@nightfeared / @scourge-accursed ○ 𝕒𝕣𝕕𝕪𝕟 𝕒𝕤𝕜𝕖𝕕 𝕟𝕠𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕤 ○
⤷ 『 ❝ all i see is a boy meddling with things he doesn’t understand. ❞ 』
That burned and burrowed under his skin, if only because the bastard was right and he couldn't refute it. Not like it isn't something he'd been thinking about when he couldn't sleep in the early hours of the morning and everyone else was knocked out cold, looking more peaceful in those moments than he's seen them in weeks…
He'd see them and wonder what on earth he was doing. Niflheim had attacked Insomnia, killed so many people and here he was, on a fucking road trip to Altissia, to get married to Lunafreya, as if an alliance like that on paper was worth anything after the mockery Niflheim had made of the one with Lucis.
To some degree he's become aware that his father sent him away just before the ceremony, despite it being both abnormal and a social faux pas, in order to keep him safe, but… Well he hasn't exactly been feeling safe. If anything he just wishes desperately that he could go home, and that if he did he wouldn't be seeing the destroyed buildings and burning castle, but that his father would be there on the steps just as he'd left him, gentle scolding words already on his lips because Noct went back instead of moving on.
That's the thing, isn't it? He's refusing to move on, or maybe it's just that he doesn't know how. Not really… He's never been good at the political intrigue game, Ignis is much better at it, the subtleties and nuance just go over his head. That's also part of the reason he doesn't like dealing with the Chancellor's little trips of interference, he doesn't know how to act or react around him even if part of him wishes he could just shove a sword through the man and be done with it.
"Funny, I could've said you're the one who's meddling." Is what he finally shoots back, the insecurity and doubt hidden behind a thin layer of hatred which he uses now as a shield, glaring at the man and hoping rather fervently he'd be gone soon so he could just. Not have to deal with this for a while.
That's all he wants, really… To not have to deal with it. Any of it.











