#sad froggy

[keroppipond]

i dont think i can sleep. its hard cus i don have my sleep medicines and im really nervous cus i had two bad dreams last night

m tired but im all scaredn sad. i gotta calm down first

i might play horses or animal crossin n listen to somethin fun since im too tired to do lots of things... gonna close discord so it cnt make me sadder or anxiouser

bein alone is ok. bein alone is good. sometimes s what needed. specially when regressing

ill get sleepy. itll be ok

[keroppipond]

today wasnt bad. but i had a dream i regressed n it made me a lil sad cus i dont get to much anymore

its not the same without a caretaker... but im gonna try anyways... its a little embarrassing

i did some coloring and listened to silly music. it made me happy but then i was sad cus i had nobody who i could show it to. i tried to show friends but they cant be around all the time

i gotta be the person who loves and cares for me,. i gotta be the big sibling and i gotta suport mysefl. but thats hard. i want someone. its lonely

its not fair

[keroppipond]

in lots of pain and its hard... im so sleepy but im hurting a lot and i already did everything i can to make the hurty stop...

just gotta calm down and fall asleep even though i hurty :(

[keroppipond]

ok, im gonna be good n take medicine an then im gonna either play games or maybe watch bluey ... i dont wann take medicine but i should cus i need it

i wish i lived alone cus im not happy with the people i live with but its ok i have my room

[keroppipond]

goin to bed feels scary but it wont be scary once i try and im real brave. itll be ok

[keroppipond]

havin a caregiver n someone to suport for years n then being all alone and having to figure out how to be little and happy with nobody to lean on is hard

i want friend who i can lean on but they think its yucky a lot and it makes me feel guilty for asking.

i have a friend wh o undrstand but it is having a hard time so i dont wann make it feel bad i just am scared. i will be ok i gotta be strong and say ill be ok

i wish i had my comfort blankie. i dont got it anymore cus i gave it to ex and im never gonna get it back

[keroppipond]

dont feel good and feel really lonely. wish had someone to talk to easy but i dot wanna gross someone out cus being small is weird to lots of people. its so scary. i dont wanna be small. i wanna be big and i wanna be normal.

im trying to be strong and be big all te time because being small is means being vulnerble and is scary and i dont wnna be alone i want to have someoe i want someone

[keroppipond]

[from september 11th 2024]

my best friend isnt around today, n its a little lonely. im tryin to find something to do alone but none of it feels as good

listening to my favorite music n stimming. and i tried doing some art but it didnt feel right. its hard cus seasonal depression nd it gets late earlier

today was good but itwas a therap day which is alway tiring and i wish i had more friends who regressed or got it...

for now i reblgo things and save drafts for othe r alters. mean person said before we didnt have DID but thy dont know us.