Today is a super great fantastically awesome day that I've been waiting for for a long time. Today I had an appointment with my therapist like I do every week and we got to talking and at the end she said to me "Kailynn, you're a completely different person from when I first met you, you look nicer when you come in here, you sit up straighter, you smile more and laugh more. I think that you have a lot of great things going for you right now and you're not really worried or upset with anything, you're biggest worry at the moment is what you want for christmas, and that is fantastic. I'm elated that you've come so far. So how about we try seeing each other monthly instead of weekly, if need be we'll go back, but I think we won't need to."
I never thought that this would happen. Ever. 2 years ago I started seeing a therapist about every 3 days. A year ago I was still seeing that therapist once a week, my mom was not only on suicide watch, but also had to monitor me to make sure I was eating at least once a day, and my body was scuffed and bloody and broken.
And I never thought even a year ago that I would be where I am right now. 10 months 4 days clean of self harm. Weaning OFF of therapy. I've never been more proud of myself. It was a long long long time coming and I thought I'd never get here but here I am finally on the right track to being healthy and happy and it feels so liberating to be out of the darkness.
I couldn't have done it by myself and I'm forever grateful to anyone on here who ever asked me how I was or said hello or anything it helped more than you know, to all my friends who stood by me even though I shut everyone out, and my family who supported all my decisions to try and figure myself out. I tagged a few peeps who helped me through this part of my life, but if you're still reading then this is to you as well. I love you guys! Love yourselves and be strong because things get so much better!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!
