i have this whole idea, that my younger self is enjoying all the things that i enjoyed last year. so seeing that today is a "special" day, she's probably having the time of her life right now, cuddling in the theaters with her boyfriend. not that i'm jealous of my old self or anything. because the present me is richer than the past me HAHA so who's the real winner here?
on a side note, i haven't disposed of the things i got from him yet. a part of me wants to keep it somewhere, where i won't really see it, unless i go through my stuff looking for something, and there's also a part of me that wants to just keep it out there. i guess i'll keep those "memorable" things he gave me for now, and dispose of them when i can actually move on 100%. as for the random things that he gave me, like that one snk pillow that sheep plushie, that domo plushie and some other stuff, i'm keeping those for god knows how long i would want to, because i don't care if he's the one that gave it to me, i'm keeping them cause those were stuff that i would've wanted to buy for myself if i had the money back then.
this should be my last "senpai post", so i'll end it a little meaningful i guess.
happy anniversary to the ghost of my past, and although i was quite saddened that all those promises, wishes and hopes for our future together seem to have turned out into pointless fantasies, i will leave all these bittersweet memories behind and move on
#project hail mary
#my chemical romance
#aesthetic
#heated rivalry
