#send siberia

[unfortunateteller]

hope you made it out alive. 

[SIBERIA photographed by rvyn.photo - May 13, 2017]

[unfortunateteller]

the audacity

i think of how time had a taste.

the closer to midnight, 

the sweeter the hunger became.

the closer to sunrise,

the bitterness filled the space.

turn off the headlights, 

you insist - i kindly obliged.

wait for the train to split

the wind, howling the name

of what this would be.

laying on the brink of collapse.

in each hand,

a stone and a feather.

at the witching hour

will fall, but will never 

come down together.

yearning for true silence,

came constellations falling

into my skin. 

up through my 

veins, to the tip of 

my tongue.

fed the gemini feed, and

now beating myself senseless

as to why i didn’t at 

that moment, run.

i spent my season in hell,

and you won’t take me back.

i won’t let you.

i won’t let you.

i won’t let you.

the opening night,

shrouded in the cold grip

of ill-intentioned, clumsy arms;

i dreamt of train wrecks 

every single night until 

i turned the key over,

and separated.

speaking through the wind,

on the other side of the 

tracks as the train goes by,

you won’t find me crossing 

for the taste ever again.

[unfortunateteller]

sleepless smiles.

[unfortunateteller]

82817.

I am still in the seas of suffering, somber smiles, and grueling growth. Each day beating down on me like forsaken heat waves taking my breath straight from my lungs and making shivers shoot down my spine as if a cigarette was put out on the back of my neck. I won't claim to know everything. I'd be a liar and a thief of the true calmness someone out there truly deserves, who may feel from things that I put out. I wish to never be anything other than the most pure truth that the most clever lie wishes it could be. The blood and honey, that continues to dance throughout my daydreams. But I do know this, though I may continue to tumble in and be dragged along through this season's riptide - I conquered these seas once and I will do it again. I swim in the truths that made me weak. I use the silent glorification of a lie to keep me up at night. I won't wait to light the fuse, because chaos never cuts me loose.

[unfortunateteller]

i swear halsey and i are on the same wavelength

[unfortunateteller]

SEND has finally arrived!  I have put everything I possibly could have into this EP. Those that I hold near and dear to my heart can vouch for me when I say creating this EP almost killed me several times.  Every lyric had its own scene in this story and every vision I had for every song and every lyric HAD to be met. I was lucky enough to work with an amazing producer and studio that completely understood my processes and my odd explanations for sounds and visions. I also had the most incredible few friends who kept my head above water every now and then when I sank too deep into my work.  This EP is a story of reflection, power and healing even down to every sound, chord and hum besides the lyrics.

I’ve explained my emotions and thoughts on creating this EP at least 15 times fully in the last 2 days so I’ll just leave it at I am incredibly thankful for every single part of this journey and I hope that you can find your own piece of home in SEND like I did. 

SEND is OUT NOW ON IAMSIBERIA.COM, ITUNES, YOUTUBE, AMAZON MUSIC and GOOGLE PLAY.