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Some of our favorite pieces from our weekend visit to the Bezt (Etam Cru) gallery in the Lower East Side. Got inspired to start painting again and figured this might be a great route to exploring a different perspective on Selfless.

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“It’s a funny thing coming home. Nothing changes. Everything looks the same, feels the same, even smells the same. You realize what’s changed is you.” -F. Scott Fitzgerald

Here is a screenshot of the house model Easton is working on for Selfless. It’s actually a mirror of his own home in Chicago. The relationship of a person and place is currently a significant theme explored in the game.

What places mean something to you? Why do they mean something to you? What happens to that feeling over great physical and temporal distance? (We’d actually love to hear, so please send your thoughts by clicking on our ask box on the left menu.)

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The Selfless Recap Episode

Alright. No more funny business. It’s been over a month since we’ve posted.

I’ve mostly dropped the ball on this (it’s Kai, by the way). Easton has been hard at work printing iteration after iteration of his game. But, I can confidently say that the right amount of my energy is now focused on this project.

Here’s an overview of all that’s happened since then:

Remember the family members thing? Probably not going to happen anymore. But Easton definitely had a great time practicing his 3D modeling skills...

Easton played around with light shafts, as inspired by our 3hr play-through of Journey one evening. (By the way, the gif compression does not do the actual lighting test justice)...

Another lighting test:

Easton took a break to make a game, Grass, to help other people take a break. Try it out here and have fun rustling some grass!

And finally, here’s a peek at what the game is starting to look like now.

As the year comes to a close and Easton reaches the halfway point of the game’s development, a lot more decisions are being made (for good). A lot more time is being spent working on the game. A lot more excitement for this project than ever before has brewed. And we’re excited to start serving it to you all.

Here are a few more updates:

-puzzles(!) are now a thing Easton is exploring incorporating in the game

-Easton’s been playing around with custom shaders!

-with each new iteration, Easton has brought the game to both peers and advisors for play-testing (notes have been very positive and constructive)

-a collaboration with a very talented music composer is in the works for the game’s score!

-on top of all this, Easton also joined a 2-week experimental lab that explores art at the intersection of drama/theatre and games

-here’s Easton playing with VR lol

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There’s a No Way

10.28.17

There’s a puzzle I read about online. It goes like this:

I’m thinking of a pattern of numbers. The sequence [2, 4, 8] fit in this pattern. Find the pattern I’m thinking of by guessing other sets of numbers. I will tell you if it does or does not follow my pattern.

Not surprisingly, this puzzle is usually tackled the same way. [2, 4, 8]. Another sensible sequence would be [4, 8, 16] or [16, 32, 64]. Correct! Those sequences fit my pattern. It’s simple then — the pattern is multiplying by 2 for the next number.

Nope.

[4, 6, 8]. The pattern is even numbers! The sequence fits the pattern, but even numbers isn’t the pattern. Okay. So the pattern is NOT even numbers.

[1, 3, 5]? Yep! The sequence works. But what’s the pattern? It can’t be odd numbers because [2, 4, 8] and [4, 6, 8] worked.

What about [100, 101, 102]? Sure, that works. [1, 10, 100]? Yep! But what’s the pattern?

In a lot of cases, the trial-and-error goes back and forth for a while. What started with a simple hunch of even numbers quickly turns into a slew of complicated algorithms — “add the product of 2 and the order number the next digit falls.” Guesses are made and they all fit the pattern, but no progress is made in discovering the pattern itself. Until finally. Just because...

What about [3, 2, 1]?

Nope. That doesn’t fit the pattern.

Suddenly, the floodgates open. Our first “no.”

Could it be... [1, 2, 3]? Yes. That works. [5, 4, 3]? Nope, that doesn’t work. [10, 4, 1]? Nope. [2, 3, 1]? Doesn’t work. [100, 98, 99]? No.

The pattern is ascending numbers.

You did it! That’s the pattern.

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Incidentally, the point of this puzzle is not actually to exercise the brain (well, not in the traditional sense of a puzzle). This pattern's “puzzle” serves to prove the concept of confirmation bias.

Confirmation bias is defined as the “tendency to search for, interpret, favor, and recall information in a way that confirms one's preexisting beliefs or hypotheses” (source).

When playing the puzzle, guessers easily fall into the trap of proposing sequences that confirm what they already know. Though they receive “yes” after “yes,” no progress is made because no new information is obtained. New information comes with a “no.”

A“no” teaches limits. A “no” teaches what you can’t do, and thus, what you cando. A“no” teaches.

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So what does this have to do with Selfless?

For a while now, Easton’s been stuck on progressing further in developing his game. It seemed like everything was going well — development of the characters, of the theme, of the visuals and mechanics. Every new move was a“yes” to this and a“yeah, let’s try that.” We wracked our brains to discover “yeses.” Kept trying things that fit what we already had — what we already considered a “yes.” Halted production until we found a “yes”... Until we completed halted production altogether.

Then finally. Just because... We went with something uncertain. Tried something different. A [3, 2, 1], instead of a [1, 2, 3]. A lot of what we were trying before suddenly looked different to us. Some “yeses” didn’t make sense anymore — we realized we didn’t completely understand why they were “yeses.” Perhaps they were a “no” all along.

“Yeses” aren’t bad. It’s just a “no” can be better.

The work we scrapped — despite the many hours that went into it — wasn’t a waste. We were, in fact, wading through a “no.” Learning our limits, what we can and can’t do. What Selfless should and shouldn’t be.

It was difficult to accept the change, but now we’re moving forward again.

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All this just to say the game is taking a different direction?

I guess you could look at it that way. Yes — the game is making a slight left turn. But if that’s the way to our destination, then that’s where we’re heading.

As an artist, it can be hard to take a huge creative turn (or even a small one). Especially after investing a ton of time and effort into one idea. At a point, it doesn’t even seem worth throwing all that away. I’d rather just continue with what I have and make the most of it. Will that be satisfying though? Would you not have wasted ALL your time, as opposed to if you had started fresh a quarter-way through?

These are the choices we have to make sometimes. And we all come across it in the creative process.

But sometimes we need a reminder that it’s okay.

“Yeses” aren’t bad. It’s just a “no” can be better.

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Whoops! 😅 The week flew by before we knew it, so we're not quite ready yet with Easton's character designs. 🤥 In the meantime though‼️, take a look at another page from the ~mood board~. This time, inspiration for DESIGN 🕹️

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2.18.2018

Easton showcased Selfless at IndieCade East 2018!

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New Year, New Take

Me: Uhh... How is it February 2018 already? You: Idk. How is Selfless going? Me, an intellectual:

WEEK OF 1/30, BY KAI: It’s back to the grind as the semester returns full-swing. Having restlessly thought about Selfless all of the fall semester, the winter holiday was a nice break to regain some headspace and new perspective on the game. And fortunately, given the game’s central theme of exploring the relationship of family/home and how distance and time away can affect this relationship, returning to Chicago gave the perfect opportunity to study this personally and in a present context.

Returning and leaving home once again provided fresh perspective and inspiration to now pursue incorporating poetry and a literal narrative to Selfless. Similar to the way text is used in What Remains of Edith Finch, Selfless will likely explore a storytelling technique, provided through poems and personal accounts of family/home relationships.

In addition to Selfless’ narrative, the visual experience — motifs and aesthetic — of the game has also been further considered recently. Throughout its development, Selfless has taken place in a black and white field — barren of anyone and (seemingly) anything else. This particular environment has thus harkened references to the Fields of Asphodel in Greek mythology, as well as Purgatory in some religions and as described in Dante’s Inferno. Aside from visual tone and environment references, Selfless will explore more filmic qualities with camera use and composition.

WEEK OF 2/5, BY EASTON: Over the past week, I met with Dennis [an NYU Game Center MFA] on Friday to discuss my change of technical focus for my project. I’m not sure why I outlawed multiplayer so early in my design-thinking for my game when it’s a game about family. So the past weekend, I added network support to my project. I playtested it with a friend from home and immediately found the experience more expressive and engaging.

I think this spur of inspiration had to do with Austin Walker’s talk this past Thursday. I remember Frank [Lantz] saying that sometimes we look to games to comfort us, to provide us a space that distracts us from the real world. And something clicked in my head. I’ve been trying to create this melancholic and depressing experience to relate MY experience with my family… but this whole time I never even considered where family plays a role in my game.

In the previous version of [Selfless], it would be 3D models with some animation or some audio clips that fire off, but as a designer and artist, I don’t think that does my experience justice. I think implementing the distance mechanic as a sort of “relationship” mechanic within this online space can already create a much more powerful experience. When I explained this to Dennis, he was wary at first, bringing up issues of players trying to harm each other, searching for gratuitous response. But I think if player’s can’t directly affect each other [as in Journey’s limited, but effective communicative ‘chirp’ interaction], they’ll be less inclined to do it. The distance mechanic not only affects pieces of the world now, but the relationships with the players. Each player that joins the game, changes it with their presence.

In a single player game, the sole player wanders alone through grass fields with visual, anxious thoughts following them. Once other players join, that game mode changes and instead of coming to terms with their loneliness, players work to find their optimal spatial relationship with each other. They move around the space and look for the place where the house will be rebuilt (together! It requires both players’ participation). I’m really glad I’m taking my project in this direction now, though I do have some thinking to do about how this experience is presented at shows/festivals/etc.

WEEK OF 2/12, BY EASTON: This past week, I prepared a multiplayer scene for Josh DeBonis’ visit that I also sent to Winnie [Song]. [...] Josh had suggestions for what exactly is made clear to the player once they’re introduced to the experience, and it was good for me to think about what this game is going to look like to other people. So I deliberated with my friends about my project, really leaning into what it truly means to be selfless and how a game can express that.

I came up with two concepts that my game was directed towards. I started working on it immediately, seeing that I have to make sure it’s ready for this Tuesday [for the first Capstone milestone of the semester] and Sunday [for Selfless’ Indiecade East 2018 showcase].

Selfless is an interactive visual poem that you play with other people online. You begin the game alone and — as people join — the game begins. Progress in the experience, however, is only made by one player deciding to drop out so that the others can experience new, unique scenes of the game.

Essentially, the players begin in the field, and as more and more people exit the space, or leave the others, the “richer” the experience for the people left. I plan to have at least a three-player version prototyped for Tuesday and a more polished version of that experience ready for this Sunday!

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A 🎋 calming gif 🎋 from Selfless. We’re working on the character designs and promise you’ll get to see them soon!