If you're reading this, it means that this man has completely taken over my mind. A while ago I posted about an email he sent about a petition he made to oppose budget cuts to NASA astrophysics, I didn't think then that he would be the only thing I'm thinking about for weeks after. (Also I'm supposed to be studying for finals, but instead I'm thinking about this, so thanks for that) and here I am now, falling in love all over again, with this adorable scattered-brained but brilliant, too emotional for his own good, eyes light up like a child while talking about space, man. From when I first read his email, and said "I wish I could give him a hug" I've been up at night, thinking about him, organizing the table, crying when it didn't work, and poured my entire heart into this project. I wrote him a letter that I poured my heart into, which he has STILL yet to respond to. So here's a playful little "fuck you" for putting me through this and for symbolically leaving me on read. But also I can't be mad at you, because the thing is, I wouldn't change a single thing. How can I be mad at someone who has inspired and influenced me more than he will ever understand, who reminds me of why I study astronomy, why I keep going even through the tears, bad test scores and banging my head against the wall, a kindred spirit who also has the energy of "can't remember something to save their life because they have a million different things on their mind all the time. The way he talks about HIS heroes, the way I look up to mine. When I say I stand on the shoulders of giants I mean it. I love you.