Samhain 2k18 - King of Nothing - Violence, Disturbing Imagery, Faerie Horror
A/N: Tomione + The Cruel Prince AU
As far back as I can remember, I was always told that I was an unnatural child. Head in the clouds, nose in my books, thoughts contradictory, friend of no one.
What they didn’t know, and what I didn’t tell them, was that I did have friends. Many of them. At least, that’s what I always pretended, because lying to myself was easier than the lonely truth.
When I was a child, I used to see things. The things I saw were never solid, always brief, always blurred, but still there.
I don’t remember when it all started, but I do remember that I mostly saw them in the tree line in my backyard. Shadows shifting between trees. Leaves rustling when there was no wind. Songs sounding just for me when there were no birds in sight.
I would leave things out for them as gifts. Treats and little trinkets; things I thought they might like, might use. I soon discovered that they liked strawberries and cheerios, but disliked orange marmalade and any kind of meat. They liked shiny things, but only certain shiny things. They liked pretty things, strange things.
In return, they would leave me presents, too. I had no idea what they were used for, but I loved them. I hung up their gifts made of wood and flowers and antlers and moss in my window, so they were sure to see them.
I remember talking to them, but not with them. I would ask questions, and only get their faint songs in reply. That didn’t last long, though.
Because one day, there was a boy.
I’m not sure if I would call him a boy, though. My memory of him is a bit fuzzy, but I thought he was a queer, little thing. With his dark, wavy hair and his inky eyes and his weird clothing and his crown of thorns and his tail.
Yes. That’s right. I said tail. If it weren’t for that uncommon feature, I would have simply thought he was a child from another neighborhood who’d gotten lost and was wearing a costume. It was getting closer to Halloween at the time, after all. While I cannot remember his face clearly, I can remember our interaction as if it were yesterday.
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I am lying on my stomach in the freshly mown grass, open books strewn about me, when a boy appears out of nowhere and everywhere.
“I command you to stop bothering the subjects of my court with your nonsense,” he snaps at me.
No introductions. No kind words. No hello, how are you’s.
Normally, I would have been afraid if one of the children from my school was standing over me, glaring at me hatefully, like the way he is. But I stare at his twitching tail and listen to his mature words and strange accent, and only feel curiosity.
“Your court?” I echo.
He looks disgusted that I even had the gall to address him.
“Yes. My court. And you would do well to remember that, mortal.”
“You’re too little to be a king,” I observe critically. He looks not much older than me, and I just turned twelve a month and a half ago.
He doesn’t seem to like what I said much, because his face flushes red with indignant rage.
The boy stomps his foot and declares, “I will be king, one day! I will be your king, and you will obey me!”
I scoff. “You’re not my king. Queen Elizabeth II is the ruler of England. Not you.”
He kicks up a clump of grass, and dirt flies all over my books. Some of it lands in my mouth. I spit it out.
“How does it taste?” he asks me, kicking my books away and crouching down to my level. “Does it taste good, mortal?”
His cruel smirk enrages me more than anything, but I hang onto his last word, distracted.
“Why do you keep calling me that?”
The boy’s smile drops. He stares at me closely. “Because that is what you are, Daughter of Dust. You will die, one day. You are rotting down to your very bones, right this second, and you are so stupid, because you go through your life being so happy, so oblivious of your fate, so –”
“I’m well aware of what it means to be mortal, thank you very much,” I interrupt him. “I asked why you keep calling me that, not for a definition. Judging from what you’ve told me, you must be immortal – somehow. And, honestly, if being immortal means being as miserable as you are, I would gladly choose being mortal and happy any day of the week.”
His eyes widen, then narrow dangerously. Now, I feel nervous. His sudden calmness is scarier than his anger.
“I could have you eat the pages out of your book, you know. I could speak the words to make you tear the sheets out, one by one, and do so with a smile on your face as you chew the paper. I could make you strip down to your underclothes and dance in the streets,” he told me, a cold smile widening his face the more he spoke.
I glare at him. “No, you can’t. That’s impossible. You can’t make someone do something just by telling them to. People have freewill, you know.”
He smiles wider, and I think to myself that it doesn’t sit quite right on his face.
“Bow down to me,” he orders.
It feels like his words twist around my body, around my wrists and knees, around my neck like a leash and pulls me down. My knees are grass-stained, but I don’t care. Why would I care? I want to bow down to him. And why wouldn’t I? He is my king, after all!
I lower myself with a stupid grin on my face, happy to please my king. It is strange, though, because I am also furious about bowing to him. I don’t want to, and I want to. I feel like a puppet on a tight string, out of control. I hate it, don’t I? I can’t remember why I would hate it.
“Now, lick the mud off my shoes,” he commands. I can hear the glee in his voice, and it makes me happy that I am making him so happy.
No! I scream in my head, because I cannot say it out loud.
My body lowers down, down, down, the grass tickling my chin, my neck. I giggle.
Yes, I think. My King’s shoes are dirty. He needs me to clean them. It is an honor, a privilege, a -
“Hermione, dear! Supper is ready!” my mother calls from the house.
Just like that, the strings are broken.
Just like that, my fury breaks free.
I jump up quickly and shove him to the ground. His eyes go wide with surprise as I stand over him, my pulse pounding underneath my hot skin. I want to hurt him, to seek revenge on him for controlling me like that. But my mother is just inside the house, and I don’t want to get in trouble.
“You are going to be a horrible king, a wicked king. None of your subjects will respect you. None of them will love you,” I say harshly, spitting malice. His face turns into a horrible scowl, and I realize something. “That’s why they come to me all the time, isn’t it? Because they adore me and not you, and it makes you jealous. Doesn’t it?”
The boy says nothing from his spot on the grass, but the clench of his jaw and the irritated twitch of his tail tells me all I need to know.
“Go home, King of Nothing. And never come back,” I tell him.
He’s shaking in fury when he stands again. Part of me is scared, but I do not show it. I am too angry to be fully scared.
“I will come back for you, one day, and prove to you that I am not a King of Nothing. I will make them love me more. I will prove to you, and to them, that I am the greatest king that Faerie has ever seen, and then you will regret your words,” he threatens, his face twisting with contempt.
“I’ll only be sorry if I ever have to see your face again,” I bite back hatefully.
I watch his jaw clench again and his nostrils flare. Then he seems to realize something, and a self-assured smirk twists his features.
“Until next time, Hermione, Daughter of Dust,” he warns, then a flurry of green moths the size of dinner plates storm around him, and he is gone.
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I never saw him again after that, and I often wondered if I ever would. As the years went by, I told myself that I dreamed him up. A figment of my overactive imagination.
It didn’t stop me from finding out all I could out of our single interaction, though. I checked out every book I could about faeries from the library, and even bought a few books and supplies from a questionable new age shop that everyone else always passed by.
And as I read, I learned a lot. And as I learned a lot, I realized a lot of what I’d learned was complete rubbish.
My obsession with the fae and with witchcraft had overtaken my life. It eased a bit over time, but it never stopped me from carrying an iron dagger around with me everywhere I went. It never stopped me from wearing my socks inside out. It never stopped me from wearing a string of rowan berries around my neck, hidden underneath my shirt. It never stopped me from shoving extra salt packets from the diner into my pockets.
I’d learned that faeries are susceptible to iron – it scalds them, like fire. Wearing clothing inside out protects humans from glamours, which are like optical illusions. Wearing a string of rowan berries protects humans from ensorcellment. And tasting salt is the only thing that cures the dangerous side-effects of their food.
I hate ensorcellment the most. All a faerie must do is put their will into their words and you are under their control. You cannot resist it. You cannot fight it. You are happy to do their bidding, even if it hurts you. Even if you lick the mud off their shoes.
I hate it. I hate it so much that even though I question their existence (and my sanity), I still go through these precautions every…single…day.
Because, you know, just in case.
It’s paranoia – plain and simple. He isn’t really watching me. He isn’t even real. I dreamed him up, once upon a time.
But it doesn’t explain the blurred shadows, the shaking branches overhead, the songs always sung just for me. This irrational fear.
The whispering of my name.
Hermione.
Hermione.
Hermione.
Something is going to happen soon. I can sense it, and it terrifies me. It terrifies me to the point where I am making myself mad, making myself ill.
I feel like Alice. I’m falling down the rabbit hole; falling into a world which is upside down and backwards; falling into somewhere I never belonged, somewhere I do not want to go.
But gravity does not care at all what I want, does it?
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People watching is a pastime of mine. Harry tells me that I need to stop being so obvious about it, because it looks a bit weird when I get really into it. But I can’t help it. They’re all so fascinating.
Who are they? Where are they going? Where did they come from? What are their thoughts? Dreams? Fears? Are they in love?
Sometimes, I like to pretend I know everything about them.
Harry and Seamus are talking about some Halloween party coming up. Maybe. I don’t really know, because I don’t really care. I’m too busy warming my hands on my paper cup of hot chocolate, while pretending that the man I’m currently watching went to business school when he was younger. I imagine that he was top of his class. Very bright. Very honest.
Too honest.
Which is why he’s leaning against his torn backpack, holding up a sign, asking for change. I imagine his name is Christopher. He prefers jams to jellies, is an animal lover, and enjoys nature walks. I imagine that someone controlled him, took advantage of him, that is how he ended up like this. It’ll never happen to me. I refuse to let it happen to me. I won’t –
“Oi, Hermione? Did you hear me?”
I turn to Harry and blink in confusion. He should already know the answer, so I’m not sure why he asked me in the first place.
“Mm?” I hum, taking a sip of my drink to distract myself from my manic thoughts.
“What are your plans for Halloween?” he repeats.
He should already know the answer to this question, too. But I still answer him. “My parents and I are going to the movies.”
“Ooo, seeing anything scary?” Seamus asks.
My nose crinkles. “Of course not.”
“It’s too bad you can’t come to Viktor’s Halloween party tonight, ‘Mione. It’s gonna to be so lit. He booked a local band, and even a catering service. Are you sure you can’t get out of going to the movies with your parents?” Harry asks me, hope written across his face.
I shake my head and laugh. “I already promised them. Guess I’ll have to miss out on Viktor’s ‘lit’ party, Harry. Sorry.”
Harry grins at me good-naturedly. I don’t even feel guilty about lying to him about it.
I wonder if maybe I should.
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We stay out all day, walking around downtown until the sun sets. I’m having more fun being with my friends than I’ve had in a long time, my anxiety pushed off to the side. Maybe it’s because of the mischief in the air on Halloween night. Maybe it’s because of the four bottles of hard apple cider in my system. I have no idea, but Harry reminds me of my lie, and I almost trip and get caught in it.
Our goodbyes are said, full of drink and laughter. Seamus hollers words at me from across the street, but none of them make any sense. I laugh and mime whatever language he spoke to me right back at him. Harry doubles over in raucous laughter; they’re both beyond gone at this point. Part of me wonders how long they’ll last at Viktor’s party, but I’m sure they’ll find a way – they always do.
My fingers are bloody well freezing by the time I get into my neighborhood, so I tuck them in the sleeves of my thick, grey sweater. The streets are filled with shrieking children trick-or-treating, with their parents walking along tiredly nearby. I exchange a friendly smile with a mum who is wrangling her little demon. He’s wailing something about wanting to eat his M&Ms early and throws his plastic pitchfork on the sidewalk.
As I continue, I can’t help but to think that his costume choice probably wasn’t an accident. I can’t help but be reminded of someone, once upon a time.
When I look back up from the boy, my world spins. Damn alcohol.
I didn’t even drink that much, but I’ve always been a lightweight. Ron and the twins like to tease me for it, but I always get into the rational discussion of body weight and height differences and varying metabolisms, and then they lose interest quickly; I like that they do, but I also hate it. When my mouth opens, eyes glaze over. It’s why I don’t open my mouth much anymore.
I lean against a lamppost, pull out my phone, and do my best to make it look casual while I wait for my world to align itself again. No need to look like a lush in front of all these parents and children running amuck.
Hermione.
Even though I am surrounded by noise, surrounded by controlled chaos, I hear it – my name. My head shoots up from my phone, and I scan the crowd with squinted eyes. I see no one familiar. I only see little bodies on sugar highs.
Hermione.
The voice sounds hollow. Reverberated. Probably because it’s echoing inside my own head, and not out loud in the streets. I exhale shakily. My breath fogs in the cold air, clouding my vision.
Once my breath clears, I see him instantaneously.
There he stands, in the middle of the street, children passing him by. They’re moving too quickly, and he’s not moving at all. It makes me feel dizzy just looking at the contrast between them. He’s wearing a dark leather doublet, and I can see the silver thread of the embroidered leaves glinting in the streetlight from here.
It’s so strange; now that I am looking at him again, I can’t imagine how I could’ve ever forgotten his face. In a very frightening way, he is devastatingly beautiful. Even with his stupid guyliner smudged around his eyes. And just as before, I think he’s a queer, unearthly thing. With his dark, wavy hair falling into his face and his inky eyes and his weird clothing and his crown of sun-bleached thorns. I see no tail this time, but it doesn’t matter. Because he is looking at me – only at me.
As if he hears my anxiety, his mouth furls into a merciless smile – a smile that cuts teeth. A smile sharper than the knife tucked in my boot. A smile that chews helpless hearts out of chests and spits them out, damaged.
I don’t think; I run. My house is close, and as much as I want my parents to be home, I pray that they are not, because if they aren’t, that means they’re safe. Safe from him. Safe from me.
Because, at the end of the day, this is entirely my fault. All of it. I should have never encouraged the creatures of his court. I should have never given them gifts; and I should have never accepted theirs. I should have stuffed my ears with cotton, ignored their ballads.
Should’ve, would’ve, could’ve. Thinking about it now is pointless. It’s too late for regrets; they’ll only weigh me down.
I race up my front steps, fumble for my keys, and unlock the door. Once I’m inside, I slam the door shut and deadbolt it. I run upstairs to my room, not even bothering to turn on the lights.
Even in my inebriated state, I know it’s pointless, but my second instinct is to hide.
My first is to arm myself.
Quickly, I pull dresser drawers open, digging through them in a panic. It’s a whirlwind of actions driven purely by my adrenaline, because I’m barely aware of which weapons and items I’m shoving into where.
What I’m mostly aware of is this sudden pressure building in my ears. Like when you drive into the mountains, and the higher you go, the more pressure you feel, until your ears finally pop.
I’m tucking packets of salt into my back pocket when my bedroom door blasts off its hinges, and I’m thrown across my bedroom. The back of my head cracks against something hard, and my world starts fading to black.
The last thing I see before I black out is his dark silhouette eating away at the moonlight.
The last thing I hear is him speak in his queer, echoing accent. “We meet again, Daughter of Dust. Let us see just how worthy you really are.”
After that, my ears finally pop, and I am falling, falling, f a l l i n g like Alice.
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I pull in a loud, sharp breath, and immediately begin to cough. Something smells so horrific that I choke on it. That’s the first thing I notice when I wake up.
The second thing I notice is the tingling in my legs. They feel like dead-weight. Asleep. I try to shift them, and find that I cannot.
The third thing I notice is the noise. The pressure in my ears is gone now, but it is replaced by a deafening buzzing sound. It bothers me.
I open my eyes and all I see is a green, blinding light shining down on me. A hole in the ceiling. Once my eyes adjust, I am horrified.
Thousands of black flies are swarming around me, hitting against my arms, my face. The reason my legs are asleep is because someone is lying on top of me. He stares at me with clouded eyes, his mouth twisted into a grotesque, frozen scream.
A fly crawls out of one of his nostrils, and I find my voice. I scream. I push and I kick and I shove him off me, and his rotting flesh makes a wet sound as he slides down, down, down. But he doesn’t stop sliding. I watch him roll over a mountain of rotting corpses. Sinew stretching. Skin splitting. Stench strengthening.
And I realize that I am at the very top of this mountain – their unintentional queen.
I cannot get down fast enough.
Each time my foot gets caught in limbs, I scream. Each time I slip in their putrid juices, I cry out. Each time I catch myself from falling by grasping onto their rotting scalps, I dry heave.
By the time I reach the bottom, I am covered in death. I reek of it. I stumble away from the mound as quickly as I can, and fall to the rocky ground. I crawl on my hands and knees, desperate to get away from them. My jeans – torn. My knees and palms – bloody.
Once I am far enough away, I retch and I gag until everything tastes of bile – until all I see are little, white stars. And I can’t even wipe my vomit away, because my sleeves of my sweater are coated thick with coagulated blood.
Spit hangs pathetically from my lower lip as I look up. I’m in a different room now – some sort of cave. There is a soft, green light coming from somewhere, but I can’t find the source, and I don’t care. I can’t tear my eyes away from the crystal-clear spring in front of me.
I don’t even think as I tear my clothes off. I don’t want them on me anymore. I don’t even want them touching me.
Once I am naked, I splash ungracefully into the water and scrub frantically at my skin. There are no scrub brushes here – wherever here is, so I use the blunt tip of my nails to dig away my disgust.
I could be wrong, but something tells me that I will feel dirty for a long while – no matter how clean I get.
After my body is as clean as I can make it, I get out and reluctantly gather my filthy clothing. I really don’t want to put them back on, but I can’t exactly walk around this strange cave in the nude. I have no idea where he is, but I know he’s probably watching me from the shadows, somewhere.
I stomp back to the edge of the spring, clothing in hand, and feel humiliation staining my cheeks. As I am hunched over, scrubbing my underclothes in the warm water, I am intensely aware of how naked I really am. Of how naked I have always been.
I am so, so vulnerable, and I am disgusted by it.
It makes me hate him even more.
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As much as I don’t want to, I press forward. There’s a narrow passageway leading up an incline, which leads to another small clearing – smaller than the room with the spring. Perfectly circular.
And in the center, a pedestal. And on the pedestal, a large orb omitting a greenish glow, with golden vines twisting around it elegantly. It’s breathtaking. It’s beautiful.
I don’t trust it. At all.
I imagine it is filled with fae poisons. I imagine that it is cursed. I think of how it will devour my hand if I touch it. I think of how it might kill me.
I shiver in my wet, freezing clothes, and I also think of how it might help me.
Holding my breath, I step forward.
Nothing happens.
I circle around it once.
Nothing happens.
I dare to sneak a touch on a golden vine.
Nothing happens.
I am stupid and press my palm against the golden knot in the center.
Something happens.
My eyes go wide, and I jump back in alarm. The vines untangle themselves, then melt away, leaving behind what it was guarding.
Clothing and weapons. For me.
It doesn’t make any sense. He’s the one who put me here – the one seeking his childish revenge on me – so why would he help me? There must be a catch, or a boon waiting to be owed.
But when I check the leather doublet, it’s utterly ordinary. Nothing special. Plain.
Like you, my own voice whispers back to me in my head.
I find that I’m angrier for some reason, and I show it when I yank the doublet over my head, like it will make some sort of difference. Some of my hair gets stuck in my mouth in the process, and I spit it out. I push my arms through the sleeves, and I’m disturbed by how perfectly everything fits me. My soggy packets of salt are tucked into my pocket; my necklace of rowan berries is strategically hidden underneath my doublet; my soaking socks are turned inside out; my iron daggers are cold against my inner thighs.
Part of me doesn’t want to think about how terrified I really am, so I test out the blades to distract myself. They’re nothing like my little iron daggers. These are larger – much larger, and they curve out elegantly. I trace my finger along the intricate designs and frown.
“Words?” I ask aloud to no one. Glyphs are written along the side in a fae language – one that I will never understand. Faeblades, I decide to call them.
The words on the faeblades begin to glow a fiery red. When it reaches closer to my fingers, it sparks. I squeal, dropping them to the dirt, and pull my little finger into my mouth where it burns. There’ll be a blister; I’m sure of it. I stare down at the enchanted blades in wonder, listening to the crackling energy dissipate now that I’m no longer touching them.
I wet my chapped lips, and pick the faeblades up by the handles – safely. The glyphs blaze to life again, but it doesn’t scald me this time.
It’s not much, but I’m feeling a little less vulnerable than when I first woke up. I’m just waiting for the grand reveal – the moment when I’m thrown into a situation where I’ll need these gifts.
I sheath the faeblades in the holster on the belt wrapped around my hips, and feel my anger and frustration disperse, and they are replaced by something new – determination.
Once upon a time, he said he’d make me regret my words.
Tonight, I think I will make him regret ever being born.
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It doesn’t take long for me to realize that I’m in a living, breathing labyrinth.
There are chambers with nothing. Doors that lead nowhere. Gnarled vines that block exits. Halls that echo voices that do not belong to me. Rooms that repeat.
He thinks that I’m not keeping my wits, but I am. I have never felt more alive before this.
After what feels like hours, I come to a large room with crumbled stones and the biggest cobwebs I have ever seen. On the other side of the room, there is a large, oval-shaped stone with fae glyphs written in blue. It lets off a low hum. Full of the same energy in my faeblades.
It’s quiet in here. Not even my footsteps echo.
I’ve never much been into videogames, but I’ve watched Harry and Ron play enough to know that it’s a big, open room like this where something nasty is going to come out and try to kill me.
As quietly as I can, I unsheathe my faeblades. The clean sound of metal doesn’t soothe me. I dare to take two steps forward, and I think I could swallow my own heartbeat right now if I wanted to.
There is purple light, and something moves at my feet; I swing instinctively.
I feel stupid when I realize it’s only a blooming flower. What I thought were crumbling stones scattered across the ground are actually budded flowers. I don’t know why, but when I get near them, they come to life. I crouch low, watching in fascination at the purple light they’re emitting, watching specks of glowing pollen float gently to the ground.
When I move my hand over more of the flowers and they bloom, I can’t stop the smile that creeps onto my face. The magical things in Faerie are magnificent. More magnificent than I could have ever imagined.
“Curious,” a deep, familiar voice with a queer, echoing accent says.
I’m on my feet and my faeblades are out faster than I can think. He’s on the far end of the room, leaning against the glyph stone with drink in hand, watching the flowers at my feet with his stupid, pitch-black eyes. The soft glow from the bloomed flowers at his shoes paint him purple; I hate how intimidating it makes him look – how frighteningly beautiful. I wonder if I look the same, but I know I don’t, because he almost takes my breath away. Almost.
“Enlighten me,” I say, my voice a venom edge.
My acidic tone brings his attention to me, and his mouth furls with a familiar contempt. “Cave flowers only bloom in the presence of magic. Why are they blooming for you, I wonder?”
Air gets caught in my throat. Now he’s stolen my breath away.
His dark eyes travel over me slowly, taking in my appearance. He looks bored and displeased, but this is nothing unusual for him, it seems. He takes a long sip from his cup, his eyes never leaving mine. He says, “I see the subjects of my court have aided you, but it doesn’t matter. Pixie-made tunics and weapons aren’t an antidote for your mortality.”
Pixies?
I blink stupidly at his admission, then look at the sleeves of my doublet and the crackling energy of my faeblades. Why had I not thought of this before? Of course, my friends would help me. It fills me with a stupid kind of joy that they still hate him; a petty kind of joy that they love me better.
“How does it make you feel?” I ask, genuinely curious, but mostly vengeful. “To be hated so much by those who are meant to love you?”
In an instant, he is close. Too close. I warn him with my faeblades, and he comes up short, wine spilling. I watch his face slip into nothingness. A mask.
“They love you, because you give into their whims. They love you, because you are temporary. They love you to spite me,” he says lowly, his head tilting just barely. “Tell me: how does that makes you feel?”
I glare at him, pushing the long edge of my blade toward his chest in forewarning. “I would rather be loved out of spite than to be hated.”
At that, he blinks lazily, as if he is trying to comprehend my words. “Are you telling me that you’d rather be loved falsely than to be hated honestly?”
When he words it like this, I’m not so sure. But I am too stubborn to agree with anything he says.
“Yes,” I reply, biting the inside of my cheek. My lie tastes like copper.
His eyes narrow, speculating. “You are exceedingly unusual. No wonder they find you mortals so…interesting.”
His words set me on fire. All I feel is rage.
I press the faeblade into his tunic and scream, “Is that all this is to you? A form of entertainment? A game? You really think you can just go around, stealing mortals when you are bored? Throwing them into a maze to fend for themselves? Without suffering any kind of consequences?”
His dark eyes go wide with surprise, and he looks down at the weapon pressed to his chest. Then he looks back at me, a look of wicked enjoyment on his face.
“If you think this is a game, Daughter of Dust, you are delusional,” he replies, then his fingertips curiously ghost over the soft, round curve of my ear.
I stare at him in disbelief as he steps away from me, his phantom touch going with him. His stare is intense, and I am transfixed.
“There are no winners here in Faerie. No losers,” he pauses – a revelation. “Only us.”
I blink, and he is gone as quickly as he came.
For some reason, I find that I am infuriated at how I am a slave to his convenience. Infuriated at how easily he can come and go, and how I cannot.
In my anger, I trample some cave flowers and scream. But then I pause when I hear the sound of something wet behind me – the sound of something scraping together. I whirl around and my stomach drops in horror.
A brown and golden spider the size of a large dog is lowering itself from the ceiling by a sticky thread, and all eight of its red, blinking eyes have me in its sight. By the time it is close enough for me to notice the purple venom oozing from the tips of its fangs, it drops elegantly to the dirt and lunges toward me.
On instinct, I throw myself to the right and land in a patch of cave flowers. The air is knocked out of my lungs, but I don’t have time to think about it. I roll onto my back just in time to see the spider crash into a wall. It lets out an unnatural shriek that pierces my eardrums, and I can’t help but throw my hands over my ears.
It shakes its head and turns back on me, its long legs bringing it stampeding in my direction.
“Shit,” I swear under my breath, and scramble up to run away from it, but I know it’s pointless. The spider is going to catch me in seconds. It is going to stab me with its venomous fangs, wrap me up in it silk, and turn my insides into goop. I’m going to be spider food.
God, damn it.
No.
I pull out my faeblades and whirl around, my feet skidding in the dirt. I take on a defensive stance and feel entirely feral – so unlike me, but also exactly like me. I am painted with purple and rage.
The spider falters for a split-second, almost as if it is considering that I might be a threat, but quickly throws that thought out the window and barrels toward me.
When it’s nearly upon me, my grip on the faeblades tighten, and I drop down and swing at its legs. As I swing, I feel heat and see flames. But I realize too late that I dropped down too slow, and its powerful body knocks into me, throwing me to the ground. I feel an excruciating pain in my left shoulder from the force of the blow, but I don’t let it stop me from pulling myself back up – no matter how badly I want to scream from the pain. I’m not going down without one hell of a fight.
The enormous spider crashes to the ground by the stone glyph, letting out a horrendous screech. Green blood spurts out of the two legs I’ve lobbed off, and the spider wobbles off to one side, uneven. It’s at a disadvantage now, but that doesn’t mean it’s not a threat. I know better.
I go to change to an offensive stance, ready to go in for the kill now that it is wounded, but the movement in my shoulder causes the pain to intensify and I accidentally drop one of my blades. I don’t mean to, but I cry out. It feels like fire. Pure fire.
As I reach up to touch my injury, I look down at the same time and I feel my blood run cold. There, jutting out of my shoulder like some grotesque joke, is one of the spider’s fangs. The venom sac is still attached, pulsing, pumping more and more purple venom into my bloodstream. I don’t know why I didn’t notice it before, but I can feel its effects now. The fire in my veins. My body temperature rising. My vision blurring. Delirium setting in.
I’m going to die. It’s inevitable. A fact. I cannot control it.
The cave is moving – shifting, but I know it’s just the venom making quick work of me. Making me delirious. Making me go mad. I watch the spider stand and turn back on me, and it turns into two spiders, three…wait, four? I don’t know how many there are anymore, and I don’t care.
I yank the fang from my shoulder and throw it to the ground in anger. If I cannot control when I die, I most certainly can control what I do with my last moments before they’re stolen from me. He cannot take that from me. He will never take that from me.
All four spiders let out a piercing shriek and spring toward me.
I scream at the top of my lungs and lunge forward with my single faeblade drawn. The four spiders turn back into one for just a second, but it’s all the time I need. I swerve to the right, and when it goes to follow me, it loses balance on its uneven side and topples.
It only takes a second for it to get its bearings again, but it’s already too late. I am on its hairy back, screaming until my throat burns, hacking the curved edge of the faeblade into its head, its eyes. I show it no mercy, because I know it would have shown me none.
I keep stabbing its head, although I’m certain its dead now. It’s stopped moving. It’s stopped screaming. But I’m the one who can’t stop. I feel vengeful. I feel angry. I feel robbed.
My heartbeat slows, speeds, slows, speeds – erratic. I don’t even realize I’m crying until I slide off the spider’s body. I want to get away from it. I need to get away from this. I begin to crawl, but everything is turning to fuzz.
I follow a source of soft, blue light. It’s familiar. Warm. Comforting.
My head rests against the hard surface, and I close my eyes. So, this is where I’ve come to die.
And I feel like I’m almost there – almost dead, but then I hear voices. Distorted ones. Ones I can’t quite grasp. Can’t quite reach.
I’m too tired to care. Too warm to care. The warmth wraps around me, whispers in an echoing, childlike voice: Awaken, little dustling. Awaken. So much has yet to be done. You mustn’t stop now. Look how far you’ve come.
The venom is making me go mad – I just know it. I don’t know who is speaking to me or where they are, but I reply anyway.
“I’m dying,” I rasp out, my head lolling to the side tiredly. Breathing is difficult now. “I can’t even move. The venom.”
There is an antidote, little dustling, but you must claim it.
Where I pull the energy from, I cannot say, but I find that I’m more alert than I was a moment ago. I open my eyes and ask, “Where?”
It is here. In this very room. But first, I must ask you a question: how badly do you want it, little dustling?
I know this is a trick question, even in my feverish state. Receive a favor; owe a debt. The way of the fae.
My jaw clenches and I answer honestly, “I don’t want it at all, but I need it.”
Silence.
Right when I think the little girl didn’t like my answer and left me to rot, she speaks again.
And we need you, little dustling. You’ve been chosen.
I frown, weakly shifting myself up. “Chosen? Chosen by who? For what?”
The egg sac behind the lorestone. Don’t apply it. Drink it. All of it. Every last drop.
“Wait!” I cry out weakly. “What do you mean I’ve been chosen? Hello?”
The little girl is gone, then I register her last words. The antidote.
My vision isn’t clear, but it’s well enough to see in my immediate area. My main concern right now is figuring out what the bloody fuck a lorestone is.
Familiar energy radiates behind me, and I turn my head. The oval stone with glyphs written on it. Could this be it? It’s the only distinctive feature in the room; well, besides the decapitated spider lying at my feet.
“The egg sac behind the lorestone,” I repeat. “Behind the lorestone.”
I crawl on my hands and knees, too weak to walk. Too weak to exist, but I make it happen. I have no other choice.
Behind the stone is a white mass made of spider silk. It’s pulsating with life. So, what am I supposed to do? Just cut it open and let its little venom babies make a feast of me? No, thank you.
A sharp pain in my chest stabs me, making me double over and wanting to die. But then I remember that I don’t want to die. I refuse to let it end like this.
I reach for my faeblade, bring it above my head, and stab the egg sac as hard as I can.
I expect baby spiders the size of tarantulas to come pouring out, but they don’t. Green, gelatinous goo pours out, instead. Without thinking, I reach my hand in up to my elbow, feeling around for something – for anything.
My fingers slip against something smooth, and I grasp it. I pull it out, and through the goo, I can see it’s a glass bottle filled with a dark liquid. After I wipe as much as I can away from the stopper, I open it, and drink.
It’s disgusting. It tastes bitter and metallic, but I keep drinking. I don’t stop. I drink all of it. Every last drop.
And when I am finished, I collapse into the dirt. Then I think of how much I have been hating dirt lately and laugh at the irony of it all.
Part of me thinks I was tricked. Given false hope. I feel no different, but I still wait. I stare at the stalactites dripping from the ceiling. It’s not like I have anything else better to do.
Time passes, and I am still not dead.
In fact, all at once, I feel better. More than better. I touch my wound, and only find a star-shaped scar. I get up, gather my faeblades, and sheath them.
I feel different. Stronger. I wonder if it was more than just an antidote. I push the low probability of that to the back of my mind. I have more important things to worry about.
It’s time to find him and end this. He says this is not a game, but it certainly feels like one. I’m competing for something, but I have no idea what the prize is. No idea what the rules are. He is playing with my life like I am worth nothing, but I am worth so much more.
And I’m going to prove it to him. I will do anything to survive this labyrinth.
Samhain 2k18 - my heart lingers in your hands - Smut and Violence
my heart lingers in your hands
by: ladynightangel18
tomione
[fae-witch au]
(hi, sorry, it’s long *blushes*)
(just a side note: the way hermione refers to tom is very important. you get to see how his mood changes from her pov.)
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Not all nightmares go away over time. Sometimes they grow as we do and one day we look back and see that they have transcended all the limits we tried our best to put on them to keep them contained – restrained away from us.
And perhaps it’s better to have this constant throbbing fear to keep us going rather than biding our time and living fearfully, jumping at every shadow and waiting, with dread that cripples the lungs and atrophies the limps, for another nightmare to take the place of the one we’d just escaped.
Sometimes, there’s comfort in familiarity, no matter how dark and dangerous.
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A child weaned on poison considers harm a comfort.
—Gillian Flynn, Sharp Objects
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The creature had horns when it came to her window.
She saw it first as the shadow of a tree, then she looked closer and it was a crouching figure.
Its face was bathed in darkness, only its outline was clear as it dug taloned feet into the frame of her window and peered into her room.
It did not enter and she soothed herself with the thought that it would not until she gave it permission, like one of those fae things Nana used to tell her about.
That thought led to a spiral of anger and grief and numbness that briefly made her forget about the creature hovering at her window. (She wanted very much to call out to Nana, but the woman would not respond – not to anyone other than a medium, that is.)
Hermione looked back at the creature and watched with wide eyes as its horns grew from a fist size to that of a forearm’s.
“Brat,” it said in a raspy, low voice. A voice that Hermione found both frightening and morbidly fascinating. (A voice that was so different from the one the creature had spoken in before.)
She couldn’t think; her breathing froze. Like the child she was, she ducked her head under the covers and willed the evil to go away. The creature growled menacingly, causing her to press her body deeper into the mattress, as if the stuffing and cloth might somehow absorb her into its fold and protect her.
The creature shrieked, and it was a blood-curdling sound that chilled her to her bones.
Where are her parents, she wondered desperately, surely they had heard that awful sound?
She squeezed her eyes shut and prayed, repeating one word over and over again.
God, god, god, god.
It had grown silent. Feeling braver than the situation called for, she peeked one eye over the covers, not sure what to expect and not daring to hope.
The creature was gone.
She was still wide-eyed and trembling when the clock struck midnight and she turned nine – eight hours after the burial of her Nana.
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There was a witch inside of her, and it wanted to come out.
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Hermione had always known about her heritage and imminent power. She’d always known her Nana was the longest living witch in her family in the last three centuries. She’d always known that Nana’s death would transfer all the older woman’s powers onto her – the heir to the dwindling Northern Witch Coven – and make her near invincible (because Nana’s wasn’t the only ancient power she would he hosting then).
She knew all this, and she dreaded it.
Dreaded it because she also knew that Nana had made a pact with the fae prince when Hermione was seven and on her way to Death’s doorstep.
(Dreaded it because her protectors had denied her answers and not knowing the darkness she was to step into was worse than her darkest nightmares.)
It happened like this:
Since before she could form all the shapes of the words she was learning, Hermione had an innate curiosity and disregard for limitations that was not encouraged in witches, and she questioned everything.
Her little family of Mama, Papa, and Mione often visited her Nana at her large house by the woods. There, she and Nana went into the shed in the backyard that stretched on for ages and they practiced magic!
Mione learned how to float her favourite books and light candles and finally, finally, she fluttered her fledgling magic in the air between solids and rang the old bell that made an awful clanking sound. Nana was so proud of her, called her the Brightest Witch of Her Age. Mione beamed in pride.
“That’s a very clever thing you did, my sweet,” Nana said to Hermione, patting the young witch on her busy head. “What would you like for your reward?”
Hermione scrunched her eyebrows together in thought. She looked about the rusty shed for something of note. Her brown eyes landed on a shelf of dusty books that she wasn’t allowed to read (not yet, Nana said).
She thought about trying her luck and was about to open her mouth to ask when a flash of something impossibly pale and iridescent caught her eye.
“What’s that, Nana?” Hermione’s little pointer finger was trained on a shelf of objects opposite the door, specifically, on a long stick the colour of bone that was placed in a glass case and wedged between a cauldron and a gas lamp.
Nana grew quite as the proud smile on her face slid off. Her eyes were glazed as she walked to the shelf and removed the stick from its dusty case.
She held it reverently between her frail hands. “This is a very special wand,” she said quietly.
Hermione perked up in interest. “A wand? Like in the old stories? But I thought witches didn’t use wands anymore. Is it yours? Will I have it? Can I—”
“Slow down, my sweet,” Nana said with a laugh, expression lightened in the face of her granddaughter’s rapid-fire curiosity.
Hermione stared up at the older woman expectantly.
With a shake of her head and a chuckle, she sat down and patted the seat next to her. Hermione scrambled into the chair, having to get on it on her knees before she straightened herself and sat properly.
“I’m going to tell you a very old story, darling, about our history. Would you like to hear it?”
Brown curls bounced and tangled as Hermione nodded her head fervently.
“First, you must promise not to tell your parents.”
Hermione made to nod her head but paused. Not tell Mama and Papa? But they said never to tell lies. She pursed her lips. It wouldn’t be lying, she thought, she’d only not be telling them something. There was a difference!
Smiling at her clever reasoning, she nodded her assent without hesitation.
Nana smiled fondly and began her tale.
“Once long ago, in a land not so far away, fae and witches lived alongside each other, separated only by a long line of ash trees and their own prejudice. They both had magic, same yet also different. The fae were wild creatures and their magic matched their essence. They were prone to magical outbursts spurred by strong emotions, and these outbursts sometimes breached the line of trees and impacted the lives of witches. The witches were still discovering all the possibilities of their magic and so could not protect themselves as well as we can now. Their numbers suffered greatly in those early days and they grew fearful of the careless fae. The Great Houses convened and decided they needed to strike against the fae, for the survival of the four Witch Covens.
“But the witches did not know their enemy, and so they devised a plan to send a brave, clever witch into the faelands to find their enemy’s weakness. They chose a young man of House Dumbledore, named Albus Percival Wulfric Brian. Albus was the most talented youth and eager to prove his worth to his Coven, therefore he was the perfect choice. The witches put their wands together and cast a glamour over Albus to make him appear fae, they then shrouded him in protective wards and sent him into the ash woods. Not much is said about his time with the fae, only that Albus did succeed – but not in the mission he was given.
“You see, my sweet, Albus was very clever. He saw and learned the ways of the fae, he drank their wine and ate their food and he befriended them till they loved him better than their own. He befriended the king, too. Gellert had been ruling for a century and he was wise, yes, but he was also rash and powerful and those two never went well together when it came to the fae. Gellert alone caused half of the outbursts. Albus performed many rituals to help keep his friend’s magic contained but nothing worked. One day, as Albus was cleaning his hut, he came across his wand, which had been hidden away for safekeeping. His quick mind realised that what the fae king needed was not a containment on his magic, but an anchor, something to channel his erratic magic through to make it easier to control.
“Albus traveled back to the witchlands and sought out Garrick Ollivander, the great wandmaker. With the knowledge Albus provided about the intended, the old maker created a unique and powerful wand – he named it the Elder Wand. Albus presented the wand to Gellert and at first Gellert felt betrayed that his closest friend would dare to present him with something clearly of a witch’s making, but because of the love he had for Albus, Gellert conceded and one swish of his new wand was all it took to convince him that this was what the fae had needed all along. King Gellert ordered Albus to have wands made for all the fae and Albus was overjoyed to have found a way to bring the magical groups together.
“Years passed, and the fae and witches grew less hostile. They were free to roam the lands of the other, so long as they did not harm anyone or enter with destructive intent. While the majority were happy, there were a group of fae who were not pleased by any of this – they called themselves the Knights of Walpurgis. Fae are wicked and spiteful by nature and these Knights were more so. They abducted Albus’s sister, Ariana, and cursed her into madness. Albus was devastated when he discovered this nefarious deed and, in his rage, he waged a great duel against Gellert. Gellert tried to reason with his closest friend but Albus was unreachable in his grief and anger. Albus struck down the fae king, took the Elder Wand for himself and fled to the witchlands.
“The fae were enraged beyond comprehension at the death of their king, many snapped their wands and let their magic run wild in hopes of harming the witches. Albus had arrived in time to warn the witches of what he’d done, so they had enough time to put up protective wards that barred the fae from breaching the ash trees. The fae grew angrier and more restless, but they could not directly retaliate against the witches because of the wards. The Knights of Walpurgis came up with a wicked plan and spread news of the existence of witches in every mortal village in the land and they used their magic to spur the hate of mortals. Thus, the despicable Witch Trials began.
“Witches had lived amongst mortals for ages in peace and autonomy; they’d never before been hunted so relentlessly. Wands were immediate identifiers and so they were discarded. The witches’ magic became erratic with no wands to channel them through, we lost many elders and our connection to the land grew weaker. It was the darkest years in our history.
“A decade after the hunts began, after we had lost nearly half of the With Covens, Albus took charge and led us into victory. He confronted and defeated the leader of the Knights of Walpurgis, Salazar Slytherin. Albus, as the winner of the duel, had a right to Slytherin’s wand and made to seize his battle spoil, but was intercepted by Slytherin’s grandson, Marvolo. Young Marvolo accepted the defeat on behalf of the fae and bargained the keep of Slytherin’s wand, Basilisk, for a promise that the Witch Trials would end. Albus accepted with the condition of an Unbreakable Vow and within a fortnight, the hunts ceased completely, and the mortals were eradiated of their unnatural hate for witches.
“Although the witches were no longer being hunted, the horrors they’d lived through haunted them for the rest of their days. Being away from their magic for so long had left severe consequences. They tried to bond with new wands to restore their magic to its former glory, but it would not take. The witches grew so desperate that they resorted to performing dark rituals – still nothing worked. Some kept trying but many had given up and moved on; magic would never again return to what it had once been.
“A year after the Defeat of Slytherin, a young woman of House Bones, Amelia, had given birth to a boy. He was sickly and the healers could do nothing more to save him; their potions were not strong enough to combat whatever ailed him, he was to die within a week. Amelia, in her desperation, trekked to the highest hill in the witchlands on the night of the next full moon. There she beseeched the old gods to help her son and offered her life blood in exchange for his health.
“There was a shift in the air as her rich, red blood touched the grass and stained it crimson. The moon rays shining down on that hill shone brighter than the sun for a moment, so bright it was seen for miles in every direction. Amelia believed the light was a sign from the gods and her spirits were lifted. She rushed back home to her son but when she got there, she was devastated to find that his condition had not changed. She cursed the old gods and cried and screamed herself hoarse. Finally, her fatigue caught up to her and she succumbed to the dark with her boy clutched to her bosom.
“The next morning, Amelia was woken by the loud cries of her son. This was a miracle, for the boy had been too weak to utter a sound since his birth. The healers were called at once and they declared him a perfectly healthy baby. The witches were amazed, but Amelia…she was just grateful. There was a lightness to her that hadn’t been seen in a witch since before the Trials began.
“Another young mother, this one called Agatha, of House Longbottom nee Prewett, was plagued by sleepless nights due to her ill daughter. Once again, the healers could do nothing for the child. Amelia took Agatha to the hill and instructed her to do what she had done a few moons ago. The two mothers waited anxiously for the girl to get better and, once again, she did. Soon after, every mother – and sometimes father – of a newborn child made the trip to the hilltop to offer their blood in exchange for the health of their babes.
“As the months went by, the witches found that the families who had performed the ritual were much more in tune with their magic, like in the days Before. And that is how the Ritual of Renewal was created. On the birth day of a witch family’s heir, the family’s paterfamilias or materfamilias offers a blood sacrifice and binds their magic to the heir’s core, so that when the head passes, the magic may be transferred to the heir and make them stronger. If the heir dies before the head, the next child becomes heir.
“But as the magic of the witches became more stable and powerful, Prince Marvolo of the fae could not contain the remaining knights of Walpurgis for long. The wards held them off, but consistent attacks made certain parts weaker. Centuries passed, the witches established great cities for witches and made advancements in the mortal world for the betterment of humankind. The fae grew stronger, too. The few that had kept their wands passed it onto their heir, similar to the Ritual of Renewal.
“One day, years and years later, when the words Witch Trials no longer caused a panic, an incredibly powerful fae slipped through a crack in the wards, on All Hallows’ Eve, when the veils are at their thinnest. Near the ash trees, two Ritual of Renewals were taking place. The witches were left vulnerable as they were too immersed in the ritual and had not cast protective wards around the spell circle, deeming it unnecessary since the trees were already warded. Three witches were lost that night. A young couple – whose son was one of the babes being blessed – and your grandfather.”
Hermione gasped, the first sound she’d made since Nana began the tale.
“He fought off the fae and managed to take his wand, expel the creature back to the faelands, and close the breach in the wards. Sadly, this great expenditure of magic was too much for him, and he died soon after. His magic passed to his heir, who was not yet one year old, immediately after his death. That had never before happened, and your parents and I were greatly concerned about what that amount of matured power would do to your developing core. Thankfully, as the years went by and you grew, no consequences presented themselves. We hope this continues until you are of age and have fully matured. This is why you must not tell your parents I told you all this. No doubt your mother will one day tell you a sugar-coated, shorter version of this tale. Not many are even aware that there is more to the history of witches than what Beedle the Bard has written in his nursery book.”
Hermione nodded her head, a frown twisting her lips as she thought how unfair it was that Mama had planned to keep something like this from her. Thank goodness she had Nana!
Her eyes alighted once again on the pale wand, still clutched between her grandmother’s fingers.
“Is that the wand Grandfather won, Nana?”
“Yes, darling. This is the rightful wand of the fae prince – the fae who attacked us. Originally made of yew wood and later infused with bone fragments of his mortal father, dipped in the silver blood of a unicorn and allegedly blessed by a phoenix bird. It used to belong to his ancestor, Salazar Slytherin.”
“The bad Knight?!”
Nana nodded, her lips pinched in displeasure at the very thought.
“What a horrid family they must be. And he’s a prince? Princes are not supposed to attack people, that’s so—so unprincely!” Hermione huffed and crossed her arms in indignation.
Nana chuckled, although it was more humorless than amused. “I quite agree, love.”
Hermione cocked her head in thought. “What about the king? Is he also evil?”
There was a pause before Nana said gently, “The fae prince killed him.” She didn’t want to tell the young witch such horrid things, but she couldn’t bring herself to lie to her granddaughter.
Hermione gasped. “He killed his father?”
Nana shook her head. “His uncle was king because his father was not fae. The fae prince killed King Morfin – son of Marvolo – in order to inherit the throne.”
Hermione scrunched her nose in distaste. “Why couldn’t he just wait? He was a prince, he would have been king soon!” Hermione was desperate for answers – none of this made sense to her. How could someone kill their father – or rather, their uncle!
Nana shook her head again. “Fae live for centuries and Morfin had barely begun his rule. The fae prince grew impatient, because he knew he would have to wait a long time before he became king.”
“Then why is he still just a prince?”
“He is not yet of fae age to be crowned king, but he rules nonetheless, because he is the last of his blood.”
Hermione turned that over in her head. This was a fairy tale story if ever she’d heard one. But it was one of those dark fairytales, with dragons that won and princes that turned out to be bad. However, there was still one tiny piece missing…
“Nana, you’ve told me about Gellert and Salazar and Marvolo and Morfin, but you didn’t say the fae prince’s name – why?”
Nana’s browns eyes, so much like Hermione’s, took on a pained look. “It is forbidden. There is a powerful taboo on it. The fae prince detests his given name because it was the name of his mortal father and the new name he fashioned for himself is dreadful and I refuse to use it,” she sneered with vehemence.
Hermione touched the woman’s arm lightly and looked up at her with wide eyes. “Then what do we call him?”
Nana sighed. “I suppose if you must, you can say He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named.”
Hermione mouthed the words to herself and giggled. “That’s silly.”
Nana smiled and tapped Hermione’s nose, countenance finally brightening. “I know, my sweet.”
Hermione’s hand drifted down from their place on Nana’s arm until her fingers were just a breath away from touching the wand. There was something about that wand that called to her, like a siren’s song to a lonely sailor.
“Nana,” she began slowly, eyes fixed on the paleness of the wood. “May I touch it?”
Nana was looking down at her with a strange look in her eyes, one Hermione was sure she hadn’t learned the word to identify yet.
The old and young Granger held each other’s eyes for an unidentifiable time, until Nana gave the tiniest nod of her head.
Hermione’s heart leaped as her small fingers closed around the slim piece of wood and held it in front of her face. Something shifted in her. Shifted and slotted itself into its proper place, she could feel it.
This wand – it felt like hers.
(Somewhere, in a land not so far away, separated only by a long line of ash trees and protective wards, a fae prince lifted his raven head and fixed his dark eyes beyond the tree line.
I found you.)
::
Hermione was restless; she couldn’t sleep. It was well past her bedtime and even Mama and Papa were asleep in their bed (she’d checked).
Her eyes kept flitting to the window and the long line of shadows beyond. The ash trees.
Could those be the very same trees in Nana’s story? Could that be where she lost her grandpa, where Harry lost his parents?
Her heart beat erratically in her chest at the thought. She thought about the fae prince’s wand and how it had felt in her hand: right. Her fingers twitched against her lavender (because pink was for little girls and she was big now) sheets. Oh, how she wished to feel it in her hand again, the smooth wood catching on the lines on her palm, the slightly curved handle bumping against her wrist.
Her hands fisted. Hermione knew where the wand was kept, and Nana was sleeping. She could just go down to the shed and feel it for a few minutes, no one would have to know.
Hermione shook her head vehemently. No no, she couldn’t, she wasn’t a bad girl.
No one would know.
No…
No one—
Hermione swung her legs down. Her feet were moving over her dark brown floors before she’d finished the thought.
Her hand grasped the cool, silver doorknob and stayed still. She shouldn’t do this, she should get back into bed and close her eyes and count sheep and—
She turned her wrist.
::
The trek to the shed had been cold. She’d forgotten a jacket so the only thing protecting her from the elements was a thin, cotton sleeping shirt with pandas on it. The imagery fur of the pandas did nothing for the wind making goosebumps appear on her arms.
The shed door was unlocked, like always. The room was dark but for a sliver of moonlight streaming through the only window. It was enough.
Hermione dragged the chair she’d sat on only that afternoon under the shelf opposite the door. She climbed on and stood on her tip toes, hand outstretched and feeling around blindly. There was the cauldron so the case was more to the left, yes – no, that was the gas lamp, okay more to the right and yes, there!
Her hands trembled ever so slightly as she tried to unhook the catch on the glass case. It wasn’t heavy at all, perhaps Nana had put a charm on it.
Thinking about Nana reminded her that she should not be doing this and her cheeks grew warm.
Click!
Too late now.
Hermione set the case down and lifted the wand out with both hands. A rush of something jolted through her from her fingertips to the tips of her toes.
She swished the wand and giggled when it gave off the faintest blue sparks.
She’d ask for the wand for her next birthday. Surely Nana would give it to her. It wasn’t like anyone else was using it. She nodded to herself. Yes, that’s what she’d do, she’d—
Come to me.
Hermione whirled around, eyes frantically searching for whoever had spoken. There was no one there.
“Hello?” her voice was small and wobbly.
Come to me.
“Nana?” Hermione called out, desperate, scared.
Come to me, little Granger.
Hermione’s gasp broke on the beginnings of a sob. She was standing so still she could have been mistaken for a wax sculpture. The wand buzzed in her hand
Now!
Startled and absolutely terrified, Hermione sprang into action. She hurtled through the shed door and made a mad dash for the house, her only thought on getting inside and curling up between her parents and apologizing to Nana and never, ever going to the shed alone.
She was almost to the back door when the voice came again, and it didn’t come alone. A fog descended on her mind. Wrong way, little one. Come to me, to the trees.
Hermione stopped running immediately and turned. The voice was so beautiful, so calming. She should listen. Her feet moved forward and her body followed.
Yes, bring it to me, the beautiful voice lulled. Bring me Basilisk.
Hermione’s brows furrowed. Basilisk?
The wand, brat, the voice snapped, impatient.
The fog lifted slightly. Hermione’s pace stuttered to a stop. What was she doing, why was she following such a rude voice?
Apologies, the voice crooned, I didn’t mean that. Darling child, bring me the wand and you can go back to bed.
Back to bed, yes, she was feeling sleepy. She should listen, then she could go back to bed. Eyes glazed and thoughts complacent, Hermione lifted her feet and started walking again.
The trees were in sight. She was almost there. She could go back to bed, soon. Curl up under her warm covers and sleep.
A voice shouted behind her, or was it the wind?
The voice came again, rushed, Quickly!
She started running, a stone caught under her sole and dug into her feet with every step but she was forced to ignore it. She was so close. Her hair brushed low hanging branches and then – she was in.
The fog lifted immediately and Hermione was left to take in her surroundings, body trembling, heart racing, feet sore.
Her eyes adjusted to the new darkness. It was a clearing, empty and lit sparsely by what little moonlight could get through the tall trees.
Why had she come here?
A shadow stepped away from its place against a tree. As it stepped towards her, its outline became clearer. It was a boy who looked barely older than her. He was beautiful. A head of thick dark hair partially covered two black stubs growing out the top of his forehead and his sharp cheekbones fit his youthful face perfectly.
“Hello, brat,” he greeted.
Hermione stumbled back and landed roughly on the ground. That voice! It was the one that led her here.
Her breaths puffed out in sporadic bursts. Her heart was thumping so loudly she was sure the boy could hear it.
He crouched in front of her, lips curled to the side in a sinister smirk, and held his hand out. “Give it,” he demanded.
Hermione stared at the pale, pale hand in confusion. Give what?
The hand shot forward and Hermione squeezed her eyes shut. There was no pain, only a tugging on the fingers that clutched the wand. The wand, she realised.
Hermione look down at her hand, looked down at the pale wand and the pale hand that was trying to pull it away from her.
She panicked. “No!”
The boy stilled, lifted his head. “No?” he echoed incredulously.
Hermione gulped. This was what he wanted? Well, he couldn’t have it. Her grandfather had died for this wand, it was hers.
“No,” she repeated with more resolve, clenching her fingers tighter, pulling herself away from him.
“No?” he growled, dark eyes narrowing into near slits.
“Y-you can’t have it,” she said, a tremor in her voice.
A sneer made its way onto his beautiful face. “And why not?”
“It’s,” she began, choked back a sob, stopped. “It’s mine.”
His eyes widened and his cheeks tinted a dark, angry red. “I assure you, brat, it most certainly is not,” he snapped at her, teeth clacking together. He made to take it again and her magic responded.
First it swirled inside her, just under her sternum, then it rushed through her like a whirlwind and when it manifested outside of her body, it sent the boy skidding across the dirt and ten feet away from her.
She stared in shock at the tracks he’d left as he was pushed away by an invisible force.
She’d…she’d never done something like that before. There had been a mean little boy at school who’d grabbed her hair and pulled so hard he yanked some strands out, and her magic had given him a severe stomachache. But this – pushing away a being that was clearly magical so far without touching them and without an incantation – was not something she’d hoped to achieve for many years yet.
The boy got to his feet with a load snarl, beautiful face transformed into that of a creature’s. He bent his legs and Hermione detachedly watched him as he clearly prepared to lunge at her. The fog was back; she felt odd, like there was no need to move away.
The boy leaped, nails extended into deadly talons. The sharp points were a breath away from her throat when a boom rocked through the air and threw him off course. His talons missed her throat, but they slid right through her thin, cotton t-shirt and the vulnerable flesh over her heart.
Hermione screamed.
::
The pain was like nothing she’d experienced before. The broken arm she’d had when she’d jumped off the diving board and hit cement instead of water couldn’t even begin to compare to the way every inch of her cried out in agony.
She tried to bring her arms up to clutch at the pain, but they felt too heavy and would not respond. Tears leaked from her eyes in a constant stream, her nose ran and mingled with the salty downpour and dripped into her mouth and she did not care.
There was movement above her. Blearily, she gazed up at familiar brown eyes.
“Hermione! Oh, my child, my sweet child. It’s going to be okay, you’re going to be fine.”
“Nana,” Hermione tried to croak out, but the word caught in her clogged throat.
“Shh, shh, don’t speak. You’re going to be fine.” Hands fluttered gently over her chest and the pain lessened an inch.
Tears that were not her own dripped onto Hermione’s face. The brown in Nana’s eyes were dulled by the water pooling in them.
Leaves crunched off to the side. Hermione slanted her eyes as much as she could, only to see the boy rise to his feet gracefully and dust his tunic.
He’s hands made their way into pockets and he adopted a casual stance.
“Well, I was aiming for her throat, but I guess now you can say your goodbyes,” he said benevolently.
Nana’s body was draped over Hermione’s in the next second. “You monster!” she shouted, voice full of loathing and anger.
The boy cocked his head. “Come now, crone, you can do better than calling me out on what I am.”
“How?” Nana screamed. How did you find her, went unasked.
Don’t cry, Nana, Hermione wanted to say but her voice wasn’t working and her heart still hurt and oh god was she going to die?
“Blood of my blood,” he sneered. “My wand will forever know the touch of a Granger, thanks to your husband.”
Nana reared back and brought a hand up to her mouth to contain her gasp.
“Ah, I see you’ve figured it out. Your wards might be able to keep my physical body away but I’m much too powerful to be completely hindered. And what a shame your heir hasn’t learned to ward herself against mental attacks yet.”
“Why her? Why not me? I was there that day, too!” Nana cried, clutching one of Hermione’s hands so hard the young witch would have cried out if she hadn’t been too focused on other hurts.
The boy smiled condescendingly. “You might be a Granger, but she is a direct descendent and you know how finicky the duel rules are: to reclaim a wand, defeat the holder or the heir and such.” He rolled his eyes in annoyance.
Nana looked back at Hermione’s ashen face and stroked her cheek with a trembling finger.
“I should have never—this is all my fault…”
“Yes, yes, you should have never brought your precious heir anywhere near Basilisk. Now, hand over my wand and you can be on your way,” he demanded impatiently, taking a step toward them.
Even through all the pain, Hermione heard his words and flexed her hand to check that she still had the wand in her grip. She would have breathed a sigh of relief if her lungs weren’t on fire.
Seeing the protective movement, Nana placed a comforting hand over the one that held Basilisk. “You’ll never have the wand if she dies, Voldemort.”
The boy – Voldemort – flinched as if struck when Nana said his name, but he recovered quickly, face like a storm. “I sincerely doubt that, crone,” he jeered.
“She has bonded with it, I’ve felt it,” Nana informed quietly, pressing a hand lightly over her granddaughter’s chest. Hermione’s wound was bleeding sluggishly, the flow having been slowed by one of Nana’s charms, but that did nothing for the heart wrenching pain she still felt.
Voldemort’s face took on a look of utter disgust. “Of all the witches to…” he trailed off. After a moment’s consideration, Voldemort smoothed his tunic and gave an elegant shrug of his shoulders. “I’ve gone this long without a wand, I’m sure I can manage until the next heir. Besides, her death will be worth it. That’ll be two Grangers now, and both in less than a decade. Happy deaths.”
He made to turn and walk away when Nana called out to him, “Wait!”
He stopped but did not turn.
“This is your doing, you can reverse it.” There was a note of desperation in the woman’s voice.
Voldemort fixed Nana with a smile full of mockery. “Why ever would I do that?”
Nana took a deep breath. “Save her heart—save her heart…and it’s yours.” She sounded so sad. Why? Didn’t she want Hermione to be saved? And her heart, it hurt so much, Hermione would give it away without a second thought if only it would take this horrible feeling with it.
“You would give up your heir so easily? What if I decide I want to kill her, after all?” His brows were drawn together in puzzlement.
“Fae don’t damage their possessions.” Nana cringed as the words left her mouth.
“Oh, but I’m only half fae,” he smiled wide, showing blunt teeth, showing that part of him that was human. “And you would be surprised how much the mortal part of me enjoys destruction.”
“You will honour this. You will save her,” Nana said in the firm voice Hermione recognized as her grandmother voice.
Voldemort’s nostrils flared. “Will I?” he challenged.
“Or you won’t get Basilisk back. Ever. The wand has bonded with her and it will follow her into death.”
Voldemort loosed a loud snarl that made Hermione’s weakening heart thumb once in fear. He stood stock still as he thought the crone’s words over. He knew she was telling the truth, he’d learned the history of wands from his uncle. He knew, as all fae and witch did, that once a wand bonded with a magical being, it either needed to be claimed by another through a duel, or given willingly, otherwise the wand’s powers would dissipate when its bondmate died.
Voldemort didn’t need the wand, he was the most powerful fae since Gellert himself. But the wand had absorbed magic from a long line of fae and even some witches over the centuries, and he could only imagine how powerful he’d be when he possessed it. He could not let such a powerful and useful artefact be lost just because of a little girl.
He waved his hand and golden light shot forth from his fingers and dissolved into Hermione’s chest. The pain ebbed away instantly. She felt an itch over her heart and her skin began knitting itself back together. Nana sighed in relief and pressed a damp kiss to Hermione’s temple.
Another wave of Voldemort’s hand had Hermione levitating through the air toward him.
“Nana!” Hemione cried out, finally able to use her voice.
“You can’t take her now,” Nana protested, frantic.
Hermione hovered in the air but had stopped moving. “When?”
“When she’s of age.”
“And when is that?” He was growing impatient, both nana and Hermione could hear it in the rising octave of his beautiful voice.
“Ten years.”
“Ten human years,” Voldemort clarified.
Nana nodded her head stiffly, fighting the urge to grab Hermione and make a run for it.
Voldemort considered this before snorting. “A measly about of time. Take her,” he dismissed.
Nana released a stuttering breath. She ran to Hermione, clutched the girl to her chest and started toward the tree line.
Voldemort’s voice stopped her, “She is not to be touched until then.” His voice was firm, his demand unnegotiable. Nana’s shoulder hunched towards her ears as she tensed. She pursed her lips but did not respond.
Just before they broke through the tree line, Voldemort’s parting words were for Hermione’s ears only, “Goodbye, brat. For now.”
::
She’d been playing outside, being sure to never stray more than a few feet away from the house, when she saw him.
“Nana!” Hermione shouted, instantly fearful that he had come to take her away, come to collect the price he’d been promised for saving her heart.
Nana rushed out of the kitchen door, hands caked in flour and greying hair falling out of its bun. When she saw what had frightened her granddaughter so, she pushed the young witch behind her and created a physical barrier between the fae prince and Hermione.
The fae prince calmly weaved through the low hanging branches, surrounded by figures in dark clothing and masks depicting tortured animal faces.
The fae prince stepped forward out of the copse of trees he had claim over, arms laden with jewels and cloths of vibrant colours – colours that matched his robes and the circlet he wore in his raven tresses, a large, glittering emerald positioned between his small black horns.
“Nana, what is he doing?” Hermione asked fearfully, clutching the skirts of her grandmother’s dress. Hermione’s small fingers twitched with the desire to snatch those jewels away and clutch them to her chest.
(She looked at her hands in horror. What was this feeling? Why was she thinking such thoughts? What was wrong with her?)
“He’s courting you,” Nana said in a strangled voice.
Voldemort laid the treasures where the wards began – where he could not cross – and left without a word. The tall men in horrific masks silently followed after him.
Hermione was forbidden to play outside for the rest of the summer. But the gifts still found their way on her window sill. She never told Nana or her parents or any of her friends about them, scared that the adults would take her things away. Because that’s what they were, hers – and they would remain so.
Hermione knew that these types of thoughts were accompanied by a frisson of that wretched fog, so she hid the treasures under a floorboard and pulled her bright rug over it.
Sometimes, in her weakest moments, she would pass her fingers over the trinkets and wonder how beautiful the faelands must be if they could produce such wondrous treasures.
Sometimes, in her weakest moments, she thought about asking the fae prince to take her there.
:::
You become responsible, forever, for what you have tamed.
—Antoine de Saint-Exupery
::
Fae are stranger creatures, they latch onto things so quickly.
And no matter how he loathed to be compared to the simple, plebian fae that he ruled over, the fae prince cannot escape what he is: specifically, he cannot escape his fascination with this splendent slip of a girl that literally has a piece of him inside her.
When he saved the young Granger’s heart, he could only reverse the damage his talons had dealt by binding her waning life force to his immortal one. That kind of magic leaves a mark. And for the fae prince, the mark left behind took the form of a soul bond.
He’d captured a centaur afterward, to tell him of his future now that there was this new development. He hadn’t cared for the answer and, in a fit of rage, had severed the insolent centaur’s head from the rest of his body.
Tom did not at all need any type of distraction, not when he’d barely cemented his place as the first ever crown-less ruler of the fae. He did not at all need a soulmate to balance him. He certainly did not at all need to wait ten years – human years it might have been, but it was still more time than he’d ever have liked to wait – to reclaim what was rightfully his.
At first, he started watching the young witch so that he could learn her weaknesses and devise a plan to incapacitate her without killing her for the future.
Then he started leaving her little gifts because there was this very annoying voice in his head that sighed in dejection over the lack of finery his soulmate had. The fae prince could not fathom why the young witch was so content in her life when she had nary a jewel and kept wearing the same clothes every few days. Was she poor, or just tasteless?
But after the crone died, and he was left speechless for hours as the power transfer took place, Tom could not restrain himself from approaching her anymore. The biggest obstacle in his path had just been buried and he soon found that the wards around the ash trees could be overpowered by the new magic he shared with his soulmate.
He’d gone to her window in the form he’d assumed when they’d met in the clearing.
He’d wanted to say more, stay longer, but the little chit had been deathly scared of him, even going so far as to hide under her covers. He’d left with an ache in his chest that had been harder to ignore than he would ever admit.
He realised after that encounter that sometime during his two years of vigil she’d become the singular most important speck of anything in his life.
He had no intention of ever telling her that, though.
::
If ignorance is bliss, I must be ecstatic.
::
The creature had a red snarl when it came to her door.
(It had been almost six years since she last saw it. The last time being the night of Nana’s burial, when she had turned nine.)
Hermione did not notice the creature at first, too preoccupied with thoughts of the events that led to her current emotional conflict.
(The act was all slips and slides against sweat-slicked skin and heated kisses from the moment the first article of clothing hit the floor. Hermione clutched broad shoulders as an insistent mouth clamped around her nipple and suckled greedily. Her moans were forthcoming with no indication to stop.
His large hands grabbed her legs and split her thighs apart to reveal her center. A finger stroked her, and the male chest above her rumbled in appreciation at her wetness. A second finger joined the first and they both groaned as his digits sank into her most secret of places easily.
“Hermown-ninny,” Viktor growled into her ear. She clamped around his fingers in response.)
She liked Viktor, she truly did. He was kind and clever and broad and handsome and understanding and—
(Viktor collapsed next to her, harsh panting breaths tumbling from his lips.
Hermione lay still. She’d come – she could feel the evidence running down the inside of her thighs, mixed with Viktor’s own release – so why did she still feel so empty and dissatisfied?)
—and totally all wrong.
She paced around her room, hand tugging harshly on a curl as she chewed her lower lip.
“Brat.” The voice came from behind her door. Cold, angry, and inspiring instant dread in the brunette’s heart.
Hermione stopped pacing and stared at the brown piece of wood that was the only thing keeping her safe from whatever was on the other side. (She knew very well what that was, she would never be able to forget his voice, whether it be a beautiful baritone or a gravelly rasp.)
She stumbled back and fell to the floor in her haste to get away from the creature.
“You have defiled yourself,” it snarled. The voice was nearer, as if he were pressed right up against the door as he spoke.
Hermione’s breaths came out in erratic puffs, her heart pounded so hard in her chest she was sure a rib would break before this encounter was over.
There was a shimmering in the air and then the creature was standing in her room, having walked through the door as if it weren’t even there. Her muscles spasmed with the need to get away even as her limps were frozen in place.
“Well, brat, what do you have to say for yourself?” he snapped, baring teeth that had sharpened since the last time she’d seen them.
(He was just as beautiful as she remembered. Older, and perhaps sharper, but still of unearthly beauty.)
He growled as he stepped closer to her fallen figure. He crouched in front of her like that night in the clearing. And Hermione instinctively closed her eyes against the pain she knew was coming next.
Instead, there was a tingle on her face and she cracked one eye open to see that Voldemort had his pale hand resting on her cheek. Almost affectionately. Her stomach churned at the thought.
Adrenalin overcame her frozen limbs, and Hermione thrust a hand out to shove him away from her. Her hand went through him like he was just a hallucination.
“Tsk, tsk, little witch. You should have more faith in your grandfather’s wards. They still retain their pesky purpose of limiting my influence beyond the ash trees.” His mouth moved and words came out, but Hermione could only focus on the phantom hand at her face and the fear in her veins.
“Answer me, brat,” he bit out the word, intending to hurt her, humiliate her. Just as she had done to him. “Who was he?”
She finally found her voice. “W-what?”
“The boy who took you, who you allowed to soil you.” His teeth ground together, creating a grating sound that put her teeth on edge.
Hermione stared. This was why he was here? To gauge the identity of the one who had taken her virginity? Hermione would have laughed if she weren’t terrified of what the creature would do to Viktor if he found out.
“N-no one,” she stuttered out, unconvincingly.
“Really?” he sneered, beautiful face transformed into that of a predator’s.
Suddenly there was anger and it bolstered her confidence. “My body is my own. What I do with it is my business, who I allow to touch me is my business!”
Voldemort’s snarl grew and only then, faces inches apart and breaths ghosting over each other, did Hermione notice the dark, red stain over his mouth.
“What is that?” she asked, eyes wide.
Voldemort startled. “Nothing.” His denial was fast.
“Did you kill someone!” her voice was a shriek. She faintly heard footsteps outside her room but paid them no mind.
His intense gaze softened, and his guarded eyes made him harder to read. “That is none of your concern.”
“None of my concern? You come to my door with blood on you and demand to know who I’d given myself to, and you have the audacity to say that the identity of your victim is none of my concern.” Anger, rage, loathing and hate, that was all Hermione felt as she rose to her feet to tower over the creature.
Her breathing was labored as her mind raced a mile a minute. “Was it my parents?” she asked, fearing the answer.
She was given none.
Sparks flew though her brown mane. “Was it my parents!”
“No.” The reply was soft in the face of her raging storm, but that one syllable gave way to instantaneous relief.
Exhausted, she turned away from him. “Go away,” she mumbled, too drained to raise her voice.
In her peripheral vision she saw him reaching for her and prepared to use the last of her energy to distance herself when a flash of light hit his back.
Hermione and Voldemort simultaneously turned to the source.
Luna stood in the doorway, finger pointed at the creature, eyes hard and mouth a firm line. “Begone,” she intoned. “You are not welcome here, fae prince.”
Voldemort growled and Luna raised her finger higher; a threat, a promise.
With one last look at Hermione, Voldemort disappeared.
She didn’t see him again until years later, but she knew he was always there. And sometimes when she looked behind her, there was a shadow not her own following her footsteps.
::
The first time Hermione met Luna, it didn’t at all go the way she’d expected to meet another witch.
It went like this:
“You’re a witch,” the words were said in a melodic, excited voice.
Hermione tensed immediately but forced herself to relax, knowing that it was improbable that she was the one being addressed. Nonetheless, her curiosity got the better of her and she turned slightly to see the person who’d spoken. A pretty blue-eyed blonde stood directly behind her. She was wearing the most color blinding tie-dyed dress with actual baby turnips sewed onto it.
“Hi, I’m Luna.” The girl stuck out her hand.
Hermione blinked. She took the hand and shook it warily. “Hi.”
“You’re bonded, right? Usually, the bonds aren’t so obvious but yours are like fireworks at night.”
Hermione blinked again. “What.”
“Oh? Did you not know? I thought since you were a witch…” she trailed off and Hermione’s eyes widened in realization that this girl had, in fact, been talking to her.
“Who are you?” Hermione demanded. Her status was not something she’d planned on revealing to anyone. No matter how many centuries passed, it would always be dangerous for a witch to become exposed.
“I’m Luna,” Luna replied simply, looking at Hermione like she’d asked something silly.
Hermione leaned closer and lowered her voice. “How do you know I’m a witch? Did he send you?” she asked urgently.
Luna blinked owlishly. “I’m a Whisperer, we see things not even magical beings can. And the golden aura around you let me know you’re a witch. As for who sent me, well, I guess it was a he but I don’t think my father was who you meant.” Her tone was light and airy as she spoke, as if her words were of no particular consequence.
A Whisperer was a witch with the unique talent of being able to communicate with magical creatures, Nana had told Hermione, they were almost as rare as seers. To actually meet one…
Hermione sighed and ran a hand through her unruly curls. “I apologize for being so rude. I’m just, just, wary, I guess.”
Luna smiled brightly and grasped one of Hermione’s hands. “I understand. I’d be worried too if I was bonded to a fae.”
Hermione reared back, tearing her hand away from Luna’s. Her fingers splayed protectively over her hip where she kept Basilisk hidden. “How do you know that?”
Luna cocked her head to the side, blonde hair falling over one shoulder and catching the midday sunlight. “You don’t have any nargles around you and that only happens when nargles are very scared or when there is magic that repels them. You’re not at all a scary witch so it must be the remains of fae magic that once touched you – fae magic doesn’t care very much for nargles, you see.”
The brunette gaped. “You can tell all that just because there aren’t any, uh, nargles around?”
Luna nodded, bright smile in place. “I know a lot of things,” she chimed happily.
Hermione couldn’t control the smile that twitched her lips upward. “I’m sure you do.” This girl was like a ball of sunshine. She seemed odd at first, and perhaps she truly was in comparison to someone as down-to-earth and organized as Hermione, but there was this air around her that made it impossible to find her unappealing. Hermione wondered if it was some kind of magic or just Luna herself.
Unbeknownst to her – but predicted by Luna, if one were to ask the blonde – that was the start of a friendship of a lifetime.
::
“He’s been crowned king, you know.”
Hermione looked at Luna with a confused frown. “Who?”
The blonde’s eyes were the clearest she’d ever seen when she said, “Voldemort.”
(I’m coming for you, her dream had said. But perhaps it hadn’t been a dream.)
::
You are what I never knew I always wanted.
—Fools Rush In
::
The creature had ebony wings when she walked into her room and saw it standing at the foot of her bed.
Its wings were beautiful, all pitch black and downy feathers with sharp points on either end. They were more befitting of an angel than the devil she knew the creature to be.
(Perhaps it was another part of its allure, another part of the elaborate trap that is the creature itself.)
This form of his had to be the most breathtaking she’d seen. As she looked at its otherworldly face, she thought about Lavender. Her promiscuous honey blonde friend would have melted into a puddle at the very sight of those high cheekbones and dark, dark eyes and that mouthwatering lean physique.
“Brat,” he greeted, much warmer than any of the previous times they’d faced each other. (Not like Hermione had cared for those encounters so what did his new-found politeness matter?)
Hermione rolled her eyes and brushed past him to her desk. She’d been expecting a visit soon, but she was peeved to see that he was still every bit as annoying as he had always been. Fae were such stagnant creatures. “It’s ben ten years, I’d think you knew my name by now.” She dropped her bag and picked up her brush to keep her hands busy. She could feel the trembles starting to take hold of her but damn if she was going to cower and hide like the little girl she’d been at nine.
“I have always known your name, I just haven’t seen the need to use it.” (There was that warmth again. Did he have a fever or something? Could fae be affected by mortal sicknesses?)
The brunette rolled her eyes again but didn’t reply. He seemed to be awaiting an answer, but she was content to let the silence ensue.
Finally: “You know why I am here.”
Hermione’s hand stopped mid stroke. She swallowed, inhaled deeply, and continued running the brush through her curls. Stroke. “Uh, yeah,” she said condescendingly. Stroke. “I’ve known since that night in the clearing. Not to mention your grating voice in my dreams didn’t really give me a chance to forget – thanks for those, by the way.” Stroke. Keep calm, you can get through this.
Voldemort loosed a breath that grazed her turned back. Hermione suppressed shivers of an unwanted kind. “Your grandmother made a bargain. I have waited ten years and now I am here to collect.”
Hermione faced him in a flurry of wild hair and ice daggers. “Listen Voldemort,” she began, a hand pinching the bridge of her nose.
“Tom,” he interjected quickly.
The brunette narrowed her eyes. “What?”
“My name, it’s Tom.” His face was carefully blank as he said this.
“Tom,” She said slowly, unaware of the shudder that went through him at the sound of his name on her lips. “Like your mortal father.”
Voldem— Tom scowled. “My father is dead.”
“So it’s okay to claim the name you’ve avoided for years?”
His scowl deepened. “I am Voldemort to my court and enemies. My bride should refer to me more…intimately.”
Nostrils flaring and temper rising, Hermione stalked towards him. “I am no bride of yours,” Hermione seethed, jamming a finger into his chest in the heat of the moment. She gasped when her hand did not immediately pass through him.
“Not yet,” he said with a smirk, showing amusement at the terror that now coursed in her veins, whereas his chest ached that his mere physical presence had caused such a visceral reaction in her.
“You’re corporeal,” she spoke through gasps.
“Yes,” he replied, curt, irked. He needed to curb this irrational fear of him out of her.
“But—the wards, and the barriers and—how?” Hermione’s heart no longer resided in her ribcage, the organ had promptly dropped to the bottom of her stomach and remained there as stomach acids ate away at its outer wall.
“I’m king now, darling,” he responded, taking her trembling hand in his own. His eyes flashed as his grip tightened. “And nothing on this world can keep me from you.”
Crack!
A single feather floated down and rested where their feet had been a second earlier.
::
She had been in the faelands for weeks, imprisoned in a lavish chamber and denied every time she requested to be let out.
Voldemort – Tom – visited her every day at least once. He’d bring lunch if he imposed on her around midday, or he’d come into her room, without permission, and sit in the highbacked chair and attempt to make conversation with her.
There were only so many excuses Hermione could concoct while stuck between four walls before she ran out of plausible things and resorted to blunt rejections (and he didn’t seem to take that well).
He also brought bright jewelries set with rare stones. They lay collected on the dressing table, untouched. These were much more extravagant but she’d rather have the treasures that still lay hidden under her floorboard at home.
During the many days she’d been stuck there, her only consolation was the sight of the sprawling gardens under her window. She’d gaze out and focus on all the different exotic flowers when he visited, or sit on the sill as she read.
There was always bustling about, fae running around pruning and collecting and arranging the flowers into elaborate vases.
They were preparing for something, that much she could tell, but she did not yet know what the occasion was.
She’d asked the fae that attended her, but they would not answer. One bold fae with shining purple hair had suggested Hermione ask the fae king.
Hermione stood with her decision to not interact with him for all of one day before she gave in.
::
“Why am I here?” Hermione exploded as soon as the doors had closed behind him.
Tom gazed at her steadily, taking in the long, rose blush dress she wore and smiling slightly at the gardenias Narcissa had weaved into her hair. She was lovely to behold, and she didn’t even know it.
He walked to the small table and poured himself a glass of red wine before taking a seat in his customary chair.
“I assumed you knew why your presence is require in my lands,” he said, raising the glass in her direction.
“Don’t be vague!” Hermione snapped. “All I know is that you are collecting on my grandmother’s bargain. I have no idea what that entails.”
That brought Tom’s dark eyebrows together. “The crone never told you?” he asked, tone incredulous.
Teeth grinding together, the brunette bit out, “Told me what?”
“The bargain, what do you know of it?”
“I know that you saved me, after you shredded my heart, that is, and that my Nana promised you Basilisk.”
Raven tresses brushed his forehead as he shook his head. “No, that’s not it at all. Basilisk was my goal, but the crone promised me something much greater than my wand if I were to save her heir.”
Hermione’s heart thundered. She did not like where this was going. “What?”
Eyes as intense as liquid fire and pointed right at her, “You.”
The thundering stopped. “Me?”
Tom stood and put his empty glass down. “You were there that night. How can you not remember?” He was no longer looking at her, but his question hit Hermione with the full force of his gaze.
“I was barely lucid and only seven. I had no idea what was going on except that I was in agony and a monster stood no less than five feet away from me!”
“A monster…is that truly what I am to you?”
“You kidnapped me!”
“I took what was rightfully mine!” he shouted, facing her.
Hermione stormed to the dressing table and pulled the top drawer open, rooting around inside until her hand clutched around what she was looking for.
She threw Basilisk at the fae king and he caught it in one hand. “There! I willingly give you back your ancestor’s wand, so mote it be.” A flash of light extended from the wand and latched onto Tom’s right hand, transferring ownership.
“You have what you were after, now let me go.”
Tom stood in silence as he relished in the feel of Basilisk in his hand for the first time since the night of the Ritual of Renewal seventeen years ago.
Hermione watched him close his eyes and soak in the feeling of the wand. How could someone so beautiful be responsible for such horrid things?
“This was unnecessary,” he said softly, eyes still closed. “I had accepted that Basilisk would remain yours.”
“Well know you have it back.” Hermione turned her head away. She’d grown to care for the wand as if it were a sentient being, and at times it seemed like it was. Although she had no need for a wand, Basilisk had been with her for the past ten years and to not have it anymore…
No matter, if relinquishing her claim would earn her freedom, she was glad she had done it.
“Thank you for the wand, but I’m afraid I can’t let you go.”
Hermione’s head whipped back to him. “What?”
“When I took you from your room, I told you, you were to be my bride. That still stands; you are mine.”
“I DO NOT WANT TO BE YOUR ANYTHING!”
“Your personal feelings play no part in my decision. Like I said: you were promised to me and I am collecting.”
“I will fell you like a tree!” She screamed and her magic reacted, shoving him away.
He slid back a few steps but quickly regained his footing. “I don’t doubt that.”
That only made Hermione push harder. She drew on her grandfather’s and Nana’s magic to aid her own in surpassing the power of the fae king. It was a bad time to not have her trump card.
Hermione’s witchwind opened cuts in his exposed arms and face, still Tom persisted in his attempt to get closer to her.
In the blink of an eye, ropes shot out of Basilisk’s tip and restrained Hermione.
“I will drag you to the alter if I have to. You have no choice. Hermione.”
He slammed the door behind him and the ropes fell away.
Hermione slid to the floor and sobbed into her hands.
::
Tom pressed his back against Hemione’s door. He could hear her cries through the door.
The pain in his heart grew. It had been festering from the moment she’d confronted him and now it was agonizing, robbing him of his breath. He had to get away from here – her.
“My Lord!” Malfoy shouted in alarm as he came upon his king leaning heavily against the witch’s door. “Are you alright?”
“I’m fine,” Tom snapped, batting away his knight’s hands. “Inform the others, I wed in two days.”
Malfoy opened his mouth to protest, but Tom fixed him with a stern look.
The blonde gulped, “Yes, my Lord, right away.”
Tom watched dispassionately as Malfoy scampered away. He leaned his head back against the door and listened to his heart’s despair be echoed from the woman in the room.
::
Hermione slept through dinner and most of the next morning. Even when she woke she lay despondent in bed and wondered when her life had gone so wrong.
She hadn’t spoken to her parents or friends in three weeks and she had no way of knowing whether they were looking for her. How worried they must be. She hoped Luna had told them where she was, if anyone knew, it would be her Whisperer friend.
Since the day before, the bustling outside her window had increased into a frenzy but she didn’t have the energy to observe the change.
A striking blonde fae by the name of Narcissa, who had been her main attendant during her stay, tried to cajole her out of bed. It was a futile attempt.
Hermione was one the verge of falling asleep when another fae came in to talk to Narcissa.
“Have you fitted her dress, yet?”
“Not yet, Astoria.”
“We don’t have time, Mother. Draco is running around trying to make sure everything is in order and Lord King is nowhere to be seen. None of the knights can find him.”
“My son and your husband will make sure everything is in place, and Lord King will return at his own time. But I’m afraid my Lady is out of sorts, more so than she has been since her arrival.”
Astoria’s voice grew quieter. “Do you reckon she knows the wedding has been moved up? I hear Lord King had to bring her here by force.”
“Hush, Astoria! Begone with you. Send in Pansy with the Lady’s meal.”
“Yes, Mother.” Astoria curtsied and left.
“What did she mean?” Hermione croaked.
Narcissa startled. “My Lady, you’re awake!” She hurried to Hermione’s side and helped her sit up in bed.
“What did she say, about the wedding?”
Narcissa cast her eyes downward and seemed reluctant to answer.
Hermione grasped the fae’s hands tightly. “Please. I’ve been denied so much, don’t refuse me this as well.”
“Lord King,” Narcissa began but then stopped. She looked to the door nervously.
Hermione waved her hand. The door locked, and was silenced for extra measure. She tuned back to Narcissa expectantly.
“Lord King had planned to wed you a month after your arrival, but—” Narcissa stopped and wrung her hands.
“Go on,” Hermione encouraged although she knew no further news would be good news.
“But he instructed the planning to be hastened; you are to be wed tomorrow.”
Dizziness overcame Hermione and she roughly fell back against the headboard.
“My Lady! Are you alright.” Narcissa’s delicate hands fluttered over the witch.
Hermione settled under the covers gracelessly, more exhausted than she had been when she’d fallen asleep. “I would like to be left alone.”
Narcissa frowned. “My Lady, I do not think that is wise.”
“Please,” Hermione said, the word a plea on her lips.
The blonde’s frown became more pronounced, but she acquiesced. “As you wish.”
She bowed and left the room.
::
Tom returned to his castle in a worse state than he’d left.
His riding clothes were torn, his boots muddy and missing a sole, his skin was as pale as dolomite and his hair stuck up in places, and he stank of a slaughterhouse.
The fae king was a frightful sight for his subjects who knew him to be immaculate and in full control of his inhibitions. Fae are wild creatures by nature, but this king stalking through the halls made maid servants cower against the wall and the males stand protectively in front of their lovers.
No one dared intercept him as he made his way to his study where his knights waited.
He entered with a chilling breeze following on his footsteps. There was a new coldness in his eyes, a cold that did not bode well for any that crossed him. His knights knelt immediately in subservience.
“Avery.”
The knight jumped to his feet, head still bowed. “My Lord.”
“There is a mess in the eastern forest, clean it up.”
If Avery was confused he did not show it. “Yes, my Lord.” He nearly ran out of the room.
“Malfoy.”
The blonde stood and pressed a hand over his heart, head down. “Lord King, I am at your service.”
Tom ignored his arse-kissing. “How is my bride?”
Malfoy’s lips tipped down. “My Lord?”
Tom threw out his hand and Malfoy went flying into a wall. He slid to the floor with a thud.
“How is Hermione?” The fae king hissed.
“I don’t know, my Lord,” the blonde said honestly, trying and failing to sit upright. There was a sharp pain in his side every time he inhaled. “My mother tells me she sleeps most of he day and barely touches her meals. She only gets up to use the lavatory and read one book in the last two days, which I’m lead to believe is uncommon.”
Tom fell into his seat heavily. “Leave us,” he ordered the others. They silently filed out of the room and privacy wards fell into place as soon as the door closed behind them.
Tom waved his hand and Draco’s pain eased. At his king’s nod, he sat on a chair in front of the large desk.
“Apologies, Malfoy,” Tom sighed.
“There is no need,” Draco quickly appeased.
Tom’s mouth pressed into a thin line. “Has she truly not eaten?” he asked softly.
Malfoy swallowed. “Not a full meal since you last visited her chamber.”
Not since you made her cry, Tom’s mind whispered.
“Am I doing the right thing?” he wondered out loud.
Draco startled at the sound of his lord’s question. “My Lord?”
“How did you get Astoria to marry you, Draco?”
Draco didn’t know what to focus on first. The fact that his king had just asked him such a personal question or called him by his given name.
“I-I courted her, my Lord,” he said.
“How?”
“Uh, first I sent her gifts to catch her interest and proclaim my intentions.”
“I have done that,” Tom mumbled to himself.
Draco looked at his king but when Tom said nothing, continued, “Then I asked her if she would be partial to my company.”
“Asked?” Tom interrupted.
Draco’s eyes furrowed. “Yes, of course. She is a highborn fae, a lady of repute, I could not just take her like a—oh, oh.” Draco made the connection and would have smiled if his lord’s stare did not slightly terrify him.
“What?”
“My Lord, I… what you are asking me, does it have anything to do with the witch.”
Tom’s jaw clenched, and he grudgingly replied, “Yes.”
Draco stifled a chuckle. “My Lord, witches are not the same as fae, our customs and traditions, they will not be enough to win your lady over.”
“The what do you suggest I do,” Tom snapped.
Draco shrugged. “I don’t know. Have you tried asking her what she wants?”
Tom’s lips jutted out in a pout that he hastily smoothed out. “She…she wants to leave. She wants nothing to do with me.”
“Do you know why?” Draco pressed.
Tom’s fisted is hands. “I will admit, I have not been the best when taking her feelings into consideration,” he relented.
Draco sent a quick prayer to the God of the Wild and pushed, “Why not? You care for her, right?”
“Of course I do!”
Draco pressed his back further into his seat and willed his heart to beat slower. “You know that, my Lord, but is the Lady aware? Have you made you intentions clear, have you made sure she understands how much you lo—uh, feel for her?”
Tom opened his mouth to reply but snapped it shut quickly. their last interaction replayed in his mind for the millionth time since he left her room, but this time he looked at it with new eyes.
“I took what was rightfully mine!”
By Slytherin, he’d spoken of her as if she were an object.
“You have what you were after, now let me go.”
She had been so adamant to leave she’d given him Basilisk. Although Hermione had only had the wand for ten years, that was more of her lifetime spent with it than without, and to just give it away…she must have been extremely desperate.
“I DO NOT WANT TO BE YOUR ANYTHING!”
She’d all but shouted her feelings and yet he still refused to listen.
“Your personal feelings play no part in my decision. Like I said: you were promised to me and I am collecting.”
Had he truly said that? By the Wild, he was tactless. Tom dropped his head in his hands, fingers fisted in his dark tresses. He had to fix this.
“My Lord,” Draco called tentatively.
Tom snapped out of his inner turmoil. “Gratitude, Malfoy. I will…take your advice consideration.”
That was clearly a dismissal. Draco bowed his head and stood. “Of course, my Lord. Anything you need.”
He had his hand on the door handle when Tom spoke, “Actually, Malfoy, would you gather the knights and Hermione and meet me in the great hall.” Though it was phrased as a request it was clearly anything but.
“Now, my Lord?” Draco questioned, taking in his king’s appearance.
Tom narrowed his eyes. “Is that a problem?”
“No, no, but, uh…” he trailed off and looked pointedly at Tom’s bloody tunic.
Tom’s face blanked. “Tonight,” he amended.
“Of course, my Lord.” Draco couldn’t help the small chuckle.
::
Her head was a mess; she couldn’t think.
When had her life gone so wrong?
Hermione laid prone in the large and luxurious bed. Since she’d dismissed Narcissa, the fae had sent in a dark-haired female to try and coax the witch out of her depressed state. She wasn’t successful.
“My Lady,” Narcissa’s sweet voice spoke through the door.
“Come in,” Hermione said, voice a rasp from disuse.
The door opened and Narcissa entered, a lovely figure in a pale lavender dress, and a guilty look.
Hermione’s heart thudded. “What is it?”
“My Lady, it’s the king.” She wouldn’t meet hermione eye’s eyes.
“What about him?” the witch asked breathily.
“He has returned, and he requests your presence. Now.”
Hermione’s head flopped back onto the pillows. “Do you know why?”
“I don’t mean to presume, but it might be to discuss vows.”
“Vows?” Hermione echoed.
“Your wedding vows for tomorrow,” the blonde fae said remorsefully.
Hermione closed her eyes against a torrent of fresh tears.
“Is that all?” she croaked.
Narcissa nodded.
“Okay,” Hermione said, resigned. “Okay.”
She gathered her strength and tossed the covers off her.
“Make me ready, Narcissa.” If she was going down, she was going down with one last fight.
::
She walked into a large hall with Narcissa at her side and two knights at her back.
The hall was sparsely decorated. Darks wall, a few portraits, a large candle chandelier and exactly one chair.
She saw him lounged on the single chair as if it were a throne. His knights were stationed around the room, there were twelve in total.
Narcissa curtsies and gestured a hand at Hermione.
“My Lady Hermione Granger,” she announced.
Hermione stepped forward, gait steady, eyes locked on the fae king.
Tom’s dark eyes lit up at the sight of her. His lips twitched, and he would have smiled if he were a lesser fae.
His joy was such a dichotomy to her infernal unhappiness. She hated it.
Tom stood from his seat and addressed his knights, Narcissa having departed immediately after announcing Hermione, leaving the witch as the sole female in a room of dangerous fae.
“Knights, behold Lady Hermione, my bride.” Modest clapping followed his words.
Hermione pressed her lips together, drew her shoulders back and steeled her nerves. She channeled all her negativity into single-minded determination. She would not lose her focus, she would remain calm, she would get out of here, she chanted to herself.
“I am no bride of yours,” she said clearly.
Tom’s eyes flashed to something darker for a second before they reverted to their charcoal grey.
“Of course, we are not yet married, but that will be amended soon enough.”
Hermione ground her teeth together to keep from retorting immediately. Control, she reminded herself. “I will never be you bride, not tomorrow and not ten years from now.”
Some of the knights placed a hand on their sword, baring teeth at the insolence of the witch.
Tom put up a hand and they eased back.
“You don’t know what you’re saying.”
Hermione took a deep breath. “We’ve had this conversation before, Tom,” she reminded him.
Tom stepped closer to her, leaning his head. “And I am willing to compromise, take your wishes into consideration, but we will be married.”
He made to walk back to his seat. Hermione darted a hand out to grab ahold of the hair at the nape of his neck and pulled.
He turned to her with wide, shocked eyes. His knights went still.
“There is nothing to consider, I will not marry you. Ever.”
He grasped the hand holding his hair, and forcefully removed it from his person.
“You will be my queen,” he told her, dark eyes flashing red for the briefest of moments.
“I won’t,” she said with a daring flare in her eyes.
His grip on her hand tightened until she felt her wrist bones grind together and had to clench her teeth to suppress a whimper.
“Then you will be my whore,” he hissed, the sounds sibilant and unintelligible to all but her ears.
She leaned closer, encroaching on his space and making his knights draw in a collective, horrified breath.
“No, I won’t,” she said again, the words as sharp as razors. Refusing to yield, to bend.
He snarled at her and pulled her into his body with a harsh tug. She crashed into him and it shouldn’t have made her stomach flutter the way it did, her hands shouldn’t have flattened themselves on his chest as naturally as they did, his eyes shouldn’t have strayed to her lips and stayed fixated as they did.
He dropped his head to the crook of her neck. She tensed, thinking he would rip out her throat like the savage nundus from Luna’s stories.
Yet she only felt the hot whisper of his breath on her sensitive skin. “Please,” he said – pleaded, as if he were a mere peasant on his knees before a god and not a king that ruled the most powerful and feared supernatural.
“You don’t need me, fae king,” she said not unkindly, although all her instincts were shouting at her to rip into him while his guard was lowered, to decimate him until there was nothing left but the wicked horns that had haunted her dreams for years. “You have your wand, let me go.”
His arms went around her and he held on tight. He was gripping onto her like a lifeline that would cease to hold him up if he let go; she pretended it was a restraint.
“Please,” he repeated, groaning as his tongue flicked out to taste her skin and made her exhale shakily.
She gathered every single shred of composure and shoved him hard enough to loosen his hold on her. “No,” she said firmly, still pushing on his chest.
That was all it took for him to become that snarling, mad creature again. This being in front of her, he was Tom no longer.
Voldemort captured Hermione’s wrists and held them tighter than ever. The witch couldn’t withhold her wince as she felt the beginnings of violet bruises take root on her skin.
“Malfoy!” the creature roared. A blonde fae whose features she vaguely recognized almost stumbled in his haste to get to his king’s side.
“What am I doing wrong?”
The question took all by surprise, but none more than the brunette in the devil’s clutches.
Malfoy’s grew eyes (Narcissa’s grew eyes, Hermione realised) darted between the fae king and the witch. “I think you’re hurting her,” Malfoy mumbled.
“You think?” Voldemort seethed.
“You are,” Hermione said shortly.
“Be quiet, witch!”
Hermione’s cheeks colored at the scolding, she turned her eyes away and looked at the door. It was so far away and there were to large knights on either side. Could she make it if she ran?
“Advise me, Malfoy!” Voldemort commanded.
“I-I – my Lord, I—”
“Speak!” His breathing was labored and his finger’s pressed deeper into the wrists he was holding as he grew more agitated. Hermione cried out, Voldemort ignored her, Malfoy looked at her in alarm.
“My Lord, please, let her go.” The words were a plea but the effect they had on Voldemort was staggering.
The fae king released Hermione and reared back as if struck.
“Let her – go?” He sounded so very confused that a part of Hermione wanted to reach out and cradle him to her chest.
But that part was miniscule, negligible, so Hermione rubbed her bruised wrists and stepped well out of his reach.
“Yes, my Lord. It would be for the best,” Malfoy spoke softly, comfortingly. The other Knights of Walpurgis squirmed. They were clearly uncomfortable with the sight of their ruler so vulnerable.
“I can’t,” Voldemort stressed. “I cannot, I will not.” He was no longer speaking to anyone, his ramblings were turned to himself but said aloud, not meant to be heard but uncontrollable in his distressed state.
“You must,” Malfoy urged.
Hermione watched all this with a blank face and cold eyes. She should toss him around on a witchwind, she should turn the swords of his knights on him, she should reach into him with her magic and shred his insides.
She did none of those, just watched as the most frightening creature in her life and dreams fell apart before her eyes – as he abandoned the Voldemort and retook the simple, mortal name Tom. And she relished it.
No more, she decided, no longer would she look over her shoulder on windy nights in paranoia. No longer would she wound her magic tight around her in preparation for another visit, another attack.
No longer would she be afraid.
She stepped towards Tom, each step a reckoning on her unbridled dauntlessness. He straightened when her chest brushed against his. She looked up at him and he down at her but their roles were reversed.
There was something broken in his eyes, a deep sadness that she would have never associated with him. And in her brown gaze, Tom saw fire and ice clashing and colliding, creating a fire so hot it felt cold. He shuddered.
When she spoke, it was controlled, collected, searing in its intent and intensity. “I will find a way to break this bond.”
He believed her. How could he not, when she was so brilliant and brave, so determined to rid herself o the monster. Tom felt as if he were swaying on his feet. He wanted to close his eyes and sleep for a long, long time, but he forced them open because this was the last time he was ever going to see her, he was sure of it.
“I am going to leave now, and you will not stop me – none of you will,” she addressed everyone in the room. “I am going to leave, and you will never, ever come after me again.”
She looked at him then, right into his eyes. Whatever she saw must have been enough, because the next moment she spun on her heel and walked, unhurried, to the doors.
He let her go.
And when the doors closed behind her, he whisked himself to the deepest part of his lands, far, far away from the line of ash trees. There, he fell apart.
::
Her parents were waiting for her when she broke through the tree line, accompanied by Luna.
Tears she’d suppressed flowed freely down her cheeks and Hermione ran to her parents, crashing into her mother’s arms and sobbing.
“You’re safe now. He won’t ever get you again,” her mother whispered. Her father was a steady presence at her back, a barrier between her and anything that might try to come after her.
Luna looked into the trees, a frown on her face. This wasn’t the way it was meant to be.
The blonde looked back at her crying friend. Distress, that was what she sensed, but it was hazy, blocked, like one side of a bridge closed off.
This wasn’t the way it was meant to be.
I will help you, Hermione, the Whisperer vowed. I promise.
::
Months passed, and Hermione settled back into her life before the faelands.
Her hand often strayed to her hip in search of Basilisk, and each time her heart broke a little more when she realised it was no longer hers.
Months passed, and Hermione grew more restless, weary, purposeless.
Her previous hobbies were a nuisance. It was days before she picked up a book, and even more days before she bore through and finished it. she rarely took visitors and mostly ensconced herself in her room and pulled opened that floorboard. Ashamed but unable to help herself, she caressed her hidden treasures and thought of him.
She was no longer afraid, as she’d promised herself she would not be – just broken. (Like him.)
At the urging of her worried parents and close friends, she visited a shrink and spun a tale that was as close to the truth as she dared.
She spoke of a boy that had hurt her in her childhood, a boy she’d been foolish enough to trust because he had a beautiful voice.
She spoke of the boy giving her gifts and making her feel special but still afraid. She recounted how frightened she’d been when he had confronted her when she was fifteen, how she’d thought he would hurt her and her friend. How he hadn’t and she’d been confused, but relived and grateful.
She told of the boy becoming a man and whisking her away to a far away place, giving her the best of everything and keeping her imprisoned in a gilded cage. His friend convinced him to let her go—
His friend convinced him to let her go…
She told of how he had let her go – and then she remembered.
::
Luna stood in the doorway of her best friend’s room, watching.
Hermione was in the process of zipping up her jacket when the blond spoke. “You’re going to him, aren’t you?”
Hermione paused, hands dropping to her sides. “Yes.” There was no point in lying.
Luna came to stand in front of her friend and squeezed the brunette’s hands. “I think you’re doing the right thing.”
Hermione blinked. “You do?”
Luna nodded enthusiastically. “This bond you two have, it would not have formed if you weren’t meant for each other.”
Hermione’s brows drew together. “But then that day in my room, when you zapped him with magic—”
“He wasn’t ready for you yet, and neither were you for him,” Luna pointed out.
“And now I am?”
Luna smiled. “You both are.”
::
Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same.
—Emile Bronte
::
He stood half-shadowed in the ash trees when she arrived.
“You came back,” he observed, voice monotone.
“I did,” she responded, wringing her hands nervously.
She shuffled her feet and squirmed when minutes went by and he said nothing.
Then: “Why are you here? Have you come back to gloat?” his monotonous tone hadn’t changed.
“What?” Nervousness gave way to confusion and she looked at him directly for the first time. Illuminated by moonlight, his beauty seemed fragile in that moment. There were slight bags under his eyes, marring his perfect complexion, and his eyes were dull.
“I felt it, the bond, you’ve done something to it. You found a way to break it, didn’t you? And now you’ve come to torture me.” He sounded so resigned, so unlike that opprobrious king that had captured her.
“No, no,” Hermione shook her head. She walked closed the last few feet between them and crossed into the faelands, into the territory he had not left since shed asked out of his hall. She slowly lifted a hand and laid it on his cheek gently. He jolted and stared at her with wide eyes. “I came back because I missed you.”
“Missed me?” he echoed, unable for a moment to focus on anything but the warmth of her hand on his skin.
“Yes,” she breathed, rising up on her tip toes. She was drawn to him and, finally, she had no reason to deny it.
Tom reared back when her breath hit his lips. He put distance between them and leaned heavily against a tree. “No no no. You rejected me, ran away from me, told me never to come after you. And now – why?” his hands were clenched so hard his knuckles had turned paler than
Hermione’s heart cried out at the sight of him, at the sight she’d caused.
“I wasn’t ready,” she said, a pathetic parody of Luna’s words.
Tom looked at her incredulously and her cheeks warmed in embarrassment. Why did it sound so much more believable when her dreamy friend said it?
“Ready for what?” Tom asked.
Hermione took a deep breath. This was it. She couldn’t rely on Luna’s words. She had to tell his what she’d realised that day in the shrink’s office. What she’d always felt but never knew until she remembered.
“Ready for this, the bond…us. You asked me once why I couldn’t remember that night you made the bargain, and some things are still fuzzy but I can recall the important parts now. Such as you saving me and the bond that formed.”
He was listening to her avidly, eyes never once straying from her face.
“Nana, she did a spell on me before she died. I didn’t even remember it until a few days ago. But when I did, all sorts of feelings and memories came rushing back and it took me awhile to make sense of them.”
“The crone blocked your memories?” he asked angrily.
“No! Nothing like that, but it was a sort of ward.”
“A ward, on a person?”
“Yes, it didn’t make much sense to me either, until I researched.”
“And what did you find?” He’d moved closer, whether intentionally or not she didn’t want to think about. She was just glad to have him nearer to her.
“I found that my fear of you was irrational, unfounded most of the times. I found that I never really hated you, that I forgot about that night in the clearing too quickly for it to be just time. I found that the ward enhanced my ability to suppress traumatizing events and focal points attached to it.”
“Your heart wound and me,” he connected, shame colouring his tone when he spoke of her past injury.
Hermione nodded. “Yes. I also became exceedingly angry in your presence, always had an intense need to get away.”
He turned his head away before she could see the pain in his eyes. “Was that the ward, too?” he asked bitterly.
“Partly. I – you did make me angry very easily, but the ward spurred it to illogical heights.”
“What was the purpose of all this?”
“To protect me, I guess. Nana never trusted you and she told me to never, either. She made the bargain because I was dying and she was desperate. She meant for my instincts to keep me away from you for as long as it could.”
“What does this all mean, Hermione?”
She shivered at the sound of her name on his lips. She stepped closer to him, putting her hand back on his face and turning it towards her. “It means that I don’t hate you, never have, in fact. It means that when you let me go, my magic saw that as your way of protecting me and it finally trusted you enough to relinquish the ward. It means that we were meant to be.”
He stared deep into her eyes, an unidentifiable emotion churning in his.
Hermione’s heart stuttered. Could she have been wrong? Did he no longer want her?
She opened her mouth to apologise and leave when he surged forward.
He crashed into her body and knocked the wind out of her. Her lips parted in surprise and he took that opportunity to slide his tongue into her mouth, twisting and turning and exploring every inch of her. His hands grasped her hips and pressed her flush against him.
When he finally broke free to allow her to breathe, she gasped in lungful of air while he latched his mouth onto her pulse point.
“Never letting you go again,” he said between feverish kisses.
“Yes,” she moaned.
Tom placed his mouth by her ear and rasped, “Mine.”
“Yours,” Hermione immediately agreed.
He unfurled his wings to their full, glorious length.
He paused kissing her long enough to say, “Hang on.” She looped her arms around his neck and held him tight.
With one mighty stroke of his wings, they shot through the night sky.
::
They landed on a bed of sweet grass and wild rose petals. Hermione’s curls were sprawled in a dark halo around her moonlit face. Tom lost his breath. Mine. This is mine and only mine. She is mine. She is…magnificent.
His hands busied themselves unzipping her jacket as his mouth trailed her jawline.
“You are the sweetest thing I have ever tasted,” he said on a gasp, pressing his hips more firmly onto hers.
She sat up to help him rid her of the heavy clothing. As soon as her hands were free, they dove into his hair and pushed his face back onto hers. She pushed and pulled and he obligingly followed her rhythm. One hand remained in his hair as the other slipped under his tunic and splayed possessively over his lower stomach.
He growled at the feel of her satiny hand so close to where he needed her most. By the Wild, he’d been dreaming of this for years, even before he’d admitted to himself how much she meant to him.
Her hand edged his tunic higher and he helped her pull it over his head. He didn’t give her a chance to properly see him before he was at her throat again, nipping, biting, licking. That small taste he’d gotten in the hall had not been enough and now that he had her pliant underneath him he planned to sample every inch of her she allowed.
She dug blunt nails into his shoulder blades when he sucked just underneath her jaw and he hissed at the sensation.
“Tom,” she groaned deeply, making his cock twitch.
He pushed up on his elbows and hurriedly unbuttoned her blouse, needing to see more of her.
He parted the thin piece of silky material and pressed a straight line of kisses down her front, flicking his tongue over the pebbled peaks of her covered nipples every so often.
“Tom!” she mewled, and he did it again, just to hear that sound again. Impatient hands pushed his face away and her blouse went flying over his shoulder, landing with nary a rustle.
Hermione slid a hand between them and pressed it against the bulge in his trousers. “Hermione,” it was his turn to groan now.
He reached his hand under her and fumbled for a second before the hook of her bra unlatched. Her bra slid down her shoulders and the first thing he saw wasn’t her glistening breasts and dark areolas. His eyes fixed on the jagged scar over her heart and crippling shame crashed into him.
The muscles in his jaw jumped as he clenched his teeth together, eyes shining and cheeks crimson in anger directed at himself.
A hand touched his cheek and gently turned his face. Watery brown eyes filled with pain looked up at him. Tom swallowed loudly.
“I’m sorry,” his voice was the smallest it had ever been. Hermione bit her lip and nodded, eyes focused on a point over his shoulder, refusing to look at him and see the swirl of emotion in his eyes.
“I was young and foolish and angry, and I-I didn’t know what you meant to me. Hermione, I swear I would never—” he rambled until her finger pressed against his lips, quieting him.
“I won’t say it’s okay, because it’s not. But it was a long time ago and we were both very different then, so let’s just, forget about it for the moment. Please.”
Tom nodded. “Anything,” he said. “Anything for you.”
Her full lips crooked into a shaky smirk. “How about an orgasm?”
Tom’s eyes darkened and a pleased grumble bubbled up from his throat and spilled onto her lips as he leaned down to devour her mouth. “Anything for you.”
::
“You are the most beautiful thing in my life,” he declared, reverently stroking her soft skin. They were both naked now, and Hermione had stilled his wandering fingers so she could explore him at her leisure. Currently, he had batted her hands away from his chiseled chest to trace her round breast with the pad of his thumb.
“More beautiful than your crown,” she challenged with a cheeky smile, moaning softly when he flicked her nipple.
“I would give up my crown in a hearbeat if you asked,” he declared firmly, hand never stopping its journey.
She cocked an eyebrow. “Would you truly?” her tone was the lightest bit disbelieving.
He paused, thought, “Two heartbeats,” he amended, cheeks pink at his candor.
She laughed, and it was worth it.
::
“Slow down,” she laughed melodically, hands holding his shoulders to still his body.
He gave her a crooked grin that conveyed a sorry she knew he did not really mean.
He thrust again, slower this time, and they made a new rhythm, this one gentler and reaching deeper and in a few more moments, it would have her shattering around him as she came with a cry of his name.
Another gush of warmth flooded her lower stomach as she thought about how he’d look when he shattered along with her.
She clenched harder around him, willing his body into making that image in her head a reality.
Come to me, he’d whispered in her mind that first night they’d met.
Come for me, she now demanded of him with her lust-filled eyes.
Tom’s thrusts became erratic at the look in her eyes. He wanted nothing more than to see her come undone in that moment. He swiped his hand over her bundle of nerves and pressed down hard and she fell over the edge. She cried out his name, face twisted into the most primal of pleasure and magic singing in the few spaces that remained between them.
He pounded harder to reach euphoria with her. Her fluttering walls and clenching spasms delivered him and he came with her name on his lips like a prayer.
::
They lay facing each other, still linked more intimately than a simple joining of the bodies.
He moved slowly in and out of her and she matched his pace. Gazes locked, hearts laid bare, their magic an open channel between them, they complemented and completed each other like no two beings had ever before.
It was All Hallows’ Eve and the veils were at their thinnest. Ancient magic and spirits alike crossed the veil to witness the oldest wedding rites taking place between a fae and a witch.
“You are my ruin, my making, my benediction, my life,” the ancient words rolled past his lips like the most natural thing, like they were made for this moment, this moment with her in his arms and him enveloped in her and them in perfect harmony.
“In this life and every other, I am yours, as you are mine” she responded instinctively.
He looked at her with utter adoration in his eyes and her face reflected the same.
“With these words, I bind myself to thee and promise to cherish that which I have been blessed with,” he vowed.
“With these words, we become one soul, two bodies and a mind shared, for eternity,” she completed.
Tom leaned forward and they sealed their lives with a kiss.
When they shattered, they did it together, and it was the loveliest thing.
::
The End
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[clearly, I didn’t get the memo because this isn’t spooky at all. oops.]
[first time posting harry potter, guys, but don’t hold back, I want to hear everything!]
[for anyone interested, this was 17,000+ words. if you made it to the end: thank you, truly.]
[also, i had a good plan in my head but 3,000 words in I got impatient for smut that clearly wasn’t going to happen anytime soon, and somewhere around 13,000 inspiration struck again. so, sorry for the dog-chewed middle
@avasafari: Hermione Granger had been awake for 5 days straight, her body vibrating with energy in defense of mounting exhaustion. She did not suffer from insomnia or some other sleep disorder. Yet she haunted the house like a wraith, silently drifting from room to room, always moving. She was not cramming all day and night for exams or crying over a failed relationship. No, the reason why Hermione refused to close her eyes, to lie down in any position resembling horizontal, was that every night she went to bed, she died a horrific death.
The clock was mocking her, she was sure of it. Why call it the face of a clock afterall? If not to represent the laughing, taunting nature of father time.
Hermione Granger had been awake for 5 days straight, her body vibrating with energy in defense of mounting exhaustion. She did not suffer from insomnia or some other sleep disorder. Yet she haunted the house like a wraith, silently drifting from room to room, always moving. She was not cramming all day and night for exams or crying over a failed relationship. No, the reason why Hermione refused to close her eyes, to lie down in any position resembling horizontal, was that every night she went to bed, she died a horrific death.
Well, maybe not literally, but in dreams she witnessed the last hours of countless victims, a passenger seeing through their eyes as they met a grisly end. Every dream was so vivid, each victim and murder unique.
The nightmares began about a month ago or was that two?
The days now ran together in her dazed state, time a viscous liquid that she waded through so slowly, she often wondered if she was moving at all. She would fight the siren call of sleep for as long as she could, drinking coffee, energy drinks, exercising, but eventually she couldn’t help but to give in to it’s honeyed promises of peaceful slumber.
She could still remember the first dream like it was yesterday, it all started with a girl named Ginny.
Flashing white bulbs and neon colored signs competed for attention everywhere she looked. It was as if she were submerged under water, the lighting diffused with a soft glow. The evening held a dreamy quality to it, the wind whipping fiery red strands into her face that she pushed behind her ear. Sounds though sharp, were muffled and distorted, the noise putting her on edge. Various songs blared from worn out speakers as they passed, people all around were talking animatedly and laughing.
Her arm was entwined with a young man who had messy black hair. His green eyes crinkled when he smiled at her, the lights glittering off the round wire glasses that sat high on his nose. He was amused by something she’d said as he pulled her further into the crowd toward the ferris wheel. Oh no, she hated heights, Hermione wanted to yell at the mystery man, but she couldn’t speak. She could only watch in apprehension as her body walked up to the carney, handed tickets to the man and got into the rickety cab of death.
The ride wasn’t quite as terrifying as Hermione had anticipated, there was a sense of security she received from her companion, a warm feeling that flooded her gut. He had a muscled arm wrapped around her and she leaned into his warmth. The evening was a blur of faces, friends chatting, snacks eaten, rides enjoyed. She could lose herself in the nostalgia this outing at the carnival invoked, it felt more fun and carefree than she remembered experiencing in a long time. The girl’s boyfriend had stepped away to use the loo as she leaned against a nearby wall.
The restrooms were located quite far from the main carnival setup on the grounds. You had to practically walk back to the parking lot just to get there and it was poorly lit too. It looked like a scene right out of a horror movie, the young perky innocent girl, all alone in the dark, waiting for her murderer to come. She was looking down at her phone, the bright screen illuminating her face, when she heard a faint sound.
She moved toward it and Hermione felt her fight or flight instincts kick in. This woman didn’t seem to possess Hermione’s same sense of self preservation and walked around the dim corner to investigate. Suddenly strong hands gripped her from behind and pulled her into a tall firm body. Within seconds she felt the prick of a needle go into her neck. The girl struggled desperately to get free, but with each wild flail of the arms and kick of her legs, she could feel her body was shutting down. She cursed her bad luck as she slipped into unconsciousness.
She couldn’t see anything, a course strip of cloth biting into her face. She went to remove it, but couldn’t move her wrists, in fact, her whole body felt tied down to a hard cool surface. This can’t be good, Hermione chided, doesn’t this girl know you should never go alone to check out a strange noise? This setup so cliché, Hermione internally rolled her eyes, trying to remember her tv history and if that included too many episodes of cold case files or some halloween slasher marathon. She couldn’t recall, though at the moment, she had more pressing matters to be concerned over.
She knew how this would play out and would much rather wake up, before the final act was performed. Wake up, wake up, wake up, she chanted, as she heard the creak of a door. The girl was trying to spew obscenities, but her mouth was gagged, as a man chuckled and ran a hand through her hair, playing with a strand between his fingers.
“I’ve been patiently waiting for you, my little lamb. Tonight is a very important night.” he trailed off as he ran the same hand along her cheek and cupped her chin. He leaned down to whisper in her ear. “You should feel very special, I’ve chosen you as my first and one never forgets his first time, as the saying goes.”
Tears were trailing down her eyes and her breathing was becoming erratic.
“Oh, sweet Ginerva or is it Ginny? You do seem to prefer being called Ginny, don’t you? Well, don’t you worry, you have nothing to fear. You were destined for greatness. I will make you famous, immortal even. Long after you’ve left this mortal coil, you will forever live on in the tales of this night. This story, our story will be on the tip of every tongue, burned into the hearts of anyone who hears it. Or maybe, and this is just me being entirely selfish, maybe I don’t want to share what we have with the world. What do you think?” He paused, then walked around the table, leaning down to her ear on the opposite side.
“Would you like to know a secret, my pet?” Here, he finally removed the object that kept her from speaking.
“I don’t give a shit about what you’ve got to say, you sick fuck! Let me go this instant. Harry will be looking for me, you idiot. I’m sure someone must’ve seen you with me and I don’t know if you’re aware, but I come from a long line of cops and my family will not stop until they find me.”
“Oh, sweet Ginny. Of course, I expect your family to find you!” He exclaimed, clapping his hands together.
“First they’ll find your two hands, then they’ll find your torso, that pretty little head of yours, the lovely lower half, and lastly your two legs and feet. Seven pieces to make you whole once more.”
“Untie me this instant! Give me a fair fight, you fucking coward!” She screamed.
“Such a filthy mouth,” he sighed, shoving the gag back between her lips, “I was hoping for a civil conversation, but I see now, that won’t be possible. I was going to serenade you with all the reasons why I chose you Ginerva, seven letters first name and last, seventh child, I could go on and on about why seven is the most powerful number and how you perfectly embody the number in walking, talking, human form, but the moods been ruined, hasn’t it? I suppose it was too much to ask for you to be excited about this journey we’ll share together. I get it, maybe I’d be less thrilled if I were in your place, but Ginny, can’t you at least appreciate that, in a sense, you’ll be living on forever. Forever Ginny!”
This man is clearly insane, Hermione deduced. I mean, where is he going with this monologue? It sounds to me, even he’s lost the plot. The room went silent and she couldn’t feel his presence hovering over her anymore. She wondered if he quietly slinked away, or was he just standing there unmoving, staring like a predator in wait. Each second that passed, felt like an hour, several hours, when out of nowhere there was a prick against her stomach, that was pushing with more pressure, and Jesus Christ, is this what it felt like to be stabbed? Ginny was now letting out muffled screams and sobs, as Hermione witnessed this terrible act. The pain that Hermione felt was numbed, but she knew it must’ve been agonizing as Ginny thrashed and cried against the assault.
Beep…! Beep…! Beep! Hermione jolted upright in bed, blinking, eyes madly darting around the room. She sighed, it really was just a dream. I knew that, she reaffirmed, dragging a hand down the side of her face.
Increasingly disturbed come morning as she awoke from each new and gruesome death scene, Hermione was determined to overcome these strange recurring night terrors. She had started to keep a dream journal after maybe the third or fourth night, with detailed recounts of everything she could remember. It was therapeutic writing it out and she felt a bit lighter with each swipe of the pen.
There had been a pretty blonde with wavy hair that giggled too much, named Violet or was that Lavender? She was sure it was some purple flower name. He had grabbed her from a dark alley as she was reapplying her lipstick, eyes glued to her compact, already wasted and barely standing. A little prick to the neck and Hermione was greeted with darkness once more. He was not fond of Lilac, he flayed part of her arms and legs, his sick manic laugh ringing in her ears along with the poor girls wails. Iris periodically passed out from the pain only to be waterboarded awake.
Then there was another blonde with straight hair and more of a plain face that went by Hannah. Hannah Abba, she’d actually created a last name for once. Hannah was terrified and begged continually to be spared. He who had no name, snickered at her naivety.
“Do you imagine yourself in a situation that warrants you to just walk away if you ask nicely enough?” His smooth deep baritone caressed as he cruelly cut off her air supply by shoving a thick cloth into her mouth and pinched her nose. He sighed as her face turned varying shades of pink and red.
“I’m doing you a favor, you know? You’re the human equivalent of stale white bread. No one cares about you, no one would remember you if you got hit by a car tomorrow. Not your so called friends, or peers. Not even that beta male boyfriend Neville. Sure, they may think fondly of you for a week, but after that, your memory will be gone with the ether. That’s how little your very existence impacts the world around you.”
As her skin tinged purple then blue, he released his hold on her nose. He pulled the cloth from her mouth as she took deep gulping gasps. She flinched when she felt him near once more, his breath upon her face.
“So you see, I’m saving you from a fate worse than death. To be forgotten, to have never been. No, the world will remember you, sweet Hannah as a tragic character, sure. A cautionary tale, maybe. But they won’t forget, no, they’ll always recall this very night, the night which you became a legend.”
He switched it up with a male victim another evening. Colin was tall, skinny and homely looking. When he smiled, his teeth looked about 2 sizes too big for his mouth. Colin was strangled with a plastic bag over his head. He who had no name was choking poor Colin over and over until finally he took pity on the poor sod by mounting him, and snapping his neck with a hard twist of the chin.
Hermione felt crazy, how could she be normal and create these grotesque visions. No well adjusted person fantasized about murder to the degree that she lived it every night. She researched the meaning behind dreams and the symbolism of the unconscious mind. Was there some hidden underlying issue that needed to be addressed?
“Honey, you look like death. You really shouldn’t stay up so late at night.”
“Thanks mother, I’ll try that in the future.”
We have retired F.B.I. Profiler “Mad Eye” Moody on the show today, “Mr. Moody, what would you say drives a serial killer such as the self proclaimed “Death Eater” or “Voldemort” that has eluded police capture for the past 6 years.”
“He’s been at large for 6 years, but he’s been inactive for the past 4, only recently re-emerging in the past 3 months.” Moody gruffly spit out.
“Mom, why do you watch this garbage?”
“The news? Honey, current events are important, you could stand to be more informed, you should sit down and watch with me.”
“The news is nothing more than depression inducing and fear mongering. I’ll pass.”
No, Hermione had much more important matters to ponder than brainlessly learning about what common household items give you cancer or which celebrities were having a baby.
All of her most recent dreams were about blondes, did she have some deep seated hatred for fair haired individuals. She couldn’t remember any particular trauma from her past that would result in her wishing for the death of blondes. Then again, the first victim she saw had vibrant red hair.
She consulted several sleep therapists in person and online, only to be disappointed with them spouting off the same information she had dug up herself already. In desperation, she even tried taking sleeping pills in hopes of blacking out, but those too failed to safeguard her from the haunting images.
Nothing helped and nothing changed. So she settled into her current cycle of staying awake for as many days as humanly possible, mind of over matter and all that, followed by crashing for a day, day and a half, repeat. At least then she was only faced with the horrors of her mind once a week, rather than Every. Single. Night.
~O-O~
Tick. Tock. Tick…. Tock….
Is it just me or did the clock just wink at me? Hermione blinked her eyes, staring harder at the enemy. She didn’t want to know the time, to know that it was god awful early in the morning and she should really be asleep right now, rather than standing in line for coffee like these other early bird bastards.
Hermione was tired, dead tired. What was that line from Fight Club? “This is how it is with insomnia. Everything is so far away, a copy of a copy of a copy.” That line epitomized her current state of being as she stumbled through her order, “No, it’s Hermione, H-e-r-m, ugh, just write G, it’s for Miss G. Thanks.” She muttered walking away to stand off to the side.
“I’ll have a coffee, black.”
Hermione whipped her head toward the sound, that voice. The pitch and tone of that man instantly gave her chills and her legs threatened to buckle beneath her. Luckily she was near a wall and was able to lean against it nonchalantly as her mind raced a million miles a minute. Could this be the man in her dreams, was that monster real? Was she even awake right now?
“Miss G, order up!”
Hermione took a deep breath and headed toward the counter. She raked her eyes over him, tall, dark, and handsome. His hair was artfully windswept, his gait confident, he smelled like money. Some understated cologne that lingered pleasantly in the air and made your eyes follow the source.
He held himself with an air of ease as if everything just came to him, yet the coldness he radiated made him seem unapproachable, untouchable even.
He noticed her instantly, leaning heavily against the wall as if she could melt into the shadows. Her eyes kept darting toward him, she was not as subtle as she imagined. It stirred the predator inside, she was so damn skittish, beyond normal attraction or nerves. She was dripping neurosis, with her twitching and constant subtle movements. Her hair was curly and wild, it seemed to reflect her agitation. She invoked the thrill of the hunt in him, which was odd to say the least. Intrigued he put on his friendly face.
She was staring off into the distance again, only realizing too late that her line of sight settled in his direction. He flashed her a grin with his dead eyes. She almost dropped her coffee.
“I’m so sorry!” She blurted out, blushing profusely. “You just look so familiar, I was trying to place you, but I can’t seem to figure out where I would’ve seen you before.” Or heard you, demon spawn.
“Tom, order up!”
He grabbed his coffee turning towards her, hand outstretched. “It’s ok, I get that more often than you’d think.” This time, the smile reached his eyes.
“I’m Tom.” He said tipping his coffee toward her in salute.
“I’m Hermione and really, I didn’t mean to stare. I don’t suppose you attend Hogwarts Uni and I’ve seen you around campus?” She blurted the first nonsense small talk she could think of.
“Oh no, dear!” He said with a hearty laugh. “I’ve been out of University for about 10 years now.” He invited her to join him.
“I shouldn’t, I couldn’t.” Hermione stammered, adjusting her messenger bag, wondering if he would chase her should she bolt for the door.
“Nonsense, come, sit”
“Um…ok.” She sat down gracelessly, bumping her bag into the table and knocking some of her books and papers from inside the bag onto the floor. Fuck, I’ll never get out of here now.
“I’m such a klutz lately, sorry. I feel like I can’t stop apologizing to you.” Please be annoyed and send me away.
“It’s fine, it’s early and you haven’t had any of your coffee yet. You have an excuse.” He offered charmingly. Tom bent down to help her gather her things. Hermione Granger displayed on one of her cover pages. “You mentioned you attend Hogwarts? And majoring in…” he looked down at the textbook Cognitive Psychology and Cognitive Neuroscience and a paperback Dreams and Nightmares: The Origin and Meaning of Dreams.
“I’m going to take a stab and say, psych major?”
Funny you should say “stab”, seems you have a propensity toward violence even in your everyday speech.
“It was a fair guess, but no. I’m a pre-med major, I have an academic interest in psychology, hence…”
She seemed friendly enough, but there was something in her eyes. He could see fear in them if he looked hard enough. She recognized him, which was absurd as he’d never seen this girl before. She held herself surprisingly steady, considering her instinct to flee, her body was facing the door and she held tension in her legs to jump up and run at a moment’s notice.
Fascinating. He wanted to splay his hand on her knee to hold her still, he wondered if she would faint if he touched her. Or would she fight him? Would he have to wrestle her to the ground and use his body weight to hold her down. He was getting excited just thinking about her underneath him.
“Is old Slughorn still teaching Chem?”
“So you did go to Hogwarts?” She countered, eyebrow raised. Liar, liar, pants on fire. What else are you lying about sweet prince?
“I did, but ages ago.”
They talked about some of his old professors that still taught, about some of her classes. The conversation flowed freely and Hermione found herself being lulled into a false sense of security the more she listened to his opinions and thoughts on current medical practices and some of the recent breakthroughs his research firm had made in cancer cell analysis.
Was she being paranoid in thinking this highly educated well to do man was a serial killer just because of the cadence of his voice. Of course she was being paranoid, but she couldn’t shake the feeling that something wasn’t quite right about him.
“I should get going, classes and all that.” Hermione was never good at a natural exit strategy.
Tom smiled warmly. “I’d love to see you again, allow me to take you to dinner tomorrow.”
“Tomorrow? Tomorrow night?” She choked, catching herself from a look of horror and forcing a pleasant expression on her face. This is it, this is the moment that I’ll regret my life choices once I’m lying blindfolded and tied down on his table.
“I’d love to, but I’m just swamped with midterms coming up and I have this research paper due on Tuesday…”
“Give me your phone. We can exchange numbers and meet up the next time you have a few free hours. I’d love to pick your brain on stem cell theory, you’re more enthusiastic and knowledgeable than my current interns. It would be great having someone like you on board.”
Now this posed a unique opportunity. Getting close to him, she could find out if her suspicions were real or merely a fantastic coincidence. Surely if he was a murderer, he wouldn’t be dumb enough to piss where he eats, wait, what was that saying? Don’t take a piss in the yard? Don’t piss where you sleep?
“Hermione?”
“Hm…?” Shit, I didn’t hear what he was saying.
Tom’s hand was outstretched, her phone in his palm. He placed it in her own, playing with her fingers in a surprisingly intimate way. He stood and leaned toward her ear.
“I look forward to our next meeting, Hermione. I can’t wait to get to know you better.” he breathed, then swiftly walked away.
What the fuck was that?
~O-O~
Hermione slept like a baby. Sweet, sweet peaceful REM sleep, no night terrors, no lingering feelings of disgust and horror upon waking. I haven’t felt this good in what feels like forever, she mused.
A couple weeks passed and she fell back into routine easily, school, study, work, repeat. It seemed like the nightmares and sleep deprivation were a thing of the past. She didn’t want to look a gift horse in the mouth, so she put the disturbing dreams behind her, locking them in a box within the deepest, darkest recesses of her mind.
“Hermione, can you pick up a prescription for your father tomorrow afternoon? I thought I’d be around, but Barbara filled the cancellation spot, so it looks like we’ll be in the office most of the day.”
“Of course mom, it’s no problem.”
Parts of Hannah Abbott were recently found buried in multiple shallow graves on the shore of the Thames by Reading. Seven graves, each containing a piece of her body. Police suspect this is another case of the self proclaimed “Death Eater” or “Voldemort” serial killer. He is known to stalk, torture, and kill his victims, disposing of their body, by cutting it up into 7 pieces.
Hermione stared at the tv, her eyes getting blurry and a high pitched ringing filling her head. Hannah Abbott, Hannah Abbo, Hannah Abba. Why did that name sound so familiar?
Ding.
Hermione looked down at her phone.
Hey, it’s Tom. We met at the coffee shop. How did midterms go? What are you doing this weekend? Want to have dinner?
Her stomach dropped.
Hermione ran to her bedroom grabbing her dream journal and flipping open her laptop.
“Honey are you okay?” Her mother called from the living room.
“I’m fine Mom, I just felt a headache coming on. I think I’m going to lay down.”
She furiously typed Hannah Abbott into google and opened the first article with a picture of a plain faced blonde smiling back at the camera. She typed in “Voldemort” seeing thousands of articles pop up in the search, scrolling down the screen names like “Ginny” “Lavender” and even “Colin” jumping out at her. This serial killer had been active on and off over the past 6 years, with his victim count suspected to reach as low as 23, as high as 48. The room started to spin and she was hyperventilating, this was real, all her dreams really happened.
She passed out.
~O-O~
Now that she thought about it, the dreams stopped around the time she met Tom. She felt like an idiot for not making the connection sooner! This had to mean something. She felt fear, yes, of course, but she also felt purpose and duty. Hermione was meant to prove his guilt and somehow stop his murderous killing spree, she just knew it.
Hello, Tom. It’s good to hear from you. This weekend sounds great! I’m available Saturday night, just let me know when and where. I look forward to seeing you soon. :)
Kicking off a revival of the blog with a Samhain challenge. Seems I got a lot of responses about Samhain. Why not! Here’s what gonna go down:
Sign-Ups: Effective immediately until Sunday, October 28th. 11:59PM EST. Anyone can join in. You can sign-up by messaging me somehow. If you want to remain anonymous, please let me know because I will be including the participant’s names on the side of the main blog page.
Deadline: You can submit at any time until October 31st 12:00AM EST Please be sure you submit your work and follow the submission rules all in the submit page. In the title bar please title your submission: Samhain 2k18 - Title - Any tags that make it above G rating if need be.
Example: Samhain 2k18 - Dust to Dust - Rough Sex, BDSM
Or: Samhain 2k18 - Bones
Please, also check off the appropriate tags for your work in the end before hitting ‘submit’.
Wordcount: No less than 2k.
Rules:
All ratings allowed.
Must be centered around Tomione.
Please proofread your work at least once before submitting.
No multi-chapters allowed.
Theme: Samhain ( "Samhain is a Gaelic festival marking the end of the harvest season and the beginning of winter or the "darker half" of the year. Traditionally, it is celebrated from 31 October to 1 November, as the Celtic day began and ended at sunset. This is about halfway between the autumn equinox and the winter solstice.”), Halloween, whatever your Tomione heart desires. Just make it spooky and dark.
!!!!UPDATE!!!! You’re allowed to post graphics for your fics if you wish! You’re even allowed to submit them to the blog as a preview (and yes, even include a summary of your story) before you submit your fic. Please include a summary at the beginning before your story. Summaries are a must here and I need to clarify that. And to finish this off, please remember that you must post your story to this blog (through submission) before you can post it anywhere else. It helps keep the blog up and running that way!
If you have any questions, feel free to ask! Please never forget that, for anything. Hope to see some of you signing up!
Yes I’m aware I spelled Samhain wrong in the past.
So on AO3, our lovely contributor @avasafari created a collection for everyone to post to for their Samhain pieces! Link can be found her: [x] Any questions, feel free to ask!
Also, please note that there is only one week left until sign-ups are closed for the Samhain challenge! Info about the challenge can be found here: [x]
Currently, we have 8 participants for the Samhain challenge. If you want to participate and haven’t already signed up, you still have time! Sign-ups end on the 28th.