#scared of future

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Adorkable Twilight & Friends - “Time Marches On”

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[emmth]

Thinking about the future and having an anxiety attack.

Don't know what scares me more, the fact that there is a future or that it's not gonna be one in which I am happy

I used to get exited, thinking about my future...

[emmth]

In a few years I'll think back, and regret how I spent my days. And yet I can't bring myself to do things differently

[deardiariah]

Dear love, 

  We're approximately 2,630 Miles away from each other. That's just by city. Everyday with you, time spent back there, was one of the best ones I've had, although it was short and quick. I had to leave when i least unexpected. Finding out that i may not return until i finish school was painful. You have seen me cry through our first few Skype dates during the day and with you there with me, helping me feel like i'm at home. Helped me breath the humid Carolina summer air a little better. With you, i felt like i'm breathing underwater but doing fine it. i could've said yes when i returned, but i wasn't returning. You know that. I thought this was another relationship that will last less than a month or less than a year. It feels weird because we're almost in our 1st month. You counted the day i gave you your first kiss as our monthsary. I don't know if this will just be a temporary summer love, or just our hormones running. That's the thing, i didn't want it to be a temporary thing. 

   I'm scared that in the future, you and i will be sitting in the corners of our rooms, feeling the air to be tighter in our lungs and feeling a lump on our throats filled with words that we wanted to say but know that will hurt the other if said. I'm scared of losing ourselves into love. I'm scared of a lot of things about us. 2 years, you will be here. I'm just in my room, counting the days. Patiently waiting. 23 months. You said you wanted me to move in with you. i'm worried. I know there's nothing to be worried about, but i'm worried how our future will go as far as our career and personal lives. In the future, i know that we'll be filled with bills. Stress will lead us into emotional pain and emotional pain will lead to misunderstanding. I won't have anyone else. Sure, i'd have my parents and friends, but I'd felt ashamed just asking them to listen to what i want to say. They might not understand or simply listen. 

    I find myself thinking while laying down in bed, trying to re-live our kisses, hugs, the way you hold me... You. I want you in my bed. Not like sex. just you and i wrapping ourselves with each other's warmth through the cold night. I wish i was there, so i could hug you and kiss you. Let you hold me and feel like i'm physically protected by you. 

[whysper]

Copy Editing!!

Just finished my first pass through my final exam for my copyediting class!

After this class, I'm one class away from getting my certificate in Copy Editing. I'm so excited, but scared at the same time. 

Where am I going to work? Where am I going to live?? Magazine or publishing company? (Hopefully publishing company… crossing fingers.) 

[aania71]

I just wanna stop time or fast it forward because I’m scared of the moment when I will have to look for a job and have interviews. Working I’m ok with studying I’m ok with but time between studies and work is scaring me because what if I can’t find anything and what if I suck at interviews??

[searchingformyownfairytale-blog]

My birthday will be in two more days, but i swear i don't want to grow up, people around me are making such a big deal about this, and my school keeps on bothering us saying-what will you study?, are you sure about that?, you'll end up on the streets...And I'm like: Come on, it's my decision, not yours, i believe in my dreams. For once you should believe in them too...

I know that probably no one will read this, but i just had to write it somewhere i know people would listen without judging.

IT'S TRUE, I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MY LIFE, I AM SCARED, AND I WANT TO STUDY ABROAD, although NO one believes in me...i will, someday i will be in the house of my dreams, in the city where i want to be, maybe one day after all, i'll be happy, and I hope everyone in here gets to be happy to (not only here tumblr, i mean here, in this world)