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[techmidlifeinsex]

26

A note on lock-down and pornography.

This was a particularly bad period for my porn addiction. Long periods of privacy and a computer are a really bad combination -- unlimited access to pornography REALLY does rewire the brain.

For the first couple of months my mind and body turned into zombies from the amount of masturbation I was indulging in. Sometimes it was thrice a day, the opportunity presenting itself when the rest of the family left for exercise and I was ‘working’. A lot of it was while watching trans porn. It was a vicious cycle of dopamine hits, tiredness and addiction. I was taking risks of wanking away while my children were barely 5 meters away -- thank Christ for doors. I was on a short fuse mentally, unable to concentrate, unable to work, unable to exercise: always on the lookout for the next opportunity to release.

I had to come out of it. The first step was to  move the workspace to a non-private location. A lot of temptation goes away once people are around. Second step was to exercise regularly -- the physical tiredness enabled me to fall asleep quicker and take away the energy needed for porn. This combination managed to bring it in control. I’m now at a stage where I can abstain for a few days and then have more pleasure when I eventually masturbate.

What of the wife? Lock-down has been a bitch for the sex life. Too tired at night, not enough privacy in the day, heaps of exercising and constant work put paid to it all. Add in periods and minor illness -- no chance.

There was a short period where the kids were going to the neighbors often; she  went and got her pussy waxed along with her regular leg routine. Now THAT was a good time! About 10 days of licking and fucking. We even tried it on a gym ball, something I had seen on porn and it actually worked for us. At some point she caught me looking at porn and teased me about watching it all myself. So I loaded up some Ava Addams and put it on while having sex. A bit of a mistake -- she does like watching it but gets jealous of women with large breasts. I need to adjust for her psychology and flip it next time round: no big tits but have a muscular guy. I’m pretty sure she likes porn but is just too shy to get into it. Indian women and their bloody inhibitions. Men too; I’m equally shy/scared of exposing my fantasies to her. Though I’m not quite sure what she would make of the porn collection. I’m mulling bringing up OnlyFans with her once we’re back at it regularly....

I’m looking forward to when kids holidays finish.

[phanties]

Sebastian.

I’m excited for tomorrow.

I had one of the best and intimate experiences of my life so far.

Last Monday Sebastian asked me to go to his dorm after school. And I was like “mmm I don’t know. Should I go? Hell yeah.”

The dorms are so tiny. Really tiny. But we made it work.

Sebastian is so different from me. He like it rough and honestly because of my inexperience I’m kind of shy. I know that once I start doing more often this, I’ll be a fucking master. I have to confess that I like the rough stuff. At least the rough stuff he does to me. I’m kind of wet right now just thinking about him.

We haven’t fucked yet. But he tasted me in every possible way. He can make me moan with just a touch and that makes me crazy.

Tomorrow I’ll see him again. I’m so excited.

[techmidlifeinsex]

26

So I stumbled on #SareeFlow on Twitter and saw the video. Eshna Kutty — probably the hottest Indian woman on the internet today. I could not take my eyes off her pictures on her website. By the time I looked up, it was 2 am and I was as hard as a rock.

Serendipity — I had some Indian porn on my iPad! A rarely seen pornstar called Princess Asia in a shower fuck. This was the first time I had seen her and she was just my type. To top it off I imagined little miss Eshna morphing into her in a few years — and the image stuck.

Superb brown skin tone, tinted hair, large eyes, long nails, tattoos and huge breasts (too big for my taste but you can’t have it all can you?) and full lips.

Started the video and forwarded to where she was lying on the floor while taking it sideways with her arms up — her naturally coloured pussy and beautiful, beautiful stained armpits.....I would love to dribble tequila on both and lick them clean.

I just wish they would show more story and kissing in the video; some tounge sucking and licking as well as 5 mins of cunnilingus would have been awesome. The cherry would have been to see her rimmed!!

I came long and hard on little-miss-Eshna-morphed-into-a-fuckdoll’s face.

[techmidlifeinsex]

32

I have a cousin who is a few years younger then me and a few feet shorter. This makes her fat by society standard. It must be something in the genes — height like that for all the women on her side of the family. I put the fat down to hormones.

Anyways she is cute — beautiful face, almond eyes, nice hair and an engaging smile. I often fantasise about her. She got married and divorced and is now on a weight loss streak.

I watch PlumperPass porn and imagine her face on some of the models, specially Sofia Rose. So nice and gloriously round and into her sexuality; she has a similar face and eyes to cousin. I have come multiple times while imagining cousin in the porn.

I bet the divorce was related to body image issues — wish I could tell cousin to embrace her body and sexuality (while looking after her health) and just go for it. Plenty of men are turned on by that sort of a body if presented well.

[techmidlifeinsex]

31

A note on NZ women. The accent is really really cute and makes them so endearing!

There is one at work — tall, young and friendly with the cute accent. On close up she doesn’t look that good: flat chest, teeth out a little bit and has a breath problem.

I just saw her on a company video meeting afte a couple of years. Weather its the lockdown or she’s had a baby but now she glows, has some weight on and looks very fuckable! And always the accent.... 👌

[techmidlifeinsex]

30

She was waiting for me in a tank top and jeans skirt. Glowing and sparkling, looking forward to it.

I bent her over and licked her through some nice frilly lacy panties. Delicious. She did not want any alcohol there as she had just got cleaned up.

What a cleanup -- every fold of her pussy was sparkling and fresh. Her asshole and ass had been waxed baby smooth.

I dove in and ate her out like diving on oysters. She loved it and turned very wet. She got onto her knees and gave me a nice blowjob. I dragged her to the edge of the bed and started fucking hard. She moaned and I bit her nipples and neck. So hot! I slid into her at a different angle and she lubricated more and groaned -- I think she would have come if I had kept at it. It was a very different feeling, I felt like I was sliding against some open and well lubricated nerve endings inside her.

I got her to ride me -- a vision of heaven, so beautiful, so fair and white, the hair streaming.

Before she got on top, she laid me down and TOOK ME DEEP INTO her mouth! For a few minutes too. SO NICE!!!!! Wife is getting a taste for her own pussy juices...

Her nipples were rock hard and erect; I sucked on them. She continued riding and I flicked the nipples.

She came hard and then continued until I blew.

We relaxed for a while and then got into the jacuzzi. I was getting nice and drunk at this point and enjoying the vision opposite me: breasts, beautiful hair, smiles, glowing skin, steam, soap, massage.... she started playing with me, first with her hands and then her feet. I was rock hard and loving it. We kissed and I played with her pussy.

We got back into bed and I put on the Tor 2. She sucked me on her knees while I was wearing it and I nearly doubled in girth. Ride, ride, ride -- hard orgasm and she slid off. I don’t think she had the energy to continue. I tried to finish myself but couldn’t with her. I came hard when she was in the shower.

This morning we had another session, starting with 69, followed by her riding my face. I have never experienced so much wetness from her. She rode me but could not come. I fucked her hard for several minutes -- ass slapping, loud -- but could not come. I finished myself with her by my side. She claimed no pain during missionary but was sore when riding. Perhaps too much for a 24 hour period.

I have still not explored her cleaned up asshole or armpits. Just writing that has made me stiff again.

[techmidlifeinsex]

28

The LELO toys arrived.

First up, I tried the Tor 2 cock ring. Very powerful vibrations and a few patterns to choose from. Definitely different to the one that comes with the Oden; easier to put in and not as tight.

I put on some Casting porn featuring Zaawadi. A beautiful slim black girl from Kenya taken by some German dude. He complete shatterd her — my best bit was when he lathered her head and she shaved while being filmed and getting fucked! HOT!! Very hot.

A very nice toy. More to look forward to when fucking Wife. The Tor vibrations are intense and I’m intrigued to try out a pattern while penetrating.

[techmidlifeinsex]

23

Another erotic dream.

I’m middle aged but getting introduced by family to a young girl. All of this taking place in India among people I have not seen for 20 years. A family gathering, all smiles; I’m asked to take her inside and talk to her in private. The room door remains 3/4 closed.

It turns out that I know the girl, she is near 18 years old. We have been sex chatting and I ask her to rub herself. She looks me in the eye, puts her hand inside her saree and strokes herself for a while. I ask her to remove her panties and give them to me. Her eyes sparkle as she takes them off, gives them to me and goes out of the room. They are white cotton with a dark red fringe and stained with her juices.... I lick them, take a deep sniff and wake up.