Nov 3, 2018
also it sucks bc my brain is Weird abt a lot of things especially if they’re something New and that’s probably like 90% anxiety and how i grew up but
this is st i think i’d have 2 like ease in2 definitely and then i’m like. i want ppl to call me this so i can see how i feel about it but i don’t want them 2 call me this at every available opportunity bc then it won’t feel natural 2 me and it won’t feel right...but is that bc it’s new or is that my brain being my brain...episode choose ur story
#venus ambassador give us a post#i'm gonna sit on it 4 a day bc i also need 2 see how i myself feel abt it obviously#i've had times before where i wanted 2 go by a different name bc like#i don't not like my name and i don't feel particularly averse 2 this name but i'm also like#detached?? like that's not me. i associate it with all that trauma (tm)#i've noticed a lot i feel off saying it out loud and writing it like. xkit autotags for me hdgdfh but otherwise#so with the new one i'd have 2 go about it super casually and literally like. baby steps in2 a new name#i might ask a few ppl close 2 me 2 start referring 2 me differently and start there#but i have 2 figure out how 2 handle it bc god my mind#she's sensitive!#if it's 2 much she'll go ''no no i hate that''
