#shes falling

[magnumxhiggins]

JULIET HIGGINS??? IN LOVE??? WITH THOMAS MAGNUM??? MORE LIKELY THAN YOU THINK

[fadeduntilbliss-amia]

Guys Relax...

I’m really trying hard to understand why people are giving Cris a hard time about not knowing how Joana feels right now. Cris has never been in a actual relationship.She’s the party friend who enjoys the company of others with no intent to go further and Joana is the first girl- no the first person that she actually likes. That she’s falling for and also realizing she knows nothing about. They’ve only known each other for a month and in that month Cris struggled internally with her feelings for a girl while watching her friend Lucas be assulted for being himself and living with parents and an older brother who are ignorant and make homophobic comments. Also let’s not forget Joana was going back and forth between Cris and Eloy.Joana already stated she’s an intense person so she prob falls hard and fast. Cris I feel is falling for Joana but she might not be fully at that point where Joana is and that’s okay. Let her go through the feelings at her own pace and it’s easier to be influenced by someone who clearly has been around much longer, ex or not.

Thanks for coming to my Ted Talk

[maxuwunoon]

[chodingjunior]

always in a rush because 24 hours arent enough

[relatablepicsofredaction]

[fadeduntilbliss-amia]

The way Cris looks at Joana:

I ain’t saying she’s in love but...

She’s In Love

[shotgun-shotinthedark]

When you accidentally pause "I'll Make A Man Out Of You" and Mulan is in... Some weird position. Hahahahaha.

[dead-goats]

I have not written anything eloquent in a long time - feel free to pass over - this was for my benefit:

I'm tired. Of constantly trying these things, hoping for these things, and only being shot down. 

I'm exhausted. I'm ready to walk into the sea for a while. Not to hear anyone's voice for a long while. To be separated for a long while. 

They ask me why I keep doing this to myself. I dont know. I never have a good enough answer. I only know that I go back and forth. Swishing around like water in a bucket. Slosh, slosh I go, but careful not to shake me too far, I might spill. And that'd be a terrible mess to clean up. 

There are two entities in me now. One who is fiery, confident, strong, willful. And the other, a pathetic piece of nothingness, wasting away constantly but never being gone away, hindered, longing, an empty shell of dead weight.

I imagine the two as conjoined twins, attached at the hip and always fighting.

I walk around these streets, alone. I wonder if you ever think of me anymore? God knows I still miss you......

What are my intentions these days, I dont know?... I don't really sleep these days either. I just stop existing for a few hours if I'm lucky. I wonder what it's like to not exist anymore. Is it like sleep?

Most days, I want to be someone else. My flaws are eating away at me again. Some times I can numb them out, but nowadays, they keep roaring louder. Everyone here seems perfect. So perfect and wonderful, smart and beautiful, fun and clever. I am the sore, infected, busted up thumb in this city. I wonder how I got so busted up. Did I smash it with a hammer? I don't know anymore. Maybe I did it to myself. Just like the good ole days when you used to control my limbs. 

I'm making new worlds for myself. Fake ones but new. At certain points, it all gets a little blurry and I forget which is my place. I feel that I'm becoming someone else and I'm not quite fond of her. 

She's an idiot. She makes bad decisions, she takes on more than she can chew. She gets taken advantage of. She's a coward. I think I hate her. But she's fun and she makes them laugh and they say they like her better this way. I'm gone. 

What happened to that little rattle in my chest? The one that echoed, "I am, I am, I am"? I had a beat to my own drum. But now I feel like im turning into a sheep. 

Sheep are stupid. Sheep run to their slaughter. Am I running? Is she running? 

I don't know where I'm going. I don't know what I'm doing. And I'm scared.