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A rare 1944 SB2C-5 Helldiver taking off from Ellington Field during the 2024 Wings Over Houston Airshow
note: I know I should be working on my other series, and I'm about halfway done the next chapter but I just got really inspired for this fic and I couldn't shake the idea. Hope y'all enjoy. Happy reading!
Simon Benoit x Reader
wc: 10.5k
warnings: not beta'd, one night stand (not Benny), cryptic pregnancy, baby (she is named), mentions of food, alcohol, fluff, angst, reader drinks coffee, team and WAGs find out at the same time, some Portuguese phrases (not important to overall story), a few French words (might be wrong, I tried my best but I only did French in school til grade 8), some time jumps but they're fairly obvious, not beta'd
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St. Lawrence Market is already busy and bustling by the time you get there.Â
Strings of little white lights, unlit, crisscrossed above the rows of kiosks, sun bright enough that theyâve been rendered unnecessary until later. The air smells like coffee, fresh bread, and strawberriesâthe kind that have just been picked.Â
You love it. Arranging to come almost every weekend is a small, relaxing routine. Wandering between stalls, buying too many fresh-baked goodies, and pretending you were the kind of person who could cook elaborate meals on zero energy with an array of fresh herbs and seasonal produce.
Today, you have a canvas tote slung over your shoulder and an iced coffee in your other hand as you browse the wares, pausing at a stand selling peaches.Â
Roberto, the 70-year-old Portuguese man who runs the stand, is standing there with his usual kind smile. Over the time youâve been coming to the market, youâve become a regular at his stall.Â
âOlĂĄ! Tudo bem?â
âGood morning Roberto,â you answer with a smile, sighing a little. âIâm good, Roberto. Glad itâs the weekend. How are you?â
He shakes his head at your words, lines on his face deepening as he frowns. âQuerida, you work too hard.âÂ
Before either of you can get another word in, a little girl no older than 5 runs up to him, tugging on his sleeve. âAvozinho, quem ĂŠ este? Posso comer outro pĂŞssego?â
He picks the girl up, propping her on his hip, and the way he speaks is the same soft voice he uses to speak with you. âQuerida, ela ĂŠ minha amiga. sĂł mais uma, nĂŁo quero que estragues o almoço, a avĂł fez o teu favorito.â He turns to speak to you again, a smile back on his face. âQuerida, you need to enjoy life more. Youâre young. Have fun. And the peaches are really good this week.â
âYou say that every week, Roberto,â you say with a smile.
âTheyâre good every week, Querida. What can I say?â
You laugh, picking up one of the peaches and turning it in your hand. Behind you, someone else steps up to the stall. You just barely see him in your peripheral vision. Heâs tall enough that he casts a shadow across the table in the midday September sun.Â
âAre they actually good?â He asks, accent blanketing his words.
His voice is warm and curious, and it's enough to have you glancing in his directionâand tilting your head up farther than expected.Â
The guy standing beside you is huge. Not just tall, but broad shoulders and long legs, definitely athletic in that unmistakable way that suggests professional sports or, at the very least, a lifelong dedication to a strict training regimen. His simple black t-shirt clings to his defined upper body, arm tattoos showcased, and definitely catches your attention. And the baseball cap, pulled low in a poorly veiled attempt to shield his eyes from the sun or conceal his identity, doesnât stop you from recognizing him.
How could you not? Heâs become a more consistent presence on your screen during hockey season.Â
Simon Benoit.
Defenceman.Â
You look back at the peaches as soon as you remember to, trying to avoid him noticing your moment of recognition. Roberto catches your eye as your gaze shifts, and you swear he smirks a little.
When you speak, your voice is steadier and calmer than you feel. âThey are. But, you have to smell them first?â
âSmell them?â
You pick one up and hold it in his direction. âIf it smells sweet, itâll taste sweet.â
Simon studies the peach. It's almost like he canât decide if itâs a prank or not. Then he leans down and sniffs it.
ââŚokay,â he says thoughtfully. âThat does smell good.â
âCongrats,â you say. âYouâve successfully passed Peach Selection 101.â
He laughs softly, the sound a little more raspy than you expect.Â
âIs there a final exam?â
âYou eat it.â
Roberto chuckles while Simon picks out two peaches and pays.Â
Grabbing three for yourself, you pay and step away from the stall, assuming thatâll be the end of your interaction. But as you move toward the bakery tent a few stalls down, you hear footsteps trying to catch up behind you.
âHey.â
You turn.Â
Simon is standing there holding one of the peaches out to you.Â
âI feel like I should thank you properly for the lesson,â he says.
âYou already paid for the peach.â
âStill,â he says. âSeems rude not to say thanks.â
You study him for a moment. Up close, he looks different from how he does on TVâless polished, more like a regular guy. A little awkward in a way that feels surprisingly genuine.
âYouâre Simon Benoit,â you say.
He grimaces as you full name him. âYeah.â
âI figured.â
âIs that a problem?â
âNo,â you say. âJust means if I give you bad fruit advice and it ruins your day, someone might blame me.â
That earns another laugh. Simon rubs the back of his neck, awkward, most definitely endearing, and absolutely debating something.
âSo,â he says, finally. âDo you come here a lot, or were you just wandering around educating strangers on the finer points of produce shopping?â
âMostly the second one.â
âGood to know.â
Thereâs a brief pause.Â
Slightly awkward.Â
You expect him to say goodbye. Instead, he glances toward the coffee stand a few stalls down.
âCan I buy you a coffee?â He asks.
You lift the iced beverage in your hand. âAlready have one.â
Heâs quick to bounce back. âOkay. Next one?â
You raise an eyebrow.
He seems to realize how that sounded.
âI meanânot immediately. LikeâŚsometime.â
You canât help the smile that tugs at your lips at his awkward correction. âAre you asking me out?â
âYes,â he says immediately. Then, after a half-second: âI think so.â
That makes you laugh outright. For someone who plays in front of almost 21,000 people on any given night, several nights a week, Simon looks remarkably nervous.
âWhat if I say no?â You ask.
âThen Iâll pretend this conversation never happened and go home with my emotional-support peaches.â
You consider him for a moment.Â
Heâs handsome, sure, anyone with working eyeballs could see that. And his tattoos are definitely a selling point. But, more than that, thereâs something earnest about him. And you like earnest.
âOkay,â you say.
He blinks. âOkayâŚ?â
âCoffee,â you clarify. âNext time.â
His face lights up in an almost boyish way.
âReally?â
âReally.â
He reaches into his pocket and pulls out his phone. âCan I get your number?â
You type in the digits, giving yourself a cute contact, and hand the phone back. Simon glances down at the screen, then back up at you.
âIâm glad I asked about the peaches,â he says.
âMe too,â you reply, adjusting the strap of your bag. âWell, Simon Benoit, enjoy your fruit.â
Then you turn and continue down in the direction you were initially headed.Â
Simon stands there for a second, watching you walk away, still holding the peach. Then he grins to himself.Â
Best damn decision heâd made all day.
It doesnât even take two days before the Maple Leafs locker room notices the change.Â
The room is loud in the comfortable, familiar way it always is after practice. Gear clattering as it's thrown into stalls, music playing a little too loudly from someoneâs speaker, and half the team gathered around the whiteboard, arguing over something that has nothing to do with anything.Â
Simon is sitting in his stall, unlacing his skates, when someone drops heavily into the seat beside him.
âAlright,â Matthew says, tossing a stray roll of tape into his cubby. âWhatâs going on with you?â
Simon doesnât even look up. âWhaddâya mean?â
âYouâve been smiling at your phone, two days straight, like a guy who just discovered the best thing ever.â
Simon snorts at his teammate's words.
âI always knew you were dramatic Kniesy.â
Matthew leans over, crowding him, trying to peek at the screen Simon had just turned off.
âIs it a girl?â
âNo.â
Matthew waits, just staring.
Simon sighs. ââŚyes.â
Matthew slaps his knee. âI knew it!â
That gets the attention of another teammate a few stalls away.Â
âBennyâs got a girl?â Someone calls.
âShut up,â Simon mutters.
Matthewâs grin just widens. âWhatâs her name?â
Simon hesitates for a moment before answering.
Matthew tilts his head. âLast name?â
âI donât know yet.â
âYouâre going on a date with someone and you donât know her last name?â
Simon shrugs. âWe met at St. Lawrence.â
Matthew stares at him. ââŚthe farmers market?â
âYeah.â
âYou picked up a chick over veggies?â
Simon is quick to correct him. âIt was peaches.â
From his stall a little ways down, OEL leans over. âDid you just say peaches?â
Matthew points at Simon dramatically. âHe got produce-rizzed.â
âThatâs not a thing,â Simon says.
Matthew ignores him. Staring as he presses for more information. âSo? What happened?â
Simon leans back in his stall.
âShe helped me pick out good peaches.â
âThatâs the whole story?â
âShe was funny.â
Matthew smirks. âDude. Oh, god. Youâre so gone.â
âShe just seemedâŚnormal.â
The teasing directed at Simon eased, just a little.
âThatâs rare.â
Simon nods. âExactly.â
He pulls his phone out again, glancing at the last text you sent him.
Princess Peach đ: donât be late. Iâm judging you already
Matthew notices immediately. âOh yeah,â he says, standing up. âHeâs completely gone.â
You arrive at the restaurant ten minutes early. Double-checking the text Simon had sent you earlier that night with the name and addressâonly sending it after your insistence on at least one nice date before he picks you up.
Itâs a fancy place. Somewhere youâd definitely not ever take yourself. Itâs the kind of place youâd only go on someone elseâs dimeâand you suspect heâd picked it, on the recommendation of a teammate, and in an effort to impress you. Itâs modern, not in a cold way, bathed in warm mood lighting and accented by a stunning view of Toronto.
Youâre grabbing a sparkling water at the bar, halfway through reading the menu, when someone approaches you.
âHi,â Simon says.
You look up. And blink. He had clearly tried. Dark jeans. A white button-down shirt, sleeves rolled up a little, hair still slightly damp like heâd been in a rush and didnât have enough time to fully style it.
âYou clean up well,â you say.
Simon laughs nervously. âIs that good?â
âIt means you donât look like you just came from the rink.â
âAt least thatâs something.â
The hostess escorts the two of you to your table, right in front of the window, and Simon pulls out your chair, helping you into your seat before sitting down across from you.
For just a moment, you both smile, that slightly awkward way people do when theyâre excited but still figuring each other out.
âSo,â you say. âHow were the peaches?â
Simon leans back dramatically.Â
âLife changing.â
âWow.â
âI ate one in the parking lot.â
âYou couldnât wait until you got home?â
âNo.â
âThatâsâŚsomething.â
The waiter comes by, listing off the specials. You listen carefully before agreeing on two appetizers, followed by drinks and mains.
Conversation flows surprisingly easily after that. Simon tells you about the constant travel during the season. You tell him about your job and how youâd once locked yourself in a library study room during college. He laughs so hard he nearly knocks over his water glass.
âSo what made you talk to me at the market?â You ask eventually, curiosity getting the better of you.
Simon rubs the back of his neck. âI was trying to figure out if the peaches were good.â
âSure.â
âAnd,â he admits, âyou looked interesting.â
âInteresting?â
âYou didnât seem like someone who was gonna freak out about me beingâŚme.â
You tilt your head. âYou mean a giant hockey player buying fruit?â
Simon laughs. âExactly.â
The food arrives, and you keep talking. About everything and nothing at all. Two hours pass without either of you noticing.
When you do finally step outside, the night air is cool and quiet. A tell that fall is in full swing. On the sidewalk, you and Simon stand side-by-side for a moment.
âSo,â Simon says. âI had a really good time.â
âMe too.â
He hesitates slightly, the same way he had at the market before asking you out.Â
âCan I see you again?â
You pretend to think about it. âHmmm.â
Simon waits patiently.
ââŚyes,â you say.
His shoulders relax instantly. âGood.â
Thereâs a small pause. Probably thirty seconds. Then you step closer, pressing a light kiss to his cheek.Â
Simon blinks in surprise.
âGoodnight, Benny,â you say.
Then you walk to your car.Â
Simon stands on the sidewalk for a second, stunned. Then he grins to himself. The boys are absolutely going to hear about this tomorrow.
What started as a simple coffee turned into a fancy dinner at Canoe the next week. Then another dinner. And another.
Simon is gone a lot for games and road trips, but when he is in town, heâs surprisingly normalâfunny, thoughtful, the kind of guy who remembers all the little things. He brought you take-out after long, late work days. Sends you pictures from hotel rooms with messages like This place has terrible coffee. Miss you.
Simon doesnât realize heâs nervous until he checks his phone for the fourth time in two minutes.
âYou waiting on a trade call or something?â Matthew asks from the hallway outside the locker room.
He shoves his phone back into his pocket. âNo.â
Matthew gives him a long look. ââŚyouâre waiting for her, arenât you?â
Simon sighs. âSheâs meeting some of the guysâ girlfriends upstairs.â
Matthewâs grin is immediate. âOh man.â
âWhat?â
âYouâre finally introducing her to the WAG committee.â
âThatâs not a thing.â
âItâs absolutely a thing.â
Before Simon can argue his point any further, one of the equipment staff members pokes his head into the hallway.
âBenny, your girlâs here.â
Matthew claps him on the shoulder. âGood luck, buddy.â
Upstairs, in the hallway outside the boxes, you pause at the top of the stairs.Â
Youâd only been inside one of those once. It was fancy. And definitely out of your price range. Walking closer to the suite number you were told, you pick away at non-existent lint on your top. You can hear the girls chatting from outside the door.Â
Pushing it open, you see exactly what you were expecting. A bright, modern space, overlooking the arena. Furnished, decorated and packed with a buffet and an array of drinks. And a group of women, standing around the island/bar-top in the suite.Â
The girls notice you right away.
One of them waves.
âYou must be her!â
You walk closer, cautious. âYes?â
âIâm Aryne,â the woman says warmly, standing to hug you like youâd known each other forever. âJohnâs wife.â
Another woman stands up, moving a little out of the group.
âIâm Ella. Iâm dating Matthew.â
Within about thirty seconds of entering the suite, you were introduced to six other people and handed a drink you didnât ask for but were thankful for anyway.
âYouâre Bennyâs mystery girl,â Ella says with a grin.
âMystery?â
âOh yeah,â Aryne says. âHeâs been really weird all week.â
You laugh. âWeird how?â
Aryne leans forward dramatically. âSmiling.â
Laughter erupts in the suite at her words.
âThat bad, huh?â You say.
âFor him?â Ella says. âExtremely suspicious.â
You relax a little. Theyâre friendly. Easygoing. Way less intimidating than you were expecting. So much better than youâd been bracing yourself for.
âSo, how did you two meet?â One of the girls asks.
You smile. âAt the farmers market.â
Thereâs a collective pause.
ââŚReally?â Ella asks.
âOver peaches,â you add, nodding.
Aryne bursts out laughing.
âOh my god.â
âWhat?â You ask.
Aryne wipes her eyes. âJohn told me, he heard Benny telling Matthew about that like it was a life-altering event.â
You lean back a little in your chair. âI did give excellent peach advice.â
âI believe it,â Ella says.
Moments later, the arena lights are dimming slightly as warmups start on the ice below. The ladies move towards the glass railing. You follow behind. The team skates out a minute later, helmets and jerseys flashing under the lights.Â
Simon comes to a stop near the blue line.Â
Aryne nudges you gently. âWatch this.â
No sooner than she finishes nudging you does Simon look up toward the box. His eyes immediately find yours. And his whole face lights up, something you know is uncharacteristic for him, especially when heâs âin the zone.âÂ
âOh yeah,â Ella says softly on your other side. âHe likes you.â
Down on the ice, Simon lifts his hand and gives a small wave.
You donât waste any time waving back to him.
Then Aryne leans toward you conspiratorially. âDonât worry. We already approve of you.â
You laugh.Â
âIs there a test Iâm supposed to pass?â
âJust keep him smiling like that,â Ella says.
You look down at the ice again. Simon keeps glancing up at you while warming up. It makes your chest feel warm.
âYeah,â you say quietly. âI think I can manage that.â
It wasnât long after your first official date that you and Simon made it official. And then you met the WAGs (getting along pretty quickly), which only bolstered in your mind how seriously he was taking your relationship. September changed to December really quick. Now the cold front was deep in the city, snow coating most visible surfaces. The usual Toronto winter.Â
Simon is halfway across the country on a road tripâlast one before the holidaysâwhen you wake up with a sharp cramp in your abdomen. You groan, rolling onto your side.
âOkay,â you mutter to yourself. âThatâsâŚnew.â
The cramps donât stop. In fact, they actually get worse. By mid-afternoon, you were pacing in your apartment, clutching your abdomen, and then all of a sudden, something warm trickles down your legs. You freeze in place.
ââŚwhat the fuck?â
Your first thought is that something is really, really wrong.
Your second thought is to call your best friend, Olivia.
Olivia arrives less than fifteen minutes after youâd called her. She takes one look at you, doubled over on the edge of your couch, before making an executive decision.
âYeah, nope,â she says immediately. âWeâre going to the hospital.â
The hospital visit starts out like any other. Questions. Blood pressure. A nurse asking about your symptoms. Then another nurse comes in. Then a doctor. Then an ultrasound machine.
Youâre lying on the bed, confused and uncomfortable, while the doctor frowns at the screen, pressing and moving the doppler against your abdomen.Â
âOk,â the doctor says carefully, âdid you know that youâre pregnant?â
You blink at the doctor, trying and failing to comprehend what sheâs telling you. âIâm sorryâŚwhat?â
âYouâre pregnant,â the doctor repeats gently. âAnd youâre in active labour.â
For several seconds, the room is completely silent save for the beeping of monitors and the usual hospital sounds. Your mind, though, is swirling with panicked thoughts. Thereâs no way that it's Simonâsâyouâd been careful, and even then, youâve only been seeing each other for 3ish months. That spirals you into panicked thoughts about his possible reactions. Would he stay with you? Would he want to break up? Is he gonna think you tried to trap him and have just been lying this whole time? Even if he does stay, is he really going to want to raise a child thatâs not his?
ââŚThatâs not possible,â you say, finally forcing out a coherent sentence.
The doctor just gives you a practiced, sympathetic smile. âActually, it happens more often than youâd think. Itâs called a cryptic pregnancy. Affects about 1 in every 500.â
You just look at Olivia sitting in the chair beside your bed. She looks like sheâs about to faint.
Simonâs phone buzzes just as the team bus pulls into the hotel.Â
Olivia: Call me. Emergency.
His stomach drops instantly.Â
Fingers shakily tapping at the screen. The phone only rings twice before Olivia picks up. Simon doesnât even have a chance to say anything before Olivia blurts out, âsheâs having a baby!âÂ
Pushing out the breath he was holding, he felt his muscles relax. For a joke, it definitely wasnât funny.
âShe didnât know she was pregnant!â Olivia rushes out. âSheâs in labour right now!â
The tension that had released from his muscles only seconds earlier seemed to return with a vigour that heâd only experienced during previous playoff runs. And heâs moving before he even realizes it.
âWhich hospital?â
Simon makes it back to Toronto and to the hospital just after midnight. His hair is mussed from running his hands through it, travel bag slung over his shoulder. He rushes into the hospital following the signs to the maternity ward, barely paying any mind to the people around him. Heâs moving so quickly that he almost collides with Olivia in the waiting room.
âSimon! You made it,â she says in relief.
His chest is tight with worry and something else he canât name. âIs she okay?â
Olivia smiled at him, relief palpable. âSheâs fine.â Then she steps forward, looking for him to follow her. âAnd so is the baby.â
When they arrive at the private room, Olivia knocks before gesturing for Simon to go in, whispering that sheâll be in the waiting area if they need anything.
Simon walks into the room slowly. Steps controlled and calculated.Â
Youâre sitting up in the hospital bed, exhaustedâand a little sweaty- holding a tiny bundled newborn wrapped in a hospital blanket against your chest. You only look up when his footsteps get closer to the hospital bed. For a moment, neither of you says anything.
âSoâŚfunny story.â You say, voice quiet, breaking the careful quiet.
Simon stares at the baby.Â
Then back at you.
And the first thing he asks is, âare you okay?â
The question surprises you. And brings tears to your eyes.
âYeah,â you say, voice hushed. âI think so.â
Thereâs a long pause.Â
Steady.Â
Not awkward.
âI know the timing doesnât make sense,â you add, rushed. âYou and I havenât been together long enough. And Simon, honestly, I completely understand if this situationââ
Simon places a hand on the edge of your bed.
âhey,â his voice is gentle as he speaks. âBreathe.â
He walks closer to the bed, closer to where youâre sitting.Â
The baby makes a small squeaking sound and nestles deeper into the blanket.Â
Simon looks down, his expression softening in a way youâd only seen him do a couple of times before.
âSheâs beautiful,â he says. âAnd really small.â
âSeven pounds,â you say, voice weak, wavering.
Simon nods slowly, then he looks back at you.Â
âYou went through all of this today,â he says quietly. âMostly alone. And your first thought, is to worry about me.â
You swallow.Â
Simon rubs the back of his neck, stalling, clearly searching for the right words.
âI know Iâm not the dad,â he says finally. âTimelines obviously pretty clear on that.â
You look down at the baby in your arms.
âBut,â Simon continues, voice steadier than before, âI care about you. A lot. And if youâll let meâŚIâd like to stick around.â
As you try to absorb the words, all you can do is blink at him.
âFor you,â he says. âAndâŚfor her too.â
The baby makes another soft noise, like sheâs upset no one's giving her attention. Simon looks completely captivated. And you, you feel tears prick the back of your eyes.
âYouâre sure?â You ask.
He smiles at you. âYeah. I am.â Then he sits carefully on the edge of the bed, doing his best not to jostle you too much. âBesides, I think Iâm already a little attached.â
The baby stretches one hand out of the blanket, and Simon reaches over, rubbing his finger across the back of her hand. Then she reaches out, gripping tight onto his finger.Â
And in the Toronto hospital room, a few days away from the winter holidays, your strange, unexpected family began.
Simon had seen Adelaide before, technically.Â
The night she was bornâtiny and sleepy and fresh, bundled up in that pink blanket at the hospital. But that night was chaos. Full of exhaustion. And shock. This time it feels a little different.
Youâd been texting and calling and FaceTiming with him while he gave you space to try and adjust to being a mom. And today, you invited him over to your apartment.
Youâre sitting on the couch, Adelaide tucked against your shoulder. Simon just hovers awkwardly nearby, and he tries to remind himself that youâre both new to this, that youâre both adjusting.
âYou know, you can hold her Simon,â you say, voice gentle.
Simon rubs at the back of his neck, tugging slightly at the ends of his hair. âSheâs still really small.â
âSheâs eight weeks old.â
âThatâs still small. What if I hurt her?â
You laugh softly. âBabies are built for first time parents. Sheâs sturdier than she looks.â
He hesitates for a moment longer before carefully sitting beside you on the couch. You shift Adelaide slightly and guide her towards him.
âSupport her head,â you say as you place your daughter into his waiting arms.
Simon nods as youâve just given him extremely serious instructions. And when Adelaide settles into his arms, something in his expression gives way instantly. His body goes completely still, like heâs afraid even breathing too hard might send her tumbling to the floor. Adelaide blinks up at him, and he just stares back down at her in quiet amazement.Â
ââŚbonjour ma petite coccinelle,â he whispers.
You watch him. This man that youâve been falling for, definitely against your better judgment, looking like an absolute marshmallow, holding your daughter. His big hands looked slightly absurd holding such a tiny thing. But somehow it also looks exactly right.
Adelaide makes a tiny squawk before wiggling a little and resting against his chest.
Simonâs eyes widened. âIs sheââ
âShe does that when sheâs getting comfy,â you say.
Simon smiles down at the baby in his arms before directing his gaze to yours. âSheâs got your nose.â
You tilt your head. âYou think so?â
âYeah.â
Adelaide grabs onto his thumb, the one that had been gently rubbing her tummy, and holds on tight.Â
Simon freezes again.
ââŚokay,â he says, voice quiet. âIâm in trouble.â
âwhy?â
âBecause now, Iâm definitely attached. Good luck getting rid of me.â
You laugh and smile at him. Even with his words, youâre pretty sure that train had long left the station.
The locker room is loud after practice, in that same way it always is. Simon is halfway through unlacing his skates when Matthew walks over.
âSo,â Matthew says casually.Â
Simon looks up. âWhat?â
âYou gonna tell them or should I?â
Simon narrows his eyes at his teammate, whoâs standing there with a smirk and that look in his eye.
âTell them what?â
Matthew grins. âThat youâre basically a dad now.â
Simon groans.
Across the room, two teammates look over.
ââŚa what?â One asks.
Matthew points dramatically at Simon.
âBennyâs got a baby!â
The room goes uncharacteristically silent for a hockey locker room.
Simon sighs. âItâs not like that.â
âWhatâs the babyâs name?â John asks.
ââŚAdelaide.â
âHold up,â Domi says. âYouâve been hiding a baby?â
âSheâs my girlfriendâs daughter,â Simon clarifies.
Matthew leans further back in his stall, acting casual. âAnd Benny here is already carrying baby pictures.â
Simon glares at him.
Matthew pulls out his phone. âOh look, I still have the one you showed me.â
âMatthewââ
Simon is too late to stop him. The photo of Simon holding Adelaide pops up on the phone screen, and all too soon, the phone is getting passed around the room.Â
One of the guys lets out a teasing, âAwww.â
Simon buries his face in his hands.
Easton grins, looking at the photo before looking at Simon. âDude, you absolutely look like youâre shitting bricks.â
âI was terrified,â Simon admits.
OEL nods approvingly. âSheâs cute.â
Matthew claps Simon on the shoulder. âCongrats on the emotional growth dude.â
Simon rolls his eyes, smiling at his teammate's antics.
You didnât intend to keep it a secret.
That was the frustrating part. You justâŚyou hadnât managed to figure out how to share the news yet. Because honestly, how are you supposed to bring up something like this?
Hey, yeah, by the way, I ended up having a cryptic pregnancy, and now thereâs a baby.
Every time you tried to go over the words in your head, they sounded more and more ridiculous.Â
So you kept putting it off.
One more week.Â
One more conversation.
One more game night staying home.
When the dam breaks, it happens on a Tuesday afternoon. Youâd asked Olivia to watch the baby while you met Aryne and Ella for coffee near the arena. The cafĂŠ was crowded in that familiar way that comes with the lunchtime rush, and simultaneously makes you glad that you didnât bring the baby with you.Â
Aryneâs already there when you arrive, waving you over to the table with a smile.
âEllaâs parking,â Aryne says.
You sit down and smile. âHowâs John?â
âStill getting used to not being captain whilst still trying to be a mentor, itâs a fine line apparently.â
âI can only imagine.â
Aryne laughs lightly. The two of you chat for a few minutesâweekend plans, the game from two nights ago, and some gossip about a rookie prank that resulted in orange hair. Then Ella slides into the chair beside them.
âYou guys will not believeââ
Her words cut off mid-sentence, and her eyes drift past your shoulder.
âWait,â Ella says slowly.
You turn in your chair.
Across the cafĂŠ, Olivia had just walked in. Holding your daughter.
You freeze.
Olivia spots you immediately. Thereâs a brief moment where your eyes lock with Oliviaâs. Aryne follows your gaze. Takes in your best friend. And the baby sheâs holding clearly has some of your features.
ââŚgirl?â She asks carefully.
You turn back to look at the girls.
Aryneâs expression had shifted. Not angry. More like confused.
âIs thatâŚyour baby?â Ella asks, voice soft.
Your table goes completely silent, and Olivia approaches, steps hesitant.
âI canâuhâI can go,â she says, words rushing out.
But itâs too late. Theyâd seen the baby. They knew she was yours; there was no point in delaying anymore.
Adelaide makes a small, sleepy noise, and Olivia hands her to you gently. She instantly settles in your arms. Olivia apologizes to you softly before moving to sit at the next table.
Aryne looks at you. âYou have a baby?â
You swallow.
âYes.â
Another momentary pause hangs heavy between you.
âYou didnât tell us,â Ella says.
The words arenât harsh or accusatory, but the way they landâheavyâfeels like something sitting on your heart.
You open your mouth, words coming out fast. âI was going to, I justââ
Aryne leans back slightly in her chair, voice shaking when she speaks, not with anger, but hurt. âWeâve been hanging out for months. And Iâve been through that a few times, you know that.â
âI know.â
âWe talk about everything,â Ella adds quietly.
âI know,â you say again, gently bouncing the baby as the guilt eats at you.
Aryne rubs her hands together, thinking. âDoes Simon know?â
You nod. âYes.â
That confirmation seemed to sting more than anything, that you hadnât leaned on your friends.
âSo Simon knew,â Ella says softly. âBut we didnât.â
Your chest tightened. âI didnât mean to keep it from you.â
Aryne shakes her head slightly. âMaybe not. But thatâs kind of what it feels like though.â
You look down at the baby. She just blinks up at you sleepily, completely unaware of the tension hovering over the table.
âI justâŚI wasnât quiet sure how to explain it,â you say quietly. âEvery time I thought about it, it sounded dumb.â
âExplain what?â Ella asks.
You take a breath. âI didnât know I was pregnant.â
Both women at your table just blink at you.
âWhat?â Aryne says.
âIt was a cryptic pregnancy,â you say, words sounding weak even to your own ears, despite them being the truth. âI found out when I was in labour.
The table falls silent again.Â
Ellaâs eyes widen. ââŚwait. Seriously?â
You nod.
Olivia chimes in carefully. âIt was insane. One minute she was having stomach pain and called me to the apartment, the next minute we were at the hospital and the doctor was like âsurprise, thereâs a baby in there.ââ
Aryne processes it. âThatâsâŚwild.â
âYeah,â you say, quieter than intended. âThatâs also why I didnât know how to bring it up. It sounds absolutely bonkers.â
Ella looks at the baby sleeping in your arms. Then back at you.Â
âYou still shouldâve told us.â
The words arenât cruel, but they are honest.
You feel your throat tighten. âIâm sorry.â
Aryne sighs, leaning forward again. âWeâre not mad that you have a baby. Were hurt because we thought we wereâŚcloser than that.â
You blink hard, fighting back the tears that were pricking the back of your eyes. âYou are. Youâre some of my closest friends here.â
Aryne studies you for a moment, then she softens slightly. âThen let us be part of your life.â
You hesitate, just for a second, then carefully pass the tiny bundle of blankets across the table.
Ella holds the baby first.Â
Her expression melts instantly.
âOh my god,â she whispers. âSheâs adorable.â
Aryne leans closer. âWhatâs her name?â
You smile faintly. âAdelaide.â
Aryne reaches out and touches the babyâs tiny hand. âWell, I guess weâre going to need a lot of baby pictures.â
You laugh shakily. And relief washes through your chest as you watch your friends fawn over your daughter, thankful that you didnât lose them.
Simon notices something is off the moment you walk into his apartment later that day. The routine had stayed the same since heâd given you a key to his place; hang your bag on the hook he hung up just for you, drop your keys into the dish, greet him with a kiss, and start telling him about your day before he even finishes asking the question.Â
Today, though, you just lean against the doorframe.Â
Silent.
âHey,â Simon says cautiously.
âHey.â
He crosses the room, closing the distance between you. âYou okay?â
You hesitate for a second.
âI had coffee with Aryne and Ella this afternoon.â
Simonâs shoulders immediately relax.Â
âOh yeah? Where?â
âAroma, by the arena.â
Simon nods. âGood place.â
Thereâs a pause. A short lull.
âThey saw Adelaide.â
Simon frowns, not really understanding the issue.
ââŚokay.â
âThe girls didnât know about her.â
In an instant, itâs cleared up for him. He straightens up, looking right at you. âThey didnât?â
You shake your head. âI kept meaning to tell them. I justâŚdidnât know how. It sounded so silly every time I thought about it.â
Simon runs a hand through his brown locks.
âSo they found out by accident?â
âYeah.â
He studies your face, trying to see what youâre not saying.Â
âDid they say something to you?â
You shrug, voice wavering slightly as you try to sound casual. âThey were justâŚhurt.â
His frown deepens at the sound of your voice and your word choice. âHurt how?â
âThey thought I didnât tell them because I donât trust them,â you say, softly. âOr that I donât see them as friends they same way they do me.â
âWere they mean about it?â
âNo. They justâŚjust told me how they were feeling.â
Simon sighs. âThat sounds like them.â
You look up at him. âYouâre not mad?â
âAt them?â
âYeah.â
âNo.â He shakes his head and then steps a few steps closer to you. âBut I am a little upset that you thought you had to deal with that alone.â
You blink at him.Â
Simon reaches over gently and nudges Adelaideâs tiny socked foot where sheâs sleeping strapped to your chest. âYou know theyâd lose their minds over her, right?â
You smile faintly. âThey already did.â
He moves so heâs beside you and wraps an arm loosely around your shoulders. When he speaks, his voice is soft with a tenderness youâve really started to notice: âYouâre allowed to let people care about you.â
You lean into his embrace. âIâm still getting used to that.â
Simon kisses the top of your head.
âGood thing weâre not going anywhere.â
Three days later, youâre home with Adelaide in your apartment, Simon out of town for a roadie, and you hear a knock on the door.Â
Looking at the baby in the bassinet, you lower your voice, âare you expecting company baby girl?â
Shuffling over, you swing open the door to find Aryne and Ella standing in the hallway. And behind themâŚbags. Lots of bags and boxes, all varying in size, shape and colour.Â
You blink at the girls standing at your door. ââŚwhat is happening?â
âWeâre here,â Ella says.
âI can see that,â you say slowly, still a little confused. âFor what?â
Aryne holds up a giant tote bag, packed to the brim with goodies. âBaby reinforcements.â
Before you could say anything else, they walked inside the apartment and immediately rushed over to the bassinet.
âThereâs our beautiful girl,â Ella says softly, voice sounding a little goofy.
Adelaide just blinks up at the faces staring down at her.
Aryne turns to you. âWe might have overreacted the other day.â
Youâre quick to wave off her worries. âYou didnât. Youâre my friends, and you shouldâve found out in a better way.â
âWe overreacted a little,â Ella admits. âBut we were mostly just sad we couldnât help you, that we missed the beginning.â
Her words have your heart squeezing in your chest, a little bit of guilt still eating at you.
âYou guys didnât miss it, not really,â you say, looking at them. âIâm still figuring it out.â
âI thought you might be, so we talked to Simon,â Aryne says, smiling, pulling a tiny onesie out of one of the bags. âBecause we brought supplies. All the stuff youâre missing or donât have enough of.â
Ella holds up another bag. âAnd snacks.â
âAnd coffee.â
âAnd a list of babysitters, all vetted or pre-trialed by one of the other moms on the team.â
You stare at them. Shocked by their kindness and generosity.
âYou guys didnât have to do this.â
Ella looks at you like thatâs the most ridiculous thing sheâd ever heard. âGirl, youâre dating one of the boys.â
âOkay?â
âThat makes you family.â
Aryne nods. âAdelaide too.â
That warm feeling that only happens when youâre cared for and truly feel loved spreads through your chest.Â
âWell in that case,â you say, gently lifting Adelaide out of the bassinet. âWho wants baby cuddles?â
Both faces light up, but Ella is quicker to jump in. âOh, absolutely.â
You smile at that, sharing a look with Aryne, and make a note to yourself to tell Simon to tell Matthew about her reaction.
You definitely werenât expecting to see him again. It was a short relationshipâcasual, a friend of a friend, months before youâd even met Simon, and long before you knew Adelaide existed. And you still havenât forgotten how, when you texted him, you wanted to talk; he hit you with a ânew phone, who dis?â And when you explained who you were and the situation, heâd blocked your number.Â
So you thought that was it.
Youâd never have to worry about him again.
So when you open the door one afternoon, expecting to sign for a delivery, and instead find Kevin standing thereâŚit feels like your heart drops out of your ass.
ââŚhi,â he says awkwardly.
You close the door, leaving it open only enough for your body. âHow did you find me?â
He shifts, uncomfortable. âI ran into Olivia and some other friends last week. They let it slip.â
You sigh.
Because of fucking course.
âWhat do you want?â
He rubs at his right shoulder. âI heard about the baby.â
Irritation prickles under your skin, but itâs overpowered by your lungs suddenly feeling too small.Â
Panic over anger.
And like a small miracle, Simon chooses this exact moment to appear in the hallway behind you. Adelaide balanced easily in the curve of his arm.
âEverything okay?â He asks.
You watch as Kevinâs eyes flick from you to him and then to Adelaide. His expression changes immediately.
ââŚthatâs her?â
Simon steps closer to you, almost instinctively.
âYes,â you say quietly.
Kevin stares for a long moment. At the baby. At you. At the family unit in front of him. Then he shakes his head slightly.
âI just wanted to see her.â
Simonâs voice stays calm; itâs the kind of calm that has that underlying anger. âYouâve known about her the entire time. Now youâve seen her.â
Kevin looks between you like heâs only now getting it. âYouâreâŚtogether?â
âYes,â you say.
Kevin nods slowly. Taking a deep breath, he gets ready to leave when his gaze catches on something he didnât see before. Adelaideâs tiny hand tangled in Simonâs hoodie string, gripping tight, completely comfortable, completely relaxed. And he exhales.
ââŚshe likes you.â
Simon glances down at the baby in his arms. âYeah.â
Thereâs a long, awkward pause. And once again, itâs Kevin who breaks it.
âYouâre doing a good job.â
The words are general enough, but the way heâs looking directly at Simon tells you theyâre meant for him.
âThanks.â
Kevin looks at you, for what you hope is the last time.
âI didnât come here to cause problems,â he says. âI just wanted to know how she was. That sheâs doing okay.â
You soften slightly at his words. âShe is.â
Kevin nods. Then he turns and walks away.
Simon closes the door with his free hand.Â
For a moment, neither of you speaks, then Simon pulls you into his side with his free hand, and you let him. You let yourself lean into his warmth and comfort.
âWellâŚâ you say, âthat was weird.â
Simon laughs quietly. âVery.â
It starts around 2am.
Simon wakes up first. His first thought is that he imagined the soundâa sound somewhere between a whimper and a cough, coming from the baby monitor on the nightstand. And then it echoes again, a tinny sound in the otherwise mostly quiet bedroom. A thin, unhappy cry.
Simon reaches across the bed, nudging you awake gently. âHey.â
You roll over and crack your tired, heavy eyes open just barely, looking at him. âWhat?âÂ
âI think Adelaideâs awake.â
âIâll get her,â you groan softly, sitting up, still half asleep.
By the time youâre standing, Simon is already moving down the hallway to the nursery.
As soon as the light switches on, the crying gets louder.
Not the normal fussy noise she makes sometimes. This is panicked crying.Â
You make it to the nursery in time to see Simon lean over the crib.
âHey, hey,â he says softly, voice still thick with sleep.
Adelaideâs little face is flushed, tiny fists clenched as she cries and cries. Simon picks her up carefully. Her body feels warm. Too warm.
âOkay,â he murmurs.
âWhatâs wrong?â
Simon shifts the baby slightly, walking closer so you can touch her forehead. As soon as you feel the warmth of her skin, your expression changes.
âOh no.â
âSheâs warm.â
âYeah.â
Adelaide cries harder. You take your daughter out of Simonâs arms and cradle her in your own, rocking her gently.
âItâs okay,â you murmur, tone soft and gentle, âitâs okay.â
But she just keeps crying.Â
Simonâs still standing in the same spot, body tense. âShould we call someone?â
âProbably just a fever,â you say quietly, though even to your own ears you donât sound completely convincing. âWeâll wait till morning, if nothing changes weâll go to the doctor.â
You try rocking Adelaide again. It doesnât help. The pained cries continue to echo in the nursery.
âShhhâŚâ you whisper. âBaby, itâs okay.â
Nothing seems to work. Not bouncing. Not rocking. Not gentle pats on her back. Even with the baby Tylenol, her cries didnât seem to subside.Â
Simonâs chest tightened. He hates this. Watching the tiny baby, the one heâs come to see as his own daughter, feeling miserable and not being able to fix it for her.
âHey,â he says, voice soft.
You look up at him.
âLet me try.â
You hesitate, just for a half second, before deciding what harm that could possibly do. Maybe your boyfriend could perform a miracle. Then you carefully pass the baby back to him. Simon holds her against his bare chest, one big hand supporting her head.
âHey,â he murmurs again.
Adelaide hiccups between sobs.
Simon slowly continues pacing the nursery.
âItâs okay ma petite coccinelle,â he says quietly. âYouâre alright.â
You lean back in the glider, watching. For a moment, just a moment, Adelaide keeps crying. Then the cries soften before slowly coming to a complete stop. She sniffles once. Simon just keeps pacing the room. Adelaideâs tiny hand rests on his chest, close to his heart. Within another minuteâŚshe falls asleep.
ââŚwhat?â
Simon looks down at the sleeping baby. âShe just needed a walk?â
You just stare at him. âI tried that.â
Simon shrugs helplessly, trying not to jostle the baby too much.Â
âIâm just very calming, apparently.â
You laugh softly, relief pooling in your chest.Â
Simon carefully sits on the ottoman in front of the glider, still mimicking the movements of walking about. Adelaide continuing to sleep peacefully against his chest. For a few minutes, neither of you speaks.Â
Simonâs the first to break the silence, âthat scared me.â
âMe too.â
You watch as he looks down at your little girl, safely cradled in his arms. When he speaks, his tone is almost reverent.Â
âShe trusts me.â
âYouâre her safe person,â you say gently.
Simon swallows. He wasnât quite expecting that feelingâthe sudden, fierce certainty that if anything ever hurt this tiny girlâŚheâd move mountains to stop it. He tears his eyes away from her and looks up at you.
âI know sheâs not mine,â he starts, voice soft and gentle.
You shake your head, immediately cutting him off. âShe is yoursâŚâ
Simon blinks at you.
âWhat?â
âYou might not be her biological dad, Simon,â you say. âBut youâre her dad in all the ways that matter.â
He looks down at Adelaide again. Her tiny fingers still curled up against his chest.
ââŚyeah.â He gently kisses the top of her head. âOkay.â
A couple of nights later, you and Simon are halfway through a grocery store aisle on a dinner run when Adelaide starts fussing.
Not crying.
Yet.
Just unhappy.
You shift her slightly in the car seat perched on the shopping cart. âSheâs probably getting hungry.â
Simon frowns. Then he crouches down to look into the car seat.
âHey,â he says softly.
Adelaide blinks up at him, momentarily distracted. Simon makes a ridiculous face, and her attention is fully on him instantly.Â
Then, she giggles.
Itâs a tiny, breathy baby laugh.
You just stare at the sight in front of you.
ââŚwhat.â
Simon grins at you proudly.Â
âHow did you do that?â
He just shrugs.
Adelaide reaches up toward him again.Â
Simon straightens up to his full height. âShe likes me.â
You cross your arms. âYou know she does.â
âWell,â he says thoughtfully. âShe has excellent taste, just like her mom.â
You try to stay annoyed, but the smile on your face gives you away so easily.
Adelaideâs three months when you finally return to the WAGs box for a game. Sheâs staying with your friend Olivia for the night, upon some firm insistence that you desperately need a ânormal adult evening.âÂ
You had just grabbed a drink from the kitchenette when you overhear someone sayâ âwait, thatâs Simon Benoitâs girlfriend, right?â
Another voice answers. âYeah. The one with the baby.â
The tone isnât kind, and whoever speaks next isnât much better.
ââŚpretty convenient timing if you ask me.â
The conversation stops you in your tracks. Even if you werenât supposed to hear it, you did. Before you have a chance to turn around and defend yourself, Aryne jumps in.
âExcuse me?â She says, voice sharper than youâve ever heard her.
The two women on the other side of the suite look startled.
âWe were just sayingââ
Ella cuts them off, voice almost eerily calm. âNo. You were implying something.â
One of the women shifts awkwardly in place at being called out, while the other stands firm, both in her spot and in position, lifting her brow at you with a distinctly nasty expression on her face.
âWell itâs just kind of weird isnât it?â
Aryne folds her arms over her chest. âWhat is?â
âThat she suddenly has a baby, just barely into her relationship with Simon.â
Ella smiles.
Itâs definitely not a friendly smile.
 âI mean itâs not really any of your business.â She says. âCryptic pregnancies are a documented medical phenomenon.â
The woman, the one who looked so sure of herself, blinks at you. ââŚwhat?â
âAnd, even if it wasnât,â Aryne adds coolly, âSimon knows the timeline.â
âAnd we know her,â Ella finishes, gesturing to you.
âSo unless youâre secretly her doctor or Simon himselfâŚmaybe mind your business.â
The one girl looks ready to say something until her friend tugs on her arm, pulling her back to their seats.
Ella turns to look at you. âYou okay?â
You nod slowly. âYeah.â
Aryne squeezes your shoulder with a smile. âGood. Now sit down.â
âWhy?â
âThe teams about to score.â
As if on cue, the puck flies into the back of the net, the goal horn sounds, and the crowd below erupts, all in quick succession.Â
You laugh. But for the first time since everything changed, you finally feel normal again.
Itâs been 10 months of you, Simon and Adelaide, and while unexpected, you wouldnât change it for the world. The day it happens, itâs entirely by accident. And somehow, that makes it worse.Â
Simonâs sitting on the carpet with Adelaide in your apartment's living room while you make coffee. Simon has one of her toys and is dramatically shaking it; sheâs laughing along.
âAttention please,â he says in a mock-serious voice. âImportant meeting.â
Something about the way heâs talking sends Adelaide into a fit of giggles.Â
Simon points to himself. âThis is Simon.â
Then he points to her. âThis is Adelaide.â
Then back to himself. âSimon.â
Adelaide stares at him, and he repeats the sequence. She opens her mouth, and instead of repeating after him, she says, âDada.â
Simon freezes on the spot. Completely.
In the kitchen, you stop moving mid-stir.
ââŚdid she justââ
Simon slowly looks up, catching your eye as you walk into the living room over to where they are.
âSay it again,â Simon whispers, barely managing to get the words out.
Adelaide claps her hands happily. âDada!â
Simon looks like someone has just unplugged his brain. âThatââ he points to himself. âThatâs not even close to my name.â
Youâre trying not to cry or laugh or both at the scene in front of you. âBabies say âdadaâ first sometimes babe.â
Simon just stares at your daughter. âYou know Iâm not actually your dad, right?â
Adelaide grabs onto the strings of his hoodie, pulling.
âDada!â
Simon sighs dramatically, but this time he is fighting a smile. âI guess Iâve been chosen.â
You sit down on the carpet beside them. âYou donât seem very upset.â
He looks down at the baby and then back at you.Â
His voice softens dramatically. ââŚIâm really not.â
The seasonâs now in full swing, and he should be focused on other things. Instead, heâs had this idea haunting his brain for weeks nowâsince Adelaide first called him dada, and since a week ago, a teammate had to rush away for an emergency with his kids, and Simon couldnât help but think about what would happen to him in that position. But saying the words out loud, that is terrifying.
He finds you over at his apartment after a game one night. Youâre sitting on the couch while Adelaide sleeps away in her crib. Sitting on the arm of the couch, he takes a deep breath, then pushes out harshly.
âHey?â
You look up at him. âYeah?â
âSoâŚIâve been thinking about somethingâŚâ
The words alone make you nervous.
âOkayâŚâ
Simon takes another deep breath. âI know Adelaideâs not biologically mine.â
You nod slowly, unsure where the conversation is going.
âBut,â he continues, âI want to be her dad.â
You blink at him. âYou are her dad, Simon. In all the ways that matter.â
âI know. But I mean legally.â
Your eyes widen.
Simon rubs the back of his neck, nervous, and your reaction doesnât really help reassure him that heâs not asking too much.
âIâm not asking right now. Or trying to pressure you. I justâŚâ he glances over to the hall, and then to the baby monitor, where you can see Adelaide sleeping. âI want her to have our last name someday.â
Your eyes fill instantly.
That reaction sends Simon panicking. âHeyâno pressureââ
You shake your head, laughing thickly through the tears. âSimon.â
âYeah?â
âThatâs really sweet. Really one of the nicest things anyoneâs ever asked me.â
He relaxes slightly. âSo thatâs not a no?â
You stand up from the couch, moving to stand in front of him. You wedge yourself between his thighs and wrap your arms around him.Â
âItâs definitely not a no.â
The Leafs do a variety of events for charity every year. The charity skate is a favourite of both the players and the community. Kids everywhere. Fans packed the stands.
Simon crouched in front of the bench, trying to tie Adelaideâs tiny skates.
âYou ready?â
âYes!â
You laugh from behind them. âSheâs been looking forward to this all week.â
Simon lifts Adelaide from the bench and carries her onto the ice. You move from behind the bench to lean on the boards and make it just in time to see your daughter wobble dramatically on the unfamiliar surface.
Matthew skates over.
âWhoa,â he says. âMini Benoit.â
âTechnically no,â Simon says.
Adelaide grabs onto his pant leg, clutching tight. Then she points proudly at Simon and shouts. âDaddy!â
Matthew canât manage to hold back his laughter.
âWell,â he says. âGuess the kid settled that debate.â
Simon looks down at Adelaide. His chest feels ridiculously full. Heart feeling unfathomably lucky.
âYeah,â he says quietly. âShe did.â
Once again, Simon had been stewing on something for weeks. Not the game, not the practice schedule, not instability of living on contractsâwhich he shouldâve been thinking aboutâthis was different.
Heâs been thinking about home. About what that means. And every time it came to mind, he landed on the same conclusion: home is you and Adelaide.
So on Saturday, while on a roadie, on a rare-ish day off for him, he calls you.
âHey,â he says when you pick up.
âHey yourself, you sound serious.â
âI am.â
âUh-oh,â
Simon laughs softly. âI promise itâs a good uh-oh. Iâve just been thinkingâŚI want you and Adelaide to move in with me. Or me with you. Or we just find a new place.â
Even though he canât see you through the phone, he hears the way your breath catches. âWaitâŚwhat?â
âI mean it,â Simon says, words coming out fast. âI know itâs a lot. But I think weâve been building up to thisâI mean we basically have doubles of all Adelaideâs baby stuff at my place. I canât imagine doing this without you two.â
Thereâs another pause on the other end of the line.
âAre youâŚare you sure?â
âYes,â he says, voice certain. âIâm sure.â
When Simon gets back in town, you make a plan to spend the following Friday driving around neighbourhoods and checking out potential houses.Â
Adelaideâs tucked into her car seat in the backseat of Simonâs car, and you can hear her babbling to herself softly as you drive around.
âRed!â Adelaide squeals, pointing out the window at a two-story with a bright red front door.
Simon smiles at the excitement in her voice, looking to the backseat in the rearview. âDo you like it?â
âYes!â
You glance over at him. âAre you sure you want to do this?â
Simon takes your hand, kissing the top of it.Â
âYes. More than anything.â
In that moment, heâs not thinking about how he could be traded at literally any time. Or that putting down roots, buying a house, could be all for nothing if he has to leave or if you decide one day that youâre done living with his lifestyle.
The inside of the house is even better. Itâs updated, modernized, without feeling cold and sterile. Itâs warm and cozy. On the main level, you walk into a perfectly sunlit room together, and Adelaideâs attention is immediately drawn to the painted pink walls.
âPink!â
Simon kneels on the floor so he can see Adelaideâs level. âThis could be her playroom.â
You laugh. âYou know she probably wonât keep it pink forever.â
He shrugs, grinning. âShe can choose. Whatever makes her happy. I want her to feel at home.â
You wander through the rest of the house. Through the kitchen, imagining meals together, the living room for movie nights, and a decent backyard, perfect for Adelaide.
Just as youâre nearing the end of the walkthrough, Simon pulls you aside. âYou know, this isnât just about the house.â
You raise an eyebrow. âOh?â
âItâs about us,â he admits with no prompting. âI want thisâŚour life. I want to come home every night to you and Adelaide and whatever else we choose. I want us to build everything together.
âIâŚI want that too,â you whisper, feeling your chest tighten at his words.
Adelaide runs back to you, giggling. Simon is quick to scoop her up, effortlessly, and it sends her into a fit of giggles. Giggles that echo through the fairly empty house and make it that much easier to picture a future here.
âThis is the one. This is our home now.â
The party takes over the living room and a lot of the main floor. Streamers. A cake shaped and decorated like a hockey puck, with extra sparkles upon Adelaideâs insistence.Â
Half the team showed up.
All of the WAGs.
Matthewâs leaning against the side of the house, on the covered patio where Simon is working the grillâthe Toronto winter weather not enough to discourage them.Â
âYou realize youâve completely turned into a suburban dad right?â
Simon shrugs. âIt feels right.â
Food is served. Everyone eats. Adelaide claps her hands excitedly at the decorations every time a balloon catches her attention.Â
Once all the plates are cleared, Ella walks over. âReady for cake?â
Simon laughs. âSheâs been ready for cake for weeks.â
You sit Adelaide in her highchair and place the smaller cake in front of her. Adelaide stares at it. Only for a moment. Then, she immediately shoves both hands into the frosting deep as they go. Everyone cheers. Simonâs laughing so hard heâs nearly crying.Â
âThis is chaos.â
You smile up at him. âYou love it.â
âYeah. I really do.â
The courtroom is small and quiet. Just you, Simon, Adelaide, a judge, and a few of your close friends sitting in the back. Youâve already been here for a while, going over paperwork and evidence and answering questions.
Adelaide is sitting on Simonâs lap, swinging her legs back and forth, playing with his hand thatâs resting on her midsection.
The judge smiles at her. âAnd whatâs your name?â
âAdelaide.â
âAnd whoâs this?â The judge asks, gesturing to Simon.
Adelaide looks up at Simon, a proud smile on her face and then turns to the judge.Â
âMy dada.â
Simonâs throat tightens.Â
The judge smiles warmly, looking at the paperwork again. âWell, it looks like he would like to be your legal father.â
Adelaide nods very seriously. You assume she understands, both you and Simon have talked with her at length to make sure sheâs involved and understands whatâs happening, to the best of her abilities at least.Â
âOkay.â
Everyone laughs softly.
The judge turns her focus to Simon, eyes narrowing just slightly. âAre you sure about this?â
âYes.â Simon doesnât hesitate.
The judge nods, then looks at the table in front of her, signing the documents.
âCongratulations.â
Simon looks down at the little girl on his lap, the one whoâs become his whole world. âI guess itâs official.â
Adelaide twists in his lap, hugging him to the best of her ability. âDada!â
You wipe tears from your eyes.
That scary night in the hospital feels like a lifetime ago now.
Simon didnât want a huge, dramatic proposal. And when youâd talked about it, you told him you didnât either. Heâd given it serious thoughtâarena scoreboard, fans cheering, centre iceâbut it didnât feel right. It didnât feel like you. Too public. Definitely too much pressure.
Instead, he chose somewhere simple. Somewhere with meaning for both of you.Â
The farmers' market.
The same stall where youâd met almost 2 years ago.
You didnât suspect anything when Simon suggested going on a Saturday morning.
âYouâre craving peaches again?â You tease as you walk between the stalls.
âAlways,â Simon says.
Adelaide toddles between you, holding each of your hands. Sheâd recently mastered walking and treated it like a competitive sportâconstantly ready to take off in a sprint.
âSlow down,â you laugh as Adelaide pulls you and Simon forward.
When you reach the peach stand, itâs exactly the same as it always is, exactly the same you remember it being the day you met Simon.Â
Same crates.Â
Same lights.Â
Same signs.Â
Same Roberto.
When he looks up and sees you all together, he smiles that same kind smile. âBack again?â
Simon grins. âBest peaches in the city.â
âYouâre ridiculous,â you say, shaking your head.
Simon turns toward you. For a moment, just a moment, he looks at you, really looks. Then he drops to one knee.
You freeze. âOh my god.â
Adelaide claps excitedly, thinking Simon is playing with her. Simon ruffles her hair, laughing nervously, then turns his attention back to you, pulling a small ring box from his pocket.
He starts by saying your name softly, âmeeting you here was the best accident of my life.â
Your eyes are already filling with tears.
âYou and Adelaide changed everything for me.â
Adelaide leans forward curiously, eyes focused on the shiny ring nestled in the box. âPretty.â
Simon smiles.
âI love you both more than anything. Will you marry me?â
You laugh through your tears, smiling so wide you feel like a crazy personâyouâre sure you look like one too. âYes!â
Simon barely gets the ring on your finger before Adelaide is throwing her arms around his neck.
âDada!â
People whoâd stopped around the stall clap for a moment before going on their way.
Roberto wipes his eyes with a handkerchief dramatically. âEstou tĂŁo feliz por ti, Querida. Sempre soube que estes pĂŞssegos eram especiais.â
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leaving
July 19, 2017
Sebastian leaned his head on Michael shoulder and Matt sat on the other side of him, the three sat on the stairs together listening to their parents arguing again.
They could hear their mother screaming at their father and most likely the glass they can hear shattering is their mother throwing cups around again.
The fights between the boys parents have become more common over the years, especially with hockey and if money was tighter around certain times of the year. It seemed nothing Todd did was good for Jennifer anymore.
Sebastian whimpered slighty hearing his mom sound so upset again and breaking dishes, He turned his head and hid his face against his oldest brothers chest and held tightly only Mattâs hand.
âItâs okay Sebby.â Micheal cooed softly rubbing a hand through his little brother soft brown hair.
Matt frowned guilty tightening his grip on Sebastianâs hand feeling guilty because they were arguing about moving to Michigan because of him and him getting drafted to the US Program.
âCome on letâs get to bed.â Michael told his two little brothers and stood up, He hated how much all of them heard the arguing but especially his little brothers.
Micheal led Sebastian and Matt in to his room and he pulled back the covers of his bed and climbed into it and laid down in the middle and Matt walked around climbing in on the other side lying down next to his older brother, Sebastian climbed in and cuddled into his older brother.
Michael wrapped his arm around both of them gently playing with their hair and getting them to relax and fall asleep as they ignored the arguing still coming from downstairs.
July 20, 2017
Sebastian woke up first and he got out of bed and paused hearing the sound of sobs coming from downstairs, he walked down the stairs slowly and saw his dad sitting on the couch sobbing into his hands.
Sebastian frowned in worry and walked over towards his dad, âDad?â Sebastian called out softly looking at him in concern.
Toddâs head snapped up hearing his youngest son soft voice, âOh Sebby.â Todd breathed out as he wiped his tears, he knew this was going to crush his sweet sonâs soft heart.
It was very obvious from a young age that Sebastian was a mamas boy, always crying unless she held him, always wanting to be with her and no one else, second he could walk he would craw into his parents bed and cuddle with him mom, he always picked flowers he saw and would bring them home for his mother and was always saying that she so beautiful, his first word was Mama.
Sebastian slowly walked over to his dad and sat down on the couch next to him, seeing a few stacks of papers on the coffee table.
Before Todd could tell Sebastian what was wrong, Matt and Micheal both walked down the stairs and frowned as their dad red and puffy eyes.
âDad?â Matt asked titling his head to side looking at his in concern as he walked over.
âWhatâs wrong dad?â Michael also asked in concern as he walked over and sat on the other side of his dad with Matt sitting next to him.
Todd took a deep breath and said the words that he knew would break his kids, âYour mother left.â Todd knew that his relationship with his wife had been rocky lately but it seemed like she started turning into a completely different person always caring about money and shopping.
âWhat?â Matt whispered out looking extremely hurt.
âYes.â Todd took a deep breath, âAnd she signed away all of her custody rights for the three of you.â Todd told them softly knowing no matter how he tells them itâs going to hurt all the same.
âNo. No no no no.â Sebastian quickly stood up and shook his head rapidly as tears filled his eyes, âShe wouldnât! Mom loves us and she wouldnât just leave! She will be back tomorrow. She loves us.â Sebastian trailed off feeling his heart breaking he turned around and rushed out of the living room and ran up the stairs ignoring the calls from the three downstairs and he slammed open his bedroom and slammed it behind him and locked it close.
Sebastian jumped onto his bed and buried his face into his pillow letting out heartbreaking sobs, his whole body shaking as his face was soaked with tears and snot running from his nose.
Micheal went to go stand up to get his little brother, Todd rested his hand on his eldest arm, âLet him.â Todd knew Sebastian needed some time alone.
Matt curled up into a little ball cuddling into his fatherâs side as Micheal stayed right next to him.
That day changed the whole house, Todd was focused on working and taking care of the kids, he seemed more emotionally gone most days. Michael started hiding his feelings and everything trying to be strong for his little brothers but really it was just pushing them farther away from him. Matt tried to acted happy and funny pretending nothing had happened and their mom didnât leave them, he felt so guilty because Michigan caused so many of the fights before his parents.
And Sebastian, he was no longer the sweet boy anymore. He was quieter and rarely talked to anyone anymore, he was angrier all the time snapping in hockey games a lot more often and getting into fights because of that and he was breaking his sticks more often. He no longer wanted to cuddle in bed with his brothers and be affectionate with any of them. He mostly stayed in room or outside shooting pucks most of the time.
Todd hoped that there move to Michigan would do all of them good, and hopefully become a fresh start for all of them.






