for @jjddk ♡ i'm sorry this took a bit of a while >.<
warnings: this is all fluff heh but what happened the night before clearly wasn't 😳
summary: you wake up next to bf!Rowoon after,, that kind of night <3
your eyelids flutter open to a bare, tan, broad back facing you. some parts of the skin are flushed and blushing pink, and you trace your fingers over the tender parts.
the owner of this precious back, your boyfriend Seokwoo, starts moving in his sleep, rolling over to face you. your heart races and you're flustered to suddenly see his face so close up, his bare chest completely exposed to you. he's still asleep and his lips are parted, slightly swollen from the numerous times you kissed them just last night.
you bring up your fingers again to touch the curve of his jawline, feeling his smooth skin against your fingertips. you admire the way his chest slowly rises and falls, and how he looks so perfect even with his messy hair.
Seokwoo starts to sense that someone is watching him, even in his sleep. his eyelids slowly flutter open and he smiles when he sees his face so close to yours.
"good morning~" he says in a raspy voice that makes your heart flutter.
he leans forward and sleepily kisses your forehead and nose. then, he shifts so he can bring a hand up to lovingly stroke the top of your head.
"are you in pain? does it hurt a lot?" Seokwoo asks you.
"it hurts, but it's okay enough to handle," you speak softly, making Seokwoo suddenly want to pull you even closer. he pulls you so deeply into his embrace that your bodies are pressed together as you lay on your sides, your head leaning against Seokwoo's chest.
you can hear his heartbeat!
you flatten your palm against his ribcage to see if you can feel it, too, but Seokwoo laughs at you.
"are you trying to feel up my chest again?" he asks in a low tone.
"again?! n-no!" you retort, making Seokwoo laugh even harder. he wraps his arms around you more tightly, kissing the top of your head.
"i'm all yours, y/n. you can feel me up as much as you want," he says.
"even in public?" you joke.
"in public? y/n! i didn't know you were that type of person!" Seokwoo exclaims, playing along.
"n-no! i was joking!!" you shriek as Seokwoo pulls you on top of him.
the sight of you, all sleepy and dazed, bare skin and flushed features is the death of him. he pulls you down, low, so he can press his lips to yours. the way his warm hands feel on your back, the way he breathes into the kiss, the way his lips feel so soft, everything about Seokwoo makes you melt in his arms.
when you pull away and you both peer at one another, you lean down to cuddle into Seokwoo's chest. he rests his chin atop your head and holds one of your hands, playing with your fingers.
"y/n," he calls out.
"hm?"
"could we just stay like this, today?" Seokwoo asks.
"we could.. but i really want to shower," you say.
"can we.. shower together?" he asks.
"how about a bubble bath?!" you suggest, getting all excited and clapping your hands.
Seokwoo chuckles, poking your nose.
"anything for you, my love," he says, and you feel as though you're becoming one with the mattress as you stare into his loving eyes.
you run your fingers through his hair and Seokwoo's eyelids flutter shut as he feels your touch. you: his home, his safe space, his love, his world, his everything. laying next to you, waking up next to you is the stuff of dreams for him. but now it's his reality, and he feels so blessed for that.
"Seokwoo," you call out.
"hm?" Seokwoo responds, mimicking your reply from before.
"i love you," you say in a hushed tone.
his toned arms pull you closer so he can whisper it back in your ear: "i love you more, y/n".
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Miyoung sat on her bed reading. She had recently picked up No Longer Human by Osamu Dazai and was loving it. She was definitely going to reread it.
She reached for her coffee that she had on her bedside table as she reread the last bit of the current chapter she was on. She really liked the style of this author. Though she had really been liking a lot of different styles lately, seeing as she had been filling her time with reading lately. If she wasn’t filming for her channel, she was reading.
All this reading may or may not be her way of coping. (Coping with Youngbin and Inseong being gone due to enlistment.) Miyoung had no idea how she was going to deal with all of her members, if only two had enlisted and she was struggling.
Basically, in Miyoung’s mind, if she spends less time with her members now, it’ll hurt less when they leave. Was it working? Of course not. She was miserable. And she was pretty sure that her members were starting to worry, which was never a good thing.
Miyoung startled when the door to her room opened. Looking up, she saw Seokwoo and Sanghyuk walk in. She was not ready for whatever shenanigans they were about to bring, but judging by their faces, Miyoung knew that there was no way for her to avoid it.
“What do you want?” she asked, closing her book. She folded her arms over her chest, raising a brow at the two. They in turn, side-eyed each other then smirked as they walked over to her.
“We miss you,” Seokwoo said, pouting.
“We saw each other this morning,” Miyoung shook her head.
“Yeah, in passing. After you got your coffee, you came back in here and haven’t left ever since,” Sanghyuk whined, walking over to her and sitting on her bed.
Miyoung shrugged, picking at a loose thread of her sweat shorts.
“Mimi, we’re not scolding you. It’s just that this has been happening a lot. Other than practice, we’ve barely seen you,” Seokwoo said, sitting on the floor next to where she was on the bed.
She shrugged again.
“Is there a reason why you’re avoiding us?” the taller of the two asked.
“I’m not avoiding you,” Miyoung was quick to respond.
“Really, now?” Sanghuyk asked, raising his own brow at the girl.
“I’m not! I’ve just been busy,” Miyoung shrugged, though she wasn’t sure if that was going to hold up in court.
“Reading doesn’t count, Mimi. Plus you’re a fast reader. So when you’re done with a book you should have plenty of time to hang out with us,” Jaeyoon said from the doorway.
Miyoung glared at him as he walked through, the rest of the boys trailing behind him. This was starting to feel like an intervention of sorts.
“What is this?” she asked, waving vaguely at everyone as they sat at her desk, her bed, or on the floor.
“It’s exactly what you think it is,” Taeyang said, climbing over her to sit between her and the wall.
“An intervention,” Chanhee nodded.
“We don’t know what’s going on exactly, but last time you pulled away from us, you were being assaulted,” Juho said.
Miyoung stilled. They were right. She scoffed at herself, breaking her promise of always coming to them no matter what.
“You think this is funny?” Youngkyun asked, frowning.
“Listen, we can’t read you the way Youngbin-hyung can. We don’t know what’s wrong, but we can at least see that something’s wrong,” Juho said, folding his arms over his chest.
“I’m laughing, but not because it’s funny. It’s because I thought I had changed, but I didn’t. I’m still hiding things and possibly leading to trouble,” Miyoung said, running her hands through her hair.
The boys looked at each other then back at Miyoung, as Taeyang spoke up. “Then tell us.”
Miyoung covered her face with her hands. She could feel her face heating up. The fact that she was pulling away from them because she didn’t want to have to deal with the emotions that will come with them enlisting, was embarrassing.
“Are you in trouble?” Juho asked.
The visual looked up, shaking her head, “I’m not. I promise you.”
“Then what?” Sanghyuk asked.
“It’s embarrassing,” she answered, shrugging. Miyoung chewed on her lip, looking at her hands.
At that, the boys all looked at each other. Deeming it better that she feel embarrassed over unsafe, they agreed to wait for her.
“Then you don’t have to tell us now,” Seokwoo said.
“As long as you’re not in any danger,” Chanhee added.
Miyoung looked up at them. She could tell that they meant it, but now she was feeling guilty. There’s no reason she couldn't tell them. It’s not like they’d make fun of her.
She took in a deep breath then spoke up, “I don’t want you guys to go.” It came out mumbled.
“What do you mean?” Taeyang asked.
Miyoung shrugged, “Enlistment.”
“Oh, Mimi,” Sanghyuk said, grabbing her and pulling her onto his lap. She curled up, hiding her rapidly flushing face in his chest.
“Wait, Young-ah. Do you miss Youngbin and Inseong?” Jaeyoon asked.
Miyoung nodded her head.
“And now you’re already thinking about how you’ll miss us too when we go?” Youngkyun asked.
She nodded again.
“I know that this is a serious thing for you, but God damn, this is fucking adorable,” Juho smiled.
Miyoung groaned. “Don’t make fun.”
“We’re not,” Taeyang said from behind her and Sanghyuk. He ran his hand through her hair.
“Noona, we’re not all leaving at once. You’ll never be alone,” the maknae assured.
“I know, but that doesn't mean I won’t miss each of you when you leave,” she pouted.
“Is that why you’ve been distant? You were embarrassed to tell us?” Jaeyoon asked.
“Sort of. But it was mostly because I figured if I spent less time with you guys, I’d grow less attached and it’s hurt less,” she confessed.
“Okay, my turn to hold our cute Mimi,” Seokwoo said as he pulled Miyoung from Sanghyuk’s lap and onto his. Sanghyuk squawked as she was pulled away. Miyoung on the other hand, flushed again as she was being handled like a ragdoll. (It was always like that when it came to cuddling with these boys.)
Once in the tallest member’s lap, she was turned to face the rest of her members, much to her embarrassment. Seokwoo wrapped his arms around her middle and nuzzled her neck. Miyoung squirmed.
“I’m going to tell you right now, Miyoung, that your plan was going to backfire on you so badly,” Juho said.
“I figured,” she mumbled.
“Listen, Noona. All you need to know is that you’ll never be alone, and we won’t be gone forever. Two years will fly by before you know it. Plus half of us aren’t due to enlist for years,” Youngkyun said.
Miyoung nodded. She knew all that. Still, that didn't stop her from not wanting them to go. “I know.”
“Then let’s focus on the now. Yeah the hyungs aren’t here now, but we’ll keep in contact and they’ll visit too,” Taeyang said.
“Youngbin-hyung will definitely come back if he hears that Miyoung was crying over him,” Seokwoo spoke into her neck, chuckling.
“Yah! I’m not crying over him,” Miyoung protested.
“At the moment, but if you’re missing them that bad, I can only imagine how many times you’ve had to stop yourself from crying,” Chanhee smirked.
Miyoung pouted, “Maybe it would be better if you all left.”
“You don’t mean that,” Taeyang said with a knowing look.
“No. No, I don’t,” Miyoung shook her head, frowning. The others chuckled.
“Okay. Okay. That's enough pouting. How about we order takeout and watch a movie then we can prove to Mimi that she’ll never be alone?” Jaeyoon suggested.
“Sounds like a plan to me,” Seokwoo said, standing up. He threw Miyoung over his shoulder and followed the others to the living room.
“Mimi, we love you,” Taeyang smiled, looking at Miyoung who was hiding her blush behind her hands.
“I love you guys too,” she mumbled out. She smiled despite herself.
A/N: None of the images in the collage are mine, refer to here for more; For more SF9, read here, for iKON, read here and for optional bias writings, read here!
Youngbin:
Plays in pairs
When you first present the idea to him, given that the circumstances are of a light atmosphere, you'll fluster him, impeccably. His cheeks will turn pink and he'll maybe giggle a little and cover his mouth out of shyness but he won't be averted to the idea. He loves it but you just caught him off guard ahaha. When it's under a serious circumstance, like you are describing what you would like to try out, he would seriously contemplate your idea. He won't seal the deal if he doesn't like it the first time around. He'll try for a second to give it a chance. During your first time trying this out, it'll be spontaneous. Like you are watching a movie or a documentary and you or him decide that you want to give it a try. He'll firmly hold your waist as you settle onto him. If you are horny, you wait for a few minutes before you think, 'Enough of this' and rock him out of this world. What could he say? If you aren't, it'll be peaceful. But there's a dilemma. If you are sitting on the sofa, you can't see the screen. But you want to watch (sad). He'll say, ''It's okay'' and switch off the tv and it will resume in the bedroom. Just a beautiful atmosphere where you have deep conversations. He'll listen to your insight and internally marvel at how your perspective and compliment them with some of his own. It's like turn-taking, an essential part of a relationship where you go back and forth, speaking about one topic to the end of it where you have nothing to say anymore and then you'll move onto the next. It'll go on for ages, till the two of you are hungry. When the two of you go the kitchen to make something, he'll do what he couldn't do when the two of you were cock warming. The same thing may happen when the two of you are about to fall asleep, the lack of lights appeal to his other side, love-making.
Inseong:
This one is a funny bunny
It's a routine for you to cock warm after sex just like when he's on the laptop, surfing the net at the dinner table and you are sat on his cock, back to his chest, keeping him warm. After sex, it's a gateway to another round, on the bed or in the shower or to sleep in that position but not cock warm. He would love cock warming in the morning if it's cold then, probably in your balcony or in the kitchen, hugging you from behind and trailing his hands to your tummy and chest every now and then. He would love when you capture when you capture his lips in a sweet embrace, beginning a long make-out session when he's in you. If he's horny, you can bet that he's going to tell you about it. ''Babe'', he places a delicate kiss on your neck, ''tell me'' you moan out. His hands have already found your tummy and trailed downward, rubbing your clit but not to just merely stimulate you, to see if you are wet as he imagines you to be. He loves you. He's going to make love to you, to see those expressions on your face and feel you around him, holding you in his arms till the two of you have exhausted yourselves out which could one round or more than one. I can imagine you and him in the kitchen, he's got you pressed against the counter and that's how the cock warming while horny scene may play out. Another one is when abroad, maybe in a hotel or airbnb, he'll have you in his arms but that's not how it starts. He'll be playful about it, surprising you with a hug from behind, kissing the spot near to your ear, whispering some *interesting* innuendo into your ear, it makes you laugh anyway. A couple of seconds later, he's turning you around, kissing your tummy and inner thighs all the way till he's on his knees, he'll make sure to nuzzle his nose against your panties and lick a stripe at the material, slowly pulling them down. Arousal buzzes through you because he's telling you, ''fuck, baby you taste so good, stay still for me'' or something like that, it's a little muffled because he is preoccupied in drawing you to pleasure and pleasure and then release. He'll eat you out multiple times or till your knees buckle, depending on whether you had sex previously and then just maybe, in a moment driven by passion, he'll carry you to the sofa and that's where you'll cock warm, giggling to one another of what just happened, what you want to do afterwards. Wrap your legs around his waist, press him against the sofa and lift your hips again, he'll start the process again, all while laughing. It's just light-hearted.
Jaeyoon:
Absolute sweetheart/ dream husband
In this scenario, let's say that he is your husband. When you suggest cock warming, he's a little uncertain (by his little frown) but also inquisitive (by his questions), *Frowning* ''What is it about?'' would be the situation, he would look very cute when he asks. Presumably the two of you would be cuddling and you happened to stumble onto this conversation, he would not be shy, just like, 'You have an idea, let's hear it then!', also like an explorer, he's willing to try new things even if it means pushing his boundaries a little bit. But, this does not fall into that category of pushing boundaries. Maybe pushing his patience if he's horny. The latter scenario is guaranteed to occur at multiple points of time. You'll be lying on your side with his cock in your ass, it's a little jerk that alerts you or his hands that begin to wander everywhere like kissing your neck, then your lips and his hands have already begin to stimulate your clitoris. You moan into the kiss and then he knows and he smiles into the kiss while rocking his hips against yours. Everything is forgotten in the background. Unless it's life-threatening. Like food can burn or you could watch three episodes on netflix that you aren't truly watching, he's not stopping till the both of you are tired to the bone and have released multiple times. Quite the sweetheart though, he'll get up and shake himself if he's about to fall asleep the next minute and he'll grab a cloth for you like you protest but he says as he's already getting up, ''no, stay there, I've got it!''. You smile and slump and he cleans you, tosses it away and then climbs on top of you, pulling you into his arms. If he can, he'll try the idea of cock warming and spoon you throughout the night but if he can not, he'll definitely do it the next day. He's committed to the plans he makes or what's going on at that moment. Let's say you have an argument, you are trying to smooth things out, ruffle out misunderstandings and you won't talk it out with sex but communicate to him about it. The night will end in cock warming, to bring you closer and then it's all jokes from there, especially about the argument, it's either you teasing him or the other way around and that's how you fall asleep: content.
Dawon I Lee Sanghyuk:
He has his days.
On a day when he's tired, to the bone maybe, he's come back from work and you want to cuddle, using the idea of cock warming to propose the intimacy you want to feel during the night that you couldn't during the day, I'm sure that he'll do it for you. If he does not fall asleep immediately, he'll caress your backside, admiring the way the flesh conforms to his grasp. He loves all of you. He will pepper kisses along your neck, down your collarbone and to your breasts, sucking your erect buds but he won't touch your centre. He likes to go slow, never stopping these moments with you or he'll take you in the morning. At times like these, he loves when you touch him, just your touch on his skin, turning heated. When you are making out, it would be your tug on his hair, like urgency for more or roaming your hands all over him or tracing his hair from his navel to the band of his underwear would be his favourite save for the best of all, when you direct how everything goes. If he does fall asleep immediately, it'll be after he kisses you. During this time, regardless of whether you were cock warming or not, he would love for you to tangle your fingers in his hair, it lulls him to sleep and even to sleep in your chest, being the small spoon, he would absolutely love it. He has trouble sleeping alone but when he's with you, it's not the case. When he stretches you out after days of not having sex, he tries to hold himself back from releasing, the wait and foreplay was enough to spiral his mind, gasping in your ear. But if you are too tired, he'll take it into consideration, seriously and hold back from lifting his hips off yours and filling you up. When he cock warms just to end the day comfortably, it will turn it into sex if the two of you contain some semblance of energy and are away from that playful and teasing mood, with hours on end before you sleep. It will be just the feeling of his cock filling you up, holding you to the bed with your legs wrapped around his waist, whispering how much he loves and that you are doing well, growling and stilling, your release triggering his, holding you when you are tired or in between rounds decorates the night. He holds your hand when you have sex, always, if your hands aren't roaming his body, feeling it. Otherwise, he'll hold you, preferably with all of your clothes off, no material between the two of you, you two speak about your day, the present and the future. It could even be a tickle session that ensues. The atmosphere will be lively, especially with his jokes and teasing and all the loves he has to offer.
Rowoon I Kim Seokwoo:
Prince of visuals, no?
Since he has such visuals, let's imagine that he takes you on a yacht (ya-ch-ht; hard time spelling that folks 🥵 + why do people go on a yacht? I'm struggling to think of a reason?). Seokwoo's marvelling over your amazement at the beauty of the ocean, the clear blue waters and occasional shade of the fish passing by. He even jokes that he hopes ''no shark gets the two of you'' and then laughs at your expression. Please, he's trying, don't throw him overboard :/. You enjoy the heat some more before he's by your side again, the yacht is paused, it gives you ideas. As soon as he's sat by your side, you take to straddle him, therefore effectively cutting him off. The surprise is evident on his face but his hands are resting on your backside, getting comfortable there. He groans out when your lips touch his neck, nipping the flesh to give him love bites which earns those husky groans of his. They send vibrations down your spine, tingling your core with wetness. With such a beautiful scenery surrounding the two of you, it's easy to fix your eyes on two places and think about how beautiful either are. He intimately hugs you, sucking an area on your breast, removing it from your top and placing the perk bud into his mouth, the act itself is hot and you grind down on him, not holding back your moans because of the silence of the ocean, save for the splashing of waves. You ride him, letting out sweet fucking moans, whimpering in his ears for him that it's so good, you can't get enough. When you are all sweaty, you cock warm in the shade, making out. It's a very soft moment, like sealing the deal? He wants to make you happy and he'll do stuff for you to achieve it. Cock warming is bonding for the two of you, to spoon and gossip about the other rich couples that you saw or speak about your day or just lay there, in each other's arms, enjoying the moment. When it's cooler, he would be okay to cock warming in a public space such as underneath a tree on a beach. You may be a bit far from the sea but you can smell it which makes you happy. It's a very calming day when you are tucked in his arm, leaning on his chest with his cock buried deep inside of you, feeling a little chilly but you are covered by a blanket. All in all, it's private for the two of you.
Zuho I Baek Juho
Cat man 🦸♂️
He would love to cock warm indoors, when his cats are sleeping, safely tucked in their beds as you are in each other's arms. It'll be quiet, you can only hear what's outside, maybe the train passing by or vehicles or pure silence which is hard to come but not impossible. If something's disturbing you like traffic, heavy honking, he's not for it and he'll move you two to somewhere else like the bed or on his studio chair. If you are tired and want to cock warm while he is producing, he'll hold you close to him and ignore the cramp in his legs. When he sees you sleep, he'll go soft and admire your prettiness, not forgetting to wrap a blanket around you. When it's silent, a relaxing atmosphere in which you can fall asleep easily, it's where cock warming will occur the most. An example could be in a space by the windows in a high-rise building or if the place was in a non-busy area like the countryside. There are occasional noises, some make you perk up while other's make you laugh, all while intimately spooning with him. You tell him: it's an indescribable feeling but you will try explaining. Don't be scared, he'll love your words. Relating cock warming to something and being subtle instead of explaining outright would prompt his chest to blossom with love from you, it's the feeling you've brought out from him and to in expressing his feelings, he may cry a little and kiss you like 'Can you feel this love I feel for you? I love you'- is what he is trying to say through the kiss. It's a very wholesome moment, your confessions to each other, spoken beautifully. He would also love to cock warm bare, without any clothes so that the two of you can be purely intimate and he loves your body. If you don't or lack appreciation for your fine self, he'll initiate cock warming if you aren't already and kiss your body and squeeze the parts he can't reach like his appreciation for your butt/ breasts/ stomach or whichever one it is that you are conscious of/ don't love as much as possible. And the opposite too! If he's not feeling okay or feels conscious of himself (pressure from people telling him how artists should look?), cock warming would be a way for you two speak about it whilst loving one another at the same time.
Yoo Taeyang:
What a precious guy
May be confused about the concept at first, even awkward the first time you attempt this, it takes him a little while to get used to this scenario: laying on the bed in each other's arms after carefully navigating your limbs around, his cock in you, completely. But he warms up, he'll make sure that you are comfortable and will also love to take this concept elsewhere, like the living room when you watch tv. When he's tired, he may not be able to carry it out simply because he has no energy or he may be horny (head) but not (body), it happens~ When that happens, he wakes you up with kisses, all over your body and he'd do this, regardless of what happened the previous night, it's automatic for him. Another scenario would be when he is bored, laying around doing nothing and fumbling for something to do, he'd initiate cock warming, that little sigh when he slips into you, relief. From there, he may definitely not hold himself back, the two of you would end up having sex. If it's you and he's doing something and you want to sit on his cock, he'll set down what he is doing and let you. As you hold onto him, he'll notice your whimpers, softly decorating his ear, letting him know how much you want him. He'll tease you till you are hiding away in the crook of his neck or playfully hitting him but he'll satisfy your desires all night. It's for you. However, when he does want to cock warm, he'll snuggle into you, nestling his head over yours. Little touches, lingering over your waist will be presented to you, as well as his admiration for your body. He'll cock warm in your sex or ass. When it's in your ass, he'll take his time admiring your ass, your breasts, any place he can place a kiss on really but he's not really kissing, he's looking and telling you how much he loves you.
Hwiyoung I Kim Youngkyun:
Resident cutie
He's got you in the palm of his hand especially because of that cute face, cute expressions, cute mannerisms, overall a very lovable guy. Can be awkward sometimes but it's okay because his loving personality makes up for it. Is also a shy little bean at first which makes you want to shower him with lots of love and praise. Glady accepts your kisses and hugs, gets shy when you first do them but eventually reciprocates them. To the point where it's comfort, safety and that you can be vulnerable with each other. *This is quickly turning into a boyfriend! Hwiyoung*. It's something that he suggests, the idea of cock warming. Really your jaw should drop when you hear it from your boyfriend. After a sex session, when the both of you are all sweaty and won't go for another round, he wouldn't mind if you were on your knees, keeping his cock warm with your mouth. He could be leaning back on the seat, going through his favourite sites while you sit in between his legs, ignoring the ache in your thighs. He would have you cock warming naked, bare for him and only him to see while he himself is fully clothed. That session could have potentially included bdsm, in a separate room that you have specially for it and this time, you could have been flogged, denied your release or being used, whatever your fantasies may be. It could also be the opposite way where you are the dom. In that case, it would be a command or a form of bonding where he will be punished if he moves when he is in your sex or you cuddle and speak to one another about the session, respectively. If bdsm is not included, then he would love to cock warm! To him, he gets to be with you and speak to you- whatever it may be about. For example, it could be deep, philosophical conversations or you both cuddle and sleep. Either way, he likes spending time with you especially in such a quality manner.
Chani:
*insert a gulp and a surprised face*
Remember that SF9 was discussing about mature concepts as a part of planning for their Kingdom stages and the editors used a fish filter to emphasise Chani's round eyes or rather, his innocence. ''HUh!??!'' is his brain, whirring away like an air conditioner at an office, rolling round and round when you propose this concept. He goes blank and you just sit back, waiting patiently. It has come to this moment. But his smile grows and it keeps on growing till he's unexpectedly pulling you onto his lap and connecting your lips. He knows that you should discuss it first but first, he wants to have you as close as possible when you discuss this. At first, he's peppering kisses on your face with you giggling, telling him that you want to continue and then he says, ''one moment baby'' before he swoops in for your lips. You reciprocate the passion, the moment is neither heated nor too soft, just in between and you have a make-out session for a couple of minutes. He doesn't know why, it's random but the both of you are loving it, like an initiation ceremony into a new stage of your relationship. And here were all along, navigating blind (👀🚫). It's planned with enough space for creativity. You are on the bed and you squeeze his shoulders when he presses at your entrance and fills you up. You wait to adjust to him. At first he's like, ''This it?'' and you have to laugh at that, quite true that you also though the same thing. Soon he's kissing you all over, sucking your nipple and the area around it, turning it a shade darker: he's teasing you, taking his time till he's done cock warming. He tells you that he would love to try out cock warming in your ass sometime and then it's all giggles from there. You ask, ''did you search-'', cut off by his fingers that circle your clit and press, drawing a gasp or a hitch of the breath from you. Then he starts to rock his hips and you know that cock warming is over, at least for now. He's hovering on top of you and losing control over his thrusts and spilling into you later on. A common scenario would be when he's playing games and you are sitting on his cock, maybe sleeping or doing something else, unbeknownst to his friends that he's speaking with on his headset.
Request for @petitebakers (third installment to this) 2.8k, yandere, blood, attempted murder, manipulation
“Baby, it’s time to wake up.”
“Five more minutes…”
You snuggled against Hwiyoung, ignoring Zuho who was trying to get you up. It wasn’t really for your sake, he just wanted you off Hwiyoung, but you refused to let go. Hwiyoung was awake as well, but pretending to sleep with an arm snug around you, keeping you close.
“Baby, Hwiyoung needs to come with me.”
“No. He’s all warm and cuddly.”
“Y/n, he has to come to work with me.”
“No, he’s mine.”
“I will not be taking you shopping again if you keep this up.”
“That’s okay, Hwiyoung can take me shopping, right?”
“Yeah…”
“See.”
“Hwiyoung, get up. This is unprofessional of you.”
“I can’t… I’m trapped.”
“You are way stronger than her.”
“I’m trapped… I cannot go, Zuho. You must go on without me.”
“Get up!”
“Sh!” You whined. “We’re sleeping.”
“Alright, that’s enough, you brought this on yourself.”
Zuho didn’t hesitate to yank you off of Hwiyoung, despite all your protests. He had a cunning look on his face, one you only saw for a moment before he bit into your neck. You gripped his shirt tight from the initial sting before relaxing into his embrace. He kissed your cheek afterwards, leaving a bloody mark.
“Bad girls get punished.”
“I wasn’t bad…”
“You were being very bad.”
“Nuh…”
“Aish, you’re lucky you’re cute. You can go back to bed now.”
“No… fair…”
“What makes you think I play fair?”
Zuho laid you back down under the sheets, licking the blood off your face, before yanking Hwiyoung out of bed. He fell to the floor, wining and trying to roll under the bed.
“Get up already! We’re gonna be late.”
“Aish…”
Hwiyoung got up and stretched, yawning very loudly. He looked over at you, a smile on his face. He would rather stay with you, but the choice was out of his hands. He pressed a kiss to your cheek, petting your head before leaving you to sleep. The bed wasn’t as warm and cozy without him, so you only slept for a while longer. You were still out of it, but you’ve gotten used to walking around the house with low blood. You made your way down the stairs, leaning against the railing, going one step down at a time.
“Y/n, what are you doing out of bed?”
Jaeyoon found you on the railing, half asleep. He had been informed on what Zuho did to get Hwiyoung, so he knew you definitely shouldn’t be up.
“Nothing…”
“How long have you been on the stairs?”
“What?”
“Come here.”
He went over to you and picked you up, taking you with him to the kitchen. You definitely needed to eat, but he wasn’t expecting you up just yet. He sat you down on the counter, getting you a glass of juice.
“You should be in bed.”
“It’s boring… my pillow was taken…”
“If you had your way we wouldn’t get any work done.”
“Is that so bad?”
“Then how are we supposed to take care of you?”
“Fine… will you be my pillow?”
“Baby, I’m also busy.”
“You guys are always busy.”
“It’s cause we have an event coming up and need to prepare.”
“Oh… right…”
“We’ve talked about this.”
“I know… I’m not complaining… but I don’t have to like it…”
“You’re right, but we’re all proud of you for your behavior.”
“Really?”
“Yes.” He pressed a kiss to your cheek. “You’re being a very good girl.”
“But do I have to attend?”
“Yes, you’re part of our family.”
“It’s so boring for me. Do I have to be there all night?”
“Hm… I’ll talk to the others about letting you retire early, deal?”
“Deal.”
❤
Even if you hated the parties, you did have fun setting up for them. When your birthday came around you’d know the house would be decorated like this, but it will all be for you. Although once guests started to arrive reality settled in. You were still shy with greeting guests, but they found that adorable. Although you certainly glared at all the other pets that came through. Normally pets were expected to be friendly with each other, but you had no intention of doing that, and your boys knew.
They did agree to let you retreat to your room after at least two hours of socializing. Of course they didn’t mean for you to actually socialize, you weren’t good at that, but to at least be around. So you’d smile at those you saw, keeping to the walls with a drink in hand, nothing alcoholic of course. Your eyes would always wander over to the clock, wanting your two hours to pass already so you could do anything else. Instead it was dragging, and you felt like it was taking forever for you to get your freedom. Although it came sooner than you thought, and in an unexpected way.
“Y/n.”
“Hm… Hyunjin?”
“Come on.”
You couldn’t believe what you were seeing. You weren’t sure it was real, holding hands with your friend and sneaking upstairs.
“We can go to my room.”
There was no denying Hyunjin was there with you, and you didn’t mind the excuse getting you here sooner. You took over from there, leading your friend to your bedroom and jumping on your bed. You were glad to be away from the party, although you had so many questions.
“How did you get here? Did you sneak in!”
“No. I came with one of the guests.”
“Guests? Wait, are you… a pet?”
“Don’t call me that.”
“Oh my gosh this is so cool!” You ran over to hug him. “Wait, I didn’t see you come in? I was greeting all the guests.”
“We arrived late, and I’ve been looking for you. Are you okay?”
“What? Yeah, I’m fine, why wouldn’t I be?”
“Y/n, you need to tell me the truth. What happened to you?”
“What are you talking about?”
“The night you were taken.”
“Huh?”
“Y/n, you texted us all that you got picked up. You should have returned in the morning, but you never did.”
“I didn’t… oh right, Dawon took care of all that.”
“So you didn’t text us… y/n that’s worse! So no one has heard from you in months! And then your family gets a huge pay out.”
“Pay out? For what?”
“You!”
“Me?”
“Y/n… you know the laws. Vampires can pick humans up for a night, but they can’t keep them. Only applicants are allowed to stay with vampires, and even then it’s only for six months.” Hyunjin reminded you. “Heck, it takes about a week to go through the whole application process.”
“How would you know?”
“How do you think I got here!”
“You applied?!”
“Yes! I had to get a psychical and psyche eval. Not just anyone can be an applicant, they gotta make sure you’re healthy in all aspects. That’s why vamps can’t just keep people off the streets, they need to be evaluated or else they could be vulnerable and get taken advantage of, like you.”
“Me? What are you trying to say!”
“Y/n, you never applied, yet you’re in this house. Not even that! They have legal custody of you. That rarely happens, and it means something bad happened to you.”
“But I’m fine.”
“You’re not… or the fact that you’re telling me that is the problem…”
“Hyunjin, you’re not making any sense. Nothing happened to me, I’m okay.”
“Y/n… I’ve been digging into this, and this whole thing isn’t right. You never applied, you know that.”
“No, I did. I filled out some paperwork the first night I was here.”
“Y/n.”
“What?”
“According to public records you applied a month before you came here. Which I know you didn’t, you know you didn’t. You apply before coming to a house, not when you do.”
“I… well things were done differently…”
“That’s illegal.”
“What are you trying to get at?”
“I don’t know. I’m just trying to figure out what happened to you…”
“That’s the problem… y/n, I know these guys had other girls in the house, and they all died. Aren’t you afraid?”
“I… that was an accident…”
“Y/n?” Hyunjin was suspicious. “What happened to those girls?”
“It was an accident! I didn’t do anything wrong!”
“Did you… did you have something to do with their deaths?!”
“I didn’t do anything wrong!”
“Y/n-”
“I didn’t do anything wrong!”
You had been so happy to be with your friend, but now you were just riddled with anxiety. You hadn’t thought about that morning in weeks now, you were doing so good, but now you were worried. You wanted to run and go find one of your boys, but when you tried to leave Hyunjin grabbed you.
“Y/n, talk to me, what happened?”
“Let me go!”
“Please. I’m worried sick about you, we all are. You’re not supposed to be here!”
“Let go!”
You had tears running down your face, your heart racing a mile a minute. Then there was a loud crash. You didn’t know Hyunjin had locked the door for some privacy, but that was never gonna work. The door came off its hinges, falling to the ground and startling you both. In the blink of an eye Hyunjin was off of you, Youngbin grabbing your head and looking you over.
“Are you okay? Are you hurt?”
“Nu… no… what…”
Youngbin wasn’t the only one to make an appearance, noticing that Dawon had Hyunjin pinned beneath his foot.
“Who the hell are you!”
“A friend… what… what did you…”
“Don’t hurt him!” You cried. “He’s my friend.”
“Baby your heart was racing.” Youngbin said. “We heard it and rushed to find you.”
“I’m okay…”
“What did he do?”
“Nothing… I swear.”
“How the hell did he get in here?” Dawon questioned. “No way he got past our security.”
“He’s… he’s an applicant… he came with someone…”
“Huh, crazy.”
“Restrain him.” Youngbin ordered. “Then go figure out who he came with. He’ll be staying a while.”
“He will?” You questioned. “But why-”
“Sh, everything is going to be okay.”
Youngbin took you to his study, having you stay there while everything else was figured out. You were worried about Hyunjin, hoping he wasn’t hurt. Nothing had happened between you, but you knew his actions wouldn’t look good to the owners of the house. So all you could do was wait, and wait, until Inseong came to get you. He didn’t seem mad, a small smile on his face, and you followed him down to the recreation room. A room you avoided for the most part.
“It’s okay.”
Inseong held your hand, giving it a squeeze. You smiled, feeling reassured. You entered with him, seeing the others, and Hyunjin. He was tied up and gagged, restrained to a chair. You didn’t even know what time it was, but it was clear the party was over.
“What’s… what’s going on…”
“Y/n.” Jaeyoon said. “How is it that your friend is here?”
“He… he came with one of the guests…”
“Correct. And why is he here?”
“To… to see me?”
“Wrong.”
“Wrong? What-”
“He came here to take you.”
“Take me?”
“Yes. He’s been plotting and scheming, figuring out how to get in here, and leave with you.”
“But… but I don’t wanna go. This is my home, I belong with you!”
“I know baby, we all do.” Rowoon assured. “But things could have gone differently if we didn’t find you.”
“I’m sorry… I’m sorry… I didn’t-”
“Sh, it’s okay, you didn’t do anything wrong.”
“Sorry…”
You felt like you were in some sort of trouble, even though they had made it clear that wasn’t the case. Chani came over to you, leading you over to a table, and you became aware of the knife. You froze, but Chani pulled you forward regardless, picking up the knife, and holding it out to you.
“Chani…”
“Take it.”
“But…”
“It’s okay.” Chani put the blade in your hand. “We know you’re not gonna hurt us.”
“I… but I…”
“You wanna stay with us, right?”
“Of course. I don’t-”
“But he wants to take you away.”
“I won’t go with him!”
“He might not give you a choice.”
“…”
“You know what you have to do baby.” Zuho had come to your side. “You don’t wanna leave us, do you?”
“… no…”
You gripped the blade tight, looking over at Hyunjin. He was your friend, or so you thought until tonight. His eyes were wide, thrashing around in his restraints, but he wasn’t going anywhere. Your heart was racing, just like before, but for different reasons now. You somehow found yourself in front of Hyunjin, slowly raising the blade. No one was going to take you from your boys, no one.
❤
Hyunjin may have been restrained, but he could hear every word. Seeing how things were unfolding, he could piece together what happened, and he didn’t like where things were going. As you approached him he tried to get you to snap out of whatever it was they did to you, but when he looked into your eyes, he realized he was doomed. He shut his eyes, not wanting to see any of this, waiting in anticipation for the pain, but it never came. Instead he heard the knife clattering to the floor, slowly opening his eyes.
Just as you were about to go in for the kill, Taeyang had grabbed you. He bit into your neck without warning, the pleasure and blood loss making you weak, causing you to drop the knife. You leaned against him, a small moan escaping your lips. When Taeyang pulled away he breathed heavily, blood dripping down his chin. Hyunjin stared with wide eyes, unsure about what had happened. Taeyang met his eyes for a moment, chuckling, before focusing on you.
“What a good girl.” He cooed. “Such loyalty and devotion.”
“Hm…”
“How was that for a show?” Youngbin questioned, stepping in front of Hyunjin. “Do you get the message?”
“…”
“You can just nod your head, but let’s see what you have to say.” Youngbin removed the gag. “So?”
“What did you do to her!”
“We didn’t do anything.” Jaeyoon said. “She made the choice to protect us, and she’d do it again.”
“You messed with her head!”
“So you don’t get the point here.”
“You’re all psychos! And when I-”
“What?” Hwiyoung questioned. “You’re gonna go tell the Syndicate that something is wrong with your friend and she needs to be taken away from us?”
“I-”
“In case you forgot, she’s ours. No one is taking her from us.”
“Besides.” Dawon added. “Who would ever care what you say? You’re just some insignificant human.”
“You can’t do this to her! She’s not some pet for you-”
“Isn’t that where you’re wrong? Heck, you’re technically a pet too.”
“…”
“You’re not ours, so we won’t hurt you.” Inseong said. “We’re just borrowing you for a bit, that’s all. We’ll send you back alive.”
“Just know you won’t ever get close to her again.” Rowoon added. “We’ll make sure of that.”
“You can’t-”
“Or you could leave here as another… accident.”
“…”
“I thought so.”
Taeyang had you slow dancing with him, keeping your dizzy mind unbalanced, and making sure you maintained that smile. You giggled whenever he’d spin you around, the feeling of floating making you think you were flying. You stayed close to him, ignoring all the other voices until everything faded to black.
❤
You always loved sleeping in someones arms, being reminded that you were loved from the instant you woke up. You opened your eyes to see Chani, humming to yourself as you laid your head on his chest. Although your eyes were barely open, you could tell this wasn’t his bedroom, or yours. You quickly sat up, taking in your surroundings.
“What are you doing?”
Jaeyoon pulled you back down, but you were still figuring everything out. You were all sprawled out on the living room floor, blankets and pillows everywhere, everyone sleeping in a big pile. Jaeyoon had noticed your curious look.
“We were all too lazy to go upstairs… but Rowoon brought you down from your room.”
“Oh… are you guys okay?”
“Sh…” Inseong whispered. “If Youngbin wakes up we’re gonna have to clean the house.”
You giggled. “Okay.”
“Just go back to sleep baby.”
“Hm…”
You snuggled against Jaeyoon. A moment later Chani rolling over to sandwich you in, bringing a big smile to your face. This was where you belonged, happy and safe with your boys, knowing they loved you. Nothing could take you away, they wouldn’t let you go, and you didn’t intend to let them go either. This was home.
There are no guarantees that I will do this for any other member I'm just obsessed with this dude for no other reason than I'm exactly one month older than him
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He’s like. Old money chaebol rich
Have you ever heard like money shouts but wealth whispers
Yeah I don’t think it even registers to him that he’s rich
And so when he commissions you to draw something for his little brother’s birthday he’s like
“is $10,000 enough or is that skimping”
You’re like
“Did. did you mean. ₩10,000”
Because like your highest commission rates are like ₩100,000 but you’re used to being undervalued
And he’s like
“No I meant $10,000”
And you’re about to faint because holy crap he’s offering you like. However many months of rent and he wonders if he’s skimping?
Who is this dude????
You go and check out his instagram page from the account he dm’d you with
Oh
He’s the heir to a major conglomerate
That’s all
But you haven’t responded to him and he gets a little nervous
“Did I say something weird?” he asks
Rich people are something different you think to yourself
But this is not something you’re going to turn down
Clueless rich boy can be your best friend for a little bit
“Nope you’re totally good! How soon do you want this done?”
“Well my little brother’s birthday is next Tuesday so if I could have it before then that would be great”
Ah there it was
You had eight days to take on an entirely new project
You still had your job and older commissions to work on
But for $10,000?
“Usually I wouldn’t take on something with such short notice but I happen to have a bit of free time right now”
You would make it work for $10,000
Anyway the commission was to draw his little brother in the style of his favorite cartoon with a few of the characters
And the reference photo he sent was adorable
Like the little kid was super cute
But his older brother
As in the boy who had commissioned you
Totally different vibe from his instagram
On his professional instagram with like 50k followers or whatever he was very business
Suits, ties, hair styled
But in this selfie with his little brother
You know that one post that’s like “Boys who are usually dressed casually are 325% hotter in suits but boys who are usually in suits are 457% hotter dressed casually”
Yeah.
Plus there was this genuine sparkle in his eyes that wasn’t anywhere on his social media
Anyway he was a client it didn’t matter that he gave you a minor heart attack
And also a chaebol that was lightyears out of your reach
So as soon as he paid you
(which was immediately and the full amount)
You got to work
Any time you sent him progress shots he responded almost immediately with probably an unhealthy amount of enthusiasm
“Waaaaaah!!!!!!!!!”
“He’s going to love this!!!!!!!!!!!!”
“You’re amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
It was……….
It was cute okay
It was adorable actually
And he wouldn’t stop there either he would ask you questions about your process
He didn’t understand the vocabulary of your answers sometimes
And then he would ask you to explain
You could almost imagine him sitting across from you with big curious eyes
And then when his questions about your art ran out
He would just ask you questions about anything
He was patient and he didn’t mind if you took a while to answer
Any time you apologized he would brush it off
“You don’t owe me your time” is what he would usually say
“Except for what you paid me for” is how you would respond
He thought that was funny
You couldn’t tell if he was just a bored rich kid desperate to make a “normal” friend
Or if he was genuinely curious
He always had his next question locked and loaded
He led conversations mostly
So you didn’t actually know that much about him
It was an interesting experience to say the least
But Then
When you sent him the finalized product
After his usual extensive praise
And also asking you if it was okay to print it out poster-sized (yeah dude go ahead)
He invited you to the party
“Only if you’re not busy”
“I think he would just like to meet the artist”
You: “If he’s anything like you I bet he’ll have ten million questions too haha”
He didn’t respond for a hot minute
And then he hit you with
“I’m sorry”
“Am I annoying?”
“I don’t mean to be”
Oh no.
Oh dear no goodness
“No you’re not annoying!”
“Are you sure? If you have other things you need to do that’s okay”
“No actually” Fool you absolute fool why did you send this back “it’s kinda cute haha”
Once again radio silence for a few minutes
Was he okay
“You really think so?”
What a mess what now
“Yeah I like talking to you”
Anyway you did have the time so you worked up the courage to go to this rich person party for this rich child’s birthday oh goodness
Apparently this was supposed to just be a normal child’s birthday party
But those words came from Rich Boy himself so you weren’t sure what he meant by that
And there were going to be like rich people in attendance so you couldn’t make a fool of yourself
From what you knew about Rich Boy he would probably have talked you up as much as physically possible
So there was pressure
But………
Maybe……….
I mean………
You would definitely be meeting Rich Boy……
So…………….
Worth it? Probably
And so you decided to go like kinda business casual
But with a colorful shirt and fun earrings since this was a kids party
Now the party
Oh they tried
They were trying so hard to make this a Normal Child Birthday Party
But rich people just aren’t built like that
Like they were letting the kids run around and play
But like the venue? The details in the decorations? Someone clearly paid a lot of money for this to happen
After you had taken everything in, you realized you had no idea what you were doing
You just figured that your Rich Boy would be your chaperone
But he was nowhere to be seen
You could see the moms all sitting at their table
And if the dramas were accurate then they were barely tolerating each other for the sake of their children making connections
And you had no intention of getting involved in that
So you just stood by the door, looking from side to side
No one was by the table of presents
There was a big fancy cake that no one had touched yet either
But there was something you noticed
The kids didn’t seem to be playing with each other
Not exactly
It looked more like
They were looking for something
You wandered around the room a little bit, trying to figure out what they were looking for
And then you felt a tug on your sleeve
And there he was
Hiding between a couch and the wall
There was your Rich Boy
“Mr. Kang??”
“Hey not so loud! We’re playing hide and seek!”
He pulled you down next to him so you were hidden by the couch too
“And we’re the same age. Just call me Chani”
Oh
Oh dear
Just call him Chani
What
Okay
And now you were hiding behind a couch with him
Also what
Okay
He was in a t-shirt and jeans
More what
Okay
Um
Yeah once again boys normally dressed formally are 457% hotter in casual clothes
Or maybe just like he was right there and so close to you and in person
He peeked over the couch to look for the kids
And then he looked back at you
Your noses must have been five centimeters apart
“I didn’t think this was going to be such a good hiding spot,” he said
And he laughed a little bit
Your brain was freaking out because like.
Cute. What on earth
But then your Brain with a capital B just responded in turn like a normal human
Thank goodness
“I don’t know, I didn’t see you until you pulled me down here with you, so it must not be too bad”
He smiled at you
When was the last time you had seen a smile like that
Directed at you especially
His eyes were sparkly with like this genuine appreciation
“That’s a good point, (Y/N)”
Lowercase b brain was done
Fried
What was so captivating about him?
Why were you like this about him?
Didn’t you understand from the get-go
The “Is $10,000 enough?” incident
That this guy was way out of your financial league
You lived in two different worlds
There was no way you could understand each other on a fundamental level
But he was real and in front of you
And right now he didn’t seem all that different
Luckily capital b Brain was alive and well
Until you realized his hand was still holding onto your sleeve
And capital b Brain realized that you had fallen for him entirely
This was the boy you had spent hours talking about nothing and everything with this past week
So now that he was in front of you
Absentmindedly holding your sleeve
You really hoped he wouldn’t let go
Chani peeked over the couch again and then almost immediately ducked down
“They saw me!”
A rush of kids soon stormed the couch, hopping over and running around
They were all crowding around and so excited
None of them quite seemed to notice you
They were all so excited to have finally found him
And he was just as excited as they were
“Am I the last one??”
“Yeah, you have to be the seeker now!!”
“Ah, man, how am I supposed to find all of you?? You’re all so good at hiding!”
“But hyung who’s she?”
Once one kid (Chani’s little brother, you recognized) drew attention to you then the rest all seemed to see you for the first time
“Yeah who’s she?” “She’s pretty” “why was she hiding with you?” “Is she your girlfriend”?” “Where did she come from?”
Chani looked at you with a bashful little smile
“I think it’s time to open presents,” he said
The kids were sufficiently excited and distracted again as they ran over to the present table
You looked for something poster-shaped but you didn’t see anything
So you glanced over at Chani to ask if he had printed it like he said he would
And then you noticed that he was holding a poster tube behind his back
He noticed you looking at him and smiled again, this time something a little giddy and thankful?
How did this dude have so many different ways to smile
And why did they all make your heart beat in different ways
Shut up lowercase b brain
“I’m saving the best for last,” he said. “A surprise for the end”
You couldn’t back your smile
“I’m flattered”
“You don’t need to be”
Tongue-tied
Speechless
His brother opened up all of his presents from his friends
Which. Wow money was ridiculous
You had never heard of half of these things he was getting
When he finished unwrapping everything on the table, he was visibly put off
“Hyung! Where’s yours?”
He wasn’t like bratty about it or anything
He just was very concerned that his brother would have forgotten him
Chani brought out the poster from behind his back with a grin
“Be careful,” he warned his little brother as he handed him the tube
The kid twisted the top off of the tube
And per his brother’s warning he carefully pulled the poster out
The way his eyes went wide and sparkly with wonder was exactly the way you had pictured Chani
“Waaaaaaah!”
“This is amazing!!”
“Hyung how did you make me into a cartoon?”
Chani laughed
“This noona drew it for you!”
Mini rich boy was over the moon excited
And you were exactly correct
He came over to you with the poster and started asking you questions
Question after question after question
After question after question
But you loved it
Because Chani was right next to you with the same wonder and curiosity
Even though he had heard it all before
It was nice to fool yourself just for a second to think he would be interested in you
Like romantically
Obviously there was something about you (cough cough your art) that intrigued him
But like romantically? No way right?
But anyway after the party ended and people started going home, he pulled you aside to sit on the couch you had hidden behind earlier
And he thanked you again
And then he started asking you questions again
It felt natural to talk with him like this
Just the same as when you were texting all the past week
And face to face was even better because you could see his face
His expressions were even sweeter than you had imagined them to be
“You said that a week was usually too short for a commission,” he said. “So what’s a normal amount of time?”
“O-oh are you wanting to commission me again?”
Another different kind of nervous smile
“I just really enjoyed working with you. This time it’s a little more formal, for the company”
???? A professional commission??? This had never been where you saw this going
“I’ve enjoyed working with you, too”
You earned another new smile--this time his ears turned a little red
And so you did the graphics commission for the company and they paid you ~handsomely~
Instead of doing the progress reports over text he asked if it would be okay if you met in person
And who were you to say no???
He would recommend a different cafe to meet at every time and he would pay for a drink and a little dessert for you too
A little over the top but oh man why couldn’t you say no?
So when you finished the piece for the company he asked if you would do another one
Once again you accepted of course
For the money for the money
Is what you would say to yourself
But honestly you were so relieved when he commissioned you again
Because at this point?
Crush aside he was your friend and you knew you would miss him
But you knew you weren’t necessarily being professional about this
You felt guilty and like you were taking advantage of his money and his kindness
So you decided when you were done with this commission
You were going to tell him how you felt
You weren’t sure yet if you were going to confess your feelings necessarily
But like at least that you enjoyed being his friend and that you felt kind of indebted to him?
Or like that the cafe progress reports (dates honestly that’s what they were) probably weren’t as professional as they should be
But if he wanted to keep meeting up with you outside of a professional setting then you would be down
Aaaaaaaaaah
So you met for the second to last progress report on your piece and you told him everything
(Except your crush on him lol)
In a much more awkward manner than you had had it all laid out in your head of course
But while you were talking he listened to you with his big curious eyes like he always did
And he was very understanding like
“Okay so going forward we can be more professional certainly”
And then there was this little mischievous smirk on his lips
“But we can still go on cafe dates?”
And you just answered without thinking
“Yeah I’d love that!”
And then you realized what he said and by the look on his face that was exactly what he meant and you had just activated his trap card and oh boy if you could only skip to the next episode in this funny little drama you were living and ooohhhhhh my wooooord
Sneaky. Sneaky Rich Boy
But he looked like a little kid on his birthday
Which you had recent experience to reference
Just sitting in his seat with an expression and body language that did not match the suit he was wearing
He looked up and met your dead-inside-kill-me-now gaze with something that could only be described as sparkly
“Going forward then…” he said “what can we be?”
Sneaky. Sneaky Rich Boy. Making you decide
Blood was rushing in your ears and you could barely hear your own thoughts but capital B Brain stepped in once again and offered a mostly coherent and appropriate response
“I’m…..not really……..not really sure…if that gets to be my decision………”
“But what if it could be?” he asked with an earnest and anxious expression now
He knew
He understood the position you were both in
“If it were just you and me and there were no other factors, do you think…what do you think?”
Or maybe he wasn’t so sure
Looking at him, it looked like he was scared
Scared that he had read you wrong and maybe the connection he felt with you was superficial and one-sides and fake
And you had been wondering something of the same things
But thank goodness he was a little braver than you
He may have made it look like he had tricked you into making the first step but with his background? Everything was a gamble
Your mind was processing everything at a mile a minute and you needed to answer
Capital B Brain was the one doing the processing though and lowercase b brain was extremely busy screaming so what was left to answer him??
“I think…I hope we could keep going on cafe dates…..and that you could keep asking me questions……..and that I could keep talking to you and spending time with you………and maybe hold your hand……too…..”
Oh. Your heart
Apparently your heart can answer too if it needs to step in
But he still looked so nervous and anticipatory
“Really? Even if…”
He was having a hard time figuring out how to phrase what he wanted to say
Because of course he wanted to know if you were here for him or the money
But he didn’t want to accuse you of being shallow and/or a liar
“Even if my family was against it?”
But like how are you supposed to respond to that
What on earth could be convincing enough
How could you genuinely convey your feelings?
“Well,” you tried, “I wouldn’t want to drive you away from your family because that would be hard for you. I don’t know if I would really be worth that”
Was that a good answer?
You stared at your tablet instead of meeting his eyes
His continued silence pushed you to keep talking
“But if you really think I would be, then I…I would do my best to make things work for us”
You could feel your face heating up as you fiddled with the case on your tablet
“I like you at least that far, I think,” you concluded with a little nod
He reached out to rest his hand gently on top of yours as you kept messing with your tablet
“I think I do, too,” he said
You finally looked up at him
And boy oh boy his ears were so red
He wasn’t looking at you either though lol he was very embarrassedly looking at your hands touching
Oh my word your hands touching
Wow wild what a feeling
Now that you paid attention to it
It was tingly and his hand was like the perfect temperature and also very soft
So you put your other hand on top of his so you could keep it there
“I was scared it was just me” you said as you traced his knuckles a little
“And I think I would have been too embarrassed to say anything unless you did”
His hand moved to slide his fingers under your palm
So he was properly holding your hand now
“So what does that make us now?” he asked
He bashfully snuck a glance up at you
Gee you would think you were fifth graders or something
Not literal adults with jobs and businesses
Blushing shy messes the both of you
I wish I had a tiny font but alas
“…..you……you can………you can call me…….your girlfriend…………if you want”
“…….does that mean……that I’m………your b—” he giggled “your boyfriend?”
Oh embarrassing
So shy the both of you
Neither of you fully believed this was real either so
And I mean if you’ve noticed by now this boy like only speaks in question at you
Pretty much
And you answer his questions
But this time it was his turn to answer you
As you peeked up at him over the glowing red anime mess that was your face
“Do……..do you want to be my boyfriend?”
He was just barely able to meet your eyes as he gave you a little nod
“I would like that a lot”
So yeah blushy awkward shy embarrassed
But ultimately happy!
And if you think for once he might have been out of questions for you
Never
Never ever
This unlocks a whole new set of questions are you kidding
And now somehow you were able to get a word in and ask him questions too??
Before you had kind of felt like he was off-limits in terms of learning about him
But now you felt more on equal ground because you knew that your curiosity and feelings weren’t one-sided
Not that conversations had been one-sided before but like
He’s twice as fun to talk to when you’re holding hands you know?
And his family?
They don’t really care
You get the feeling they don’t really see you as permanent but they’re not actively trying to fend you off so
Well actually they’re not trying to fend you off at all
See Chani’s little brother loooooooves you
And his mom decided to pay you to give him art lessons
Fun fact that’s how you found out Chani’s an artist too
Little bro just kinda. Let it slip one day
And you could physically see Chani’s soul leave his body as little bro ran to go get his sketchbook
His style was very different than yours though so you understood why he wanted to commission you all that time ago
But still
As you can tell our story is wrapping up here
So I shall leave you with your first kiss
The timing wasn’t what you expected it to be but hey it was just right for the two of you
You initiated it actually but he followed up real fast afterword
See your plan was date night at your apartment
Make dinner together and watch a movie and like kiss him during that sometime
But he was unaware of the cook together plan and he brought takeout from a Chinese restaurant
(He was very much enjoying learning how “normal people” do dating and small restaurants were his favorite new discovery)
And he just looked.
So.
Cute.
Standing in your doorway
In jeans and a sweatshirt (with his sleeves covering his hands a lil bit) that you picked out for him
And holding his little bags of takeout that he was clearly so proud of himself for bringing
You couldn’t help yourself
His hands were full what was he going to do stop you?
You just wrapped your arms around him and kissed him
And he was surprised but like adorably happy surprised not like Kdrama shocked
And then he asked you “Can we do that now?”
And after you nodded (“Yes of course!”) he was even more excited
And he kind of ran inside your apartment with just the tiniest steps and posture and he set the food down on your counter
And then he turned around and he kissed you again!
Just cupped your face in his hands!
Adorable
He kinda got shy and so did you
But you got over it fast
Anyway the end I hope you enjoyed my 4000 words of brain rot because I sure did!!
🏵We’re not dating, we’re just friends who hang out and cuddle together.🏵
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Why are romantic relationships so difficult? They all start with flowers and chocolates and sweet words and end in a battle.
"I've had enough!" It always ends up a tangled mess of emotions and memories and skirmishes of wills. Time for a break, time to be just me, enjoy independence. No more catering to egos that are not my own.
💐
Tequila shots, staring at Jaeyoon, that competitive glint in his eyes, he is here to win. He always wants to win, should I let him win? He is my bestie, what are friends for? He is always here for me, a shoulder to cry on, rant about the injustices I face during the course of my daily life. So what if I let him win these harmless games, he feels great about it and a small price to pay for our friendship.
The Evening passes as do the shots, salt and lemon line the table, the clock ticks away. Alcohol dims inhibitions and common sense.
"You got a nice butt" in a matter of fact tone that is slightly slurred. Jaeyoon smiles "my best feature!" He declares confidently.
Looking at him "I wouldn't say that"
Jaeyoon smiles as he knocks back another shot "are you hitting on me?"
"What….no"
"Too bad," he replies cryptically.
🎯
Morning sun drifts through the blinds, pulling the sheet above my head to block out the sun, the sheet plays tug of war, "what the".
My head, fuck the shooting pain darts around like a whirlpool. Moving about trying to escape the sunlight, 'omg' my foot touches what my fuddled brain can only conceive is a human leg. Startled, upon opening my eyes a human form slowly comes into focus. It's Jaeyoon!
Omg what have I done? Memories of the night before flit through like hummingbird wings.
Our discussion on relationships and loneliness and lack of intimacy. 'Friends with benefits'. The sex wow he is a giving thoughtful lover, but this is a mistake, sex is not worth ruining our friendship over. I'm sure he will agree, it will be awkward for a minute but we can go back to the way it was before.
🎲
I thought nothing surprises me anymore but this past month. Jaeyoon was right, friends with benefits is the way to go. No commitments, just fun. Dinners and clubbing just enjoying each other's company as we did previously but with added benefits. We agreed we are not exclusive, a perfect situation, freedom, independence and great sex.
♤
Jaeyoon was always a little possessive and protective of our friendship, it was our time that I devoted to him.
Was it my imagination? He seemed rude and a little belligerent towards Luke. What was I supposed to do? Luke spotted us at the coffee shop, he is a co-worker so naturally I invited him to sit and join us. Jaeyoon seemed to take an instant dislike to him.
On the drive home, "he's into you, wants to get into your pants!"
"What? no! what are you talking about?"
"Don't act like you don't know! Are you into him?" his eyes glare questionably. "No"
♤
Weeks flow into each other, wrapped in conversation and bodies entangled, a perfect arrangement. Well bar those moments. "Are you staring at that guy's ass?" "Where were you yesterday?" "Why didn't you pick up my call?". When I told him someone asked me out to dinner and I was thinking of going. All hell was let loose. A roar any king of the jungle would appreciate, "what? What of our arrangement? us?". In the end I agreed not to go to dinner. In the bedroom he knows all the sweet spots and honeyed words to say, demanding, adventurous and totally focused on pleasure for both of us, an intoxicating mixture. His comment that I need only him in and out of the bedroom was unexpected, heat of the moment right?
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Alcohol lightens the mood, music sets the pace, dancing wrapped in an embrace of warmth, Jaeyoon sings a melody into my ear, his voice sends shivers all across my body, his lips nibble and delight my neck and ears. Foreplay! Seduction it is his forte. Before long naked bodies squirming with pleasure on the mattress. "Your mine" he whispers.
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The territorial attitude, with jealous and possessive outbursts, goes against the rules, the guidelines we set out on the onset. He seems to be tossing them out the window. It was better than I initially expected but he is acting more like a partner than a friend now. I have to end this before I lose my friend.
"You are breaking up with me?" Jaeyoon roars, "no.. yes..we are still friends so…"
"Friends?" He snickers .
"Let's call a spade a spade, lovers! We are lovers, my little pussycat!"
"Jaeyoon please…"
"Do you honestly think I will let you go now?" He states in a disbelieving tone.
"Now go and get ready, our dinner reservations are in twenty minutes".
Inseong who perpetually smells like freshly baked dough and always gets a mixture of flour and cocoa powder on his clothes as he works
he always tries doing flashy things with dough to entertain customers
some attempts are great whilst others force him to make a new batch of dough
he's always experimenting with odd flavour combinations and funky new designs
his bakery's display case is filled with lemon cheesecakes that look like baby chicks and molten lava cakes garnished to look like bears
he has tons of notebooks and notepads stacked away in his office, all filled with scribblings of recipes and new ideas
successful inventions make it off the page and become real sweet treats adored by his customers
and the not-so-successful ideas are promptly forgotten about and never spoken of again
like the time Inseong was hellbent on creating the ultimate sweet-savoury treat and produced "The Chocolate Tomato Tart"
cut to the bakery closing for a week as Inseong and his staff all recovered from food poisoning
as an apprentice Inseong was always tasked with standing outside the bakery and giving out free samples to entice customers in
he was a natural pro at it with his loud voice and jumping-puppy personality
he'd spot someone walking in the bakery's general direction and run up to them with no hesitation
"Hello there! Would you like to try our newest dessert? I guarantee you will love our new peach pie it's got just the right amount of sweet and sour but the cream in between the peaches and the tart is what really brings it together and refreshes your tongue..."
and people follow him even if they weren't intending to go to the bakery because he's excitement is just so gosh darn infectious
whenever the bakery owner was able to secure a spot in the supermarket for a pop-up stand, they'd always send Inseong
Inseong who starts the day all enthusiastic and mentally pumping himself up but gets tired of standing after about an hour so he sits down in the little plastic chair given to him and ends up playing with his phone
but as soon as he catches someone in his peripheral vision he shoots up like a rocket and turns the charm on to the max
and suddenly he's gotten them to buy two jars of honey apple oat cookies (they just couldn't say no to him he was so nice to them)
now that he owns his own place, he happily gives out free samples if you tell him you were undecided on what to buy
he goes in-depth about all the premium-quality ingredients and careful baking process when all the customer asked was "are your chocolate croissants any good?"
Of course they are. Everything is good here. Its fantastic.