Today I was visiting my older sister, I was doing fine. I was eating dinner with her, my dad and niece’s until I realize that #jonghyun funeral was taking place...in that instant I stood up and left the table to go cry at my sister’s bedroom, I was a complete mess as I watched the videos and photos...suddenly my 5 year old niece walks into the bedroom and tells me the cutest thing ever, she told me: “don’t cry Carmen, hes going to feel better. He is going to where my grandma and Looper [family friend] are. He’s going to feel happy and better.” After that I started listening to their songs, in a failed attempt to calm down, then suddenly Tell Me What To Do came up and hearing his voice she turned and told me again: “See? He’s telling you to cry no more, he’s telling you not to cry. Stop crying he’s feeling better now.” After hearing this I cried harder because she was so wise, being five and so wise on what to say to me in that moment of tears. She knew what to say to her 22 year old aunt that was crying her heart out. I’m damn proud of her. #shawolsforever❤ #shinee #jjongrip #ripjonhyun #lovetoshinee #staystrongshawol
