just saw an edit of fleabag and hot priest with the audio of the song Shauq from Qala. edits that has either only reminds me of only one person. i don't have that person in my life anymore, no they aren't dead, just not connected with them. and yes i have my person now, with whom I'm happy, I'm loved and everything but they once used to be my person. that person taught me to be able to break infront of them without thinking over the months I got to know them but i knew this wasn't going to last long considering i knew what the problem could eventually arise forcing us to spilt out paths. that's exactly what happened.
so now every time I see an edit with either of those two, I am remembering that person i lost who helped me to become me and to be able to accept the help from others.
