#self-awarenesss

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Push Through

My body Is refusing to wake ⏰ And when it does, It will not stay that way. I hit my pillow so hard and quickly, There was no time between my fall and my dreams. But I wake, and find, That by the time leave that room, I am tired again. I push through, regardless. This too shall pass, And I can rest with the uncertainty of when. Even as a week passes.

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Ever Noticed?

The issue I have with self awareness, It doesn’t stop growing. I needed to learn about my behavior, and my demons, To overcome them, to end my self-torture. It has ended, But I cannot stop noticing Threads of behavior, That I had not paid much attention to before, Assuming that they were me, I was those small habits. Whose impact, in a trillion small ripples, Shatter the world as…

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Squeaky Clean

I am not. I like to respond to everything, Even if you are trying to wrap up our conversation. I have to work to avoid judgment, And I work hard. I am competitive, To my own detriment. I feel to the extreme. And am invested. An idealist, And angry at the injustices I see. But, I channel everything, And I toil. I know I am not gleaming, But I work to polish my edges.

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Tension

I know what anxiety feels like A quick rush of ” I’m trying, try harder self, don’t irritate them.” It comes and goes at least 15 times a day, Even if it is unjustified, Uninvited, No matter how many slow deep breaths, How much positive self talk, I cannot pull away from the anxiety. But I am still trying.

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