Happy Birthday, Macie Jane!!
Today is not my daughter’s birthday, however it was on August 10th! She turned 1 years old officially and my hormones and traitorous emotions played havok on my heart all day! Saturday, Theron was home and we decided to have a little birthday dinner. We rented a bounce house for the older kids to play in and invited all our friends. Of course, it was last minute and so a lot of them couldn’t make it, but we understood.
Meghan (@littlegingersnaps) was out of town with Hazel and Harrison since it was their Dad’s weekend with them, but we’ll have a small dinner with them when they return. The few of our friends who were able to make it were Newlynn (@simplisticmotherhood), Alice & Schuyler; Andra, Jamie & their son, Kida; Selena (@becoming-us), Isiah, Macey Anne, Ellie, Tobias & Elias. We had tons of food. Mac and Cheese, Corn on the Cob, Lasagne, we even made some pizzas. Macey Anne helped make the kitty cupcakes, which turned out absolutely adorable! Mak (@oopsiemama) was there as well, but she preferred to be the one taking the pictures. She’s in love with my Polaroid camera! LOL
Aside from my sweet baby girl turning a year old, I’m also faced with less than 3 months until I am due to have Sprout. I’m very nervous about being a mother of two and trying to give both of my children my attention. The fears of being a horrible parent are plaguing me as of late, so much so that I am having a difficult time sleeping even when Theron is home, which lately is very rare. He had to leave Sunday afternoon even though it was a requested and approved day off. Thankfully I have such great friends.
The biggest surprise though laid in wait for the late evening on Sunday. A man showed up at my house just before 8:00 PM. Zay and Selena headed over as soon as I texted her telling her what was going on. Turns out.. I have a half-brother. His name is Cash Jones, but goes my CJ. Not only does this man have a similar quippy initial resemblance to my own child’s nickname (MJ), but they also share the same birthday. I don’t know much else about him as it was late and the stress of his surprise visit and finding out that my Father had been unfaithful to my Mother during their marriage (yes, he’s my younger brother of almost 4 years), but my Mother had knowledge of this and never once told me that I had a half-sibling and neither did my Father’s attorney.
Cash is staying at the The Grande Inn here in town, but I plan on having breakfast with him tomorrow morning, Selena has offered to babysit Macie for me, I will talk to him then about doing a DNA test though to be fair.. the resemblance is a little uncanny. We definitely favor our Father, but he has dark brown eyes and brown hair. Whereas I have Blue eyes and Blonde hair like our Dad. I wish he were still alive. I have so many questions that I know in my heart, will never be answered.