BURSTS IN AGAIN THIS TIME FOR CALL. 1-15 HEHEHE
HI HELLO SHAR, ALL OF THEM??????? SAKDJHKSJADHDSA I THOUGHT THE ONES YOU SENT FOR MATTHIAS WERE A LOT BUT ALL OF THEM???????
What parts of their childhood trigger them?
She won't set foot in the Grove at all now, and she's wary around asuran labs. Too many tests run, too much physical pain. Her back starts hurting worse when she thinks about it too much.
2. How do they treat themselves when they're feeling sad?
So kindly now...she used to constantly berate herself, told herself to do better. But she's got a family now, a place to be and stable life to live. She gives herself a break when she's sad, takes time to figure out the source of it, then usually goes and finds Braham to just chill for a while and lift her spirits.
3. What parts of themselves do they tend to hide?
She very obstinately hides none of herself now! She spent so long being ashamed of herself, of things she couldn't help. She won't let that happen again.
4. How do they punish themselves when they make mistakes?
Like with 2, she used to really beat herself up over it, but she's learned that's a shitty coping mechanism. No punishment, only learning how to do better next time and checking in with anyone who may have been affected.
5. Who are they loyal to? Why?
You will literally never ever get her to admit this out loud, you could not torture it out of her even. She's loyal to Mar (@ascalonianpicnic) because they get her like no one else, and they are the reason she's got a chance for a better life now.
6. Who do they avoid? Why?
Wardens of the Grove, cause if she doesn't then she's gonna start a fight :)
7. What emotions or situations do they try to avoid? Why?
Any situation around the Grove or discussing the Dream is usually avoided entirely, she's just not comfortable with those topics at all any more. For...obvious reasons given her sapling years.
8. What angers them?
People who think they know best for others regardless of what said others think. If you try to take the high ground she will drag you down to her level by force. She is not about to put up with any posturing or snobbery.
9. What are their insecurities?
She still has times where she worries she's not doing enough, that she isn't enough for the Commander title. She inherited it with Mar's blessing, but they had a whole team they knew for far longer than her. And she's bewildered she became the chosen successor.
10. What are their emotional triggers?
Being brushed aside or coddled enacts a very deep shame buried in her, instinctual from her early years.
11. How do they feel about love?
She thinks it's a grand thing, but not for her at the moment. She's felt love and covets the feeling, but has yet to ever actually act on it. She's very happy for friends who have though!
12. What are their fears?
Getting dragged back to the Dream, that someone's figured out how to reconnect her and will do so without asking if she even wants to be. This fear is very founded now in facts ._.
13. What is their relationship with their family like?
Biological family: nonexistant, she does not interact with the Pale Tree at all. All she has is one distant memory from when she was first pulled from her pod, never saw her again.
Found family: She loves her team so dearly and would do anything for them. This is her family, these are her beloveds and she spends all her time with them, especially Braham.
14. What kind of people do they tend to gravitate towards?
Easygoing people who like to have a good time! She likes to keep the energy light and high, and she's got a lot of energy to expend herself so having high energy people to pal around with is top tier for her!
15. What do they like/dislike about themselves?
She likes how tall she is, how she doesn't even have to really work for muscle mass. She likes her sense of humor and how easily she can bounce off of others, and how stubborn she can be to stand her ground.
She dislikes how her severing from the Dream marks her as 'other' to most sylvari, how it means a lot of sylvari initially are wary of her and the energy-void she presents in place of the Dream.
