#sick nommy

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no, no, no no nonononono the

the storm picked up and the thunder just started no

no i'm not dealing with this no no NONONONONO

please

please just leave me be--

i won't disobey any more I'm sorry I'm sorry please just stop--

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-sneaks up behind Van with fangs bared and claws raised- >:3

Muungh?

Ah…

…ah…!

ACHOO!

Mrrrrmmmmnn…

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-awkwardly shuffles in- "Hey Vani, it's been a while. Uhh... How are you feeling?"

Kinna under the weather…

How ‘bout you Venny?  You holdin’ up alright?

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-sneaks in and leaves a cup of hot tea with honey, a small plate of fresh, soft cookies and the latest season of Adventure Time before backflipping out the window-

…mmmgh.

Someone was.  …who was here?

…tea…cookies…

Av’enture Time?  Ain’t’ever watched…

…m’gonna marinate in marathon.  What’a time t’be alive…

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I don't want to go to sleep

I slept for ten years and it was way more than enough

but it hurts

someone please, make this end

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I'm never gonna be fixed

I hide it but it never changes, like

every time I feel pain all I want is more.

it's broken; I'm broken in the head

Kid thinks I've got it together; they all do but they don't know what i don't tell em

i feel like shit but some sick part of me loves it

loves it

god sometimes I just want to die and am so happy thinking about death and i just

wanna take that part of me and rip it out and set it on fire

but i can't cause if I do i wouldn't be me and i

can't ever be anything but me

I hate it

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Im really glad I got to meet all these people

sorta feel like I've been doin more in the past month or so than like the past year or so

so much goin on and I 

I really love it ngl

all the people I've met and

i'm super lucky I can port between worlds like it aint' shit, y'know like, people would kill for that ability, fucking rend worlds apart to get hold of what i've got

but I've met so many new friends and even some people I consider family now too

and lovers and

just a lot of people to love

it's kind of overwhelming but I'm really happy

i get scared tho

like what if something changes, like what if I lose the ability to Corridor or what if the worlds shift and I lose the pathways I know, and just

lose everyone

i can't

no, I can't

I won't

love ain't cheap and my love especially.  even if it's not really like love.  like even if I don't really know what it is, it's my emotions, y'know?  like that shit means something.  emotions are important and I don't give em away to just anyone

I can't lose these people I can't i can't I can't i can't i cant i 

no

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"Hey, you," Aqua said, carrying a blanket and pillow over one shoulder, and a box under her other arm, "Heard you weren't feeling well. Don't object, I'm helping."

Mm…mmmngh?

Wass with’a box.

…m’not object.  Ing.  How’d you.  Wh.  Where’d you come from.

*coughs*