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I wonder why I've never cared about Christmas before while I'm looking at Simon's face. He is beautiful. Golden. So golden the fireplace lost its light.
It is my first Christmas at home.
It's our first Christmas at our home.Ā
He's just there. And the mistletoe is just above him. Is so easy to come closer and see the constellations of his beautiful face.
"Snow, mistletoe," I say, smirking at him and he smiles.
"You're cheating, darling," he murmurs softly and he's right, I'm cheating, but that doesn't matter because he will kiss me whenever we want. In the mornings, when I wake up in his arms; in the afternoons with his mouth tasting of tea; in the nights, sleepy and warm.
He grabs me by my sweater and kisses me.
"Happy now?" He whispers and I smile. Crowley! I can't stop smiling lately, my face hurts but I don't want to stop. Ever.
"You can say that, yes. Happy Christmas, love." I whisper back, kissing his cheek. Feeling safe and at home.
friday: most self-indulgent fic you have ever posted?
i think i said recently that thereās a good argument for the answer to this beingĀ Goodbye, Norma JeanĀ as i say in my authors notes: this is just like not one, not two, but THREE of my other fics mushed together. i enjoyed writing those so much that i thought... yes, more.Ā
august: are any of your fics associated with certain genres/artists/songs/etc?
ah, music - my achilles heel. but... the answer is: yes.... but lame ones? or things other people put there.
soĀ āGoodbye Norma Jeanā (as above) is obviously ... associated with Sir Elton.Ā
Snow on SnowĀ is - again, in the name - associated withĀ āIn the Bleak MidwinterāĀ
Donāt Run and Hide (The āWhere Words Failā Remix)Ā - is Beatles from bazzybelleās original, and Nick CaveĀ āInto My Armsā from canon.Ā
twelve asked me a while ago what musicĀ Hang the MoonĀ feels like, and since then iāve been thinking about: therefore the Four Weddings & a Funeral soundtrack ... and therefore more Elton
Sound of Silence has a music name, but is nothing to do with that song. Itās a terrible title.Ā
i had a look over my blake fics but i dont think any of them have songs associated with them in my mind, because *its the future* oooh, and also becauseĀ ācarry onā is all about spells that come from popular things, and so i guess itās more likely to be about music.
This actually fits perfectly with something I was kicking around a while ago for fantasy zine. Basically, a canon AU where Viktor was cursed as a child with beauty. Heās gone through life terrified that no one actually likes him and the moment the curse breaks heāll be alone, but then he meets Yuuri--and Yuuriās pure love for him breaks the curse.
What Iām imagining is this, to be honest: Theyāre in St. Petersburg. soon Ep 12. Viktor has avoided having sex with Yuuri because heās lowkey concerned that somehow his curse has made Yuuri love him. Yuuri is out of town one day, though, and he leaves early in the morning and kisses Viktor goodbye--and when Viktor wakes up, the curse is broken.
Itās a horrible day, because everyone keeps asking him what is wrong with him, and by the time Yuuri comes home Viktor is hysterical, and he asks Yuuri if he looks different. Yuuri stares at him for a long time, and finally is likeĀ āMaybe...maybe you changed the right eyebrow! I donāt know! Iām sorry! But if you tell me Iāll get it next time!ā and Viktor just starts crying because to Yuuri, he looks the same.
And then Viktor finally lets Yuuri seduce him and Yuuri is confused by Viktor being a virgin but is very gentle with him and they get married and live happily ever after and Yuuri personally volunteers to Fight any one who suggests Viktor isnāt stunning,
I looked up the movie, and itās too sad for me to touch.
BUT I likeĀ ārules of endearmentā as a title! Arranged marriage AU? Arranged marriage AU. SO SO LONG, and below the cut.
Before Viktor Nikiforov meets the man who is already, by law, his husband, he sets up some ground rules. Viktor knows how to play a role, knows that success in all things requires a firm hand and plenty of responsibility.
Viktor was an athlete, before he led a corporation whose stockholders feared was growing old, feeble. Outdated. He was an athlete, and he understands what sacrifice and duty can achieve. If the stockholders and his father want him to give up life and love, again, by marrying into and merging with a Japanese corporation who have wonderful resources but anxious, restrained management... heāll do it.
After all, the only man heās interested in wonāt deign to make contact-- hasnāt, not for years, and Viktor knows itās foolish to hold on. It doesnāt stop him from writing rule #3.
1. Each party will participate in weekly ādate night,ā to maintain civility and foster friendship, for the good of the company.
2. Each party will respect each othersā personal space and property; our bedrooms and belongings will be left untouched by the other party.
3. Each party will be allowed one extramarital affair at a time. More would present too much risk of discovery. All partners will be required to sign a non-disclosure agreement. One weekĀ āvacationā per year will be allowed for the sake of this affair.
There are more rules, Viktor will recall when he tells the story later, but these are the three that are his downfall. Viktor prepares for lovelessness, in his marriage.
His wedding to one of the Katsuki conglomerateās heirs was meant to be a public, boisterous event in Russia-- a networking opportunity.
āNo,ā says Katsuki Hiroko.Ā āIf he joins our family, he comes to Hasetsu.ā
Viktor goes, with very little hope in his heart. He still brings his dog-- who has a wedding ceremony without a dog?-- and his rules, the defenses he can manage.
Neither help. Makkachin, the light of his life, sleeps in Yuuriās bedroom the first night. His rules-- his rules are read in a hallway, the door to Yuuriās room barely cracked, Yuuriās amber eyes glazing with an overwhelmed frustration.
He is also, unfortunately, the YuuriĀ that Viktor has been longing for. It should be easy, to take the rules back, to rip them into a hundred pieces, to let them disintegrate into watery swirls of ink in the onsen waters.
Shoulders hunched, Yuuri signs on the dotted line. Right next to the signature a past Viktor had congratulated himself on signing with a flourish. Past Viktor was just as foolish as the one in the present.
When Viktor gets him back into their new apartment in Russia, the rules donāt need onsen waters to disintegrate.
Theyāre demolished in order: rule one works, for a week or two, at least until Viktor and Yuuri begin to edge into two date-nights each week-- three. Four. Viktor has a company to run-- YuuriĀ has a company to run. They should be busy. They shouldnāt have the time, for walks where they donāt hold hands, dinners where they donāt play footsie, movie nights on the couch where Viktor wants so badly to kissĀ but they never do.Ā
āBut itās date night,ā Viktor says, quietly, into the phone on a Tuesday evening, when Yuuri reveals that a coworker has asked him out for a round of drinks. It was date night on Monday, and Sunday. Saturday morning and Saturday afternoon and Saturday evening, too. All Yuuri, all the time, never enough.
Viktor wouldnāt blame his husband, for trying to escape this excess.
āI,ā Yuuri says, and his voice wavers,Ā āViktor, Iām on my way home. Heāll understand. Next time, weāll all go out together.ā
After that, rule number 2 doesnāt stand a chance.
Viktor had already tried to break rule 2, because Viktor was a rebel. Even when Viktor was the one setting his own constraints, Viktor was a rebel. Heād just wanted in Yuuriās room to sit and bask, to figure out why blue was Yuuriās favorite color, swathed in a room of it and all the things Yuuri loved. Pictures of Hasetsu, of his dog. Pictures of--
āIs that me?ā All the lights are off, but Viktor remembers this picture. Graduating with his finance degree, top of his class, memorialized by the newspaper article the picture has been cut from. He remembers graduation-- remembers the graduation party his department had thrown, the man a year younger who had also attended. A man at the top of his own class, but whose first start-up had just gone bankrupt.
āNo,ā Yuuri says, and when Viktor reaches for it,Ā āVitya, please. Vitya, rule 2, Iām invoking rule 2.ā Viktor is wrapped up in Yuuriās sheets. Viktor is wearing their universityās T-shirt, and theyāre both pretending itās the one that belongs to him, even though it smells like Yuuri. Rule 2-- donāt touch each othersā belongings, donāt enter each othersā bedrooms-- is demolished, but Yuuri clings to it, and Viktor...
Viktor fears rule 3.Ā
Theyāre legally married, and in an unspoken way, so much more. But rule 3 still exists, and Yuuri could always choose to use it.Ā
Viktorās salary would make a king weep. He still notices, when several thousand dollars go missing from their ridiculously large bank account. Itās not like Yuuri to be lavish.
But, oh. Tracing the purchase is easy: theyāre plane tickets, from Russia to Barcelona. A stay at a grand hotel, complete with a spa and a pool.
The trip spans exactly one week.
Viktor thinks of rule number 3, and tries not to squeeze Makkachin too tightly, a mimic of his constricting lungs. Thereās bound to be another explanation, he tries futilely to convince himself.
His surly secretary schedules him a week-long business trip with one of their business partners in Kazakhstan-- Katsuki insisted they needed your loud opinions over there, some stupid HR thing. Viktorās husband wants him 6,500 kilometers away, when he invokes Rule #3, under the sparkling lights of Barcelonaās early Christmas celebrations.
6,500 kilometers.
He fires off a text-- wonāt be home tonight, discussion with Yakov-- only for a phone call to come in. Viktor picks up, because heās a smitten fool.
āIf you need to work, just ignore me,ā is Yuuriās soft plea,Ā ābut... itās date night.ā Itās a Wednesday. Viktor goes back to their apartment. Rule 2 and Viktorās heart are shredded, cremated, buried under heated whispers and a thousand of Viktorās doubts.
The tickets to Barcelona remain. So does Viktorās business trip to Kazakhstan. When they cuddle on the couch, Yuuri looks at his phone more often. He begins deleting text messages, taking phone calls in his room, shutting screens on his laptop frantically when Viktor opens the door.
Viktor clings to their arranged marriage, because at least then thereās a possibility of Yuuri coming back. Divorce papers, waiting to strike, peek out from beneath product proposals on the mahogany of Yuuriās desk-- and then, then Viktor doesnāt even have that.
They still celebrate Yuuriās birthday. Katsudon steaming on the table, Makkachin in a miniature tie, a briefcase full of bones for her.
āA true businesswoman,ā Yuuri declares.Ā āThese are the people who stood in her companyās way.ā Viktor laughs, and Viktor cries, and they fall asleep all tangled up in his bed, like Yuuriās not going to spend a week in someone elseās.
On a cold morning in December, Viktor wakes up. Blindly takes the airline e-ticket Yurio had printed for him, AlmatyĀ stamped in unfeeling black letters all over the top. Yuuri is already gone-- his closet half-empty, like heāll be gone for a month. A year. The rest of Viktorās life.
His chauffeur takes him to the airport, starched and fitted business suits and his work laptop all he brings along. The only light is the possibility of Peruvian coffee, waiting for him at the end of security, bitter but familiar. Viktor makes it to check-in, watches his information scroll across the top of the screen--
Yuri Plisetsky, Seat 3A, IATA-->ALA
Viktor blinks. Reads it again. Yurio may have a disruptive personality, even in his early twenties, but his work is always impeccable. How would he even book a flight with his name, not Viktorās, it seems impossi--
āVitya!ā
Viktor feels motion sick, and heās not even airborne yet. Itās one thing to know his husband is flying off to Barcelona for an approved affair. Itās another to have to watch him go.
With a desperation he hopes his shareholders never see, he jams at the screen, waits for Yuri PlisetskyĀ to somehow morph into Viktor Nikiforov. Yuuri finds him anyway, exposed, one hand desperately crushing his passport within the depths of his coat pocket. Please.
Yuuriās hair is slicked back. Heās wearing a suit, grabs at Viktorās lapels and drags him into a quick kiss.
āChange in plans,ā he asserts, somehow still shy,Ā āokay with you?ā
Then Viktor sees Yurio, stalking in Yuuriās wake, dragging three suitcases with him.
āGive me my ticket,ā he demands, screeching their wheels to a stop, hand out.Ā āIām not missing my flight to visit Otabek while you two have a moment at a check-in kiosk.ā
āI--ā Yuuri is pulling tickets out of his pocket, and Viktor canāt find his voice,Ā āYuuri, thereās two tickets?ā
Yuuri taps his nose with them, cheeks flushed.Ā āHow do you feel about Barcelona, Spain?ā
āUs?ā
The hardened, determined glint in Yuuriās eyes is fading, giving way to hesitance.Ā āYes. If you want to go? A trip, just you and me? You never have a vacation, Vitya.ā
Viktor thought he might come back from Kazakhstan to only his beloved dog.
āYes,ā he gasps,Ā āyes, Yuuri, yes, yes--ā and doesnāt stop gasping, even when Yurio rolls a suitcase across his dress shoe. Even when theyāre buckled in to first class, Yuuri gulping at champagne nervously, their fingers interwoven across the arm of their couples chair, Viktor canāt catch his breath.
āI thought itād be a nice surprise,ā Yuuri admits,Ā ābut you look... ahh. Vitya. Please tell me, if this was a bad idea.ā
Viktor leans, buries his face in Yuuriās shoulder.Ā āNo.Ā Itās the best surprise. I thought you were going to divorce me. I thought you were implementing Rule 3. I thought...ā
Yuuri looks crestfallen.Ā āYouāre... youāre still thinking about the endearment contract we signed? You still consider that valid?ā
āI want to burn it,ā Viktor states firmly. And any divorce papers, too.
Yuuri still hasnāt denied that part, and this is suddenly horribly, heartbreakingly evident. Their flight attendant starts to instruct them on what to do in case of an emergency landing. Viktor squeezes his eyes shut, and wishes as hard as he can.
In a cathedral in Barcelona, Yuuri takes his hand.
āI want our last set of contracts null and void,ā he murmurs.Ā āViktor, I want...ā
Viktor wants that, too. Everything.
They divorce in Barcelona, but only so they can marry again.
āWere there any alternate versions of this fic?ā
Yeah actually, the entire OG plot was way different! It was gonna begin the same, but they didnāt become boyfriends until Beijing. Yuuri was gonna be in denial for months about him and Victor, Chris was gonna hit on him in China, he was gonna consider going for it, and then jealousy and meltdowns etc.
But I realized that like...Yuuri would have to be implausibly dumb for this to work and now here we are.
A bit from books or movies Iāve appreciated; a bit from a passion for different cultures, historical periods and folklore; and a bit from in real life eventsNew ask game for writers
Awful First Meeting + Accidentally Saving the Day Yuuri gets drunk and crashes Victorās business meeting accidentally, where heās thoroughly humiliating but also saves Victor from being fired.
send me a ship and a number and iāll write you a (short) fic
34. masquerade ball
āLooking for love?ā Chris wrapped his arms around Viktorāswaist, a soft scratch of glitter where Chrisās mask rubbed against his chin. Themasks had been his parentsā idea, to hide Viktor from his potential suitors,for a moreā¦ real connection. They wanted Viktor to be able to choose the man orwoman he truly wanted, and to not have to worry about their appearance.
Viktor would have done that without the masks, but his parents insisted. So their guests filedin one by one, intricate masks over their face. Some just covered their eyes,some their whole faces. Viktorās covered most of his face, easily hiding thefact that he was the prince in the way that his hair was pinned behind hishead, not allowed to fall into his eyes in the signature style the kingdomknew.
Really, it was allā¦ too much. He already had enough. But hisparents didnāt approve of Chrisās family being good enough for them to marry into, so Viktor had to find someoneelse. Viktor and Chris had, at one point, entertained the idea that someonewould be open to the two of them butā¦ that was looking more and more like alost cause. Viktor just needed to find a husband, and they could remain eachotherās friends. Viktor fiddled with his mask, watching the fall of pale blueglitter from it and sighing. āIām supposed to be.ā
āAm I not enough?ā Chris swooned at his side jokingly, laughingas Viktor immediately reached to catch him. They barely glanced through thecrowd before Viktor pressed a kiss against his friendās lips, knowing the maskswould hide them well enough. Even Viktorās hair didnāt stand out in the crowdof noble men and women. Men and women alike with silver hair surrounded them,it was the one place that they didnāt have to fear how noticeable Viktor was.
No one could tell the man in the peacock-feather mask wasthe prince, or that the man in the purple mask that he was kissing wassomeone who had been deemed multiple times unfit to marry Viktor. No one spareda second glance when Viktor wrapped his arms around Chrisās waist, pullingtheir bodies close together in an uncoordinated version of a stuffy old dance.
The two were flushed, laughing with each other, when he stepped into the ballroom.
