we should write a soap opera
maybe the bad, short relationships are actually the good ones, because when those end, at least they don't hurt so much.
a year to look back and over analyze all the ways i screwed up,and a year to look back on growth, and happiness, learning.
i guess it's what i deserve, and it's great payback for all the crap i've pulled.
i can't use the typical teenage line "He's gonna realize what he's missing out on, but it'll be too late!" because he may realize what he's missing out on, but it's not likely, and if he does, it's not likely that it will be too late. especially because we're best friends. and in reality he's probably gonna find some super beautiful girl who's everything that he loves that i could never be, and in reality i might do the same, just, you know, with a man :P
i can't say i'm not hurt, but i can say i'm not broken. its good to know weve got each other, even in a different way. (sorry kid, has to be said) i still love him, i will for a long time probably. but i think ill cross these odd bridges as they come.
no more river and will for now. now we can dance to single lady's for real. so putchyo hans up!
and i think this whole thing is gonna work out just fine. not much has changed. its gonna be weird not kissing him. i have to get used to not being his girlfriend, but i don't think it will take much, because we wont act so different. therell just be less touching. thats how i expect it anyways. we'll see.
if you like it then you shoulda put a ring on it!
look out ladies. two stud muffins just hit the market :P
