#scp oc

[dr-novaetine]

Since ur a researcher, what field of science do you specialize in? And what specific anomalies have you've studied and researched throughout your career?

-🐶🌟

‘M ‘n Ontologist. I study humes ‘n stuff….

Not any particular anomalies that come to mind, but I’ve worked with a lotta reality benders….so many fuckin’ reality benders…

[drmialockswood]

So is the cafeteria gluten free friendly or?

Yeah they have a dedicated kitchenette actually. Dont know why they took away my mac n cheese but Im never going to stop protesting.

[drmialockswood]

What happened???? Why did fights happen?

I mentioned it in my last post.... ugh. Aster was trying to chase down and cure Milo. Aster is obsessed with "the pestilence" and curing it. It's always been the rockiest point of our relationship because the way he describes The Pestilence is like, nearly incomprehensible to the human mind. I've tried to guess, shown him modern medical texts, thrown out abstract ideas and none of them truly pin down what it is and as much as I believe him that it is a problem in need of cure, his methods result in the death and zombification of people who have appeared to be healthy, and people who have escaped him before being touched have gone on to live long and healthy lives. And until he can find a way to cure it I just cant condone his methods and we butt heads over that sometimes and this time, I took it personally that he was going after Milo and he took it personally that I wasnt more concerned that he is "Infected" and letting him treat him, said that if I cared for him at all I would let him proceed. Obviously I couldn't do that.

Its not cancer. Its not the bubonic plague. Its not mortality. Its not life itself. Its not a virus or bacteria. Its not racism or fear or hunger. Whatever the pestilence is, he can not word it.

I wish I could understand

[drmialockswood]

It wasnt just aster that was breach, either. 682 was out, and it was across 2 different facilities, we had to call site-19 because they sent out a red alert request for me, we got the phone put to the intercom so I could tell all the SCPs there to return to their cells peacefully after I got the 5 other escapees put back in there cells on this site.

I caught Aster chasing down Milo. I had to catch him by the shoulders to get him to stop. There are precious few people in this site that mean much to me and Aster and Milo both are two of those few. I was trying to ask him to stop, at least until I can understand the pestilence stuff and maybe find a cure that doesnt require death and zombification because I absolutely believe him when he says that The Pestilence is a disease. But- Okay I know, I know, I barely even know Milo, he's been at this facility for what 2 months? And a years long friendship isn't worth throwing away over this.

I hate when Aster is breach. I wish he could be free, and I genuinely trust him with my life but I CAN'T trust him with other peoples and for that reason freeing him would be dangerous. His heart is in the right place and he's genuinely so sweet and only wants to do good. I believe him. But I dont understand him all the time. And when he's breach I have to order him around, and its such a foreign and uncomfortable feeling. Usually he is very understanding but this time he took my request as insult and said that perhaps he didnt know me as well as he thought he did.

I might actually throw up. This was NOT how things were supposed to go.

[drmialockswood]

I wasnt- I wasnt trying to be mean, I wasnt, I really wasnt I just got so frustrated and overwhelmed it all came out wrong. He's back in his cell but he doesn't want to see me now. This is why all my relationships fail isnt it.

[drmialockswood]

I think I will go visit Fenoglio tonight. Its a Fenoglio kind of night.

[vampieri]

no peeking