for.

Little did I know tonight I was going to be reliving some feelings I’d rather forget.

As I walked into the house everyone was dressed up and dancing.

I had decided to just wear my dress shirt and tie. My black jeans and the best belt I own. I looked around and tried to smile. Mentally remembering that I wasn’t the cool kid I used to be. Or pretended to be.

The night was fine. I chatted with old friends. But something felt off. I turned around.

I saw you dancing in the crowded room. The girl whose heart I broke. You looked so happy when I’m not with you. Smiling and laughing with your friends.

You turned and looked at me. Your eyes widening in surprise till they slowly dipped down. My eyes were already off you. Trying to act as if I wasn’t there. A tear fell from your eye.

My heart ached as I looked anywhere but you. I turned away. Running away from those feelings. I quickly walked off to the kitchen.

I would do this all the time. Run off and think it would solve something.

I noticed as you walked into the kitchen. Going to grab a drink. I was standing by the table. You came walking out with the soda in hand. Walking right past me like I wasn’t there. Pretending like you didn’t care.

I knew better. I saw the tear stain on your cheek.

I looked down. Trying to remember our relationship. I made you think that I would always stay. Despite my issues. We got into a fight and I had said something I should never have said.

I broke your heart like how mine was. Jealous at how easily you could love and forgive. I couldn’t do that.. despite loving you I had to ruin it.

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“Mike! What is your deal? Why can’t we just talk. You never want to talk.” Your voice was thick with sadness. I was doing it again. Freaking out over my life. My brother, taking care of my sister and my job. You were added stress.

“I don’t wanna talk! We can talk later!” I had never yelled at you. I didn’t like raising my voice. So this shook you to your core. Staring at me.

“Nothing is going to solve itself unless you talk. I need you to talk to me Mike. I want us to work. I want this to work.” Your tears stained your cheek. Thankfully Abby was at school. She didn’t need to hear what was going to be spoken.

Your words and budging of me trying to open up was too much. I regret saying what I said. It was the most awful thing I could have spoken to someone who had given me so much love and more.

“Maybe I don’t want us to work! Maybe I don’t want this. You’re always pushing me to open up! Well.. I don’t want to! I don’t need you, Aunt Jane, or anyone. Everyone leaves me anyways! Garret left, my mom left and my dad! Only a matter of time till you leave. So I’ll do it for you, we’re done.” My voice was seething. You stared at me those eyes wide and tears pouring out.

I watched as you left. You had packed your things and were gone. 2 years down the drain. You couldn’t help me if I wasn’t willing to be helped.

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I knew you wouldn’t love me for a second time.

You’d always beg me to talk. Try to solve the issues you knew wouldn’t be solved. I wasn’t fixable. I’d run off from the problems. Leaving you crying.

I walked off from the kitchen and spotted you with your friends again. Your eyes caught mine. We stared at each other. The music blaring, people talking, bodies moving but we stayed in place.

I tried to walk through the crowd. Making my way to you. I ignored your friends snickers and jabs. Something you told me to do all those years ago. Don’t let people get to me.

I’d taken a lot of your advice. Your eyes watched me unsure. “Let’s talk.” Was all I said as I walked out. Assuming you’d follow. Which you did.

We slid outside to the back porch. The inside music noises dying away as the door closed.

A silence fell over us. We didn’t speak for a moment. I looked over at you, tears falling from your face. It had been 3 years since we dated. And yet you still cried for me.

That guilty feeling came back. The one I got when I laid in bed and thought of all the things I did wrong in life.

You were one thing I messed up terribly.

“Why did you break my heart?” You asked quietly.

“Why didn’t you tell me you fell apart?” I countered and looked at her. She looked up at me her eyes red and puffy.

“I-..” you sniffled your tears getting in the way. You couldn’t help but sob.

“I didn’t mean to say those things.” I put my hand on your shoulder, you looked up and caught my eyes. “I wanted to stay. I was dumb to walk off. Losing the one good thing I had in my life. I’ve learned a lot. Take me back.. I wanna stay this time.” My voice was soft. I wanted to sound serious. Show you I wanted this to work.

I had missed you too long. Seeing you in town. Out and about. I had hid. Not wanting you to see me. How low my life had been since I left you.

Now I didn’t care. I wanted you. I wanted you back so bad. So as your tears slid down your face and you thought on my offer. My head spun. Was this a mistake? You surely deserved someone better than me. But I wanted you back.

“Save your tears.” I spoke quietly and wiped them off your cheek. A small blush covered your cheeks. “You can cry another day. I made you do that enough before.” With that you kissed me. Your lips soft. I had miss this feeling. You tears subsided

You can save your tears for another day.

[qelshapie]

28/09/2016, post ended 4:56 AM So I just cried my eyes out imaging a story. (So I try to write sometimes...a while ago). 😅 Alfred leaves his homophobic mother and gets his own place. His not-good-freaky finds him and manhandles him back. His mother sends him to a straight camp and he tries to down a bottle of sleeping pills. Matthew/James finds him after he and the police find and break into the place and they pump his stomach. Alfred later wakes up in the hospital with Matthew/James at his side. He's convinced he's dreaming (...again...) but he remembers taking the pills and he's happy he can see Matthew/James for one last time...even if it's in his head. Naturally Matthew/James is horrified and angry. As a punching bag and canvas can attest to. After god-knows how many therapy sessions with Alfred believing he's living his ideal life in his head, Alfred's therapist gets the idea to make him do a controlled bungee jump saying that the falling sensation would wake him up if he was in a dream. Alfred agrees. And falls. And feels so terrified he has an almost heart attack. But he realises he's not dreaming. He finds Matthew/James and they're both so happy, they kiss passionately and hug and cuddle. And live as happy as two people in love possibly can. Like, tearjerker. But happy-middle-ending tearjerker. (Let it be known, I hate sad stories and happy ones are my drugs.)

[strangerthingshavehapened]

Verse1: He'll wake up to the sound of rain His head resting on his pillow He'll look over and see streaks of gray Wash over his window He'll stand in the warmth of his shower His mind resting on what's uncertain He looks up and sees the streaks of gray Run down his curtain He gets in his car Unsure of how he feels He looks out and see the streaks of gray Blurring his windshield Chorus1: Now he's in the rain All alone Wondering why She never showed He'll see her And she'll say, "I'm sorry about The other day" He'll say, "no worries. It's fine. Maybe some other time" Verse2: He starts walking lost in thought Water splashing under his feet He looks over and sees the streaks of gray Flowing over the city's streets He stops at the corner of the street Unable to say anything at all He looks over and sees the streaks of gray Dripping from her red parasol Standing outside the coffee shop And that's where they'll meet She looks up and sees the streaks of gray Streaming down his cheeks Chorus2: Now she's in the rain And now she knows The pain that which His eyes still shows She'll see him And she'll say, "I'm sorry it Happened this way" He'll say, "No worries. I'm fine. It was bound to happen Some time" Bridge: He stands on the street corner And a thin layer of gray looms over him As the cool autumn rain continues to fall And his heart pounds in his chest Chorus3: Now they're both in the rain And they're standing together Underneath a red umbrella Despite the still gray weather She'll see him And he'll say, "I'm really sorry I feel this way" She'll say, "No worries. We'll be fine. I have your heart And you have mine"

"Rain Check" - D.W.