Okay guys I’m gonna yap about Roman Bridgers rot…
It definitely started when he was young. Like ten maybe. All the hate from his father and the feeling that he would never fit in like built up in guilt. Since nobody seemed to treat him the same as everyone else, he comes to the natural conclusion that something is wrong about him that isn’t about anyone else.
As he grew up it became this physical thing. Whenever he felt guilty or apologized to much he blamed it on his rot. On the fact he’d never know how to fit in because nobody would let him.
Then as he got older he became more sure in it. He was Roman Bridger and he was rotten on the inside. Everyone saw it and steered clear of him. He blamed his bad thoughts on the rot, blamed his violent urges. He never acted on them, just bottled them down, fed them to the living, breathing creature that lived in his stomach.
Then when he found Maureen, he was SO sure she was gonna fix him. Clean him. If anyone could get rid of his dirtiness, it would be mom, right?
She shuts him out without even giving him a chance. The rot spreads. Finally all these emotions spill out, and this is the moment he fully becomes ‘rotten’. He stops pushing down his tendencies and starts letting words come out however they want to.
Roman is so certain that he’s unfixable. That everyone else can smell the mold growing on his guts, can hear his irregular heartbeat, can see the rotten tendrils spreading behind his eyes. He accepts he will never truly fit in, that sins he was born he was set up to fail. To slowly disintegrate into himself.
After his first kill he feels good. He knows he shouldn’t feel good. It felt like the rot was fed so it subsided.
But the rot will always get hungry again. So he has to kill again. He has to spread this parasite to other people in hopes it will lessen in himself.
It never does. It presses on his lungs, wraps around his gut, shoves its thorns into his heart.
Roman Bridger will never, ever be clean. And he accepts that now.