#sad entry

[diary-nights]

dear diary,

20 years old and my dad doesn’t even know i don’t like chow mein. yes that finally broke me today. no money. no vape. and something i don’t like for dinner. not to be dramatic but jesus christ. today was so boring and depressing.

[awkwardjwrites]

Ode to Her…

Sometimes it looks like I have everything I want, but I don’t. Not at all, almost close to never. And it’s crazy because, you do. You 👀, our issue is we both 😍 the same man. The only difference is, that man 😍 you back. He would climb mountains and walk through 🔥 for you all the while you lay on his back; and that I don’t have. Nah nah, I don’t got it like that. He treats you like a 👑, in your eyes he sees things. Unlike in mine he sees, me. Just plain me, with my wild hair and my pretty teeth. He sees attraction and satisfaction and friendship things. Not really as someone to “settle and be 👑”. So kudos to you, may you be happy. Happier than me.

[awkwardjwrites]

I miss you,

I want you,

I hope that I haunt you. 🖤🥀

In slumber,

And classrooms,

Having wet dream of this peached 🌙. 🍑🌙

In hallways,

And ⛪ pews.

I 🙏 that I haunt you.

Our signals were in tune.

You hurt me, so fuck you.

I wanted to 😍 you.

[diary-nights]

dear diary,

it’s so bad i cant even say what i really think. but i’m tired of thinking about it that’s for sure. i hope i get over it. i always do

[idontknowyetillchangeitlater]

october 21st 2024

hello, i feel like i dont really write on here unless i have some feels. lmao. im starting to think that i am a second choice to my friends and i wish it wasn't bothering me as much as it is. like its annoying. and now i'm starting to think of my previous relationships and its the same shit. always lowkey the second choice. just gonna start ignore everyone and idk

honestly yesterday i was feeling kinda bad because of life and idk just felt like kms right ? but i'm thinking if i were to do that i would be missing out on a lot of new music, new anime, or rewatching old animes (favorites) , can't pet my cats if im dead. can't read my fanfics if im dead. there's a lot of things i look forward to doing but idk the feeling is still there lmaooooooo ( just to lighten the blow with a 'lmao' ) OH can't go to concerts if im dead. can't draw if im dead. so yeah. guess that is it

[diary-nights]

dear diary,

i haven’t taken my meds in a few days cause i miss my alone time but it’s caught up to me now. tonight i feel not very great tbh. maybe cause i’m almost out of weed for the first time in 2 weeks. maybe because it’s been almost 3 months since that day, the pressure to return to normal feels heavy. the warmer weather makes me feel almost ready to go back to living my life. but it’s still winter in my head.

[diary-nights]

dear diary,

it’s snowing and i just feel like crying all day. just crying and laying down

[diary-nights]

dear diary,

i miss my mom. im lucky to see her everyday, but when she gets home at like 5 she’s in bed by 6. i get it. work. but i miss her. we used to spend more time together. nothing has felt normal since jacks death.