I don't have much of a life

“We're all waiting for something to change. Patience can kill you.” - Solitaire by Alice Oseman

[inkstainedsouls]

intro to myself

I guess I'll give a bit of a look into my life :)

I am a teenage girl who wants to talk a lot about random nonsense but ppl irl don't really listen so here I am.

I'll probably post some original poetry and random thoughts as well as whatever I feel like depending on my mood.

I enjoy reading, crocheting, nature, and listening to music 🎶

Some music artists I like: Billie eilish, mitski, radiohead, I don't like mirrors, beabadoobee, Clairo, gigi perez, and Genevieve stokes. (To name a few...)

[urmumsfan]

when the highs are so high but the lows are so fucking low & u can’t hate them nor love them peacefully

[inkstainedsouls]

felt

[inkstainedsouls]

I seriously want to learn to play the drums soooooo bad

[inkstainedsouls]

why is my chemical romance actually so good though??!

[bluebellonthewindymoors]

love over sharing and trauma dumping on tumblr with little to no context

[inkstainedsouls]

too often 😭

[inkstainedsouls]

solitaire mention in I was born for this????

[inkstainedsouls]

I went to Spencer's for the first time ever yesterday and ahhhh there is so much cool stuff there

Ive been looking for cool earring and rings that are silver and finally found some here

Im way too excited about this

[inkstainedsouls]

so I'm currently reading solitaire but also listening to the audiobook version when I can't focus on actually reading

Im also in different spots in both if them but the story still makes sense bc of how many times I've read it 😭

[inkstainedsouls]

I feel so so happy (finally) but I can't help but hurt bc I already know that it's only gonna last a week or less bc it always does 😭

Im trying to enjoy It as much as I can but I can't help but dread what's coming next

Ugghhhh

[inkstainedsouls]

Heh...

I was right

[weird-fan-girl0704]

Solitaire by Alice Oseman

has anyone read solitaire?? i just finished it and i am obsessed with tori!! srsly, we need a movie or a short series about tori right now!!

[tori-spring-is-me]

Peak book, welcome to peak depression life 😎😎

[inkstainedsouls]

heyy so I needed to make a post bc I won't be on tumblr for about 2 weeks

Why? Bc my mother thinks it's a good idea

And no, I didn't even do anything

No. Taking away communicating with others isn't gonna help me 😭

Anyway i figured I should let u guys know so you don't think I'm like dead or something....

Ill see ya in 2 weeks wish me luck 😔

[inkstainedsouls]

Hiiii so I'm finally back

I probably won't be on tumblr very much still anyways

That was seriously the longest 2 weeks ever it was not fun...

[gh0stwithaheart]

finals week

finals wee

finals we

finals w

finals

final

fina

fin

fi

f

fr

fre

free

freed

freedo

freedom

[inkstainedsouls]

heyy so I needed to make a post bc I won't be on tumblr for about 2 weeks

Why? Bc my mother thinks it's a good idea

And no, I didn't even do anything

No. Taking away communicating with others isn't gonna help me 😭

Anyway i figured I should let u guys know so you don't think I'm like dead or something....

Ill see ya in 2 weeks wish me luck 😔

[inkstainedsouls]

I feel like I might be getting sick

And barely sleeping is definitely gonna make that worse

But I CANNOT sleep

[mxst3rmind]

someday i want to be loved the way percy loves annabeth

the way peeta loves katniss

the way jameson loves avery

the way nash loves libby

the way james loves lily

the way wes loves liz

i just think everyone should get to be loved in their own special way by their own special person <3

[inkstainsonmysheets]

thing about love is that it’s different for everyone, and thats what makes it so special.

[inkstainedsouls]

Exactlyyy

But when's it gonna be my turn 😭

[inkstainedsouls]

I feel so so happy (finally) but I can't help but hurt bc I already know that it's only gonna last a week or less bc it always does 😭

Im trying to enjoy It as much as I can but I can't help but dread what's coming next

Ugghhhh

[lamarieederik]

Do you ever just, stare at something and have a very difficult time pulling yourself out of your dreamy state? My eyes will pick something to stare at and I’ll just stare, without blinking, feeling almost ghostlike.

[inkstainedsouls]

YES

Literally all the time

[lamarieederik]

It’s such a weird feeling

[inkstainedsouls]

Yess it seriously is! How are there more similarities between us what the heck 😭 i gotta wonder if eventually we'll both get diagnosed with the same thing or something lol

[lamarieederik]

Fr! I’m convinced I have autism and probably a dissociative disorder in addition to that and maybe OCD.

[inkstainedsouls]

SAME

Oh my gosh

Same same same especially ocd

Ive been 99% sure I have that since I was like 10 years old but it got brushed off even tho it got rly bad 😭

Also the more I look into bipolar the more a lot of things make sense although I know a lot of other things get mistaken for bipolar symptoms so it's really difficult to know for sure...

[lamarieederik]

Yeah, exactly! I could too, be bipolar so this is quite relatable.

[inkstainedsouls]

Yea, im gonna start tracking mood and sleep and a ton of other stuff for a few weeks so I have some solid proof 😭