Yah know, sometimes I assk myself how I can feel so numb & don't care about having my dad in my life. Like does that make me messed up? That I just don't care about you? Some say that I just threw you out of my life..but in my opinion, which is really the only one that matters..you put this upon yourself. Do you know how bad it feels to be the forgotten one, you communicate with everyone but me? Wait I would assume you do, because your dad was exactly like you. How could you turn around and be your father towards me, but turns out..I was better off without you. For one, the first three years of my life you were apart of, though I dont remember it, I heard you made bad decisions and were an alcoholic. So my mom left you. You blame her everyday for that, but would you honestly wanna be with someone that was drinking their life away..and having it around your daughter? Nope. Well neither did she. She wanted nothing more than for you to stay in contact with me, so why didn't you. WHY?!!! That's all on you not her. So for the next nine years of my life, you just stayed out of it. You left. Never said a word elsewise. Nothing. No child support. Absolutely nothing. I couldnt have even told you who you were from Adam. Thats sad. I use to waste all my birthday wishes on you, wishing you would be at my next one, did you know that? Regret, I definitely could have used them on something better (; But anyways, when you finally did say to yourself, hey I have another daughter..I was scared of you. I didnt know you. My mom MADE me go out with you and your AWFUL wife. & she talked shit about my mom the whole time? Was that suppose to make me happy? Was that suppose to make me wanna see yall again? NO. So I asked you to take me home. See, my mom MADE me go with you guys, so again this is not her fault. We've fought on and off because you wanted to come back into my life, but me being smart knew it wasnt going to last long. You would go another 6 months without talking to me. Without calling on my birthday, christmas, thanksgiving, easter, never. Did you expect me to be okay with that? You say you didnt have enough money to send me birthday presents..but a card is like 4 dollars? You have enough money to take in three foster kids..when you cant even talk to your own. Your own blood. You know how horrible that made me feel when I found out. Oh & wait this isnt even the worst. YOUU came to Milton to see my sister..I use to live TEN minutes away from there. You came down for a week..never called, never came and saw me, you knew my address, & my phone number. Why? I dont even understand how you can go days without talking to your OWN DAUGHTER. But the reason is, is because I wanted it to be just us, not with your wife. You know, the one that talked shit about my mom when I was like 9..I love my mom and anyone that talks shit about her..can go run in front of a bus. Your wife is also the reason you didnt come to my graduation. A huge milestone in my life. Thanks your so wonderful. You see, you made time to come to my sisters graduation..two years late, & I think it might have even only been her GED, your other two "kids" dropped out because they got pregnant..but you cant come to the one that is actually gonna be successful..& actually got a diploma, on time? WTF, man. See maybe it was a good thing you werent in my life..cause you were in all theirs and they turned out shitty. You came to my sisters wedding..that was in a courthouse. You come down on vaca but never for me. Are you still wondering why I want nothing to do with you? Because I have more. Your step daughters called and cussed me out on christmas, but you said nothing bc "they were defending themselves" when I didnt even do anything to them. I called you father and they got pissed. Do you deserve the dad title? No. I unfortunately just so happen to have your blood & last name. You were never there for me. Not when I was going through a hard dealing with the fact I had epilepsy, though my mom called you..oh wait, you blamed her for me having epilepsy..seriously? Come on now, like she really wanted to me get it. You blamed her for me being short when you are lke 5'9. Will you ever take responsibility in any of your actions. Will you ever know that sorry means nothing coming from you because you dont change. I let you back in time after time a long time ago..but never again yousee? cause I learned my lesson. I learned that you dont really care. I mean I hope you are happy, but I also hope that you know you have a daughter out there that feels nothing towards you. Not hate. Not anger. Not love. Not anything. You really have no sense of what is right and wrong. But you know what? See life has a funny thing of working things out how they are suppose to. Because I have a Uncle Chris that was a dad to me, my mom also played the Dad role pretty well, and played the mom role amazingly. & see you, you wont be a part of my kids life..not at my wedding..not at any other major milestone in my life. You were never there, and I made it just fine. So I dont need you at anything else. & for the rest of the Garrett's you can all go to hell too. Not a single one of you guys ever contacted me. Ever. I hate you all. & I cant wait to get ridddddd of your last name. Even your own stepdad cant stand how you treated me. Way to go.
With nothing,