#singlegoldendove

[kensingtonmarketstall]

Wow I don't remember what I said. Sad, gay, sweet

This might have been sent four (4) years ago, I'm not quite sure. I took a break from writing for Queen for a while, but I'm back and hotter than ever. This is sad and it's gay, but I think I missed the mark on sweet. I think I missed the mark pretty wide lol. Bittersweet, maybe. Definitely.

CW for alcohol use and some post-breakup self-flagellation

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It just doesn’t seem fair, Freddie thinks, staring into his glass. The ice is melting, watering down his drink. Also unfair, although he supposes it’s no one’s fault but his own for not drinking it faster.

The volume inside the bar is almost loud enough to keep his thoughts from spiraling, but his penchant for self-pity is nothing if not determined. Maybe it is a bit pathetic to have sequestered himself in a corner of the bar, but it isn’t for lack of trying on Freddie’s part. Roger is out on his Monthly Date Weekend with Dominique, Phoebe has to work, and Peter is god knows where doing god knows what. Fuck Paul.

If he hadn’t broken up with David, he wouldn’t be sitting alone drowning himself in vodka tonics. But then again… if he hadn’t broken up with David, he wouldn’t be sitting alone drowning himself in vodka tonics.

What a genuine nightmare that had been. He’s embarrassed about how that went down, how the semi-public Crash And Burn of it all surely reflects poorly on his inability to maintain any sort of romantic relationship. Everyone who knew about them saw that coming—they said as much to his face. It’s not as reassuring as they might think it is, being told that your relationship is clearly headed for the end and there’s not a damn thing you can do to stop it. In reality, the sheer fact that you are involved has almost certainly sealed its fate.

Freddie brings his glass back up to his mouth, catching an ice chip on this sip of a drink that doesn’t even taste particularly good anymore but that he can’t bring himself to waste. He bites down, focusing hard on the sharp sting of cold against his teeth. It doesn’t feel nice, the deep ache down through his jaw, but at least it feels like something other than sadness.

Fuck it, what is he even sad for? David was a bit of a prick. More than a bit. He had a monstrous personality and even all of Freddie’s sparkling redeemable qualities couldn’t counteract that. He’s better off without David. Plenty of people have told him that too. He doesn’t know if he actually believes it quite yet. How can it be possible that the more favorable outcome is to exist alone rather than be with someone even if they only sort of give a shit about you?

Even watered down, the vodka burns his throat as he swallows and his eyes water. It’s a shitty bottom shelf vodka serving its purpose for the evening. The bartender must not have added enough tonic water.

He’s being uncharitable… David wasn’t all that bad. Not all the time. Freddie wouldn’t have dated him to begin with if he’d been a complete shitbag.

Despite what others may say, he does have some standards and they aren’t that low.

Sometimes, though (like right now), Freddie thinks that the bar was on the ground and David had gotten out a shovel.

At least he was willing to put in the effort to dig. Not everyone is so loyal.

[theclassicsreader]

Hey! I've decided to start a English undergraduate degree. What should I expect from my studies? I'm doing it as a dual degree (a science major is my current degree, so that's all I'm familiar with!) and I don't know what to expect at all!

A lot of reading, I think! 

[royaltyisshe64]

Asking: 8, 11, 20, & 23 ☺️

8. movies or tv shows? Movies, most def.

11. what you have for breakfast on an average day? I am terrible at eating in the morning, lmao. Tea and maybe toast, ideally a croissant if I can get one (which is never where I currently live, ugh).

20. preferred place to write (i.e., in a note book, on your laptop, sketchpad, post-it notes, etc.)? Laptop, usually, but I do have a notebook where I mostly log movies (or Myst stuff). Partly just so I don't forget how to write longhand for lack of practice. 😂

23. strange habits? Oh man. Uh... my movie spreadsheets - a bizarre, unnecessary, obsessive enterprise in which I keep track of various lists of movies I, for some reason, Need To Watch - and my focus on chronological order. I always organized my Dear America books in precise chronological order, for instance. It's a Thing, for whatever reason, lol.

[antifiction]

For the actor ask: Katherine Hepburn

Hey! Thank you for the ask, but it's going to be a little disappointing, because I've seen her in exactly one movie hah. I'll try my best though ❤

How many movies I’ve seen her in: 1... but my friend recommended Long Day's Journey into the Night to me recently, so I'm sure I'll expand my knowledge soon.

How I feel about her acting: From my first encounter with her, I'd rate her acting pretty highly. She has a distinct way of speaking as well as a unique voice and she's simply beautiful to me.

How I feel about her as a person: She seemed somewhat detached from the celebrity culture of Old Hollywood, which is interesting and it had to be tough to keep up. As much as I love Old Hollywood drama, I respect this a lot!

My favorite role she played: Since it's the only thing I've seen her in, it's got to be Amanda in The Glass Menagerie. I really liked it though!

My least favorite role she played: And for that reason there's no answer to this question haha.

[moreofthatqueen]

[somebodytoolove]

Ok, I would get you a scarf like Freddie's zig zag one, books I like, and a Queen record!

oh my!! those are great ideas 🥺🥺 thank you so much, darlin’! 🥰🥰

...the scarf 🥺

based on what I post, what would you get me for Christmas?

[tennesseewillams]

Pink, purple for the colour ask :)

if i weren’t on my computer id put a dozen teary eye emojis.. you know the one

[kensingtonmarketstall]

@singlegoldendove repiled to your post: german grammatical structure is terrifying, y’all how do you do this

I feel your pain. Der die das—get tf out!

nah i’m down the the 12495375 words for “the” but conjunctions? the whole changing the sentence structure following strong conjunctions thing? i’m stressed, i can’t remember how it goes and i need the specific rules lmao. also wo/wohin/woher?? please send help. or financial compensation