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dazed n dazzled /+
Me: so… I don’t have my cervixs anymore?
Pop: I think so
Me:…. But … doesn’t the vagina need a lid?
Nana: it’s just to keep babies in
Me: but won’t things just… go through now?
Nana: no
Pop: there’s things to keep your guts from sliding out *medical stuff that wasn’t what I was worried about*
Me, internally: HOW DEEP WILL DICK GO NOW WHATS HAPPENING
What the fuck in the world is tinder and WHYYYY?!
I care how it sounds
Cus I’m aware it’s going to read as conceded, but sometimes I have to remind myself that I’m not here to look pretty. I’m not here to be beautiful, charming, elegant, have pretty teeth, smooth hair, or a decent outfit. I’m here to fucking leave my lil baby imprint and I genuinely think that although it could be fun to look at, it is not a pleasant one to admire for too long. I didn’t do my hair today, I didn’t wear makeup, and I smell kind of close to salt n vinegar chips without having ingested any but ya kno what?? I’m quite alright with it cus I wrote 20 important emails, got 3 freelance photogs their payment, booked 2 models, finalized the concept for a shoot I’m leading this Thursday, AND I ate lunch. :) Feelin’ alright being un-cute
Gettin ignorant with @shawnstoyle Contact hi hat mic going to a pedalboard with #moog #diamondmemorylane and more into 2 15" #musicman speakers all being controlled with an expression pedal #whut #huh #thatsright #shitsweird #ilikeit #quietcountryaudio
but I wanna make it work
So.. no ones following me. Expect my one awesome friend. So I guess no one will ever read this…
Which isn’t a bad thing, considering I am no writer. I have no idea what I’m doing really. Just saying whats on my mind.
I’m at work right now. Bored. Argueing with a friend on facebook. Is that how you spell argueing? Or is it arguing? Not really sure. Lately, I’ve been feeling really depressed. Like I want to kill myself. But then I think, why would I kill myself? There’s nothing wrong with me, or my life. My parents don’t beat me or anything. Sure they slapped me as a kid when I did something wrong, but a lot of parents do that. It’s what their parents did. And I may not be rich, but I’m not poor either. I work to make money, but I don’t have to support my family. I have a few good friends, some better than others. And sure, sometimes I get hurt.. but I’m sure I hurt them sometimes too…
I’m not really sure why I’m so depressed. It’s little things sometimes.. things I don’t think are big.. or important. But I guess they are, to me..
And bad things happen a lot. But they’re not huge bad things.. and there are good things too. Sometimes.
I need to start looking at life differently. I wish I could stop being so lazy.. I try, but then I still am. But I guess I need to continue to try.
I guess that’s what life is though. One big game. A board game! Where you have to try, the best that you can, to do anything you can possibly want, and get to the end. And maybe some things will never be accomplished, or be possible. But as long as I believe that there’s a chance, that I could maybe make things better, then that’s a good first step.
I guess thats it for today. Kinda corny. And a bit dumb. But I just had to say it. Let it spill out from the tips of my fingers. When I say that, I imagine my fingers throwing up words. It’s actually pretty gross.. haha
the things I encounter like seriously