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I am starting a towel... lace. Lace towel. I DON'T UNDERSTAND THIS PATTERN. IT'S IN A MAGAZINE FROM THE 1980S. I mean. I understand it SOMEWHAT but BUT HOW DO I REPEAT THE FUCKING THINGGGGGGGG. IT SHOWS A SQUARE AND THE INSTRUCTIONS ARE LIKE A COUPLE OF SENTENCES, A PHOTO (THAT IS NOT EXACTLY HELPFUL) AND A PATTERN SQUARE THING WITH DOTS AND AND SQUARES.

And the main issue? I think I didn't chain the correct number of chains for the pattern and I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WHEN I TURN BECAUSE THE PHOTO SHOWS THE TOWEL ON A TABLE AND YOU CAN ONLY SEE ONE SIDE. SCREAMING CRYING AND THROWING UP. The Spanish? Now I get it. The filet isn't meat okay I'd understood that I KNOW I'M DUMB BUT NOT THAT MUCH but when I turn I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M SUPPOSED TO DO AND I WANT TO SURPRISE MY MOTHER WITH THIS TOWEL OKAY. SO I CAVED AND ASKED WHAT THE FILET MEANT AND SHE WAS JUST LIKE 'oh that's just the chains and the talls stitches back and forth to make the lace pattern haha' AND THEN LAUGHED WHICH OKAY I LAUGHED TOO BUT I WAS BECOMING THE JOKER BECAUSE I'M AUTISTIC AND HAVE ADHD OKAY ALL DIAGNOSED TOO YES SHE DIDN'T WANT TO BELIEVE IT AT FIRST BECAUSE IT'S HEREDITARY AND YEAH SHE HAS SOME OF THAT TOO, BUT I GOT IT FROM BOTH SIDES SO YAY ME WOOO AMAZING. jokes aside, I was becoming the joker because of the old terminology and she was joking that it was all that gringo terminology BUT NOT REALLY BECAUSE NOWADAYS PEOPLE DON'T REALLY SAY THIS STUFF LIKE BACK THEN EVEN IN HISPANIC/MEDITERRANEAN/IBERIAN CONTEXTS OKAY? OKAY. so the gringos were not to blame it was the ancestors calling lace meat and me not getting it and google being USELESS.

Now. The foundation chain is 267 chains. TWO HUNDRED AND SIXTY SEVEN CHAINS. The first row is just double crochets. I did that. Then I did the second one. Then comes the third one. IT'S NOT ALIGNING. I DON'T KNOW IF THE PROBLEM IS THAT I CHAINED WRONG OR SIMPLY THAT I DO NOT KNOW WHAT I'M SUPPOSED TO DO. I CAN DO LACE. I CAN. I HAVE MADE DOILIES WITH WACK ASS EDGES I KNOW ALL THE STICHES, I GO THROUGH BACK LOOPS AND I DID MY HOMEWORK. BUT I DO NOT KNOW WHAT THE FUCK I DID WRONG AND I DON'T WANT TO SHOW MY MOTHER, OKAY. IT'S MEANT TO BE A SURPRISE. SHE POINTED THIS TOWEL AND SAID SHE'D MEANT TO MAKE IT BUT NEVER GOT AROUND TO IT. AND NOW I AM IN A TIME CRUNCH BECAUSE I WANT TO GIVE IT TO HER FOR CHRISTMAS AND MY MOTHER IS MY PRIORITY RIGHT NOW LIKE. CHUNKY CROCHET? THAT SHIT CAN BE WHIPPED UP IN A COUPLE OF HOURS. I'M TOOTING MY HORN I DON'T CARE. I STARTED AT THE START OF THE YEAR. AND I WORK FAST AND KEEP MY TENSION CONSISTENT. I STARTED LACE LAST WEEK AND I CAN KEEP THAT SHIT CONSISTENT AS WELL. ALMOST CRIED BECAUSE MY MOTHER VALIDATED SOMETHING I DID FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE ENTHUSIASTICALLY BECAUSE TENSION IS A BIG DEAL. BUT I WANT TO SURPRISE HER BY MAKING THIS RIGHT WITHOUT FURTHER HELP.

At this point, amigxs, I will march up to the old lady who sold me the yarn and show her this magazine and ask for HELP. THE SAGA CONTINUES. I AM ON A RAMPAGE.

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Can't size up, rip. I don't have a 1.5 hook. I have 0.75 and 1.75. Too small and too big. The 1.75 is too big and it's noticeable BUT WE CRACK ON. THE PAIN WILL LEAD TO GAIN.

And like, it says the hook is small and creates thick stitches and stuff but I haven't had that problem that is I have no issues inserting the hook into the stitches and stuff and I CAN keep the tension consistent. The fabric is turning a bit firm but that was expected and like I'm not gonna frog now unless the shop lady says it's not good. She's the master right now like I know my mama would tell me, but I want this to be a surprise so I don't want to show it to her. STEAMING AND BLOCKING WILL WORK. It's not really THAT tight it's just a little wavy here and there on the closed squares PLUS I used 1.25 on nº6 before for a doily and it worked.

Case in point:

Made a different one and it also worked. Then I made one with a 2mm and it also worked so like yeah, the stitches can turn a bit tight but with steaming and blocking it SHOULD be fine. And I think I have a good grasp on tension. Even with the towel I'm making sometimes I pull too little and have to pull back redo the stitch because it's too loose. I don't have limp hands, I just know I'm working with a small hook so I need to be careful and consistend and so far, I think I've done it. TRUST THE PROCESS, DON'T LOSE FOCUS, DEDICATE YOUR HEART!

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>Be me

>Tries jasmine stitch

>Succeeds somewhat, it was tight despite the tension being decent

>Hook breaks

>What now?

>Use different size, smaller

>Too loose

>Life crisis to add to the existing one

>Bigger size

>Too tight, no hope

>Decides to frog, because the fabric was getting too dense anyway

>Yarn breaks, lost material (merino and microfibre blend)

>At least it wasn't that many rows

>Now have a stupid little jasmine stitch thing that looks like grapes

Channeling the latino energy of anger leading to the intense need to talk about inserting things in asses: what am I supposed to do with this now? Shove it in my ASS?

(For reference, the yarn said 6.5-7 and my idiot ass thought that instead of going for 7, sizing down would be fine since I don't have a 6.5. Well. WASN'T THAT WRONG. I'll be using size 7 and using a different stitch since I want to make a scarf and they say this stitch is best for blankets and stuff but well. At least I understood how it works. I AM JUST AN IDIOT. YEAH USE A SMALLER HOOK FOR A PATTERN COMPETING TO BE THE MOST DIFFICULT ACCORDING TO GOOGLE. AND USE IT FOR A SCARF WHEN PEOPLE ARE USING IT FOR BLANKETS. SURELY THAT WILL WORK OUT FINE. It doesn't mean it can't be used for scarves, but the edges would have to be neated in some sort of way, MAYBE TURNED INTO A COWL OR SOMETHING since this doesn't start with a regular chain. IDIOT.)

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Started a new doily no pics yet okay. I'm trying to follow instructions from my mum's 80s magazines. I am struggling. I have had to frog it some five times because I just don't understand the schemes and symbols and referring to the photo helps but I learnt this stuff in English and well. The magazines are in old school tutorial form and also in Spanish. Which I speak yes but I don't understand the abbreviations (thankfully they have a guide at the end for that) and the schemes and the instructions seem alien as shit. Then my mum was laughing because of my wee baby with video tutorials spoon fed how to way I learnt and struggling to understand the hardcore only for the chosen tutorials of ye olde days /joking/. It's just the evolution of things I guess. I mean back then there was no YouTube or shows where someone sat and taught patterns lol and I'm doing it old school style for the first time, and that's how she learnt. She got the basics from my illiterate grandma who couldn't read patterns obviously but she was so sharp that one close look at something was enough for her to learn how to make it. And she came up with her own patterns as she went like. She was a prodigy in her own right and she was never recognised because she never got the opportunity to learn how to read or write. Not only that she was a maths genius it was insane how quickly she calculated things and she only knew the concept of numbers and quantities, not how to write them. Meanwhile I'm horrible at maths lol treading quickly into dangerous mental territory ooop I won't give up. I feel like a moron and a dumbass disappointment but I need to fight that and right now my goal is to do this and prove that I can do it. It sounds stupid but it's yeah it's that way. Small goals.

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Chamomile tea in my little mug with my little Autumn themed crochet cosy yeeee

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The doily adventures continue lol the top isn't wrong, it's just scrunched in and I am too tired mentally to take a different picture just imagine that you pull the scrunched in bit, it looks like the other holes on the same row. I just didn't steam or block or whatever that does. My mum says I should because cotton is safe to iron and steam and she's super turbo expert level. 2mm hook this time because I am experimenting and the roll recommended that so I gave it a go. It worked. I feel like I have some solid grip on tension not to toot my own darn (eh) horn because I think the tension is consistent throughout and this is my third "small hook" project. I wish I had freedom and my own place so that I could fill it with colourful whimsy like this stuff ahhhh the patterns I've been following are all on a wesbite called blueraindrops.com. It's good there just be mindful that you need to be careful of the instructions because sometimes 'sl st into the 3rd chain of frst chain 3 means the first chain you made there not the third one, if that makes sense. But yeah, that's the site. Next level in my adventures is getting my mum's old magazine patterns and trying to follow those lol

(now I am so curious to know what a doily pattern for tiny crochet stuff would look with like chunky yarn for some reason lmao maybe lack of sleep and yeah I have been crochetting tiny stitches while sleep deprived and unable to sleep)

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Another 1.25mm hook doily! Not steamed or anything so yeah, second one I've made and going. I'm on a rampage.

I have uh some socials and it's all here. I mean shit, dawg, I really need help but crochet and crafts make me feel less anxious so yeah

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First ever doily. Done with this little devil but I feel like a full hardcofe mf because I did this in a couple of hours. Yes it takes hours because it's a tiny hook. Again very shocked that I kept the tension consistent. Gangsta shit. The colour is mixed yeah the name of the pattern was a galaxy so it's cool. Cool grandmacore. Patience exercise, also. I'm on a journey and crochet especially small hook crochet is helping