What did i Do?
Whatever you think I tried to do to you. You are WRONG! Yes i admit it. I went overboard..i went mad..i needed to talk to you..i couldn't let things be like that..And by doing certain things I Hurt you. I am Sorry! Everything Started with you Cutting yourself , I'm not saying it's your fault..it's my fault..but..i needed to stop you..and i made bad decisions! Yes.. I went mad..I went suicidal and I hurt you in the process..but All i wanted was to talk to you..because that is why i went crazy..because you left my life..and i felt dead..all the cells in my god damned body were slowly aging making the sound of death so damn good. I tried to be alive again! I swear to god..i did not want your Harm. Not Directly. I SWEAR. If I would have Wanted for harm to be done . I Could and we Both Know that. And the Worst thing what I could have Done...is..Killing Myself. But Did i Do that? You were the only thing that stopped Me from doing it. Because you Made me want to be alive! I don't know what other people are telling you. I swear..I DID NOT. Mean Any Harm to you. All I did was not so that you'd suffer! All i Did was so you'd change your mind and talk with me..because before that Thursday Everything Was PERFECT! and it wasn't my fault it got fucked up! If it would have been my fault..I would have accepted my punishment. I accept my punishment now. Right Now. I am a Man. I did Wrong. I screwed UP. Not you. But ME. I DID the wrong stuff. I SAID the wrong stuff. But I am the ONE who will make it be OK. Because I Do Not Want Your Harm. I NEVER WANTED THAT! Silly..I'm going to say something to you. I Love you. And I did not try to Hurt you. Hurting you deliberately was not my plan! And it will never be! Yes I may have shouted that i wanted your attention..But All i wanted was your voice..Just to hear it..Yes. I was Selfish.. I did not Think Of How Much it would hurt you. But so many shit happened..That sometimes i believe you just..stopped caring. So please..What Did i DO? Tell ME? I Want to Know. I NEED To KNOW! IF it is something that Will Make me Stop it with you. You Have My words. I will not Bother YOU EVER! THIS TIME. For every time i was mad on you for not telling me the full story. SAY IT NOW. AND I WILL STOP IF I WILL ACKNOWLEDGE THAT YES. I DID THOSE THINGS! IF I WANTED THAT! I WILL LET YOU BE!