2020/04/14
... Almost 3 months have passed. I have no idea what am I doing. My life is a mess and I thought... wouldn’t it actually help to start reorganizing my life, make some order in my thoughts and ... i don’t know. I tried to kill myself once more. As you can see,I failed once again. That time it was Kai who stopped me... what a funny thing - we aren’t even friends. I broke up with Yuto. Finally? I don’t know. He is probably doing well, i still hate him for not even caring slightly, but he deserves the happiness. I lost a lot of friends but i actually... maybe found some new ones?? I thought and maybe still think that my life is meaningless. I have no dreams, wishes, hobbies... whatever. Maybe it’s time to change it. I got another chance to breathe, live... should i use it?