The teen girl blog post that follows will hopefully self-destruct. The period hormones are too real.
After my first year of teaching, IBS, flop sweat, low-grade anxiety, and residual food issues from my college days worked as an excellent diuretic and appetite suppressor. I lost a size. Yay skinny me.
After my second year, I was back up a bit, but lost it all in the summer by walking and eating salad.
At the end of my third year, it is party season - prom, graduation, staff parties, dates - and nothing fits. It left me in tears that I don’t have anything that fits and Sailor is coming as my date to the staff party tomorrow and I want to look “fire” as the kids say.
My plan is to lose the ten pounds or so over summer. Creating a plan helped me from going into a full shame spiral. Also thinking about all the compliments I got yesterday since my BFF did my make up for graduation and I got a blow out and I did look good (a couple pounds heavier maybe, but good none the less). I was feeling myself.
My family were all overweight my whole life. I was always the “skinny one” even when I was a curvy teen (about 4 sizes up from where I am now). I was always so afraid of getting big and I was also afraid of hating myself. SO. Here I am. I have a dress on rush order that will hopefully fit and I’m gonna try to see if BFF can do my makeup again and get a solid Dominican blow out again.
I should also just take a deep breathe and relax. It’s the end of the year party tomorrow, and I have a lot to celebrate this year.
I have three questions for Jesus this Easter: 1. Where am I? 2. How did I get here? 3. Why am I covered in McDonald's? #wouldyoulikefrieswiththat #whathaveidone #shamespiral #mcslut #hangover #easter #sacrilicious #mcdonalds #unicorn #doyouevenunicorn #🦄 #🍔 #🍟