#sleepy ramble

[piercingcomet]

verbal shutdown but it's my thinky thonks and halfway through my internal monologue turns to mush

so i, very frustrated finally grab my aac to type out the rest of my thought only to immediately forget what i was trying to think about

[sinksurance]

Sinclaire living with his lover both being in their 60's or something, sweet slice of life style, does anyone see my vision

[midnightfries]

Killer's tail (and entire self tbf) behaves more cat-like than other sanses which is helpful because most people find cat body language harder to read

[piercingcomet]

i have such a mixed opinion on the mariella (/insane) ending and i think that's mostly just it feeling like a slap in the face as a schizospec viewer

cause i love the game. obsessively and i think it's silly but every time it comes up i get fucking hit with mariella going on about "how lucky she is that she has control over her mind" and how "she knows how what's real and what isn't" and how she's "backflipping all the way to work" and i just get reminded that when i first found the game i actually did understand (or at least not feel suffocated by) the world around me and had somewhat of a consistent control over my mind

idk i just don't have that anymore. and i can laugh at the silly endings im rewatching for the fucking hundreth time or i can think of all the content i now have to skip over so im able to sleep at night

[piercingcomet]

we're only three episodes in but we do like joe's POV so far

im blaming our neurodivergent brain and the fact that i have no idea what's going on (in a very good way)

but we usually spend a century building up to watch a new person cause the idea of being lost/unaware is annoyingly suffocating but this is fine?? which is cool, i like the lobster :3

[asterdawn026]

It's currently 5am rn,

and I have some hot chocolate with me, and our cat curled up besides me

...life is great

[kinacchin]

Right. The app froze and I had to exit out, losing my progress. I think that’s my sign. I didn’t mean to fall so deep into the rabbit hole anyway. CLAMP will always hold a special place in my heart. TRC was my favorite, but I liked everything I could get my hands on of theirs. I’m so out of the loop on the manga side of things.

It feels a little like I shouldn’t call myself an otaku anymore. I read the occasional yaoi manga or series, but it’s been… probably five years since I was really invested in the anime and manga scene. I do miss it. In many ways, anime and manga kept me alive for a number of years. It’s been so long…

I should stop it there for tonight. At least I’m going to bed with a vastly improved mood compared to earlier.

[kinacchin]

Right. Time for bed. For sleeping, this time. No more of that getting back on my phone and scrolling through tumblr until midnight. Come back to it in the morning to wake up and get into the writing mood. (27 days left to finish the Halloween oneshot.)