you and mickey have been distant and when you sleepover at mandy's you fine him hooking up with Ian.
i was sitting on my bed with Mandy, she had been trying to convince me to sleepover her house.
"Come on Nicole, Please i know you think Mickey will be annoyed but i promise he won't care." Mandy said.
I sighed. "Mandy, please i don't wanna go out tonight, i wanna stay home." i replied
Mandy rolled her eyes. "we are not gonna go anywhere except my house. that's it." she said getting annoyed.
we started packing a bag for me, i grabbed everything i needed and we started walking to her house, when we got there it had only been 6:30ish.
Mickey wasn't there when i got there so we ordered pizza and just talked, at around 9:30ish Mandy was getting high and was starting to fall asleep. i kept her awake tho.
"Mandy, Mandy, Mandy!!" i said happily.
i couldn't lie, i was drunk. Mandy had just given me beer after beer.
"what?" she said laughing.
"Your remember when i fought with Karen?" i asked giggling at the memory.
"Oh my God yes! you slapped her into Christmas eve, she probably is still aching from it." she said.
"haha, she couldn't fight for her shit. Oh and then Lip Gallagher started yelling at me!!" i said laughing.
we had laid down on her bed laughing about everything and anything, this one of the first times i've been happy in the past couple weeks.
i giggled so much my ribs were sore.
we started watching a movie called White chicks and we couldn't stop laughing.
Half an hour later Mandy had passed out. i was still awake and continued watching the movie.
i had heard someone walking into mickeys room so i decided i should surprise him.
I slowly got up and snuck out of Mandy's room. I approached Mickeys room and started to hear grunting.
when i opened the door my heart was shattered.
My smile quickly faded as tears flooded my eyes.
i saw my boyfriend on top of Ian Gallagher kissing him, both in their boxers.
"Nicole!!" Mickey yelled getting off of Ian coming towards me.'
i looked down, my eyes focused on a loose thread on my black leggings.
Mickey came towards me as goosebumps covered my body. I did not have goosebumps because i was cold. i had them because i didn't know what Mickey would do to me.
he came closer to me as my eyes moved up from the floor to his chest.
My eyes moved from Mickey's chest to his eyes.
"Nicole, i promise. i promise it's not what it looks like." Mickey said.
while mickey had been talking i had ignored him, just trying to tell myself it was ok as long as he still loved you.
"you can't tell anyone what you saw." mickey said.
"why? why can't i? why do you care so much?" i said.
mickey didn't respond and ian just kept his eyes on me.
"because you fucking can't!! ok?" he yelled.
"mickey, it's fine. i didn't see anything ok, but please please tell me you love me." i said Shakily, as my hand made my way to his chest then to his face.
Mickey looked at my teary eyes, he could tell i was upset, he could tell i didn't wanna lose him and that i needed him, But he knew he needed to tell me the truth.
he grabbed my hands placing them on his chest.
"Nicole, Baby. I love you, but i just don't love you in the way you're thinking of." he said.
my heart shattered, i fell to the floor shaking, crying. Mickey went to kneel down in front of me, but Ian stopped him.
Ian kneeled in front of me, he hugged me.
i think he knew that he ruined Mickey and Mines relationship.
"It's ok. Shh Shh it's ok." Ian whispered.
i shoved him off of me and stood up, Mickey grabbed me by the shoulder but i slapped his off my shoulder and ran to the bathroom.
i looked the door and slid down against it sobbing.
at some point i must've fallen asleep because i woke up with mickey holding me in his arms on his bed with Ian watching over me.
i sat up and moved away from them.
"Why Mickey? Why did you do it?" i asked.
"Nicole, im sorry but i just don't love you in that way, i will always love you tho." he said.
"Mickey I-I don't know how to live without your love." i whispered with my voice breaking.
"I know but i just wasn't happy in that relationship and i don't think you were either." he said.
"you weren't happy? I didn't make you happy? I was born to make you happy." i said before crying even more.
Ian came closer to me and pulled me onto the bed.
he laid me down in between him and Mickey.
"go to sleep and we can talk about it in the morning." Ian said.
i nodded and fell asleep.
i knew my life was over. I live for mickey, i was born for Mickey.
Hey everyone i'm gonna do a part 2 of this after the part 2 of bipolar and every time.
i also wanna experiment with a throuple in second part of this. yk Mickey, Ian and Nicole. i think it would be cute. idk tho let me know what you think.
