#simulation tw

[secretsturgeon]

I’ve noticed that a lot of my hallucinations are “simulation lag” like movement has a trail and sound echos for a long time.

[buhbahbuh]

And then lore and canon events happen <3

[lifeafterpsychiatry]

im so so paranoid that im one of the only real people alive and that everyone else is either an actor/government plant or that everyone else is a program in a simulation designed to trap me. nothing feels real and im afraid to tell anyone because if i do they'll use it against me as proof that i know things im not supposed to know and they'll take me away and drug me and make me disappear. i try to convince myself otherwise but everything i do links back into itself and just convinces me of this more. i dont even want to ask for help because making me better would basically just be forcing me back into ignorance and nothing would be fixed. everyone would still be not real but id just not know it. im so scared to even eat or drink because i know they're probably drugging food and water supplies to keep the people who know things under control, and im scared to take my antidepressants because it could still just be more drugs to sedate me and keep me from knowing and i would just never be able to tell. i cant look people in the eyes because theyll be able to see that i know that nothing is real. i can't be near mirrors or windows because im so terrified there's people watching me from outside. i can't be around my family or friends because they're just means of keeping me pacified and also double as means of catching me revealing i know the truth. im so scared and so alone and i just don't know what to do at all. i know this isn't a normal way to feel and that i should be looking to get help for this but i don't even know if i should believe that or if that's just another means of catching me

I never know how to answer asks which make it clear without a doubt that the person sending them is actively psychotic. Because if they cannot take a doctors or a loved ones word for this being a possible explanation for their experiences, then who am I to think that me saying "that's not real, seek help" on tumblr would do anything for them beyond possibly escalating their paranoia even further? I know that the reality this person is currently experiencing feels incredibly real to them and that their distress is serious and valid. And I don't mean to invalidate that at all! Their reality is not "fake" in the sense that it isn't hurting them in a very real way. But these experiences are also not something which can just be disregarded or safely validated as a spiritual belief. This is a paranoid delusion which is affecting your quality of life and the best course of action would be seeking treatment. In case you can take it from someone who has been there

[no-no-no-ahhhh]

Me:Let me take a nap to shake off my depression!

My nap: have a dream where a boy who only talks in your head is telling you that your stuck in a simulation

[paranoidpdsuggestion]

God the simulation one.. anytime I see people make jokes about it or posts that say "this is a sign that you are in a simulation" throws me in a severe episode of paranoia

It’s horrible, I feel you. I truly wish people would stop making those jokes, it’s not really funny... but you know how non-paranoid people are, anything that seems funny to them they’ll cry and scream if you try and tell their jokes trigger psychotic/paranoid people.

[schizo-cripple]

Common delusion triggers PSA

Just as a heads up; any jokes or memes involving:

Talking about the world like it’s a simulation (yes this includes talking about the matrix)

Telling the reader they’re in a coma

Suggesting the world is a computer program

Suggesting the reader is being watched, stalked or observed

Talking about the world like it’s being run by a secret malicious force (note: this one is pretty much always also antisemitic)

Telling the reader that what they’re reading is a psychic message, or a message from another reality

Talking about people being projections or walk-ins to this reality

Telling the reader they’re dead

Telling the reader they’re in a tv show

etc

is spreading a trigger for a common delusion. These were all off the top of my head, and from joke posts I’ve seen on tumblr. And every single one is a probable trigger for delusions a lot of psychotic people have.

I’m not saying you can’t make these jokes (though personally I’d rather you didn’t). I’m asking, please be mindful of what you’re putting on people’s dashes. Please, try to tag common delusion triggers, or at least be understanding if someone asks you to. You don’t necessarily know which of your followers is psychotic

P.S. If you’re psychotic, feel free to add on. If you aren’t, please don’t say anything ridiculous

[secretsturgeon]

I'm starting to feel like I live in a simulation. I'm double bookkeeping so bad- and the delusion is winning.

[lifeafterpsychiatry]

My psychosis has been getting really bad again, even with "proof" otherwise I do believe that I'm on a matrix or a computer program or controlled by something and I think I'm going to reach out to my psychiatrist but I'm fucking terrified I'm going to get institutionalized again and I ahve so much trauma and I'm afraid they're going to think I'm a danger or crazy,I also have been doing a lot of research over the last year when I wasn't actively psychotic and I think I have paranoid schizophrenia and I want to bring that up and bring up anti-psychotics again but I've had horrible experiences with them and I'm afraid I'm getting poisoned and like I can't trust anyone, I am going to reach out because my girlfriend knows how I'm doing and it's easier to do it when someone I love is hurting from seeing me, I just am terrified of being hospitalized and of anti-psychotics :/, I was forcibly institutionalized from 15-18 and it was horrible

Idk, I guess I would just appreciate some kind words? Maybe some advice on how to bring it up w/o getting hospitalized

They really shouldn't forcibly hospitalize you for psychosis which isn't a danger to anyone. So as long as you make it clear that you're not going to hurt anyone, you should be fine. That being said - this unfortunately isn't always how it goes. So I get that you're afraid. Especially considering your past experiences. But they really, REALLY shouldn't force anything on you if you're not a danger. Especially not when you're actively seeking out help and treatment.