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Miyoung sat on her bed reading. She had recently picked up No Longer Human by Osamu Dazai and was loving it. She was definitely going to reread it.
She reached for her coffee that she had on her bedside table as she reread the last bit of the current chapter she was on. She really liked the style of this author. Though she had really been liking a lot of different styles lately, seeing as she had been filling her time with reading lately. If she wasn’t filming for her channel, she was reading.
All this reading may or may not be her way of coping. (Coping with Youngbin and Inseong being gone due to enlistment.) Miyoung had no idea how she was going to deal with all of her members, if only two had enlisted and she was struggling.
Basically, in Miyoung’s mind, if she spends less time with her members now, it’ll hurt less when they leave. Was it working? Of course not. She was miserable. And she was pretty sure that her members were starting to worry, which was never a good thing.
Miyoung startled when the door to her room opened. Looking up, she saw Seokwoo and Sanghyuk walk in. She was not ready for whatever shenanigans they were about to bring, but judging by their faces, Miyoung knew that there was no way for her to avoid it.
“What do you want?” she asked, closing her book. She folded her arms over her chest, raising a brow at the two. They in turn, side-eyed each other then smirked as they walked over to her.
“We miss you,” Seokwoo said, pouting.
“We saw each other this morning,” Miyoung shook her head.
“Yeah, in passing. After you got your coffee, you came back in here and haven’t left ever since,” Sanghyuk whined, walking over to her and sitting on her bed.
Miyoung shrugged, picking at a loose thread of her sweat shorts.
“Mimi, we’re not scolding you. It’s just that this has been happening a lot. Other than practice, we’ve barely seen you,” Seokwoo said, sitting on the floor next to where she was on the bed.
She shrugged again.
“Is there a reason why you’re avoiding us?” the taller of the two asked.
“I’m not avoiding you,” Miyoung was quick to respond.
“Really, now?” Sanghuyk asked, raising his own brow at the girl.
“I’m not! I’ve just been busy,” Miyoung shrugged, though she wasn’t sure if that was going to hold up in court.
“Reading doesn’t count, Mimi. Plus you’re a fast reader. So when you’re done with a book you should have plenty of time to hang out with us,” Jaeyoon said from the doorway.
Miyoung glared at him as he walked through, the rest of the boys trailing behind him. This was starting to feel like an intervention of sorts.
“What is this?” she asked, waving vaguely at everyone as they sat at her desk, her bed, or on the floor.
“It’s exactly what you think it is,” Taeyang said, climbing over her to sit between her and the wall.
“An intervention,” Chanhee nodded.
“We don’t know what’s going on exactly, but last time you pulled away from us, you were being assaulted,” Juho said.
Miyoung stilled. They were right. She scoffed at herself, breaking her promise of always coming to them no matter what.
“You think this is funny?” Youngkyun asked, frowning.
“Listen, we can’t read you the way Youngbin-hyung can. We don’t know what’s wrong, but we can at least see that something’s wrong,” Juho said, folding his arms over his chest.
“I’m laughing, but not because it’s funny. It’s because I thought I had changed, but I didn’t. I’m still hiding things and possibly leading to trouble,” Miyoung said, running her hands through her hair.
The boys looked at each other then back at Miyoung, as Taeyang spoke up. “Then tell us.”
Miyoung covered her face with her hands. She could feel her face heating up. The fact that she was pulling away from them because she didn’t want to have to deal with the emotions that will come with them enlisting, was embarrassing.
“Are you in trouble?” Juho asked.
The visual looked up, shaking her head, “I’m not. I promise you.”
“Then what?” Sanghyuk asked.
“It’s embarrassing,” she answered, shrugging. Miyoung chewed on her lip, looking at her hands.
At that, the boys all looked at each other. Deeming it better that she feel embarrassed over unsafe, they agreed to wait for her.
“Then you don’t have to tell us now,” Seokwoo said.
“As long as you’re not in any danger,” Chanhee added.
Miyoung looked up at them. She could tell that they meant it, but now she was feeling guilty. There’s no reason she couldn't tell them. It’s not like they’d make fun of her.
She took in a deep breath then spoke up, “I don’t want you guys to go.” It came out mumbled.
“What do you mean?” Taeyang asked.
Miyoung shrugged, “Enlistment.”
“Oh, Mimi,” Sanghyuk said, grabbing her and pulling her onto his lap. She curled up, hiding her rapidly flushing face in his chest.
“Wait, Young-ah. Do you miss Youngbin and Inseong?” Jaeyoon asked.
Miyoung nodded her head.
“And now you’re already thinking about how you’ll miss us too when we go?” Youngkyun asked.
She nodded again.
“I know that this is a serious thing for you, but God damn, this is fucking adorable,” Juho smiled.
Miyoung groaned. “Don’t make fun.”
“We’re not,” Taeyang said from behind her and Sanghyuk. He ran his hand through her hair.
“Noona, we’re not all leaving at once. You’ll never be alone,” the maknae assured.
“I know, but that doesn't mean I won’t miss each of you when you leave,” she pouted.
“Is that why you’ve been distant? You were embarrassed to tell us?” Jaeyoon asked.
“Sort of. But it was mostly because I figured if I spent less time with you guys, I’d grow less attached and it’s hurt less,” she confessed.
“Okay, my turn to hold our cute Mimi,” Seokwoo said as he pulled Miyoung from Sanghyuk’s lap and onto his. Sanghyuk squawked as she was pulled away. Miyoung on the other hand, flushed again as she was being handled like a ragdoll. (It was always like that when it came to cuddling with these boys.)
Once in the tallest member’s lap, she was turned to face the rest of her members, much to her embarrassment. Seokwoo wrapped his arms around her middle and nuzzled her neck. Miyoung squirmed.
“I’m going to tell you right now, Miyoung, that your plan was going to backfire on you so badly,” Juho said.
“I figured,” she mumbled.
“Listen, Noona. All you need to know is that you’ll never be alone, and we won’t be gone forever. Two years will fly by before you know it. Plus half of us aren’t due to enlist for years,” Youngkyun said.
Miyoung nodded. She knew all that. Still, that didn't stop her from not wanting them to go. “I know.”
“Then let’s focus on the now. Yeah the hyungs aren’t here now, but we’ll keep in contact and they’ll visit too,” Taeyang said.
“Youngbin-hyung will definitely come back if he hears that Miyoung was crying over him,” Seokwoo spoke into her neck, chuckling.
“Yah! I’m not crying over him,” Miyoung protested.
“At the moment, but if you’re missing them that bad, I can only imagine how many times you’ve had to stop yourself from crying,” Chanhee smirked.
Miyoung pouted, “Maybe it would be better if you all left.”
“You don’t mean that,” Taeyang said with a knowing look.
“No. No, I don’t,” Miyoung shook her head, frowning. The others chuckled.
“Okay. Okay. That's enough pouting. How about we order takeout and watch a movie then we can prove to Mimi that she’ll never be alone?” Jaeyoon suggested.
“Sounds like a plan to me,” Seokwoo said, standing up. He threw Miyoung over his shoulder and followed the others to the living room.
“Mimi, we love you,” Taeyang smiled, looking at Miyoung who was hiding her blush behind her hands.
“I love you guys too,” she mumbled out. She smiled despite herself.
