#senric

[cutekita]

[Journal] ::Dark Dreams::

The dream began with me crying over his form, the body of my former love Oldaric, lax and dying in my arms. I wanted nothing but to heal all his wounds but the elements left me. The single thing I wanted from them and they could not give it. 

I watched as his life slipped past my fingers and even my quiet lips as they murmured without speech, his hand rose to touch but fell to his chest. As he died in my arms I cried. When all the water was drawn from my form after what seemed like hours of crying every ounce of energy I had, I wiped them away only to look down and see Senric in my arms. 

His smile soft and tired; hands reaching up to frame my face as they trail bloody splotches upon my cheeks. Nestled between those stained hands tears sprang to my features. I knew something was wrong. I felt it inside my breaking heart.

I cared for nothing, then, but the one in my arms. My heart skipped a beat and my ears rang suddenly. I could not hear what he said to me and when his lips stopped moving entirely the body I held grew instantly cold. Panic set in as I tried to do the same; to heal the wounds of my fallen love.

But I couldn’t...

I failed him. I failed them all and no faux smile or happy outlook will change the fact that I should have been there for them. I should have been more alert, more helpful, more available to be called. I should have been with them...

When my dark thoughts drifted from my mind there was no life left in this cold body I held in my arms. I cried then, I bellowed, and I spoke obscenities to the spirits and gods that must surely be laughing at me. It’s then I felt the warmth of something beside me and I look over to see a bright shining light; a wisp of energy hovering at my side. I let the body in my arms go with reluctance, the great dark oozing at my feet took the lax form from my hands as I turned towards this blinding energy beside me. It felt warm. It felt soft. It... disappeared.

With a jolt I awoke with a heavy draw of breath and my arms tightly circled around Senric’s form. I.. I wanted to cry... and I did. I drew him up against me as I caught my breath and regained my senses; hiding my tears from my hearts desire. Would I fail him.. too?...

Whoever rules the world of dreams is a cruel.. cruel god. 

[cutekita]

[Journal} ::Of Snow and Roses::

The status of my heart is difficult. These strange coiling snakes wrapped around me tighten and tighten each breathing moment. Until I sigh beside his lips and I am warmed again.

My mark is on him now and the very sight of it grabs at my loins and causes my tongue to roll against my teeth; as if they are waiting to make another to rest beside it. A whole collection upon his lovely shoulder, I can see it now...

I packed our things and sent special letters on ahead to the Observatory, setting up a room of wine and roses just for the two of us. I plan on giving him a gentle night when we reach it. A warm and loving night. Something that I should have given him the first time.

With orders sent we made off, nestled upon my Chocobo the whole ride I was acutely aware of his every movement; the tugs at my tail, the touches at my sides. Those hands that wandered too close to my groin. I wanted him to touch me; pushing his hands there anyway. Ahh, a moment of electricity...

The whole way we talked a little about his and that; most things I cannot even properly recall at this point. I just remember sharing drinks and talking about Baine, my Chocobo and how feisty he was. Sen worried that he would jump off a cliff with the both of us on it and I had to quiet him and assure him that the bird wouldn’t. How silly he is, that even hearing this aroused me...

The sight of snow, however, made him smile so much. The entire trip was worth it just for those few minutes of him childishly playing in the snow. Upon our bird I simply laced our fingers together and pressed them tight to my heart. I felt it then; that tightening as if a string were binding me harder then before.

We did stop at the little Tavern just outside the Observatory; this little town housing barely any buildings, but it does have a nice tavern. The best outside of Ishgard I think. We stopped at the stables to let Baine rest when he attacked me with snowballs. The cutest thing ever, tossing packed balls of snow at me and I at him... I want to do it again. Maybe as we travel around Ishgard. Maybe.. after.

Mental note to attempt to teach him tricks with fire; apparently he quite likes them.. yes.

I gave him his pie; a Heavenstern gift, but not the only one. No, I had many other things planned for tonight. Many other things..

[cutekita]

An adaptation of how Kit’a feels when he’s around Senric ~

[sillykittyff14]

This picture makes me think of a senric Nine <3 @senric-ninelives! Kit’a adores his tail-biter!

[cutekita]

[Journal] :: Fluffy Surprises ::

He was gone for awhile and I missed him horribly. Spending most of my time hunting random game in the Shrouds, collecting mushrooms for a stew and finding the best rollanberry’s on the market to make something he would like to eat when he comes back. 

I came home today to find him nestled in my bed, exhausted looking as if he had traveled for miles and miles just to crash at my doorstep. The cute little Tail-biter. I... no, it’s too soon for that.

I snuggled him, cuddled him, drew him into the safety of my arms as he roused from sleep and all I could think of is if his journey was safe or not. If he encountered any issues. I was worried, to worried for a casual friendship.

He woke and smiled, grinning up at me as he always does; those playful ears twitching softly as I spied his smile. I wanted to tear his clothes off right that moment and demand his moans, hear his begging plea’s, and I had no idea why. This was not something I usually felt. 

Sure my love making was sometimes primal and rough, but it got that way through careful culmination; stimulation, and a lot of foreplay. But him and I... it is so very different. 

I’m not sure what it is about him, but he’s mine now; I claimed him. He bares the mark of my teeth and I hope he will let them heal to show this mark of mine to all. I can’t cage him though. I won’t. The very thought scares me to my toe’s and back, just to think about it. 

But the sweet song of our hearts were sang by our voices before Menphina. I will never forget that moment...

[cutekita]

[Journal] :: In Hot Water ::

Last night I did it again, we were doing something so plainly simple, gardening and when we went inside to get cleaned up I can’t say why I did it, but I did. We were both unclothed in the water and neither of us knew it. The smokey water from the bath salts I put in made sure of that.

It was so nice, he had left for awhile and came back with some tea that smelled of berries. It was sweet and tasty. Just the right type of zing, but somehow it made me drunk. Maybe he makes me drunk all by himself...? I washed his hair and before I knew even what happened we were kissing and touching again in the hot water...

Addiction; it’s the only word for this. I am addicted to him. His scent, his looks, the soft fuzz about his ears and the way his cheeks slightly flush when I say something embarrassing.

Please Menphina, don’t let him be scared away... I will pay tribute to your worshiping stone in the morning in hopes that we can be together often, more often then all the others. 

I’m not saying I want to give up the ability to freely love whom I wilt, but something about his entire being that makes a lot of other things completely disappear from my vision.

He sleeps in his bed though, worn and happy. I thought he would melt away at the end... but he is still there. I worry that I am still pushing him to far; I think he’s right. Perhaps him visiting his friends might help me see more clearly. To possibly be around him without attacking his lips. Hopefully..

[cutekita]

Sweet, But Unsure.

I think I have fallen into some sort of trap. I can see so many doors ahead of me but I stand outside this ‘one’ and I cannot open it, but I clearly want to. 

Senric does so many things to me. He lights up my smile, makes me feel frisky and alive. Young and innocent. I want to just play with him all day and lay with him at night. The best dream ever...

I cannot say when it started to feel this way or why. But that little string that holds our friendship together keeps tightening, pulling me closer and closer until I can no longer see anything but the blaze of need and desire that I hold in me for the little tail-biter.

I’m scared, not of him but of me. I’m scared of what I might make him do. Of what I might force him to witness. I fear I might ruin his innocence and take it all way. His willingness to go further and further the longer we are around each other puts me on the tip of a knife. I’m frightened it might ruin him entirely, but some dominant beast inside of me wants to bite and claim him for my own.

I want to tie him to my bed and do unspeakable things, quiet things, soft things.. things I know he’ll like... but I can’t bring myself to do what was done to me.

I told him the other night why I was upset after we had our little ‘moment’ on the bed inside my private rooms. He seemed so unsure and the way his face looked mimicked my own from many years prior. I hated myself.

He said I didn’t do anything wrong but he’s green with this, he doesn’t know. He’s so innocent. He does so many naughty things unknowingly, but hes so innocent.. it hurts. 

I love the way he is and somehow I want him to be ‘mine’. I just hope I don’t scare him away in the process. I want to get to know him better. Find out his wants, needs, wishes, dreams.. expectations for life. Anything, everything.. that playfulness... it echos in me.

I need someone like that in my life. I just wish I could keep my body in check...

[cutekita]

[IC] Senric ran off for a little while to get some berry’s and shop at a stall but came back with tea and helped Kit’a weed his water garden. Oh how much fun that was, instructing the other to not rip out plants instead of weeds. *snickers*