They could never make me hate you
Even though what you was doing was tasteful
Even though you out here looking so ungrateful
I'mma keep it moving, be classy and graceful
I told ‘em it’s no friends in the game
You ain’t learned that yet
All the bridges you came over, don’t burn that yet
You want respect but you earned that yet
Self - righteous, and entitled
But they swearing on the bible that they still love you
When really they are no different from all your rivals
But I still don’t wish death to 'em, I just reflect on 'em
During this summer I kept going on and off with a person. First of all, I consider him a dear friend because there were some personal depressive things that I told him, that I would not have told my friends. There was miscommunication on my part at least about us as “being exclusive”, I thought this whole thing was going somewhere, but tbh, he was confusing me, kept jumping from afraid to being in a relationship and just want you for sex. He was manipulative,persuasive and always made me feel I was in the wrong. I really liked him as friend (he is a genuine and i can feel i can tell him anything)so we decided that’s what we were going to be, but something changed, he changed a lot to a point that I felt like I was hanging out with a stranger. It was hard for me because he began drinking and smoking weed and getting really intoxicating. It hurts so much to see somebody you care for getting like this. It’s not a nice scene, I tried to make him understand that what he was doing was wrong, but he hanged a lot around other girl so I couldn’t get to him. It got to a point where I could not be in the same room as him. My heart would start racing and I would sweat a lot, not only that but I am very impulsive and can’t control my emotions and my eyes would start being teary and itchy. It was that bad that I felt I was having a heart attack, I would always avoid him. It’s so sad knowing that you are supposedly friends but yet that person doesn’t acknowledge you grief and pain. That’s the worst possible feeling and I don’t wish it on anybody else. Please be careful around people!