Thank-you sentences for Satanstuckathome behind the cut; “omega!Clark just wants to nurse his pups and hungry!Kon doesn’t realize he counts”.
content notes: omegaverse, past child abuse.
(( chrono || non-chrono ))
Clark's DNA is a responsibility that he's chosen to take on, when he could've just ignored it and never said a word or done a thing about it. Could've chosen to never put on the cape or learn about the powers or learn anything about Krypton or be Superman or even "Kal-El" at all. But Kon's DNA is the only reason he was ever allowed to exist and something he never could've escaped, no matter what. He wasn't born the way Jon was and didn't grow up the way Clark himself did, and he's never existed in a way where he didn't know what he'd been made to be.
Clark did, for a long time.
He grew up a little more different than the other kids, a little more strange, but he wasn't born knowing everything that Superman was and everything that he had to live up to and be. That if he wasn't all those things himself and didn't live up to all those things, he'd be . . . scrapped in favor of an "Experiment 14", and no one would ever even know about it except for a lab full of people who wouldn't even care.
So their shared DNA is a responsibility that a grown omega had decided to pick up and carry, and a weapon and existence that a pup had had forced on them before they'd even opened their eyes for the first time. That they'd only ever had forced on them because Clark had picked up that responsibility to begin with.
No one would've been trying to make another Superman if Clark hadn't made Superman to begin with.
So Kon woke up knowing everything Superman was, and everything he was expected to live up to, and never had one moment of his life that wasn't affected by that knowledge. Wasn't born the way Jon was, and didn't grow up the way Clark had. That's not something that could've happened, for Kon.
If it had . . .
Clark would feel differently about him, of course, because he wouldn't feel all this grief and anger about what's been done to him and wouldn't feel so proud of him for being able to pull away from everything he'd ever known to do what he felt was right, because Kon would never have had to. So—yes, Clark would feel differently about Kon if he'd carried him himself, because of course he would. Kon would've had an entirely different life with entirely different experiences, and Clark would've felt things about all of that instead.
But he wouldn't love the kid any differently at all.
He doesn't know if Kon understands that, but at this point, he doesn't even know if Kon wants that.
I wrote this whole thing and then read the last bit where you’re asking for neurotypical people’s help, so sorry for the wall of text feel free to ignore.
In response to other people’s brains:
I can have a full song or part of a song or two songs mashed together or the…ghost? Of a song? Like just the vibe of it I guess? But there’s always something it’s never quiet up there. Actually, brain music is sometimes nicer to listen to than real music because it doesn’t cause sensory issues
I have constant inner word stream but it’s 99% narrative-based because if I’m not writing fan fiction in my head or reliving past scenarios then what is the point
I can force myself to stop thinking about a topic but it requires a lot of effort and doesn’t always work
I never know how long it’s been because there’s no difference between an hour and five minutes. However, I have noticed recently that I can put a thing in the microwave for 30 seconds, go bother the cat for a while, and come back just in time for the microwave to be done. Presumably my brain knows how long 30 seconds is but it won’t tell me, it just lies to me about being bored with the cat
My brain doesn’t scream at me about doing things that will feel good but it does scream at me about forgetting things even when I haven’t, but that’s probably the anxiety
I do not look at a room and know that it’s messy but being in a messy room is upsetting. My brain doesn’t tell me why it’s upset though so I’m mostly just Sad until I figure it out. Figuring it out =/= having the motivation or energy to fix it though
I do not pop my toes in my shoes but I do crack my knuckles and my back a lot
YES I will try to drown out thoughts with loud music. I will also change the song if I don’t like what I’m thinking. Also sounds can be awful and I don’t understand people who like those white noise machines because they are constant sound
I run into things all the time. What is spacial awareness I do not know her
I don’t have the molasses problem but if I decide to do a thing (even small things like having a snack) and then change my mind later my brain turns into a whiny toddler screaming “but you prooooomised!!!!!!”
Also this was too long for an ask so I’m submitting it as a post sorry!
Even outside of your fiction, you have a way with words that is inspirational in a soft, beautiful way I rarely find outside of looking at trees after heavy snow
i’ve been tagged by the wonderful @sarcasmisalifechoice <3
rules: answer the questions and tag as many of your followers you’d like to get to know better.
name: ainhoa.
nickname: people don’t really use them, but “ainho”, “nowi”, “ainhowi”...
zodiac sign: aries.
hogwarts house: never ask me this, i’ll have an identity crisis (hufflepuff maybe?????)
height: i never know for certain but like... 1,65m?
sexual orientation: bi.
favourite fruit: bananas or oranges.
favourite season: either summer or winter, i can never decide.
favourite book series: harry potter forever baby (and i love percy jackson too).
favourite fictional character: see: my url <3 (but i also love taako from the adventure zone now so i guess those two).
favourite flower: tulips maybe.
favourite scent: the sea.
favourite colour: orange (like, sunset orange or firey orange <3)
favourite animal: owls.
favourite band: i never know how to answer this... alt-j maybe???
coffee, tea, or hot chocolate: tea usually.
average hours of sleep: 8 to 7 more or less.
number of blankets: 1 or 2, depends on how cold i am.
dream trip: j a p a n
last thing i googled: the facebook page for my (future) uni’s literary journal.
how many blogs i follow: 1,373
number of followers: 2,029
what i usually post about: ummmm social justice, shitposts, the adventure zone, anime... yeah.
do i get asks regularly: nah.
thanks so much for the tag rebecca!!! <3 <3 <3
i’m tagging @danuuss, @arewerewolvespunkrock, @satanstuckathome, and @punkro, as well as anyone who just wants to do this. ^_^
For WIP Wednesday: omega!Clark and hungry!Kon please!
He doesn’t know what’s wrong, but if Kon doesn’t want him to know anything’s wrong–what’s he supposed to do, if the kid doesn’t want any of them knowing something’s wrong? How is he supposed to fix that?
Clark knows he can’t fix everything. That was one of the first and hardest lessons he had to learn as Superman: he can’t fix everything. He can’t save everyone. He can’t make everything right, no matter how hard he tries.
Your answer about Lex Luther needing to be more ride or die reminds me of the TV show Smallville. If you haven’t watched, it’s “what if Clark Kent was in high school in a monster-of-the-week farm town, and also was best friends with Lex Luther”.
Aka “if Lex Luther was ride or die for the kents, what would it take to turn him evil” and the answer they come up with has Such Implications holy shit
I've seen some of it, but only like the earlier-season stuff? So idk what that answer actually is, to be honest, hah. But like, CONCEPTUALLY "Lex Luthor is down bad for Clark Kent and things go poorly from there" is a thing I could get into, lol.
I love in the obligatory timkon sugar daddy au that Tim absolutely *cannot* conceive of the idea that Kon is attracted to him. Never crosses his mind that Kon flirted with him on purpose.
Chefs kiss 10/10 perfection
Kon, actively batting his lashes and leaning RIGHT into Tim's personal space as much as this cafe table will allow and making flirty banter about wearing skimpier clothes specifically For Tim while doing everything short of twirling his hair and giggling, EXPLICITLY: I like you. ❤️
Tim, an idiot: oh he REALLY doesn't know how to just talk to people normally, huh.
