#seaniepop

[hyperbali]

Everybody loves a classic

[blackwoolncrown]

seaniepop replied to your post “13 17 25”

i read your "perfect date" piece, and my brain forgot that molly could be a what and assumed it was a who. like that you were good friends with someone named molly who was the best camping guide/buddy, always bringing you to the best spots to relax and reflect.

well I  mean yeah that’s basically what it does for me though lol

[thelovers-thedreamers-and-me]

my fellow punslinger, if you are free of the confines of denim jail.. does that make you a jesperado? a jenegade? a smooth jiminal?

i’m on the jam

@ruffboijuliaburnsides

[seaniepop]

my past i survived i will strive to grow and thrive  i am still alive

[blackwoolncrown]

seaniepop replied to your post “Not gonna lie finalizing a long ego release and finally consenting to...”

i enjoy seeing your reflection on your self and i can say that it does inspire me to consider my self in new ways. i hope that all your self-realization brings positivity into your life, and helps you in your path to happiness.

Thank you.

For full clarity understand that there is no ‘path to happiness’ that I’m on. I’ve been happy for a long time- that’s what mental discipline is for. Happiness is something you must learn to generate from within, and self-realization helps with that. But in all  honesty I’ve been self-actualized for a long while- that doesn’t mean there isn’t a long process of still rifling through to let go of past events, cultural mindsets, memory habits, etc etc. Ego Dissolution is a process, not an event, even if you take psychedelics and have an ego death- you still have unpacking to do and new perspectives to practice. I resist the idea, and have for a while, that I’m a ‘truth seeker’ because I haven’t been ‘seeking’ for a while- IMO that’s the early stage, when you’re looking to escape or looking for answers. My issue was that the world people were showing to me did not acknowledge the inner greatness I experienced as self; the world was described as lacking and people all thought they were people. I believed otherwise but was digging for evidence. About...idk 2 or so years ago I stopped searching and went back to observing, which was richer and faster in terms of unlearning. You don’t find anything but what was already there, it just becomes unobscured. It’s all about unlearning and remembering.

Relax. You’re safe. Look but don’t grasp. 

HTH <3

[thelovers-thedreamers-and-me]

you should just call the knockoff chips "faux-ritos"

lmao, i just called them dinner tbh

[thelovers-thedreamers-and-me]

seaniepop replied to your post: seaniepop replied to your photoset: ...

well of course.. it is the custom of the fae to deal in riddles more than answers.. tho one should be wary of any snacks you choose to share, lest they find themselves bound to you and a whole new life of fantasy and wonderment

i mean, i do make snacks for the fuck squad all the time and they found themselves in my homebrew world so that counts

[seaniepop]

progress

going to throw some of these posts under read-more’s so I don’t take up too much dash space, so i don’t feel guilty about writing a loooon post eheheh

for the past weeks, since partway thru December, I have been attending an Intensive Outpatient Therapy program. this particular IOP combines mental health patients and addiction patients, as there are so many individuals who struggle with one or both, and their plights are very common. we tend to learn a lot from each other.

the group itself has many individuals on different steps of their journey to recovery and health. in fact, it’s kind of like a rotating entry door, in the best possible way. people join, learn to be vulnerable from those who have been there a while, and even take the time to express their gratitude to those who are finishing group as they leave IOP to pursue more individualized care.

it is a safe place, one where there is no judgement. we are all people fighting for our survival, building our strengths to give ourselves the best possible future that we can, because we are learning to want the best for ourselves

really, my only regular issue is that it isn’t closer hahah. travelling and a hard time finding parking is one of the major issues I deal with on those days. I have struggled with wanting to shut down and distance myself sometimes, but I am learning that sometimes, group is the best possible thing for me and my progress on those days I am struggling.