i need to stop pitying myself and instead examine things like
im not going into specifics rn obv but. i know things ive done wrong. i KNOW they were wrong. i wish i didnt do them, sure. but i did. that was wrong. instead of hating myself for it or w/e im just gonna learn from my mistakes and from my past and ill finally
gh its never been easy for me to Stop thinking about something considering i have ocd but i can. do my best? distractions, etc. i can train myself better i know i can.
ill go back to not being a brat honestly i dont know why i started acting so bratty in the first place but ill figure it out
the only thing thats bothering me is bc im worried its me against the world again. idk why i feel like everyones against me but i wouldnt blame them. nstead of focusing ont hat ill keep working on it. i have to stop letting my disability (i havent been diagnosed yet. so. i dont want to say that i 100% have it even tho it makes sense) and disorder run my life