This is my 8th month of having graduated from college and let me tell you, it has been a ROLLERCOASTER. So many hurdles have come up in my life just in these 8th months. Honestly, after college I thought I was lost for a long time. I just stopped everything I was doing and was so negative about all my surroundings and more importantly, negative about MYSELF. When I started therapy, things started to take a turn for the better. I started loving myself again, I was more in tune with my surroundings, and I got back out there. I’ve started working at UCSF as a admin coordinator for the past few months, it hasn’t been too long but I’ve definitely got the scope of how things are on the administration side of the medical field. It funny b/c I truly believe that you don’t really know the types of people out there UNTIL you get exposed to the work field. I’ve meet and had to work with some VERY different people. I’ve had people be rude, people act like a bitch, people laugh at my face…. For whatever reason, people don’t like to see you doing good. It’s hilarious to me, and I get a kick out of it every day when I have to deal with that. In the moment it would really piss me off and annoy me because I’d wonder WHY people have to be mad when they absolutely have NO reason to be mad at you????? If they don’t know you, and you didn’t do anything wrong then why the fuck are they mad? Didn’t take me long to realize that’s kind of an impossible question to answer…
People won’t like you regardless of if they have a reason and you are just gnna have to accept that. The sooner you accept it, the better it is. I can definitely confirm that I’ve accepted that fact and I honestly don’t fucking care. People will want to step on you and make you feel small, but the way you react to it is what will make the difference. I’ve been working really hard to stay positive and keep ALL negative energy away from me and I would say, I’m doing a REALLY good job. Can’t let irrelevant people phase you because truth is they unimportant to your life. Giving up is never an option for me, so just exhale the bullshit and move on. Usually what helps me is reading some daily reminders I set for myself, a list of things I can read whenever I want and have that moment of reassurance that everything in my life is just the way it’s supposed to be. I have the best friends anyone can ask for, and the DOPEST family. You are never, EVER alone. Just be the amazing person you are and watch life get better and better.