#school is draining

[codybert]

mephone bore

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i accidentally made him similar to miku but i dont see that as a problem HAHS

[raiyarougenwr]

Messy sketch since I can’t sleep.

Nilah and Karl falling asleep after a long day of work and school.

Rose getting blackmail on her sister and papa lmao.

[inkstainedsouls]

I'm so done with school. I genuinly cannot anymore.

Its so close to the end of the school year and I cannot focus on it or even try at this point

I have so much stuff to do but I'm just too tired

[fearlesstorturedpoet]

I hate school

I hate school so much its crazy. I hate when I say "I hate school" and my friends laugh and say "You're such a child" in that tone that says that you're trapped even when they or their words dont. Yes i am a child, we are all children. We were meant to be giddy and learn things, not to be forced to do things against our will in a place we hate?? I hate school. Not because I have to study. Not because I hate following rules. But because I hate having to study with the sole purpose of it all being to give a stupid exam that my being rests upon till I escape this system. I hate school because I hate following rules such as "dont speak in Hindi" or "you cant go to different classes or floors even in the lunch break" or "You have to follow a specific order to get outside the building and then go to your bus/van/home". Why cant I speak my mother tongue in my home land? Why am I restricted to show a part of my identity? Why cant I explore places in the school itself when the Earth was populated by humans only because they took risks to explore the world? Why cant I just go home to where my loved ones are without following a specific order? Its not like the school cares whether I live or die? There's been literal MURDERS in several different branches of this school??? And why cant I just get to be human and go outside and soak in the amount of sunlight or rain i want to in my skin which MY MOTHER made in HER womb??? Why do I have to dance in the name and devotion of a god which i dont even believe in? (I go to a Christian school, im hindu) Why do I have to decide between sketching and writing down notes for my teachers to check ( i chose to write the notes over my passion and the teacher to check my notebook instead of spending a few more minutes with her child) Why do I have to sabotage poetry over and over again because "you cant stay up late, you have school tomorrow"? Why do I have to constantly choose something that wont matter to me when I'm on my death bed thinking of all my good memories and favourite moments of living? Why? I desperately yearn for an answer to my questions and yet all i get is another exam to repeat "You have to do this" to myself through everyday. And i hate how i have to pretend like my family isnt falling apart and dying. I hate having to smile when my dad is sick and has to have a 2nd surgery in 2 days from now. I hate having to pretend that Im listening to the teacher explaining maths when I couldn't care less about it because Im busy worrying about almost losing my house because covid fucked up my dad's business and we haven't recovered financially since because everyone keeps dying or being sick. I hate having to pretend to be a normal teenager when I think like a 40 year old who just wants to die. I hate relating to so many other depressed people (alive or not). I hate having to pretend I give a shit about having to make a project to get marks when the only marks im fully getting are from sh. I hate having to look in the eyes of my friends during exams season because they look so drained and sleep deprived due to not properly in weeks because they had to study. I hate having to delay an inevitable mental breakdown about not being well prepared to try craming information in my brain. I hate having to sit in one place for 5+ hours. I hate not getting enough fresh air to the point where I feel like im gonna pass out if I sit in the classroom for one more minute. I hate not being allowed to exist fully my whole life.

[liesandspookyfairytales]

I swear I'm currently working on some writings, but school is violently kicking my ass while hysterically laughing about it.

Like I've got 4 class deadlines, 2 big presentations and 3 other deadlines + a oral exam which will determine if I can even finish the schoolyear and I've got to find an internship all in the next 4 weeks 🥲

Why in gods name did I choose to get another education when I've already finished one 😭

But I did get the minor that I really really wanted! so next year I'm gonna study creative storytelling!

What should I finish/publish first?

Mafia au

Sleeping HC's

Protective HC's

Schoolbus graveyard au (not sure about writing this yet)

Other, please leave an ask! my requests are open and I love reading them!

Voting ended onMay 17, 2025

[blossompedal]

Omg tysm to everyone who comes across my account and follows love ya so much and I swear I will start posting more 💕👽

[chaotic-orphan]

OMG sorry for not replying back to your response to my febuwhump ask for the past THREE days 😭 

“Febuwhump ask” = 90% rambling, 8% fiending for Heroic Betrayal Supervillain, 2% asking about febuwhump

Because literally when you replied to my Febuwhump question and I saw your response, I wasn’t in the best mood, so I was going to respond the next day and then I ended up binge-watching a show instead, and then before I knew it, it was Monday, and then school absolutely swamped me from the sidelines anddddd now I’m here: late. 

Anywayyyyyyy, this is your girly 💍 Again, sorry for responding late- Because I asked you something, and then you responded, and I didn’t reply back- 

Thoughhhhhh, thank you so so much for your reply to my ask! I really appreciate it, lol- 

Okay, this is what I typed out on Saturday, and was planning on continuing on Sunday (ahem, it is now Wednesday if you haven’t noticed 😅): 

To be honest I’m not in the best mood at the moment- but your reply helped brighten it up- so thank you for that.

It made me really really really happy to see you write such a lengthy response. Like, the thing with me is, I’ll get really riled up while I’m writing my lengthy asks to you and a few hours after I send it I’ll start feeling anxious and insecure thinking I might have overdone it?? And I, like, overthink it- (until you respond and then I’m like: I can finally breathe again!). I guess I just don't wanna come off as annoying- And I’m not just saying that to get, like, sympathy points, it’s honestly just how I feel loll- I have to remind myself that when you answer other people's asks you never seem to mind it and even match their vibe a lot of times. I just feel like I go too far at times, and I’m like: “I don’t wanna overstep, but I also don't know how to articulate what I want to say without writing to this excessive length-” It’s a problem for sure- Because sometimes I’ll send you an ask, and as I’m doing something, like, i sent you an ask in the morning a few days ago, and was doing the dishes, and as I was doing the dishes I came up with like 3 others things I could’ve included in the ask- I just feel like I have to get it all out, ya know? Idkkk, it makes me think I overdo it a lot lolll, and you must have the patience of a saint to put up with it, haha-

Like I said, I was in a sensitive mood when getting your response, so it really gave me my spark back when I read the hashtags first (for some reason I skipped to the bottom?) and saw you say sorry for the length of your reply and I was like: “Oh?” And kinda perked up a little bit and went to read from the top, and you really out did yourself. Because, listen LISTEN, regretfully, and I mean very REGRETFULLY, I almost like didn’t WANT to read your response?? Which is VERY uncharacteristic of me, but I kinda shut down when I’m in a sensitive mood, it’s like totally subconscious, so I was like: “I’m gonna see if the hashtags will tell me if this response is worth it” (I swear I never never never would think that way rationally, I swearrrrrrrrr I love your responses but it’s just those moods sometimes?? I swearrrrrrrrrrr, pleaseeee don’t take this to heart- I become very condescending when I’m sensitive- though I also wanna be honest with you so that’s why I’m confessing that to youu-).

BUT THEN, (YEAH wait just a moment!), it’s like my self-pride came crashing down when I read a few specific hashtags at the bottom of your response: “Sorry for the length of this reply” (Oh?? Is it lengthy-?) and “just the gender thing gets me every time” (I assumed that meant you were gonna talk about female whumpees lol- as I think I read the beginning of your Whumpuary no. 4 before scrolling down? And it talked about female whumpees for the first fav trope). Anyway, what really kinda hooked me was the “sorry for the length” which is just an automatic grab at my attention, cause like my brain was trying hard NOT to care, but a tiny part of it was intrigued also- And so I decided to read it.

And, as I was reading it, I actually calmed down and smiled a little by the end- So, like, if you take anything out of that little ramble of mine, just know you indirectly helped my mood- 

Unfortunately, I didn’t read your response with as much enthusiasm as before… the FIRST time. I wrote this part of the ask on Saturday, so I’m going to try again and reread your response tomorrow (Sunday), when I’m more upbeat- I just wanted to let you know you cheered me up a little- Since, listen, you already give me quality and quantity replies, but you like, REALLY outdid yourself this time- and I really appreciate it. Though, ofc, I always appreciate all your replies. Also, I’ll probably touch on this tomorrow, but of course I’m gonna read the indents/your rambles?????????? BECAUSE how much have I blabbered my mouth off to you this past week???? You’re completely, awesomely, fine????? (#rizz? #get it? #cause I called you fine? #sometimes I embarrass myself, like, is that possible? Self-embarrassing oneself? Because why do I inflict this humiliation on myself and others?) 

Actually! I’m offended 😤 (JK!!! 😅) I would never actively NOT read your beautiful writing, even if it is a ramble! Because, how come even your RAMBLES are beautifully written?? (#sometimes I’m too down bad for your writing)

(To be honest I started feeling motivated to answer you back, but I really think I should wait until tomorrow so I can keep you the best quality 👍)

OKAY, back to present time Wednesday, and right underneath here was supposed to be my response written on Sunday, but that didn’t quite happen- So, now the rest of this response is going to be written from Wednesday, and I’ll, like actually be responding to your response- Cause, I have more questions, if you can believe it. 

Okayyy, now, let’s get rocking and rolling this Wednesday afternoon. 

I just wanna say, I totally understand what you mean with female whumpees. Personally, I’ve always written female characters over male ones. Which is probably because I’m also, like, female myself, and resonate with female characters, and just idk how to write male characters lol- 

Sometimes, I wish female whumpees were boys sometimes though? Because listen, it feels like you can’t DO certain things with females that you can with males? Like, you can’t put your hands on a female's chest, but you can a males (even if it’s meant threateningly, not even sexually, like I don’t write sexual things, so it feels kinda limitative?? In a way?). Like it’d be more weird if a male villain shoved a female hero by her chest, then if that hero was a male, ya know? Or, I don’t feel TOO restricted with this, but sometimes it feels like males are written with more violence involved? Like they are naturally the bearers of violence and the ones who fight it, but I wanna write a female who can also be a bearer of violence and/or the one who is fighting violence too, ya know?? Idkkkk, but I get what you mean- 

Because I know I’m gonna be writing female whumpees, heroes, villains, and, honestly—female whumpers. It’s weird, because over the past two years I’ve transitioned to male whumpers to female whumpers. I think it’s a personal thing for me- But, it’s hard to go back to wanting to write males- like, romance has never been a big thing for me (as omg, there’s two things I can NOT write for the life of me, and that’s: poetry & romance– I just don’t know??? There’s a block in my head? I be like: “And they kissed. And then they pulled apart after a few seconds. And then they extracted each other from each other.” I just can’t 😭) Okay, so, I really do think I’m gonna be writing female whump- I know I should try with males though, because I still feel like they are more inherently roughed up than females, and it’s hard to go past that- for some reason, I don’t know why though?? Though, I DO love your male whumpers, your male whumpees, your female whumpees, your female whumpers, and OMG– I literally went FERAL when I read your Whumpuary 3 post- Omg Captain was 🔥🔥 hello?? my girly Captain slayed, because omg? Poor whumpee though 😞 Since, ya know, she’s, well, a she- And not a he- And is trapped on a male-dominant ship- Like, girly—run at this point. 

Also, I have NOT read the GONE series but guess who is adding it to their reading list 😃 —------------------------👉 ✨ me ✨

And I don’t care that you use the same five superpowers in every story, because you eat them up every time 👏👏👏👏 Because I feel like you always make them unique to their user. Like, Flynn, Karma, and Ambrose (I think I spelled that write??) all have, like, mind control as their power, but despite their powers being similar in their properties, they are still very different from one another? Flynn’s power seems more soothing/calming to me. And Karma commits horrendous acts against mankind with his, and while I’m not updated on IF, I remember Ambrose used his power, more so, to keep Kit inside the house and sorta compliant??? And he, like, messed with the poor boy's mind-? Overall, I just think you make each superpower so very creative, and so very crafted specifically with the user/villain in mind–?? Anyway, love all your villains with my whole heart and soul and being (FYI as I was writing this paragraph my space bar was throwing a tantrum and kept getting stuck every 5 words- so if this paragraph came out choppy it is because of my lack of patience with this broken key-)

(Don’t mind this: PLEASE publish a bookkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!)

I am totally, 100% interested in writing! And I definitely plan on writing this year! I’ve been on the biggest writer’s block ever for a whole year now- And it’s so so so hard for me to remain consistent- Seeing you write Whumpuary kinda inspires me to write though! But at the same time I’m definitely detail-oriented and I have to plan a whole layout before writing something, but I DO plan on participating in Febuwhump. Actually! I have participated in Whumpuary, and that was in January 2024. Let’s just say… I kinda called it quits after the first 2 days- I had day 1 and day 2 combined and had written a VERY (typical of me) lengthy excerpt, and had the next few days planned out to write, but I quit? I don’t remember the reason, I MUST have lost motivation? I deleted my account also- Whumpuary reblogged it though so it’s literally still on Whumpuary’s blog but with a “deactivated account” label. I remember I was really excited to participate too lol- I like had it in the queue to post at exactly 12 AM on January 1- It’s too bad I gave it up, for whatever reason- I have a horrible curse for a lack of motivation, but I’m trying to work around that this year, because it’s really, like, limiting me?? 

I love Karmaaaaaaa, he’s suchhhhhhh a good villain- And omg, I’m sorry to ask this- I know who Karma is and I know who Felix is, but who is Nathan?? I’m sorryyyyy, if I’ve literally read the drabble or series with this character I will face the corner, but, literally, idk who nathan is 😭 And I wanna know who this “proper psycho” is before my mind starts going through your whole Master Post trying to find out-

I could never criticize your work! Actually, I’ve noticed you’ve really improved over the year! Like, you’ve always been good at writing (like, since I’ve found your writing, cause everyone used to start with baby steps lol), but you write so flawlessly now- it’s unreal sometimes how good your writing is, because, like, where’s my book? (I’m being so serious rn). I just wanna say the “...when my ego gets to the size of Russia and China combined…” was really funny to me, because I literally have a map of the world set up in my room— The target audience of that joke was definitely met- 

I will be awaiting your “very angry family members” with my arms open wide if it means I can continue to praise your work and grow your ego into greater masses 🫡 I am forever at your service 🦅

Now, as you can see school is definitely going to be the number one enemy (jk I have no enemies 👼) when it comes to being as active in my fangirling for you- Buttttt, I will not let it dismay me- or you ig?? I do wanna do better this school semester since Math and Science have almost had me starting my villain arc multiple times- Though, I’ll definitely make sure to save some time to write for Febuwhump. And I think I’m actually going to try going for a series rather than individual drabbles for the whump event- I might do some prompts as a part of a series, and some as drabbles- I'm not sure yet, lol- It's still in the planning phase.

Also, I know this is late and doesn't apply anymore! BUT, in your response to my ask, you had said “...And good luck if you try writing, and IF NOT, good luck with school on Monday I’m guessing?” And I want to pretend it’s Sunday rn and say: "OMG yessssss, I have school on Monday 😓- And thank youuuuuu"

Okay, now to my questions:

Do you literally have any tips for writing superpowers? And learning how to write superpowers in general? 

Are you still in school? Because, I THINK this was you (if it wasn’t, just like let me rot in my cage in silence), but I thought I read something of yours and the comments were congratulating you on getting your degree? I think it might’ve been in the IF series comment section? I’m really not sure, like at all. I could be thinking of the wrong thing- Because I can't remember for the life of me if that was you or someone else- Though, if you DID get a degree, what was it in? If you didn't? I'm already in my cage.

Are you doing drabbles (like with Whumpuary) or a series for Febuwhump?

Also, I saw you were looking for song suggestions for your whump-stimuli (the music that gets you going in your whump feels)- and I wish I could help with that! Because, literally, my, like, “whumpiest” songs would be: “forwards beckon rebound” by Adrianne Lenker and “romantic homicide” by d4vd 😭😭 So I can’t really help you with giving you a fresher playlist lol- My playlist is NOT best suited for such endeavors at all- sorryyy

You know, I truly never understand how my “asks” (it’s more me yapping than asking 😅) get to such great lengths. Though, I’m gonna be forced to tone them down because of school lol- 

I'm not gonna lie, I've already noticed that I'm already losing my flow to writing again, and literally just because I'm being drained- Though, I really really plan on not letting that stop me pursue actually writing this year, and to be absolutely honest, I hope to write something that YOU would enjoy reading, so I hope I can get to that place, and improve-

-From your girly 💍

PS. I actually don’t think I have any PS’-? #I must be devolving #it must be the workings of my now school environment #the assassins to my creativity #the vacuum to my energy #the rope to my wrists

ACTUALLY I JUST READ WHUMPUARY NO. 7 AND I’M IN LOVE OMG OMG—

I swear to god I am going to get these asks printed out one day and start scrap booking them ahahahahaha!!! I love the length, and do NOT stress about getting back to me!!!!! This is NOT an obligatory task!!! I am happy you sent one ask at all in the first place!!! So seriously, do not stress about replying to this AT ALL!!! Nevermind quickly enough!!! You are not obligated or expected to do anything other than — I was going to say read this — but not even that!!! If YOU DO read this, and smile a little, then that is enough for me!

I will answer the questions first and put my rambles on the bottom of the message, so that you can read them at your leisure and get your questions answered without having to look for the answers!!!

QUESTIONS -

Tips for writing superpowers

Less is more when it comes to writing superpowers. You want it to be believable, and so - for example with heroes and villains, a hero wouldn't use their fire ability when they are a civilian or at home, so make it realistic like that, but when fighting a villain they go all out.

For tips on learning to write superpowers, I would recommend reading/watching superpower shows, movies, books, and writers on tumblr!!! So I watched a lot of anime when I was younger, and because of that I drew some things from anime into writing superpowers - for example, superpowers matching a person's personality

like Kit for example in IF, he has electricity/lightning abilities, and he was "a bright spark" in the Training academy that caught Mentor's attention Ambrose walks around like he's better than everyone else, like he knows what everyone's thinking, can get whatever he wants - because he literally does, so his arrogance is reflected in his power!

Then on technicalities of writing superpowers - Pinterest quick guides on fighting and action scenes help so much, so does tumblr tips on writing superpowers or action scenes so I would recommend looking at them

{I can write more advice I've learned if you want a more detailed reply to this question, just shoot me an ask and I'll happily do it.}

2. Am I in school?

No ahahahah, I am 25. You're right, I graduated college last year and I studied law for my undergrad XD

3. Drabbles or run on series for febuwhump?

I will be a drabble girly to the day I die. I think it's really cool when people do the same story for whump events, but I could never, I like the freedom of drabbles and not doing character work - because I have too many fucking series already and more in my head I cannot upload because they'll kill me - so it's nice to do nameless characters in whump events XD

BUT I'm glad you're doing a series for Febuwhump!!! I know you said you hadn't planned it out yet, but just have fun with it and I would love to read your writing if you want to tag me or whatever, and if not that is also fine ahahahahha... and don't feel embarrassed about not doing an anonymous ask or tagging me coldly in your writing, I'll read it, I don't mind if it's something you'd like but also NO PRESSURE IF YOU'RE LIKE EW NO hahahahah

RAMBLES BELOW

I try to match the vibe of the ask, especially Nonny’s, though I know who you are💍— because it is very cool that you took the time out of your day (A few of your days in this case), and left me an ask at all. (BTW I ALSO REPLY OVER MULTIPLE DAYS!!! So don’t worry at all!!)

On your stress in regards to replying/responding -

I’m glad I could shift your mood a little, but next time do not stress about anything regarding this!!! Or ELSE!!! And if you have more questions after sending an ask, just send another with the questions!! You don’t need to reply to everything I say in response if you:

1. Don’t have time 2. Don’t feel like it 3. You literally owe me nothing (just to reinforce this XD)

Also Nathan appears in the later stages of IF, hehe, (mini character spoiler) but yeah he’s in IF

On female Whumpees -

I completely understand your POV of writing female whumpees too, because I LOVE male whumpers, and also bare chests for carving and branding and bruising, it would be strange for a male whumper to do that to a female whumpee— if nothing else than just for narrative purposes— like the fact it would take you out of a story because MOST men wouldn’t do that to a woman

But at the same time I really just want to see a woman getting beaten up sometimes, which sounds so fucked up, but it is what I like in whump... even though I know that it's a trigger for some people, which I understand, it is just like - I guess, like a fucked up representation thing? Like yeah I love seeing male whumpees fucked up, but I want a female whumpee to be tortured just as much - like it is fictional, so who cares if it's realistic or not? Heheheh, sorry for the rant again

On self-embarrassment -

Also… I am a big fan of self embarrassment, no one can make you cringe like yourself😎 (which I think is what you need to write poetry and romance, a tolerance for cringe??? Idfk, I write whump, jah!!!!)

On my own delayed reply -

I am sorry for my own delayed reply, I am very slow at responding to asks, but because I am slow, don't take it as you over-stepped or anything! Don't doubt yourself when you send an ask, trust me, any writer loves to see them, as you would too, so don't doubt yourself!! Even if you don't get a response at all!!! The writer is probably just busy, but it probably made them smile reading it anyways, or getting that notification, as you'll know when you start writing

AND DON'T WORRY ABOUT NOT WANTING TO READ LENGTHY REPLIES!!! I understand that, that's why I tried to divide the reply into sections so you could digest it easier XD

To Writing—

On Consistency -

You don’t need to be consistent as a writer!!! You really don’t, especially if it’s just for fun!!! I am trying to commit to whumpuary and Febuwhump this year because i have never completed a calendar challenge ahahahahahaa (new year’s resolution) but I literally failed on the first? Second day? And then just caught up!

On Writer's block -

It happens to us all, and it sucks, but it is capitalism's fault, even creative outlets now need to be PRODUCED and if we don't do it, we feel like we are FAILING, not to mention imposter syndrome and perfectionism holding us back by saying either "That's not good enough" or "You're not good enough" and it is a battle with those in your head all the time, but if you enjoy writing at all, just do it anyways! Who cares if it's good? I am editing my series on this blog to move it to another, and holy fuck, I am reading them like "How did people enjoy this?" but they did??? And I was like "Wow I am proud of that chapter" when I wrote them at that time and I can see how much better I have gotten with writing and it's like a perception shift And of course, the more you write, the better you get at writing, the MORE - unfortunately - the perfectionist and writer's block voices get in your head, but you just need to ignore them and do it anyways, no matter your perceived standard of what is good and what isn't - like with writing on tumblr, we are comparing that writing to published books and authors who are 10, 20, 30 years older than us??? Of course their writing is more polished because they have editors and agents etc. So that is something to bear in mind too!!! I would recommend to look at a Stephen King Interview on writing because he is so like - he breaks it down so well, he says you should try to write X amount of words or pages a day, and it doesn't have to be good words or pages, just write, even if it won't be published whatever, it's like a craft and he masters it and I would recommend looking at his interviews, I do when I get sad and stuck on writer's block, and he says as well that no first draft is good AND WRITING ON TUMBLR YOU ARE ON YOUR OWN TIME!!!!! You can publish whenever you like, if you are more perfectionist, then don't publish until you are ready, if not (like me) just publish and edit later when you feel like it - like there are no rules!!! So for something like Febuwhump, set your goal as "I will do one day, I will complete one prompt" And if you do that on the first day? Bingo bongo, you did it! And then anything extra is extra!!!

On Motivation -

Look motivation is a cruel mistress, and you're still in school which requires a lot more brain power than what I use everyday, and if you have some favourite writers on tumblr, some of them will have their age in their bio and you'll most likely see their 18+ - like the ones I love are usually in their 20s, 18+ - because we're not in school anymore ahahahahah, I wrote a lot in notebooks in school, not online because school was hard enough, and very draining TLDR - if you lose motivation that's okay, just don't beat yourself up about the amount of writing you're able to do by comparing it to people who don't have school to stress them out 24/7 okay?

SCHOOL TAKES UP SO MUCH TIME AND EFFORT LET IT -

do not worry about replying to what I write, or fangirling or anything like that - trust me, focus on real life first you little cinnamon roll

DO NOT FEEL PRESSURE TO REPLY TO ANY OF THIS!!!!!

Thank you for the ask <3

I hope you have a good week and are not too tired yet, one more day to go until Friday and freedom :)

[whimsywallflower]

The first little piece of art I want to share with you

I actually drew this during class, a friend of mine was the inspiration <3

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