“Why are you nondenominational?”
they say it takes a lot of something to form a habit and whatever it is I don’t have it
sometimes I’m late to work on accident sometimes
it’s to remind the universe it cannot bind me
to desk chairs and small thinking,
and I know that’s pretentious.
but most of us are dual-wielding,
like how I went off to university,
first person in my family -
to get my Big Girl Degree and yet
I’m this close to becoming a missionary-
Literally.
Which might be why I keep writing poems about spirituality,
But they’re not metaphors - they’re reality and
These days I care very little about things outside of Christianity,
But my parents don’t believe in anything
Which is why I never tell them nothing,
Which, in retrospect, isn’t very kind of me,
But were all growing
And Christians are supposed to be boring
But I’m still waiting
For the day I start yawning
I’ll tell you,
I secretly think I was made to only ever commit to whole & entire truths which is why I can’t form habits.
They never give you what is due,
Which is all of time,
Running through my fingers like water like
Life, I
Am not interested in getting used
to you
With prayer times and weekly small groups,
Which are not bad
But you can put a Lutheran and a Catholic in the same room
And with all their theology, they’ll argue,
But I just kinda want to sit in truth
Not fling it, like we’re all too used to and
I think that’s enough of a habit for you.
With all my heart and mind too -
I really, really do.
Do you?
