#scrubbys rambles

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Real talk I have turned around and given my friend advice that is a lyric straight out of a song from the EQG movies like And she uses it all the time and says it's the best advice anyone's ever given her BUT SHE DOESNT FUCKING KNOW ITS AN MLP LYRIC AND I DONT WANT TO TAKE THAT AWAH FRKM HER BUT SHE ALWAYS THANKS ME FOR MY ADVICE BUT ITS ML P

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Me before and after hearing armed and ready

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So now my brother has ALSO made a shitpost blog because he's tired of me "stealing his jokes for notes" He's @amimitos

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So it looks like I won't be going to prom

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Never in my life did I see myself @ 17 years old, shit posting mlp on tumblr

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My mum just told me that my biological dad has lived 3 streets away for my entire life? I've probably passed him on my way to school? She said the last time she and i passed him in the street was 3 weeks ago??? She told me that he would never make her feel the way he did when she told him she was pregnant with me and that she would do it all again if it meant getting me in the end and said I was the best thing that ever happened to her and I I just feel numb because my mum makes me feel so loved and appreciated and wanted meanwhile this man who is supposed to be my biological father has lived 3 streets away my entire life and has never even attempted to reconcile with my mother or even make contact with me at all. I'm not sure how I'm supposed to feel

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Y'know sometimes I just get overwhelmed by my guy friends. Like— I know not ALL guys are the same— but sometimes my guy friends just all fit the stereotype of "fuck boy" and "fragile manhood" and it pisses me off so much. I have this one friend, who I'll call Egg because he fucking acts like one, and when we game he just??? Turns into such a dick head. He becomes this overly cocky "macho" piece of shit that acts like he's such hot shit when really??? He's the most 2D person I've ever met in my life. He always acts as if he carries our team in OW and that if I'm getting hammered by someone then it's his "duty" to come "save me" and acts as if I owe him anything and need to bow down to him because I was getting hammered by 3 players at one time???? I'm not sure if it's just because I'm the only girl we play with and it's just the whole 'guy' thing since it's 5 of them and just me, so they all just kinda join in??? But it really just pisses me the fuck off. They put me down and treat me like a shit player, and then boost Egg's ego by saying he's amazing. Like— this kid has stayed home from SCHOOL to play this fucking game. This kid is sitting NAT5 English for the third time in a row because every year before exams he's stayed up late and not studied because he's watching Netflix or playing video games. This kid literally only has friends because I asked him to hang out with us because he was alone. And he treats me like a piece of shit when we're around the friends he ONLY HAS, because of ME. How is this fair treatment like at all? This kid has such a big fucking ego when literally all he has is a PS4 controller and decent aiming skills. Does he not realise this ISNT going to sustain his life??? Not to mention the fact he asked my friend out and then when she told him she wanted to take things slow, he basically thought that was a rejection and not ONE WEEK LATER, he tried to get with me. I'm sorry kid but that's not how the world works. Stop thinking with your dick. He just pisses me off to no end— and the fact he's so 2D makes it even worse. He doesn't have any interesting qualities about him, and that's why I literally told him to his face after breaking my friends heart that I would never date him. He's gross and all he does is infuriate me and no one cares about this but I just needed to vent so here u go.

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Okay so

I came out to my family and friends publicly a few months ago, and although my parents say they don't care what I like, I know that it bothers them. I can literally feel their eye rolls whenever I talk about a girl I like, or even mentioning the words "gay" or "homosexual." They say that sexuality is a choice. That I choose to be this way. They say everyone has a choice, and you're not born that way. Why on earth would I choose to be terrified for two years about people finding out. Why on earth would I choose to be disgusted every time I looked at myself because I felt there was something "wrong with me." Why on EARTH would ANYONE choose to be bullied endlessly, be murdered, be OUT LAWED be MURDERED, just to be considered "different". My parents and the rest of my family are so ignorant and stubborn that they refuse to believe me or listen to me whenever I try to EXPLAIN that, no, sexuality isn't a choice, and there is more than just two sexualities. I'm out, but at the same time I'm not; and it kills me so much.